I haven't updated in a while. I know. I've just been so busy, and my computer like had a virus in it or something, and I think it still might, But it got a little better than before.
umm.. Lately it's what I breath.
It gets all up into my mind and I don't know what to do.
I feel so confussed and I know I'm just being used.
But it feels so wonderful to be wanted like that.
It feels like someone is actually fufilling what I wanted for once.
Because afterall I did agree to this arangement.
Just now, I guess I want more than what I'm getting out of it.
Is there such thing a commitment here.
Or is it all just fake, and a time waster.
Something to ease the pain and pleasure while in use.
I don't know, I don't know how, I don't know why, but it makes me let go and let loose.
