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November 20th, 2008 @ 1:04am |
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despite what i said before idk how i feel for this guy
one thing im sure were not dating
but we did kiss....
i feel very conflicted on the whole issue and wish i could understand what to do
for now school seems to be wise
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November 19th, 2008 @ 12:48am |
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ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i suck at being a good friend |
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November 18th, 2008 @ 1:24pm |
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i think i need to take a step back and chill out for a little
school should be more important |
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November 17th, 2008 @ 6:57pm |
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so lewis is exactly like me in man form with a little more confidence
he likes doing stuff sper of the moment
he is crazy and ridiculous
he get too attached in relationships
he writes poems about ex's and love
and he says hes hot and sexy but he has a bit of self doubt
he likes twilight
and about every type of music you can think of
(he is a little more educated than me)
he also has two sister
lol
i love this kid
shhhh.....
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poem that rhymes :) |
November 11th, 2008 @ 9:28pm |
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so i wrote a poem cause my friend did and it looked like fun but im not as confindent as to post it on facebook so here goes nothing
Love is just a funny thing
It brings you up
It can make you sing
But when it brings you down
With no sense of how
It will make you frown
Wondering who to give your heart to
Is there someplace to go
Who can hold you
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hate |
November 10th, 2008 @ 2:54pm |
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there are many reasons to dislike someone
they discriminate against you
they say mean things
they don't care about you
they hurt you
they remind you of what you once were
they are a hypocrite
i don't like steven and im trying to figure it out
cause i am not one to judge others
and i usually dont hate people
so here are my theories
he hides himself away from the world and tries to deny it to people
he doesnt like himself and he's not willing to do anything about it
he gets his self confidence from sexual acts
he is so scared of rejection that he will run away from the problem
i know he is hiding some type of pain and i dont understand why he wants to be alone
its just a theory though |
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my new life |
November 8th, 2008 @ 6:20pm |
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well i just deleted everything so here i go again
i want to get to know myself
to figure out where i belong
i want to learn about other people
to know that im not alone
cause as much as i'd like to think im unique
others are probably going through the same thing
i want to trust others
and trust myself
i need to know my past and accept it
to live with my mistakes and take from them
funny i discover all this when i was drunk and acting like a kid
maybe i should just be myself more often then i wouldnt freak out as much when im intoxicated
cause im still that little kid at heart
scared to death
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November 5th, 2008 @ 12:22am |
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I keep running but one of these days im going to realize you can't run from yourself |
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November 3rd, 2008 @ 5:28pm |
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one more way i fucked up my life
i had sex with a boy
one i don't even necessarily like
but i keep trying to fill the void
now i feel more alone than ever
i dont care
but i skewed everything up for my own selfish reasons
because no matter what i do
no matter who says what
i will always feel alone in this world
this world of hurt and pain
some call it uniqueness others just go by
me me i deal with things the only way i know how
by sabotaging every friendship i have
by running away when things get hard
by screaming at the top of my lungs
and by giving up
over and over again
what do you have?? |
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October 27th, 2008 @ 10:53am |
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it's easy for me to pretend im over him
to say that i'm fine
and to focus on other things
but the min. any one brings it about
it kills me
like im being stabbed
so i guess i'll just be that jerk
the one that doesnt care
cause really is it better to hurt him or me
he deals with the pain well
me not so much
its just one of the many secrets i'm keeping
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