whew i havent upsated in a while i definately will start updating more!! well me and Ryan decided not to go out because we would never see each other but we might get together when one of us can drive...molly was going out with paul but she brok up with him becuase she likes bryan...:( yes bryan as in my ex.....i told her i didnt have feelings for him anymore..but of course i kinda do..but it doesnt matter i probly wouldnt ever go back out with him again so...tonight is the dance at st. agnes im leaving practice early so we can go pick up molly...i hope my mom doesnt bitch at me like she did this morning..it was so bad i went to school and went into the bathroom and cried..it was bad and my teachers like knew something was wrong beacuse there like sam are you ok? it was bad
but devin told me he was gunna ask me out tonight..i was like oh ok? it was funny well i g2g the friggin bells gunna riing..i have Lentz next oh great! i just want school to end so i can go to practice then go get molly then just go to the dance and have fun...well im out bye!
hmm...i havent written in this in a friggin long time!! haha well paul knows i like him now..idk he acts like he likes molly and molly acts like shes mad that i like him so idk...oh well ryan miller likes me i guess...i havent met him in person..but he goes to wyloo..he might go to the movies tonight so...i cant wait til xmas..on tuesday the 27th there is a basketball tourney and josh wilbur(ooo hotness) is playing in it and we are all going to watchhim ...and me and brook and guinna be rocking in new clothes..and me with my ipod(hopefully) im so excited its gunna be awesome..well im gunna go so bored!
alright well...duh of course i still miss bryan..alot but..im dealing with it but one of like my bestest buddies in the whole wide world, paul hugo...i think i like him...he is so awesome though i talk to him on that phone all the time..he goes to wyalusing and we always say love you love you too(even when i was w. bryan we did...)and he'll b elike sam do you still love me? and ill be like oh yes.. your pastramilicious...lol its so funny..an dhe calls me saminator..i call him paulinator...idk..im falling for him though...i spent the weekend with my bestest friend Molly Loo Hoo a.k.a Molly Ross it was soooo much fun...we talking to ryan miller and paul on the phone..and the night before i was talking to paul on the phone an dhe's like i havent kissed anyone yet and i was like seriously ?! and hes like shut up..and then at mollys hes like i got my first kiss today from Kami(shes a slut) and me an dmolly were lik uh! we wanted to give you ur first kiss!:P and hes like well im going out with her...then like the whole night i was just thinking about it..i was in deep thought..so was molly..about her jeff...i love her..hopefully we hang next weekend her dogg yis a little brat...molly has a bruise because she like attacked us...and i rode a sled between two trees(close call) and into prickers!! there were sooo many awesome things..but i cant name them all!! well im gunna go watch survivor!!
Molly Loo is a hot sexii babe!
Paul Hugo is sooo pasramilicious!
well bryan broke up with me because people are spreading rumors at his school that i still cut and i was a skurf and all this so i was like whatever...i was really upset at first...but then i talked to anna and molly..and...they helped soooo omuch they are sweethearts....the thing that helped me the most was listeing to the chanukah songs by adam sandler...but what i noticed throughout this relationship with bryan is that i compare everyone with matt...and im thinking matt wouldve called me or matt wouldve dont this matt wouldnt of done that...and the number one thing i think of it matt was the only one that didnt judge me and stayed with me even though i did cut...and the reason bryan broke up with me was because i thought i did..then i realized how much i really miss matt...and he could have been "the one" ya know? because we understood each other...we were...idk we were "matt and sam" and i miss it.. and it makes me mad that he doesnt even want to come back to visit us..its like..now that he lives in HAWAII he is too good for us t-town people ...and it makes me soooo mad because he only called me when it was my bday..im wondering if he's gunna call for xmas...because i really do still love him..and like i said, i ALWAYS will...but yea im sure he's moved on...and i have too for the most part..and thats what we need to do but i dont want to like...never talk to or see him again...i still want to be friends..but idk...we'll see
no school today...partly good pertly bad....i wanted school so we could have are dance that way i could see bryan and hang w/ molly...but now we dont so i have to see if bryan and molly wanna come up here later and f'n play out side...so f'n good...we might all go to brooks like last year...but im not sure yet!! i hope...i called bryan last night but there wasa no answer so i left the pimpest message..lol hopefully he calls back:P well i g2g eat somethin leave em sweet!
