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March 13th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
so things are crap again. noticing a pattern. i dont need this thing unless something bad happens.
i should've known from the way things started out. so i got with this girl at a party, and then we started seeing each other.
i just got really jealous and paranoid. and i screwed things up. and its over now.
i think im doing pretty well. feeling like an idiot, embarassed...sense of loss...
normal? |
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i got lucky |
January 11th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: foo fighters-overdrive
Feeling: good
so the party was good. |
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its come and gone. |
January 5th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: my chemical romance-im not okay
i havent been on for a while. making the best of winter vacation...
nothing much has happened either. jason and trish broke up. he wont tell me what actually happened, but its not really my business. he's been really miserable because of it. not many people aren't i guess.
this song is very appropriate.
ummmm...theres a b'day party on friday night, looking forward to not remembering it, hopefully i'll see the usual party go-ers...
perhaps i will post details...perhaps not.... |
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vultures circle round |
December 14th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
well thats just me, when we all went fishing. it was such a cold, crappy day. i dont really like this photo. i dont think it looks like me...or i dont want it to...or something. i only put it on because i like reading other people's diaries with pictures.
so i went back to school and i didnt really see any of the kelly's....maybe they're bored with me. maybe its over.
being kissed in the library by some easy chick was like a dream until it actually happened, you know? i'd rather be the one to kiss a nice girl...in...not the library.
so i really hope its over. but im a bit over it to, like before i was in like a state of shock or something, but after my recuperation day im over it, like i was being a bit neurotic...however you spell it. |
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more happiness... |
December 12th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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well i recieved some more pictures from jason. im pretty sure he or bianca took them when we all used to hang out and stuff...
but i only have two, so to make it last, i'll do them one at a time. this is another one with bianca, but when she dyed her hair pink/reddish...and i think its at her house too...
*deja vu*
i didnt go to school today. im sick of those "bambi bitches" laughing all the time, i just cant take it. im too sensitive. i really need to...you know...not be so sensitive.
i guess i just need a day to myself so i can get my head together and stuff...
its nice that people send me all those supportive comments, it really helps...
thanks... |
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i guess it wasnt all bad. |
December 10th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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i was actually on msn the other day and jason said he was going through all these photos he had taken with his camera, like almost a year ago now. and he sent me this one, which was quite nice. its me and my ex down at this pizza place...
we look happy, which is funny, because i dont really remember it. i dont associate happiness with bianca at all.
nothing else has happened since kelly kissed me...her and her friends just laugh everytime i walk past, which is sort of embarrassing.
just something else to add to the pile.
im such a loser. |
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im being used! |
December 6th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
i feel like such a whore, lol. i really do, i feel cheap and used. i never thought i'd feel like this. im such a pansy. but i like girls. i didnt think it would be so easy, all i had to do was NOTHING.
so i was in the library at school, in the non fiction section trying to find this stupid book my history teacher advised that i read, when this chick kelly (mentioned previously) came up behind me and put her hands over my eyes, and did that whole guess who thing. i said brody dalle and she let go, i turned around, but i was still really close to her. she kissed me before i even knew it. it was rediculous.
she laughed and ran out. i told jason, who is sort of in with that crowd (his girlfriend trish hangs out in the same group)and he said that they heard my name mentioned a couple of times. they think im a geek, but they also think im cute. anyway, kelly is just getting her kicks or something.
im not gonna let it go to my head.
fuck, i wonder if bianca has heard. |
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nice guys finish last |
December 5th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
hrmmmm...the last few weeks have been weird.
im getting alot of attention from girls who havent really been that interested in me...ever, really. in any aspect of life that is.
this chick kelly, who is sort of like...the town bike (everyone's been for a ride)(thats what someone told me anyway, i dont really know, or care) has been coming up to me during my study period and flirting with me, like totally over the top.
her and all her friends wave to me and yell stuff out to me.
i dont know whether or not its a joke. because i've never been on that sort of scene before.
i dont know whether to be embarrassed or flattered.
who knows. they confuse the hell out of me. |
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thanks |
November 30th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
not much has happened lately. i havent been on in ages.
thanks giving was very low key for us, as usual. i guess its been that way for a while. its just an excuse to eat all the junk we want i guess. although, its not like we aren't greatful for everything, we are. my mom always says my dad was into "that sort of thing", so we don't do much.
jason had all his relatives over, so i didnt go round there, which i do almost every day, which is funny. although, i havent been round there as much lately, i feel like a third wheel when trish is around.
i hope y'all had a good one... |
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comeback kid |
November 16th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
i have nothing to say really.
im a bit bored. and a bit boring. i have nothing to rant about, nothing to be angry at.
i've had plenty of bad times, and done plenty of stupid things. just ask me about them, im an idiot!
so i guess its time for things to level off. because there's always something, and something will come up again, but for now, i can relax.
no dramas.
okay...cool. |
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