igby goes down
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life and death
Listening to: jenny
Feeling: paranoid
Its weird to think that as someone was dying, another was learning to live.
That as my papa was lowered into the ground, Amanda's baby was just at 3 weeks old.
I know its really weird but exciting.
My cousin Amanda and her Husband Shane are going to have a baby!!!! She's six weeks right now but that doesn't matter because it is so freaking cool!!!!!oOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoO
I played Mafia last night for HOURS
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oh my
Feeling: sane
so I'm leaving for Ohio tomorrow morning for my papaw's funeral. hes buried, like, right next to my dad...
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Mercury Faggot
Listening to: Death cab - lack of color
Feeling: shy
So yesterday was totally weird
I went to school got to 5th bla bla went to lunch.
Thats where the "fun" started.
Here is a detailed account of what "fun" involver:
-Sitting down to lunch to eat my ice cream.
-Having Sam point out to me that all the doors were closing.
-Freaking out cause I had to pee like a mofo
-Hearing rumors that there was a "spill"
-Hearing rumors that it was a chemical spill
-Hearing rumors that it was a mercury spill
-hearing rumors that we were in level 1 lockdown
-having to pee freakin bad
-realizing lunch ends at 1:15 and the time was 1:45
-wondering if we get to miss all of 6th
-realizing we were going to miss all of 6th... and 7th
-HAVING THEM TELL US WE MIGHT BE THERE UNTIL 6 OR 7!
-Played Hangman with Mandy till we ran out of paper (didn't prepare to be locked in the lunchroom for 4 hours, stupid me)
-Played "A my name is Ashley my husbands name is arnold we live in Alabama and we sell apples" 50 thousand times
-Played "I'm going to Italy and bringing ..."
500 times
-tried to use my cell phone, it didn't work
-tried to use maddies cell phone, it didnt work
-tried to use Sam's cell phone, it didnt work... etc
-no ones cell phones were working
-Were told we would be dismissed table by table then checked for Mercury
-My table started making silly faces at Mr. Dyk untill he picked us (score)
-by then its 4:30 and we are supposed to get out of school by 3:10
-we stand in line for 15 minutes waiting to be checked
-checked, mercury free is the way to be
-have to go to the restrooms behing the stadium(eww)
-sit in the stadium till 5:13
- at 5:13 they announce people with rides home can leave
-I couldn't find my brother so I ask mandy for a ride
-I steal maddies phone and keep pressing call until I get my mom and tell her I'm going to Mandy's
-at 5:30 we get to Mandy's
-hang out whoo hoo
I go home at 8 and find out there are still kids locked in the school. g wing poor little kids
-at 10, on the news they tell us no school today.
-so I just woke up and I don't have to go to school muthaf*****!!!!!!!

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I'm feeling a little disant...
Listening to: rooney _ i'm shakin
Feeling: distant
So hello
got my wisdom teeth out last week.
theres no school tomorrow
I ahve holes in the back of my mouth
Bobby is in love with me
Mandy has band
meghn has school
books rock
music rocks
i'm missing everafter
and have you noticed that as i type i stop using capital letters? is that weird?
do i need to relearn the caps button?
woohoo long weekend with tons of home work
i dont look forward to this
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{(one hundred twenty-one)}
Feeling: passive
can everybody please shut the fuck up?
i'm sick of this
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{(one hundred twenty)} Am I?
Feeling: torn
Am I forgotten?
Do you remember that one time with the blackberries or was I even there?
Why am I the only one to hear me?
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{(one hundred nineteen)} wowowowowowowowow
Listening to: Fall out boy
Feeling: alright
sooo soo long
I need to write this somewhere though.
I went on this church trip to South Padre Island, Texas and now everythings different.
One I met this guy named Davis who i thought I liked but was an asshole when I was upset so I don't like him anymore (the story is bigger and more complicated but its weird to think about it)
My oldest brother James got diagnosed with Chronic Leukimia (which is way better then acute Leukimia, hes going to live) and from the day I got back I spent practically all my time with Meghan and Mandy and at the hospital. and I only cried once.
I feel different now, freshman orientation is on August first and I'm in group G in the R wing.
But things are different in another way.
Meghan says I'm a cynic and Mandy says I'm a realist and its all on love and relationships.
But all I think is that at least I have standards, god.

I want someone extraordinary and to hell with everybody else. and of course everyone has views on that too. all that jazz about a perfect guy would get boring and lalala.
Did I day he needed to be perfect???????
I don't some piece of shit guy whose imperfections will start showing as soon as the fun-new-boyfriend phase is over.
I need someone whose flaws are right on surface from beginning to end. so shut up davis. mr. perfect. your flaws are unfixable.


