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I'm a MOTHA FUCKIN' p i m p |
June 17th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: 50 Cent- In Da Club
Feeling: horrible
hey everyone I know it has been forever & there's no use on *completely* updating you on my life since school got out because thats just a bunch of bull. =] Alrightyy well lets see Wednesdayy Doug left to go with his dad; so I haven't talked to him since then. :-/ oh well.. whatever. I miss him so0o much;;
Today I was supposed to go see Justin Hannel (( my best friend )) but no my dad because an ass and wouldn't let me go.. :-/ which i'm extremely pissed off about;; so yeah I had a pretty bad break down
Thats just how thing work with me.. I become so upset about so much shit & keep it all to myself but than when I finally let it out.. its over soemthing VERy small. :-/ but oh well.. so yeahh.. I have cuts all over my hand from punching my wall =D yeahhh oh well...
anywayy;; besides all that;; I have to baby (( 2 wk. old )) kittens that I have to feed every 3 hrs. all day;; & all through the night;; so there goes my freedom.. but ya know i'm sparing their lives.. & that makes me feel good they are so0o phuckin' adorable!!!! x0x
Hopefully Doug will be home tonight so I can finally talk to him. :-/ you have no idea how hard it is to go to sleep every night without talkin' to him & hearing him tell me that he loves me.. Its like a heart break every time I have to shut my eyes.
Doug starts work on Mondayy;; so this weekend is the last time I'm gonna get to hang out with him until nexX weekend. but OH well.. nothing I can do about it..
July 1- I start work.. which is going to be awesome.. I'm working at Dyberry Day Camp with the Mentally Handicap, Down Syndrom & Handicap kids :) I can't wait.. its going to be funN :)
Yeah well thats about all for now.. So I'll stop blabbing about all this shit that no one probably reads or even gives a FLYING FUCK about.. yeahhh thats about how I feel todayy.. no one cares; no one is here; why should they care; no one knows all the shit I've been through this year; do you care? NO SO FUCK OFF! :( :( :(
and the rain pours so hard out my window
reminding me of the happy times
until the thunder rolls in
I'm reminded of how horrible life truly is |
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Last DayY of ScHo0l |
June 10th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: none *
Feeling: listless
hey all. yeah today is the last day of school; i'm not to sure exactly how i feel about that.. Im so0o happy :) Todayy Jess, Matt, Doug, Kirsten, Nick, Cody, John, Cali & I are going to go (( after school )) to Elegante's for a like quadruple date.. :) yaya its going to be fun..
than i guess we are just going to hang around.. :) which sounds like even more fun.. :) than we might go to the movies if we can find a ride... :) it will really suck if we can't... :-/ I dunno what we are going to do afterwards.. I guess I'l just call my mom & she can take me home.. :) workds for me..
I'm so0o phuckin' tired.. last night I stayed up to Ten wiating for doug to call so than i called him at like 10 and left a message.. than around like 10:30 or 10:45 he finally got home and called me.. but he could only talk till 11 cause he was :-/ tired... (( grr )) whatever I stayed up to tak to you but no0o.. oh well I love him to death.. well the periods almost over..
good bye to all the freshman of 2005 |
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..She's jUstT the FlAvoRr of ThEe WeeK |
June 6th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: none*
Feeling: spiteful
hey everyone.. today is the first day of Finals... :-/ I just got done with my first period final.. so yeah its all good.
oh my gosh, Mr. Morgan is so stupid!!! :( grr... he yelled at me & Doug because Doug hugged me, and told me he loved me than gave me the tiniest kiss on the cheek!! :(
okayy just for an update..
...:* Thursday_- after school; I rode the bus home with Regina & Tom.. and of course the lovely Megan! Me, Regina & Megan talked about sex, and sexual activities all the way to Regina's hehe* it was funN.. felt good to be with a group of girls again. :) Than after we got to Regina's and her mom came & dropped off pizza. we hung out for a while.. and talked.. ate pizza ((of course)) and just hung out. :) Than Doug got home from football.. (( he's started coughing again.. which is NOT a good sign )) and me & him hung out for a little while.. but than he had to go. (( BSA )) & he got pissy, and than we had a little fight kinda thing.. but he said he was sorry.. :) he's such a sweetie. :) well anywayy.. after he & Tom left.. me & Regina & Mommy Cahill went to get headphones from Regina's friend Becca's house.. :) and we kinda saw Regina's boyfriend.. Curtis.. but she refused to sayy hi to him. :) haha* so me & her mom were picking on her... :) good fun.. than me & Regina went into Blockbuster and we kept seeing all these *dirty* movies.. :D lmfao*!! Than we went back to her house and watched a movie.. until the boys got back.. :) than Doug was still appologizing.. :) aww  yeah;; so we just hung out the rest of the night.. ;) than we went to sleep;; around like 12:30 :) after he went into the bathroom he came in my room as kissed my cheek and said " i love you baby" :) awww !!! 
...:* Friday_- well we woke up around 5:30.. because we had to leave.. :) Doug's mommy left, so we took a shower.. & than she was home.. we hung out & ate breakfast & got ready to go and that was about it;; than we got in the car;; and the dayy truly started. Doug & I slept half the wayy there.. than just sat & talked ;) the rest of the time.. :) When we got to Six Flags is was just sprinkling.. but by the time we got into the park it was raining.. It was okayy though.. because we both had a blast.. I never really had been on a roller coaster so Doug was determined to drag me on every single one.. :) gosh i love him! So yeah;; we rode quite a few roller coasters & than we went out to the car to eat.. than when we came back we rode the rest of them.. and saw these HUGE turtles..  we had the time of our lives.. :) I dont think the day could have gone n e better.. :) than we left the park after it closed probably around 9 or so..:) than when we all got to the car we had to change.. which was interesting.. than we stopped at the WAWA and ate foods.. in the car.. than we got home and passed out.. :)
...:* Saturday_- woke up at Doug's house than just layed around for quite a while.. than went home around 3 and just did Algebra notes the rest of the night
...:* Sunday_- went to church.. than came home, helped Malinda clean part of her closet.. than came back to my house & did nothing.. than at like 8 I asked mommyy to take me to get ice cream so she did.. but Rileyville wasn't open so we went all the way to HOnesdale to get Ice Cream.. & so we picked Doug up s0o we could see each other.. which was very nice.. than me & doug got locked out of his house.. than I left than came home..
..:* Today_- finals, regular classes, & more finals.. nothin' else planned
   
...:* another Great Weekend That Has Come to A Close.. & summer is Just Around The Corner
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RockStArr babYy So0o KilL me :) |
June 1st, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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 You scored as Punk Rockstar. Your a Punk Rockstar! Your crazy about spiked and colored hair. You love to use black eyeliner to outline your eyes and you are the biggest punk!Punk Rockstar 70%Rock and Roll RockStar 60%Metal Rockstar 50%Emo Rockstar 50%Goth Rockstar 30%What kind of Rockstar are you?created with QuizFarm.com |
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