well i havent written in this in a LONG time lol....nothing new has happened still the same ol stuff....i moved to troy...i dropped chelsea as a friend...i just couldnt take anymore of her shit...other than that i guess thats it.

wow i haven't written in this in a while. nothing much has happened though. um i guess im going to go byea

im started to cope alot better now. im learning that i have to talk about my problems and not let them keep bottled up inside like i did. i miss my family and friends. i might get to go home right after school is done i hope i do. mom and dad r getting better with there drinking they go to meetings every friday. and dad goes and sees a theropist which is really good. well i have to go bye.

im really bored right now theres nothing to do i have no idea what to do. i havent written in here in a long time. im doing ok. im getting better with my problems well i have to go byea.

hey everyone i got a new diary its emogirl1134 if any of you want to look at it. well byea.

We have to move by april 30. they sent a letter in the mail saying that we had to. grrr i hate them i dont want to move the jerks well bye.

I am really bored today. Their is nothing to do. I dont want to watch anymore tv. I dont feel like practicing the bass or piano. Iv listened to every song on my play list today. Iv read my AP mag like 10 times. grr i need to find something to do to not make me so god damn bored. maybe ill take a shower later. i have to anyways i dont want to smell like something that came out of a dumpster. my parents have been really sick for the past week. my mom is starting to feel better. my dad is getting worse. hopefully he gets better by the end of this week. i want to go to somebodies house next weekend. grrr. we have to take freaking fitness tests in gym this week. im going to fucking fail badly. i hate gym i wish it could be an option if we want to be fat or not when we get older. well i have to go so byea.

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well I wanna hold you high and steal your pain 'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome And I don't feel like I am strong enough 'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome And I don't feel right when you're gone away You've gone away, you don't feel me here, anymore The worst is over now and we can breathe again I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight I wanna hold you high and steal your pain [x2] 'Cause I'm broken when I'm open And I don't feel like I am strong enough 'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome And I don't feel right when you're gone away 'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome And I don't feel right when you're gone away You've gone away You don't feel me here anymore. ~not a good day~

Yeah my birthday is tomarrow. I hope my bass comes. my mom said that she would get me something else so i didnt feel left out tomarrow. she said that she would get me something special. I wounder if mike will give me anything. i dont care if he did or didnt as long as he gives me a hug. i cant wait britt is going to give me one present tomarrow. she got me five gifts and i know one of them is an mcr shirt well i hope it is lol. well iam going to go so cya.

School was cancled today and i have yet went back to sleep lol. My Birtday is coming up soon i cant wait. I hope britt got me the mcr shirt that i wanted lol. I am so bored. I wounder what i can do today. Ha nothing at all besides sit up in my room all day listeing to music like always. I wounder if mike will get me a gift if he cant then he will probily draw me a picture. his pictures are so awsome. He drew me one for valentines day and that had to be the greatest gift that i got for that holiday. and what he wrote on it was so sweet it made me want to cry. well i have to go byea.

I havent updated in a while so hear it is. While i was gone i got glasses so i can see now yeah. but they r bent already lol. i have to get them fixed friday. poppy is dressing really preppy lately and it bothers me. mike has been sweat as always lol. and i have to go so byea.

Tomarrow is the PSSA's and i know i am going to do very bad on them. For Art class i am doing Gerard Way for my Portrait. It is looking ok so far. Chelsea is doing a guy named Ted. I wonder if Mike got me anything for valentines day even though im not going out with him lol. but i want to really bad. if i go out with him then that means that he will be the first boyfriend that i had that isnt preppy or whatnot. he is like me lol. well i am going to go byea.

Brittany just left. I had fun this weekend. Finally a non boring weekend. Now i dont know what im going to do. haha thats funny the minute she leaves im bored. i dont know what im going to do next weekend. probily just going to hang out up in my room again. brittany let me borrow Detroit Rock City. That movie is the greatest movie ever. Well i have to go byea.

Britt Britt is coming over tomarrow so that means that I wont have a boring weekend lol. I am so glad. she is bringing Detroit Rock City and my dad is probily going to take us to rent the Corpes Bride. my sister told Mike that i like him and now i am afraid to look at him lol. i know he likes me because he kept on say i was hot and i had beautiful eyes and all that stuff. well i dont know anything els to write so i am going to go byea.

my mom seen my report card and she said it was good. so that means that im not dead. and im not grounded yeah now i can go some where. i am bored and chelsea isnt on. omg i have freaking sam denny as a partner for tech ed. i hate her so much i dont even think i can staind one more day being her partner. i hope i dont blow up or something. well i have to go byea.

I am home for like the fourth time this week. I need to get out of here soon lol. Chelsea is at Brittany's house. Haha i hope one of them does something stupid so i can laugh at them when we get back to school. I need to take better pictures of them on monday because the ones i took today r crappy. Well i have to go byea.

I staid home today because i didnt get enough sleep tonight but i am going to school tomarrow. All i did today was go on the internet lol. my ears hurt so much because i pierced them myself they dnt hurt alot but the are a little soar. Well i have to go byea.

I hate the weekends it always leads to my parents drinking and fighting. And im tired of locking myself in my room all the time with my music blaring to drain out the yelling. Thats why i always try to go to a friends house on the weekends. and thats why i love going to school atleast its better than hear. Well i have to go bye.

Omg people in my school are so fucking fack. The preps should go to fucking hell because they say that all me and my friends to is dress in black, smoke, and cut ourselves. Well hear is a little message. WE WEAR OTHER COLORS BESIDES BLACK, WE DONT SMOKE, AND WE DON'T FUCKING CUT OURSELVES SO GET THE FUCK OVER IT OK! Maybe the preps need to relize that they are fucking stupied blondes and they aren't perfect. I swear if i hear one more prep say that they love being popular i swear i will tear their hair out. and i hate it how people like Sam Denny think that they are all punk one year just because they are dating someone, and then the next year she is all fucking preppy. I dont care who reads this because truley i dont give a fuck what they say about me. They can make up a whole bunch of lies but i know they aren't true. So if they read this then yeah now you fucking preps really know how I act like and if you want to say something to me in school then go right the fuck ahead because your just going to get it right back in you face.

Today is boring already. Chelsea is sick. She has been for two days so far. So its me poppy and brittany. But its all good. Hopefully she can make up her midterms so she doesnt fail. I dont want her to fail cause then she will be in 8th grade again and the day cheslea fails will be the day the world comes to an end. Well gotz to go byez.