Its 2.26am... and i'm drinking gin and tonic, from a teapot.
so it's winter now and i finally have some skiing to do to pass the time. I ventured up to hutt a couple of weeks ago, they had signs everywhere warning people not to venture off the marked tracks, something about dangerous ice. I was going to drive myself down to twizel and stay at the house there for a couple of days by myself and hit up ohau and dobson this weekend and get some quality time to myself, but things so rarely turn out the way you want them to.

We're hitting up Lyford on saturday instead. Perkins and some deans fellow.

I live for it. So fuck those of you who said i live for nothing, do nothing, am nothing. I havent forgotten that Si.

My supervisor has scheduled a 9.30am meeting for friday morning, apparently my internship is finally going to get sorted, i've only been waiting five months. The thing is, with uni this year there have been periods of intense apathy on my part, followed by periods of frantic activity as my deadlines draw closer. There's no sense of flow, stumbing from one assignment to the next. Masters is going to be interesting, surely. I don't quite understand what the point in an honours degree is, its a bit of a mix n match between batchelors and masters, and some departments don't even offer it. So wtf am I doing it for?

I've just put the finishing touches on my five page bibliography (single spaced, 12pt Calibri). I wash my hands of this essay. MS Word 2007 is out to get me.
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yea, well... i'm guna write in here too just to be confusing. It's been an awfully long time now, I would claim that i don't really have the time to write much anymore, but that would be a horrible lie. Sure, I have lots of work to do ALL THE TIME but I also have lots of down time where nothing productive happens. Whatever, get over it.

So i say on the other page that I live ina nice new flat.... which is partially true. It was nice when we moved in, but most of my flatmates are pretty damned slack when it comes to cleaning (ie: all but two of them), so it's not quite so nice all the time now. Also, we broke the vacuum cleaner which doesn't help much.

Currently I have my eye on the weather, as it's steadily getting colder (hurrah!), I'm hoping this year will bear plenty of (non-icy) snow. I have an insurance policy on my season pass but really it'd just be a pain in the arse to get it refunded.

I have a lot of work to do... but its just not happening right now.
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*ouch
Feeling: hungover
*ouch... i'v never experienced a hangover before. Iv never really drunk enough at one time before to qualify for one.... and its fucking horrible. How the hell do people put up with them all the time?? My mouth tastes like iv eaten an ashtray... or worse.
Still, i seem to like people better when im 'drunk', or at least tipsy. They seem less stupid and irritating.
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christ I want to go skiing so badly! I don't even know if there's snow on the mountains coz i live in town now and i cant see the mountains. grr. *mental note: go drive somewhere tomorrow and look at mountains*
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Procrastination - distractions - exchange - English teachers
Just reading through my old entries instead of doing my research project, or my literary review, or my several essays... as a matter of fact. Procrastination is is terrible habit yet not one that can be easily broken. I generally rest on the knowledge that I will finally settle down and do some work once things start getting tight - which is terrible of me really, but hey I've gotten this far.

Speaking of dis tractability today I was sidetracked by the prospect of the NCRE semester exchange program with Ludwig-Maximillians University in Munich. I've decided that I am going - assuming that I can get my hands on the scholarship/financial assistance they offer. Fingers crossed eh. I got talking to this German dude Philip in one of my lectures who's on an exchange from... somewhere in Germany... and he seemed fairly pleased with the experience of studying overseas.

Also I'm going to start tutoring my brother and generally help him out with his yr13 English class - for a modest fee - which should work out alright so long as there isn't too much literature interpretation(honestly I'll bet writers never ever think of half the crap that English teachers do.


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Beer Olympics
Listening to: Bliss - Muse
I don't know about you, but my title seems fairly self-explanatory to me. If not then I'm sure all you twisted fucks will think of SOmething not too far off the mark. Anyway during this weekend I trekked up a mountain in Arthur's Pass with a bunch of people from the uni snowsports club....

There's no snow anywhere at the moment of course and the mountains all look pretty bleak and uninteresting unless you love rocks.... lots and lots of rocks (you geology students are freaks), oh and moss too. So after a bit of lunch and maintenance work everybody got stuck into their booze and relaxed.
Funny thing though... just about everybody there (thirty-five or so people) were first years, which i hadn't realized at first. I was walking with them thinking "damn these people look young" and "wait what? How the hell can this person be so naiive about uni?!".