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glad I said that :)
Zac rocks my freaking socks
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Entry List
{(thirty-eight)} new song
igby goes down
life and death
oh my
Mercury Faggot
I'm feeling a little disant...
{(one hundred twenty-one)}
{(one hundred twenty)} Am I?
{(one hundred nineteen)}...
{(one hundred eight teen)}...
{(one hundred seventeen)}...
{(one hundred sixteen)} Jeff
{(one hundred fifteen)} sex
{(one hundred fourteen)} Jade...
{(one hundred thirteen)} Derek
{(one hundred twelve)} an...
{(one hundred eleven)}
{(one hundred ten)} My...
{(one hundred nine)} Victory
{(one hundred eight)} My...
{(one hundred six)} this life
{(one hundred seven)} one...
{(one hundred five)} waiting
{(one hundred four)} basket...
{(one hundred three)} These...
{(one hundred two)} milk
{one hundred one)} sheesh
{(one-hundred)}
{(ninety-nine)} What does she...
{(ninety-eight)} This...
{(ninety-seven)} How did this...
{(ninety-six)} once upon a...
{(ninety-five)} its coming
{(ninety-four)}
{(ninety-three)} Suprise!
{(ninety-two)} fine, just...
{(ninety-one)} This is not...
{(ninety)} Its all over
{(eighty-nine)} Sara the hoe
{(eighty-eight)} UK!not...
{(eighty-seven)} When the...
{(eighty-six)} Report Card...
{(eighty-five)} Screw it
{(eighty-four)} School again
{(eighty-three)} Down in the...
{(eighty-two)} Big Bang
{(seventy-nine)} Oh wow
{(eighty)} Stereotype
{(eighty-one)} Crazy sincere
{(seventy-eight)} empty
{(seventy-seven)} 4th day
{(seventy-six)} Spit happens
{(seventy-five)} Look what...
{(seventy-four)} Cold hard...
{(seventy-three)} Lets play...
{(seventy-two)} Panic Attack
{(seventy-one)} Alcohol
{(seventy)} School sucks
{(sixty-nine)} I'd like one...
{(sixty-eight)} Grounded......
{(sixty-seven)} Freaking out
{(sixty-six)} Valentines day
{(sixty-five)} pain...
{(sixty-four)} Morning
{(sixty-three)} Hmm
{(sixty-two)} Did I...
{(sixty-one)} Superstitious
{(sixty)} if you cant tell,...
{(fifty-nine)} I can almost...
{(fifty-eight)} Macy Rox
{(fifty-seven)} Good morning...
{(fifty-six)} another game...
{(fifty-five)}& the Clue...
{(fifty-four)} And she was...
{(fifty-three)} My hands are...
{(fifty-two)} +the...
fifty-one
{(the big 5-0)}
{(forty-nine)} its almost...
{(forty-eight)} Thanksgiving
{(forty-seven)} the count...
{[forty-six}] Happiness
{[forty-five]} The real ER...
{(forty-three)} okay or maybe
{(forty-four)} just so you...
{(forty-two)} everything I...
{(forty-one)} wish it was...
{(forty)} just feeling it...
{(thirty-nine)} Could you...
{(thirty-seven)} John
{(thirty-six)} this week
{(thirty-five)} total shock
{(thirty-four)} Anywhere but...
{(thirty-three)} Church...
{(thirty-one)} No Idea whats...
{(thirty-two)} Scared
{(twenty-nine)} Heartsick
{(twenty-eight)}Night
{(twenty-seven)} Mud Facials,...
{(thirty)} If you haven't...
{(twenty-six)} oh my gosh no
{(twenty-five)} All aloney on...
{(twenty-four)} Testimony?
{(twenty-two)} Meghan and me
{(twenty-three)} quiz
{(twenty-one)}Somehow...you...
{(twenty)}...
{(ninteen)} Cody...
{(eighteen)} Can you handle...
{(seventeen)}whatever
{(sixteen)} funny how things...
{(fifteen)} Happyosity
{(fourteen)} Oklahoma
{(thirteen)} _-_strange_-_
{(eleven)} Ale-8-1
{(twelve)} My first kiss in...
{(eight)} Tragic
{(seven)} Help please!
{(nine)} The Passion
{(ten)} I hate being a girl
{(six)} Everything
{(five)} gorsh!
{(four)} Trickster
{(three)}jody
{(two)}Shopping with mom
{(one)} snowday and Jody
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