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Cut |
September 1st, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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So.. I cut the other night.. |
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August 29th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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Wow. my life must be extremely fucken booring.. Because this isnt the only blog I have and noone responds to any of them.. Figures.. it shouldnt suprise me that noone wants to listen to a word I have to say, they dont in real life so why would they online.. Yeah..
So my frend got raped, and in the same week a totally different friend mutilated her wrists.. -sigh-.. why cant I just die already? |
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Teen Angst? |
August 25th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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Arent things spose to get better as you get older? I was told that all my "issues" were just teen angst.. Well I am well out of my teenbopper years.. yet the shit is still in my head. I think the therapists were the ones that needed help.. Had a panic attack the other night. first time in a year. Figures.. Noone to talk to does that to a person I guess. .Or it could be that I cant take my meds regularly.. Who knows.. Leave me some comments.. |
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HOLY SHIT |
August 22nd, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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Wow.. I forgot all about this thing.. weird.. well.. needless to say... me and matt are broken up.. he went off to college and just ditched me.. hes an asshole... i am now dating a guy named thomas.. we will see how that goes.. we have been dating for 8 months.. me and matt were together for a year and a half.. engaged.. all that bullshit..what a load of shit.. love is fake.. and i have the scars to prove it.. I dropped out of highschool.. dont have a job.. dont have a car.. yeah.. life is great.. as usual.. |
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things |
September 29th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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CUT YOURSELF |
May 18th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: none
Feeling: broken
i want to cut. there is nothing around to do it with. i am at school and i want to cut. i found out yesterday that my grandma is dying. i said goodbye to her yesterday. i dont want anymre death around me. NONE. people need to stop dying, stop leaving. like christina did. I just read thru some old e-mails she sent me and the whole time it was weird b/c its hard to read them knowing what i know now.. how could she be so cruel to me. And why would she just leave one day. why did she jsut leave us. I was always there for her. ALWAYS. now i need someone and there is noone. absolutley noone. I hate it. I hate everyone and everything. FUCK IT ALL.
i hate being alive right now. i just need someone who isnt yelling all the time and who isnt bitching all the time. or leaving me. I want a family and a boyfreind who doesnt get mad at me sooo much. Even for cutting hell be mad but i dont care. He'll get over it. or hell leave me i guess, it doesnt matter. nothing maters.... |
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Boredom |
March 14th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: bored
Feeling: bored
Ok so if you cant tell I am bored. I am staying home from school today. Working on failing myself. Yea fun!
I am getting an excersize thing. cool
talk later |
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new diaries |
March 10th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
hey i have a new diary on
myspace.com
xanga.com--jamie1506
if you want to know my myspace one just ask |
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Kim n Me |
February 17th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: Paper Bag by Fiona Apple
Feeling: alright
I hung out with Kim last nite. It was really nice. I am glad that we are talking again. I hope she doesnt slip. I hope she never changes again, but it will happen, i love her so much i hope we will always be freinds, i hope she has a good life. Even though right now it migh look really bad.
She told me last nite that sometimes she reads people diaries on here that she use to talk to so maybe she will read mine. If she does i just want to say im sorry one more time before i end this letter
on another note i hope justin dies a slow, horrible, painful death. he pisses me off he cuts for attention is a fucking stalker and he is thee stupidest fucken person i know! I wish he would leave christina alone and i wish christina would come home. Misty and darren are thses huge druggiies that she is living with right now. fucken shit. I hate life. i didnt go to school today. mom forgot to wake me up. i decided to just stay home, i dont care if they flunk me.
ill get over all this soon i gues. bye ill ttyl
Jami |
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matts family |
November 27th, 2004 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: nothing
Feeling: placid
i cant stand this. they wont let him leave yet thay ay no attention to him. fucken shit we can barely sleep in the same room wen i stay the nite and i jus cant stand tehm anymore, I will write more later |
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long time |
August 18th, 2004 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: nothing
Feeling: anxious
the mood is anxious because i am anxious..in a bad way... about schoole about my frends about my boyfreind, my life everything.
