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February 17th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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Everyone is pretty much strongly disliking me right now.
It's depressing.
I wish I could take every wrong thing I did and make it right.
God how different the world would be.
But I guess we all need to learn from our mistakes.
Too bad I obviously haven't.
It'd be nice to play with a razorblade but I'm going to my moms house tonight and that'd just cause more problems than it's worth.
Not like it solves anything for anyone else anyways. You guys all probably think that I'm just pathetic. When I really am.
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February 2nd, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: none
Feeling: whimsical
Uhm..
New entry.
I guess it's been a little while.
[call me fucking retarded] but I think my dark hair gives me a certain sense of confidence. It's cool. Like today I wasn't afraid to be a loud stupid [SINGING] girl.
I was in such a good mood.
Sex is such a funny topic. It bugs me when people get pissed because it's a sin to fuck or whatever. Not everyone has the same beliefs. Really random. Sorry.
Nothing interesting worth saying right now.
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January 20th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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if you read this and you know me personally please leave me a comment to tell me you do so.
I'm not going to stop writing in it if you do. I'm just curious.
Thanks.
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January 17th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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I think I'm gonna start using this diary more because Liliana and Justine don't know it and I hate having them read all my shit.
So yeah that boy sure gets to me and Justine tried to talk to him last night and I dont know whether or not to love her or hate her for it.
But whatever, ya know. I guess I'll just have to see what happens.
Nothing should though since he has a girlfriend and it was pointless for her to even talk to him. Same with Brittany.
Yeah. I love him.
End of story.
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December 27th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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Don't let go...
Hold me until the sun rises.
She doesn't have to know...
Can't you tell by the look in my eyes
You've always been the one..
Guess what?
He's never gonna know.
-wants to cry- ergh.
I'm not fair. I'm fake and predictable. |
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December 6th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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I'm not afraid to tell people I'm bi anymore.
Wait I'm lying. I refuse to tell any of my best friends.
I don't know why. I'm scared of what people think. Even though I've known I was bi since pretty much 5th grade...I'm just now telling other people.
I think it's really cool though how I have so many other friends that are actually in the same position as me.
By the way. I've not hurt myself for white awhile now. I think it's been about a month. I stopped about a week before my little sister was born. She's absolutely beautiful, by the way.
Okay, I'm off to bed, just thought an update would be nice for the few that read this.
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Self indulgent.
| November 1st, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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Disgusting. My wrists have gotten so gross.
They look like they're bruising and decaying.
Like I have a disease or something.
Which I don't.
Only an obsession with a razorblade..
I just want a shoulder to lean on or something.
Somebody to tell me everything will be okay, somebody that shows me that they really care about me.
There's nobody out there like that for me. |
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August 29th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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GOD DAMMIT. |
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KADF;KAJF;AKJFAJ |
August 29th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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Feeling: magical
Thanks. I'm going to drown myself now.
-Michelle. |
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Love is overrated |
July 6th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: anna nalick-wreck of the day
Feeling: sane
Seriously, what's so great about it anyways?
You get built up just to get let down.
And you know what? I'm done with it.
I refuse to keep hurting myself like this.
'I know I'm not falling in love...I'm just falling to pieces'
He does nothing but mess with my mind. I fall so hard for him too. He tells me he loves me, then as soon as he's gone he's with my best friend, and he loves her rather than me.
I fucking hate guys.
I'm about ready to cry right now. I am so confused. I know I have all of these thoughts...but you know as damn well as I do...that as soon as he comes over, I'll do whatever he wants.
If this...is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up...on love.
I FUCKING HATE IT.
I need to learn how to harden my heart.
I'm so tired of this stupid love crap. I hate it. I really wish I could learn to hate him too... |
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