| 117 sleep you must be kidding! |
August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
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sleep? after that conversation! hah!!!!!!!!
never. its official
ive found him, and hes been with me for a year.
im going nuts not to mention the legal speed, its 4 in the am.
and i wnt sleep
i just finished talking to him.
brandon broke up with me today an i didnt care!
im so amazed
stoked
i dont want to wake up. EVER.
you would know why i was so happy if you knew eric.
wow.
EEEEEEEEEE> he IS amazing.
i must be the luckiest ever. |
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| 116 my life, today |
August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
Listening to: sea and the rhythm
probably the most uninteresting subject to most.
if you live in the area, you know the rumors.
the truth rather.
i have a boyfriend in moorpark
and the love of my life right infront of me.
for a year now, and i dontknow why i didnt doanything.
he was in love with me even when i weighed 140 pounds. and because of the eating disorders ive managed to wiggle my way down to a comfy 110.
that i dont mind publicly saying, because the people that live here, already know. and the people that dont dont matter. dont even exist as far as i know. i havent made my mind to them. we are specks.
the one im inlove with, he's confused about his sexuality.
and today i told him something after he told me that he was like in love with me the first four months we met, i told him i didnt love him because at first glance i knew i didnt have a chance.
but today
when brandon asked me to be his, i said yes, but i meant no.
all i could think about was him...
i signed off.
i wont talk tohim till tomorrow
if that.
and i'llbe rotting inside till then.
i feel terrible.
i dont know what to do.
all that i know, is that i dont know anything, and i love him.
www.myspace.com/alyssa9936
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| 115 |
August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
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i had a breakdown yesterday.
no more please. |
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| 114 |
August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
Listening to: iron and wine
Feeling: empty
last night was doms party
i had fun
i loveeeth though eric to deaaaaaath
i really do
we sang together last night and that was the thing that made me happiest
ive been in a wierd mood lately due to a lack of intake.
annnnnnnnnnnyhow. i had a good time. good enough at least.
seems lik i was having a better time when i was outside then inside.
i like outside.
gahhhhhh.
kc left foothill to go to buenaa.
dumbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb........
we miss you kc.
haha i say things because im jealous.
love you danyell E> always and for fucking ever.
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| 114 |
August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
Listening to: poison the well
Feeling: old
hii,
friends again.
its gonna stay that way i swear.
im sick
its dumb.
so is myspace.
however this song is wonderful
pieces of you in me
it makes so much sense.
i used to love them in 6th grade.
i do again.
anyways.i just took nyquill and its disgusting.
ive made a new BFFL
i love her to death. and i dont care what anyone says so just back off if youve got something shitty to say.
i dont wanna here it.
i miss having a boy.
im bored.
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| 113 |
August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
Listening to: iron and wine
Feeling: bummed
i keep gettin my hopes up.
for multipul things at once.
and they dont usually work out.
whos happy,
and why are they happy?
i want to know
so i can be like them.
ewww im bummed. i hate being upset.
jusssssssssttttttttttooooooooopppppp.
fuckin dumb.
bye
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almost january-
i can hardly remeber why iwas upset in the first place.
anyways, im not upset. im fine, but i dont know what im going to do tonite. which is dumb.
im on sit alot lately. whcihc is cool. i missed it
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almost there.
but its definately not a good one
and i wish she wouldnt hit me.
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| 112 |
August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
Listening to: bright eyes?
oh gosh
im over this
ive been seriously considering screwing up my life becoming a bum and never talking seriously to anyone ever again.
woeiujflsdjfdslkjfds thank god for sitdiary and complaining.
no one wants to listen to this shit
except good old shitdiary.
ugh
i dont want to feel like this ever.
im just fucking bummed
im not sure if i have a reason to either.
lameeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
fuck boys
fuck the other gender and their testostarone
im not a lesbian
but i think girls are better
were more beautiful
and elegent
and just more appealing.
and now im just ranting.
yea.
rant on.
yeah
i wanna be over this.
lets gain 394832094803248 pounds
then no one will pay attention to you
and i'll just move to africa.
yeah. |
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| 111 |
August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
well hey there
im bored.
and im on sitdiary.
anyways........ last night was an awful night.
seems like you only know what something REALLY is until way after wards. and it hit.
im not gonna go into detail i dont think.
but im just kinda over emotions.
or at least i want to be.
im so confused. so lelts leave it at that.
what happens happens.
i dont wanna be the one making the choices all the damn time.
and just coming from glenns sit
glenn who is cool enough to realize that sitdiary is superior to myspace.
anyways. ive been thinking like he has for about 4 months now. i miss the old days.
ohkay. old as in earlier this year.
alrite
over this entry.
to anyone who still uses sit.........
LEAVE COMMENTS!!! |
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| 109 |
August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
My dearest danyell-
you are cool.
and awesome.
and amazingly BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!
anyhow.
yes iwill call you
i tried to today
but your phone is gay.
so i wrote this anyway.
because you are...
im going to stop trying to ryme.
i wuv youw.
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August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
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wow too entries in one day!
its magnificent.
but not really.
the other one is private
which means you cant read it
haha im better.
i have to get rid of this thing.
but its alrite.
im ok
soooooooooooooooooyeaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh
im kinda bored.
eric jsut told me we have practice tomorrow
and i cant come.
lame huh, i have a lesson.
anyways
i think im going to hang outwith this real neat guy.
yeappppppppppppppppp
latreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee |
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