School, stress, stress school, that's my life now.

Things are going good I think. Just trying to find some extra ways to make some money.

L and I are doing great. Been together for 3 months now :) I'm so happy. I didn't think that I could be this happy, but I am :P

Things are going well at the moment. L and I are finding some ways to make extra money. Right now we're going to work in the Sweet Potato fields lol. I was the only white person out there. Wow What fun. I worked yesterday, and it wasn't that bad, but that could be because it wasn't as hot and we left work early, so yeah. I might not be able to handle it :(

Things seem to be going well between us. We're getting along great and we're spending a lot of time together. I think things are going to keep progressing forward :) I surely hope so

Things are going well as of right now. I've got a promising job offer. I'm hoping my hopes aren't up for nothing. I really need this job, and hopefully I can get it. I'm praying :)

Life is going well right now. Classes are starting to pick up, so the work is more demanding, but with a lot of effort I think I get get it done :)

Love is working out so far. L and I had an argument a day or two ago, about my feelings, but everything is back to normal now, so it's going well I think :)

We're looking for a car at the moment.

Where is my life going?

Hey Bitch,

(Email is being a whore.)

If being a douche lets him get over it quicker, then let him be a douche. Let him vent to himself. Don't fall for his childish games. Life isn't fair, you know that. So why the fuck are you trying to make it fair? Sorry... I had a redbull <3 Hyped up big time.

Woop Woop.

Anyways... Try not to let it get the best of you. You're doing great. Don't let a prick ruin that for you. Tell him to shove his smart ass comments up his own ass. =) That's what I'd do. But I'm mean, you're not. So... do whatever you think is right I guess.)

I'm in a terrific mood. =)

Damn... If only nights like this could last forever.

But if they did, we'd never be able to make more memories. <3

Peace Bitch.

Jazz,

I'm sorry for all of the pain I have caused you. I never meant to hurt you in anyway. Even though you hurt me and the pain I caused you could be considered justified, I never wanted to hurt you. That's not what I'm all about. I apologise for ever doing anything to cause you pain.

I don't regret ever falling in love with you, because I know that you helped me live through a lot, and even though we both got hurt by it in the end, I wouldn't want to take a second of it back. We may not be together now, but there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of you. I still love you and I wish that things had worked out for the better.

I love you. Nothing will ever change that. No matter how far apart we become in the future, Whenever you need me just close your eyes, and I'll be there holding your hand.

I'm feeling better. Despite everything that's been going on recently. D is talking to me again. There was just a misunderstading and we lost touch, but it's back now.

Jazz is being an ass.

Frank... well... What can I say about him? He's frank.

God... I have to go. Write back later!

I just got the thought that all of these entries are just numbers. Eventually, when I look back upon them, the emotion is gone. Of course I can tell if I was happy or sad or royally pissed off, but the emotion I felt at that given moment is lost. I don't feel the strength of it when I glance over my rants, my confessions, or my last attempts. I don't feel anything.

What is wrong with me?

I honestly don't know what to make of life anymore. Something is happening, I just don't know what. I know I am changing, and I'm scared.

I have no idea what I want anymore.

I can't make up my mind.

 I hurt people.

I speak my mind

I don't know what kind of person I want to be. I'm not happy. What will it take to make me happy? I can be happy for a while, but eventually, I need something new. Something to excite me again. What will it take next time? Am I destined to be happy? Am I destined to go through life looking over and over again for the things that make me happy? For a little while at least? Am I going to be shown "the light" and love the person I am years from now? Am I going to die off and not even be remembered? What's it going to be?

I don't know...