well right now im talking to travis E....and he really likes brook and she told him earlier that she doesnt want to talk to him anymore and al this stuff and he is kinda/really upset....so im trying to make him feel better....i feel bad b.c he really is one of my best buds...so idk...but we have a dance on friday...HOPEFULLY Bryan will come to it..i havent seen him since the last football game..an dbrook hasnt seen tyler since then..so we are all getting together to chill..i really miss bryan alot....he is such a sweetheart i love him..i might even see him on wednesday because if he goes to church w/ ty and i go w/ meredith...then we will be together for like 3 hours...lmao church..i migh tbe able to have him over xmas eve or the day afte rxmas then i might even go meet his parents...i hope so saturday is our one month..YAY
well its thursday..i think tommorow im going to the movies w/ the crew and bryan is probly coming down..but he is going to open gym til 5 so..i think he'll come..but we have to prank brook and tyler because they have got us so bad!!! ive gotten tyler..but never brook..me bryan tyler and brook...we're the prankster family :P but then saturday if hes allowed bryan will come to the mall with me and maybe brook and tyler and my sister is buying me a dress for winter formal....there is gunna be a party on the...well a date for someone and its something but i cant say anything else because someone who goes to my school could read this and tell people and it would be totally ruined so im not saying any more :x lol well im gunna go...waititng to talk to my huni
well i went hunting today and will tommorow...my uncle shot theback feet right off a deer and like exploded its spine..it was crazy...its wierd cuz me ans Bryan do the same exact thing when we get a deer
we have to gut it by ourselves and put its blood on our face...hope fully i get one tommorow..but i dont want to gut it..but i will have a bunch of pics..friday im goin to the movies saturday im goin to the mall and bringing tyler bryan and brook if they are allowed to, or im getting my xmas tree and bringing bryan if hes allowed and someone might have a party then the next firday we have a dance and wyloo might have a winter formal and i want to go them saturdaysomeone might have a party ot tyler is taking us to the mall...im excitedbut i g2g leav ethe love!!
well tonight i am probly going to the movies with brook and tyler and bryan is most likely going...but i still have to find out...i straightened my hair just for brook...hopefully i can go because hunter has hockey and my parents are going to watch and i might have to go with them but im gunna ask if i can go to the movies because brook asked me to go like last week...i told hunter i would go to his first game and bring my friends and we're all gunna make signs for him...lol hes like yay yay! i think watching him practice would be boring so..i really want to go to the movies though even if bryan deosnt go i wanna hang out with tyler and brook well im gunna go..leftover time!! leave em sweet!
thanksgiving dinner was so awesome..i made so much stuff...its cool im going outside to play football later....it was snowing really hard earlier....me and brook decided that when there is enough snow, we are getting bryan and tyler down here and all the girls together and we're having a party and going sledding...were so excited!! bryan was being soooo sweet last night!!! well it all started because me bryan tyler and brook always make a chatroom for us 4 and we were talking about our ppriorities and tyler goes 1.brook2.hunting3.baseball and brooks like awww it was so cute then bryans like 1.sam 2. sam 3. sam and i imed him and i was like
oXo SAMii: aww i love you
lil k *****: i love so much more
oXo SAMii: no thats impossible
lil k *****: no its not
oXo SAMii: yes it is...i swear
lil k *****: how
lil k *****: ?
oXo SAMii: because there is no way you can love me as much or more than i love you...
lil k *****: :-*
oXo SAMii: lol
lil k *****: i love u
oXo SAMii: i love you too
lil k 3*****: cya babe
oXo SAMii: bye :- i need to see you this weekend....
lil k *****: i no
lil k *****: i'll try my hardest
oXo SAMii: well my sister said that she could go get you if you ever wanted to come down here any day this week so
lil k *****: k
lil k *****: ill c what i can do
oXo SAMii: lol kk
lil k *****: cya lata
oXo SAMii: bye
lil k *****: :-*:-*
oXo SAMii: ;-);-)
so i think he is coming down here tommorow and me brook him and tyler are going to the movies then im probly gunna crash at brooks house....he goes 1st thing when i see you again and gunna go up to you and hug you! i was like awww...oooo i cant wait to play football! i have been playing ddr and american idol all day its fun! well im gunna go leave em sweet!
I love Bryan Anthony Kolodziej