School starts the 23rd and i hate skewl with a passion and i dont see the point of it because we dont use half the things we learn in skewl. Bah!!!! i hate school
I also want to move far far away from here like to hildreth because i hate this shithole town that i am living in.
yesterday i read listenasyoubleed xanga site at xanga.com and i like cryed. me and my b/f are trying to find out anything about her to see if she really did commit suicide or not. We think she did. Maybe im stupid for thinking that but who cares?
My frend is having some serious issues and shes taken up pot as a way to deal with it all i wish she didnt do that shit she isnt even the same person when shes high and i wish she would stop and deal with it in reality like i know she can. Shes cutting pretty bad too and she needs to be sent away. her sister jus got sent away and really she was the one who really needed it she says that she wants someone to help and i jus dont know what to do. i want to tell someone and get her help but i dont know what to do and its like we cant even talk anymore. Shes not the same person anymore and i miss her.
Me and my b/f and my best frend and her b/f were all gonna go camping but now they wont let her and it pisses me off because i wanted to go. i really did and now i dont think we cn also mom is gonna be gone on friday to go to grandisland and jus shit. ive already like spent my whole paycheck i really need to learn to budget money b/c i really suck at it and i have like no money now!! great!!
i want to see my b/f today but i have to work and he is busy so i guess i will jus forget about it! |
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Update |
June 30th, 2004 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: nothing
Feeling: achy
ok so Cass and i are no longer speaking i asked her about Chris and she lied to my face!!!
I told her to leave then she sent me an e-mail saying she wass still gonna come over when i wasnt here and that pissed me off even more!!
She has lied to me so much in the past and im tired of it.
So last time i talked to her or seen her was last nite and it's been awesome maybe i wont ever see her again!!!:)
that would be super!
i also wish Kym could come stay with me again but that would also be pointless since i have a job from 4:30 to 8:00
My hair is bothering me. I want it to be longer a lil but Matt odesnt like my hair longer...even tho hes never seen it that way...i dont know i am gonna grow it out a bit more...then get it layered or something.. he will jus have to deal with it. i really dont think he cares actually prolly jus giving me something to worry about.
My feet and my back are killing me from work. I am never gonna remember everthing i have to for work!!! When i quit training and i have to ask Sharon ( the cook) everything shes gonna like get me fired cuz i bother her!!!!
OK i feel like i am gonna die so i am gonna go
Peace
Jami |
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Cass |
June 28th, 2004 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: firecrackers
Feeling: playful
ok my frend cass has been at my house like every day for the past 2 weeks and its driving me insane my b/f was back for 3 days and she was here for all of them except one where my mom had to tell her not to come over!!!
she is driving me insane. today i went to my sisters house to helpo my frend babysit and she shows up..wtf?
i think she is stalking me and i also think she has a crush on me!!!
i also found out today that cass slept with my brother in law chris...yea..im gonna kill her thats the end of our frendship right there...gone forever...
im sick of her lying bullshit im through with her.done.
cass if you are reading this. i hope you feel like shit!
bye |
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FTW |
June 27th, 2004 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: i need a hero-bonnie tyler
Feeling: secure
ok this cannot fucking blow anymore
Matt has to go back to columbus for another god damn week!!!!!! so i will not see him till friday again!!!!!!!!
grrrrrrrrrrrr
i am mad and sad and shitty
i want the mood to be shitty... so i will make it
this blows
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Sadness |
June 22nd, 2004 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: charmed
Feeling: sane
ok i have decided that the maximum i can be away from Matt is 3 days. Thats how long he's been gone so long and i am gonna die!!
i really miss him and have been writing him and waiting for his reply forever. I cant wait till he writes back. then we can chat thru hotmail maybe.... i love him i really think i do. i know that sounds stupid but i dont care.
none of my frends can do anything and yea it blows |
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