43 - Am I really that bad?
Listening to: The Ghost In You - Counting Crows
I just want to get out of here.
Go someplace where nobody knows who I am.
I can be whatever I want.
I can do whatever I want.
I don't have to go to college.
I don't have to do what anyone says.
I can do what makes me happy.

Let's hang out, Sam. I have Wednesday, Thursday and Friday off next week... St. Cloud?
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42 - Delicious Happiness
Listening to: What I Really Learned in Study Hall - Ice Nine Kills
Feeling: awake
Jeremy's little brother was sick so he had to stay home with him this morning.
And then he got called in to work.
Rawr.
I painted my nails and drank too much Coke.

I work at four.
I've been informed that I'll basically be doing Jovelyn's job while she's on maternity leave.
And that's a step up.
As in, I get a raise.
Woohoo.
And they might make me a lead during the holidays.
And then you make a dollar more an hour.
But it goes away after the holidays.
But, still.
That'd be cool.

Whatever.
I'm glad I'm not starting college yet.
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41 - ¿Por qué no?
Listening to: Handlebars - Flobots
Feeling: so-so
What was the last thing you bought?
I can't remember. Probably something from Kmart...


What time did you go to sleep last night?
Around 12.


When's your birthday?
August 23rd.


Prefer older BF/GF or younger?
I like me some youngins.


Why do you think relationships fail?
Because people can't read minds.


What was the first thing you did when you woke up?
Wiped the drool off my face.


Who was the last person who called you?
My dad.


If you're being extremely quiet, what does it mean?
There's something on my mind.


Are you taller than your mom?
A little bit. Yeah.


Are you an emotional person?
I guess.


Do you want to get married & have children one day?
Yeah... Children... Um... Maybe I'll adopt.


What's the greatest thing that happened to you today?
Wow. Um. I ate some M&Ms...


Are you close with your mom?
No.


Are you happy right now?
No.


Do you like to cuddle?
At times.


Whats your favorite number?
13.


What did you eat last?
M&Ms!


How is the weather right now?
Hot and humid. Kind of gross.


Piercings?
5. Three in my left ear lobe, two in my right.


Are you allergic to anything?
Bactrin. Medicine of some kind...


What did you do to get your first detention?
Never had detention.


Did you talk to anyone on the phone before bed last night?
No...


Do you try to start fights when you're drunk?
I've never been drunk.


How are you feeling today?
Lonely. Hungry. Pathetic.


How many cousins total do you have?
A shit load. Hicks. Multiply like bunnies.


Are you a dog or cat person?
Cat. Hands down.


Do you know someone in the war?
Nope.


Did you get at least eight hours of sleep last night?
More. Too much.


What's the longest amount of time you've been on an airplane?
Like 8 hours... France.


What time did you wake up this morning
9:27.


Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
Yes.


Where do you wish you were right now?
Anywhere but here.


What items could you not go without during the day?
My glasses...


Last hug?
Yesterday. Jeremy.


How do you feel about your life right now?
It could be better in some areas.


If you could go back in time and change things, would you?
Yes.


Do you believe that you are a good girlfriend or boyfriend?
I wouldn't know.


Have you dated someone older than you?
Nope.


Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
No.


Are you a forgiving person?
If you deserve to be forgiven, sure.


Are you a jealous person?
When it comes to some things.


What's annoying you right now?
My stupid sister. My stupid dad. My stupid mom. Not being able to be with Jeremy.


Have you ever kissed someone on your top 8?
I can't remember the last time I went on myspace...


Are you moving anytime soon?
Maybe...


What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks?
Not going to college. Hanging out with Sam. Hanging out with Jeremy.


What color are your eyes?
Mostly blue. Sometimes green. Sometimes gray.


Where is your favorite place to be?
Duluth.


Where is your least favorite place to be?
My room. It's so messy...


Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
Wherever the wind takes me.
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40 - Ahem
Listening to: Californication - Red Hot Chili Peppers
Feeling: alive
Hanging with Sam and Randy was fun.
Randy is a douche bag.
Sam, you should marry him.

St. Cloud.
Soon.
Yes.
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39 - Blah
Listening to: Californication - Red Hot Chili Peppers
Feeling: alright
Life sucks.
But, oh well.

I'm not starting college right away.
I'm taking the semester off.
Maybe the whole year...
Who knows.
So, yeah.

But, whatever.
Fuck it.
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38 - Guitars...
Listening to: Paper Planes - M.I.A.
Feeling: concerned
Are cool.
I ordered one for Jeremy yesterday.
It'll be here next week.
It's nice.

I work 12:30 to 6:30 on checkouts today.
Gay.
But, oh well.
I get paid tomorrow!

My Sublime stuff came in the mail.
The shirt is awful and a little too small.
But, the stickers were worth the $17.46.
So, yeah.

Jeremy and I are going to the movies tonight.
It should be fun.
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37 - Stupid College
Listening to: Deathblow - deftones
Feeling: aggravated
It just fucks everything up. Grr.
I have to call and make an appointment to take the Accuplacer.
Lame.
And my work needs to know my availability and shit.
God.
Fuck this.
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36 - On top of the world
Listening to: Breaking The Girl - Red Hot Chili Peppers
Feeling: alive
I got my acceptance letter from Ridge.
Now I just have to finish my stupid FAFSA.
And get my license.
And a car.
And save as much money as I can...

I think for once I really feel like everything is going to be okay.

I know who I am.
I know what I want.
I know what I need.
I know that I am going to be just fine.
I know that everything is going to be just fine.
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35 - Life is one big question...
Listening to: 40 Oz. To Freedom - Sublime
Feeling: awake
Yesterday was fun.
That dude's trailer was nasty.
I can't believe I spent fifty bucks at Kmart.
I'm excited to hang out again tomorrow.
I'm serious about the roommate thing.
Whatevs.











I'm gonna go listen to my new CDs now.
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34 - No one likes Kmart.
Listening to: Caress Me Down - Sublime
Feeling: bittersweet
I'm glad you've been busy and whatnot.
You seem happy.

I'm sorry.

It's just that...
When I'm with him it makes me feel important.
Wanted.
Needed, even.
And now that he's not here, I'm insecure.
Lonely.
And completely forgotten.

I'm a douchebag, I guess.
What can you do.
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Entry List
43 - Am I really that bad?
42 - Delicious Happiness
41 - ¿Por qué no?
40 - Ahem
39 - Blah
38 - Guitars...
37 - Stupid College
36 - On top of the world
35 - Life is one big...
34 - No one likes Kmart.
33 - Life goes on.
32 - I know exactly what I...
31 - What am I doing?
30 - I miss things
29 - I know nothing.
28 - I hate dogs
27 - I don't deserve him
26 - Panic! at the Disco blows
25 - Hmm...
24 - Don't bide your time
23 - Yeah.
22 - Wow.
21 - J'ai fini...
20 - Parents just don't...
19 - Bad luck and Indecision
18 - I can't do anything right
17 - Effing A
16 - Super sick
15 - Cinco de Mayo
14 - I'm so tired
13 - Fuck my life.
12 - Life moves too fast
11 - Five days...
10
9 - Garbage... Just trash
8 - Uh, yeah.
7 - I love you Sam
6 - Un repas acadien...
5 - Work sucks.
4 - Snow day in April
3 - In control?
2 - What Was I Thinking?
1 - Hmmm...
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