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December 20th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
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Oh,
And Ive said it before,
and I'll say it again,
Jenna will be an excelent mom. |
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December 20th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: amber pacific
So changes are on horizon.
Im about to move to hollywood for film school! My last few weeks at my home are dwindling. I am a tad bit nervous but Im really excited as well. Im not a big advocator of change or growing up, but I think this is an important step in my life, and I welcome that.
So I figure I need to keep in touch with myself. I want to start writing in this again.
Other than that, life is good. Jenna and I are still goin strong. Coming up on 2 years, 3 months! w0w! :) Much love to her. Ive met a couple new friends from work. Work is good. I actually enjoy it, for the most part.
Im stoked for christmas.
Oh, and of course, my birthday is in 2 days. From the sound of it, Im going to be spoiled rotten from Jenna haha. How can I complain? I dont know what shes got planned, but im excited~
arent you? :] |
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September 8th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
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Then he walked up and told her, thinking maybe it'd pass
And they talked and looked away a lot, doing the dance
Her hand brushed up against his, she left it there
Told him how she felt and then they locked in a stare
They took a step back, thought about it, what should they do
Cause theres always repercussions when you're dating in school
But their lips met, and reservations started to pass
Whether this was just an evening or a thing that would last |
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September 7th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
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winter day |
December 25th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Merry christmas to Jenna!
Merry christmas to all!
yippeeeeeeeeee
*waits to exchange gifts with Jenna* |
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November 6th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
where to begin...
I had a thought today. It really bugged me. Innocence is such a underrated thing. All this weekend with jenna turning 18 and everything. It really makes me angry that she has "friends" telling her to go buy cigerettes now just because she can. why the hell would she want to do that!? Thats retarded. Its so ironic.
Oh your an adult. your so mature and so wise, so you should go out and abuse that and go make stupid, UNWISE decisions because you CAN. I find it repauling.
I dont know. I miss innocence. I miss growing up thinking that alcohol and smoking was bad for you and having my friends think the same thing. I miss not having to worry about things like peer pressure. I miss having words like stoned and drunk being absent from my vocabulary. Whatever. I guess we cant go back. Thats why I never want to start.
So I felt pretty crappy today. I had a huge stomache ache from something. Totally frowned upon my evening with jenna and her family. That sucked.
If I could change one thing about me, it would be my jealousy. I know I have it for a reason. Im just not sure why yet. Until I figure it out, it continues to sting my heart.
--- she has sooo many guy friends. I dont feel threatened. I just feel like.. I have to compete. But I know I dont. Jealousy is an intresting emotion. It takes a thought and developes it into an elaborate scheme, fueling questions and potential hatred. And that is what ive become. A well-oiled machine that takes her male friends and turns them into opponents. It disgusts me.
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Robeks is Robeks. Im sick of Ryan and Betty treating all their employees with no respect. I take back things ive said earlier. About how he is successful. Sorry, but im not going to define successful on how much money he pockets at the end of the day. Im going to meassure his success on how well he does his job as an OWNER. If you were to measure it on how he treats his employees, he would definately not be successful.
I think he handles his business in a lazy, unresponsible manner. That was a load of crap to post the team log paper about why employees (ME) wont get an evaluation. First off, dont lie to me in the first place. Second, dont hold me back from being a shift leader because you dont want to pay me an extra 50 cents. and third, if you think im a bad worker, tell me to my face. And if you truely believe that im a bad worker compared to some of the others, you sir, are dumb. Ive held out for pretty long, but if he doesnt start showing a little respect in return for my services, then he can go right on ahead running his unsuccessful business without me.
I need some new music. I keep listening to the same stuff over and over. brand new Nov 21st!! woot.
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Jenna and I are doing fantastic. Were just a couple of lovers. Plain and simple. She gives me one of the best feelings in the world, and that is waking up knowing I have a reason for waking up each and every morning.