First year students + Freedom from school/parents etc + vast quantities of alcohol = riotous consequences
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Free Trade or whatever
Feeling: coy
Awhile back now I saw a play/production thingamajigg about international coffee trade and how hideously poor coffee farmers in South America are and whatnot. Of course the whole show was presented in a way to make some light of the situation and make it entertaining - and personally having a stunningly attractive South American (or spanish?) woman in the show was entertaining enough for me. But after seeing the show and doing a wee bit of research i find myself a supporter of the whole Fair Trade coffee scheme; good news considering all UCSA cafes at university are now supplied by a Fair Trade company and are thus now all slightly more expensive.

Speaking of university I've spent much of the past few days wandering around campus looking for classes which had been rescheduled and/or relocated. It appears that the coordinators in my department have a predilection for changing class details without notifying anyone, even the lecturer herself in one case. Myself I find it odd that my EURO lectures are scattered around campus in a seemingly random (if not sadistic and cruel) fashion, I would have thought that they would be located mostly in one building or section of campus for easy and relaxed transition between classes but noooo no no no no that would be FAR too easy. It's nuts.

So far two of my classes are being delivered in thick eastern european accents, which kick ass! Hearing post WWII european and soviet history seems so much more worthwhile with the appropriate accent.

[Deep slavic accent] "Today we will be looking at history of GLORIOUS Soviet Union" tehehehehehehe

I signed myself up for CUTC (tramping) and Canterbury Snowsports at clubs day Tuesday in anticipation of getting more involved with things and generally having a good time. Skiing especially because its impossible to get better at it unless I go up fairly regularly which I've not had the opportunity to do before b/coz of school/work/family blah blah blah. So hopefully this year will be different coz I've got myself a suitable car AND like-minded people to go with.

Um, so yeah. I managed to more or less miss everything that happened during orientation. Not that i didn't WANT to go, more because of moniessss, my lack of. But no worries, there's plenty of free entertainment that can be found.... somewhere.
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Lectures have started. I seem to be getting on reasonably well with my parents. I have money/ food in my belly. Job interview tomorrow. Clubs day soon?

Everything's alright.

Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries far behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me
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Some just can't help it
Feeling: alienated
Honestly, I fear judgment and rejection by my peers the most. Sometimes i want to tear my chest open and let everyone see me.

But that fear is always going to be there.


And it feeds on my innards.
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town
Feeling: fabulous
Strategies for getting drunk.

One, pour gin into glass; two, drink gin; three, repeat 15 times.

hah i dont think ive ever written a drunken entry on here before until now anyways. I went to town earlier and hooked up with some random group of people in mickey finns and played pool for a bit. A short red haired girl bought me a beer which was pretty sweet but she creeped me out just a little by pretty much attaching herself to me. but i scored a glowstick so yeah! I wandered away after losing at pool and moseyed about for awhile and eventually caught a taxi home which brings me to now. Now i think i'll hit the hay.

so long!


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Its 2.26am... and i'm...
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*ouch
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Procrastination -...
Beer Olympics
Free Trade or whatever
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Some just can't help it
town
Late one evening
Resolve
Life
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Basic Instructions
Manifestations of a General...
Butterflies and Hurricanes
Northern Holiday
les miserable
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Tom - Hermit
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No more buttered scones for...
Something on your mind?
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Fetishes
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small changes
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funeral mass
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Important
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Quote Unquote
Kiss me for a free disease.
Jacks lament
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Adrift in an Ocean of...
You Blithering Idiots
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A Working Holiday
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i need my fix
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GROUP HUG!!
Its just a jump... to the left
*gasp
Megalomania
Monday
Fantasm
In Memorium
Endtime pt.2
Endtime
boiiiing
Dudwick-Neville-Sandwich goes...
Boobly-boo
I Stalk the Ground.
Terrific isolation
Always sit at least 100 yards...
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Saturday
Im Your Depression
Lets go together
Mad World
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Tom is Dead
blahwateva
P is for Pineapple
Believe
Painted Leaves
work time hard
statistics
Consolidation
Winter - continues
Winter.
Work in progress
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contacts
hmmmmm
Hesitation
Tea & Sympathy
test
Dance with me
acc
ur weird... stop emailing me!
pajama party
30th
lazy sunday
Attack of the Friday
27th
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In the Sunshine
Love
Let me eat cake
22nd
TGIF
Mr. Enthusiasm
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Happy Valentines!
Saturday
*sigh
Evil robots
Mt. Thomas
Blah
arrgh
Hard Labour
Significant other
Days
Events
gathering
Procrastination
WOF
I'v sold my soul for minimum...
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