this is because I can spell konfusion with a K and I like it
Listening to: Something Corporate - Konstantine
Feeling: selfish

Well, as much as I thought the Kristin and Kyle saga was over, it continued...and it's been amazing.

We started talking again in January 2007. Actually, it was weird because to get my attention he followed me out to my friend's car and almost to my house. But the next day we discussed everything and we began talking. Of course I told him I still had feelings for him and after an emotional afternoon, he pushed me away again.

March came around and he saw me running through the halls of school the day this little girl fell off her bike and chipped two teeth. He came outside and apologized for pushing me away as much as he did, and told me I'm cute. We started to be friends again and even attempted dating.

That relationship lasted 3 days, but I made him promise me he wouldn't push me away again.

And you know what? He hasn't yet, so I don't think he's going to.

Especially since I went to his Graduation (I'm so proud of him!) and I went to his Graduation party (which consisted of me, him, and his family, so I've met his family =]).

Kyle and I are doing alright, considering the fact that he's got a job now and is never home. We still talk, just not as much. And he's worried about school already; my good little smart person hehe!

Well, that's the update of the Kyle and Kristin saga

Until next time, I shall leave you with this:

[[Kristin&&Kyle

The Flirt&&The Hentai

Best Friends,With Love♥]]

Oh, and one final note: I love Kyle Jameson Adriance more than anything else in my life right now. My exfiance screwed me over one too many times and I pushed him away (didn't think I'd do that, did ya?).

So there you have it =D

♥*

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and then there was none...
Listening to: Something Corporate - Konstantine
Feeling: alluring

Heh, I have returned my my absence of sitDiary to give you all an update of my "progress" with that one guy I was attempting to go out with.

In June, he decided that he liked me and wanted to date me. We were a couple for a grand total of 16 1/2 hours, which was the best 16 1/2 hours of my life at that present moment. That afternoon he gave me his phone number, and I called him that night. We talked for an hour, in which he said he'd always be there for me and he tried to teach me how to meditate. Unfortunately, on June 29, he moved to Johnstown and we didn't talk for two weeks. That was the worst two weeks of my life but then...

July, he called me and we began talking again each night for almost 2 to 3 hours at a time. He yet again promised to always be there for me and I felt loved and special. He was there for me when I got in alot of trouble by my parents; he listened to me cry for 2 hours that Saturday and for that I'm eternally grateful xD Sadly, though, I was in summer school and a play, and his parents didn't like the fact that he was always on the phone (even though he was 18 at the time), so we had to cut our phone calls short. Nothing after 10 or 10:30pm-ish, depending upon if his parents caught him on or if mine caught me on. Heh, he made my summer worthwhile during July...

August, I declared my undying love for him, and he broke down in tears, asking why he couldn't love me back, and yet again, promised to always be there for me. I settled for him as my best friend and I couldn't have been happier.

September, school started and everything went downhill. On the second day of school, he pushed me away. I was a wreck; I couldn't sleep, I couldn't eat, and I didn't want to talk to anyone ever again. We had a complete closure on a Sunday at 5:50pm, I cried alot. But, I thought I was getting over him but then...

October, he came bounding downhill by my school and we talked for almost a half-hour. I thought we'd continue talking forever but...

He pushed me away on October 20, 2006. I was called into the guidance office only to see him having a panic attack. The guidance counselor told me that it is in "his best interest that we no longer associate", so from that point on, we haven't talked or looked at each other or even breathed in each other's direction.

It's been difficult, but I'm almost completely over him. I was forced to but it worked. I have moved on sorta...I now discovered that I love my exfiance =X hehe, yes, he's alot better than this guy and he'll actually always be there for me.

I'm slowly realizing that he was just a waste of my time...

To Kyle Jameson Adriance (yes, that is his name):

I'm sorry I wasted all your time and stressed you out to the point of which we cannot speak to each other. Actually, it was your idea to split so blahh~!

Well, there you have it; the complete story of the Kristin and Kyle saga.

And now I shall move onto something new...xD

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"...what will it take..."
Listening to: A Perfect Circle - The Outsider
Feeling: amorous

Well, even though I'm wearing a low-cut shirt and I figured he'd notice, he did...and for some reason, I didn't mind at all. I just hope he'll talk to me again. I really want to get to know him more than I already do. He and I like the same show...I watched it Saturday night (Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex) and completely fell in love ♥*

What will it take for him to notice me for me and not for the facade I put on to get his attention? I could be dressed up in a floor-length dress with stilletos and full make-up and the guy still wouldn't notice me and also I'd feel uncomfortable...and that's not who I am. I like feeling comfortable with myself and who I'm becoming and I never thought I'd change for a guy, ever. I really hope we talk again...

when...?*

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Listening to: Sugarcult - Memory
Feeling: ambitious

Today I am dressed rather nicely, although the shirt's a little too low-cut for my taste, and he already walked by me and glanced. Since we talked yesterday, I've had this good feeling that this is like a new door opening for me and we can be friends or something. But usually my "good feelings" end up backfiring and turning out horribly for me, and then I'll become immensly depressed and no one will want to save me, especially not a certian guy who's certian friend came out of the psychward about a week ago. I just wish (and hope and pray) that this guy I'm swooning over decides to swoon over me because I think he's amazing and extremely attractive and we'd be perfect for each other...*

*sigh* won't that rock?

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