"Love is one heart inhabiting two souls"
-Ben Franklin
So as previously mentioned, Jenna is now entitled as an adult. the big 18. Im so proud of her :) Im so proud of who she is today. She is everything important that I look for. And Jenna, please dont loose that jiminy cricket inside your head. Its one of the sexiest things about you. I mean that. Girls with morals and beliefs and attitudes like yours are one in a billion. Im praying to God tonight that even though you are now an adult, that you will continue to make the right decisions, and that you will never loose that jiminy cricket inside you.
We had a really funn Bday. We went to the GolfnStuff arcade and played cruisin the world racing game for like an hour... on one token. Then we got all dressed and lookin sexy and she figured out that I had arranged for colleen and mo to join her for her bday dinner at black angus. That was cool. Then we went iceskating. My first time. It was so much fun. I was gettin the hang of it towards the end. We came back to my house and I gave her my present: a red bass with a zebra strap. And she loves it. And im excited to hear her get good. :)
School is going ok. I was feeling a little apathetic lately but Im trying to get myself back into good habits. Its too early to start slacking off. For me AND Jenna. We gotta start helping each other get down to business and keep up on hw and studying... no matter what. I will certainly help her stay focused because she needs my support and she needs to finish this year strong so she can get into longbeach :)
My last soccer game was Saturday. My last AYSO soccer game ill ever play. Kinda depressing. Im actually really regretting quitting ayso a couple years ago. I had so much fun this year. Im looking into joining my dads co-ed indoor team. Im actually trying to persuede Jenna to sign up also. That would be aweeesome. I think she would have a lot of fun. I dont want to pressure her but at the same time I want her not to miss out on an opportunity and be sad later. I know in my heart that she has what it takes to play. I think she just needs a little passion or motivation. Im going to try and get us going to the park a little more to shape up . :)
My stomache ache is starting to feel a little bit better. I think I might actually be able to eat something now. All ive had today was 2 jr whoppers from bk.
Jenna took good care of me today. In a lot of ways. It made me feel secure. She is such a caring person and it feels great to be in a relationship with someone who will do ANYTHING to help heal any problems. She is such a giving, compassionate person. God I got lucky with this girl. Personality, charm, beauty, grace. Shes got them all. I want to marry her. I want her all to myself, forever. Call me selfish, but thats what I want.
Christmas is right around the corner. Well, not really. Havent even had thanksgiving yet... but I CANNOT WAIT!!! I cant wait to hear christmas songs echoing thru my house. The spirit of christmas brings out the best of me. Something about it. I dont know what. I really hope it rains on christmas for some reason. I loooove the rain. It needs to start raining soon. Its comforting. Christmas is at our house this year which is awesome. I gotta start thinking of jennas gifts. Im going be her santa :) tubby and all. hohoho
My writing is still coming along very slowly. I have progressed in my plot a little since the last entry but not making much headway on actually putting it down on paper. Im looking in all directions for inspiration, and im loaded with it, but just cant seem to find quite enuff to sit my ass down for an hour or two and just write. But I'll get there. Im going to make myself. I have big ideas and I want to finish this.. even if it takes me years. This is my project, my passion.
I just dont know why its so hard. Ive probably written more in this entry alone than I have the entire story so far. Jeez. Somethings holding me back, I just dont know how to over come it.
Anyways, Ive said all that I wanted to say tonight. I guess ive had a lot on my mind. Felt good to let most of it out. :)
time for sleep now
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passage of time |
July 23rd, 2006 @ 12:00am |
So today is our 10 month anniversary. the number 10 is nothing special in itself but jeez! double digits. thats pretty awesome. Each months passing is just another reminder of how sure I am.
However, today was not how I was expecting it to happen. When she came over, I had a few minor things bugging me so I told her and it seemed like it made it worse and I dont know why that happened. So ya, I blew the morning. Go me!
But in hopes of making it better, we went to Robeks. We had a very neccisary talk that didnt go over to well with either of us. Im not going to go into much deltail about that because we talked it through a lot. I do have a couple things to say about this subject though...
Jenna,
I deeply apologize for how I responded and reacted to this. It was not my intention to turn this into a fued of any kind. I was merely hurt, and taken back, and I hope that you can find it in your heart to see the cause behind that reaction and forgive me for it.
I am truely glad you told me about this issue now, rather than later. It shows you really value my opinion, and I cherish that. In no way did you ruin our day. I can't really do much besides that to reassure you, but Im just letting you know, I sit here completely ready to see you again to finish out the rest of our night.
On the issue, Thank you for pre-paring me and letting me know how you feel. Babe, I am your biggest supporter of anything you choose to do. I hope you know that. You are capable of going anywhere or doing anything you want and I will always be behind you. I certainly never want to be the reason you feel held back. Im sorry if I have ever held you back from saying or doing anything youve wanted to. Its not what I intended. I hope you continue to let me in on your dreams and thoughts and I hope I didnt loose any credability when it comes down to decision making.
In the end, it is your future. You choose your destination. I know this. I just hope and pray that you keep me, my feelings, and our relationship in high priority when making this decision. Im willing to pack my bags, leave my friends, my family, and my dog behind for you. I hope you can just meet me half way on that one.
I know that nothing is even set in stone yet... but if anything like this were to happen, I need you to know that we will make it. I will wait for you. I will still love you unconditionally. It will be hard for me, and us. Very hard. But I will do it.
Thank you for those "silly promises".
They just kinda help me. I know that you will be good. I know that it is not in your character to go to parties, drink, smoke, or hook up with other college men. I trust you and your judgement, and I know that you would never do anything to disapoint me, or hurt me. But just thank you.
And once again, Im just very sorry for how I reacted. I never ment to call you out on bullshitting me, or lying to me. Thats also not in ur character. I know we will move in together very soon. Get a puppy and live happily ever after.
So much for not going in depth about it.. its ok. I needed you to know.
But... the nights not over!! In fact, its just beginning! I got a pretty fun night planned for us! :D yay me! yay us! happy 10 months baby!!!! Many more of those to come.
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March 22nd, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: ohio is for lovers
Feeling: foxy
So life has been good for me. I still got my job, been doin good in school, gettin along with my rents, and most of all, my girlfriend can still put the hugest smile on my face. In fact, tomorrow will be the big 6 months. 6 months ago, we were laying in this very bed next to me. Face to face, under the covers, just talking.
me: Hey I have 2 questions to ask you
her: ok
me: do you like me?
her: *smiles* yeahh
me: will you go out with me?
6 months ago, that very same convo took place, and has changed my life. She's the best thing to ever happen to me and I love her deeply. |
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I got asked!! |
January 5th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
edit: lol, this was a lot of sarcasm :]
yay!!! I got asked to backwards by this really really cute girl. Geeze Im so nervous! What should I wear? Omgosh, Im no dancer! AHH Im nervous! Should I walk her up to her door and kiss her at the end of the night? Boy O Boy what to do!? I think she might have a little tiny crush on me too! YAYAYAY.
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November 6th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: nickelback - Photograph
Feeling: anxious
So Jennas main Birthday gift finally came in. Im so excited to give it to her. I know she'll love it. I cant wait until the night we celebrate her Bday. I just know thats its going to be such a memorable night. I can feel it.
So last night was a good night. Jennas dad's BBQ was lots of fun. Im so glad I finally got to see her. 2 days seems like forever when she's gone.
She said I was going to have dinner with her parents tonight. I didnt really understand, or ask any questions. I think it will be at her moms house. But I could be wrong. Either way, Im pretty excited. I have no idea whats going on for today, but whatever it is, I want it to happen now. Last night was fun and all, but I didnt get to spend as much alone time as I had hoped for.
So yeah. Im pretty stoked. It makes me happy when she invites me over to stuff like this. BBQ at her dads house to meet relatives, or dinner with her parents. I like how she feels like she can do that, without having to worry about anything. Idk. hard to explain. But yeah, Im pretty much just passing time... waiting for tonight... ohhh. :D
I love her. |
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