i haven't been on here in soooooo fucking long. And idk why. but i almost forgot my password O.O lol. :P well just letting everyone know i'm still here :) lol

well like i'm bored.. and theres barely anyone online , i'm talking to melissa. But like none of you people know who she is lol. i met her on Vampirefreaks.com . all people that have never heard of the site join it if you love rock music lol. Thats probably most of you. But like yeah.. I cant wait till i go to RAW wooo!!!!Smallville is on tonite i gotta see this episode. i love that show my parents got me watching it. we always watch it together thursday night at 8.

My headphones stoped working i have to share headphones with my sister!!My old ones pissed me off so much i threw them in the creek lmfao!So i'm buying me some new ones today. Me and my sister got chinese food yesterday, went to the bookstore, and got ice cream . i had this huge waffle cone with two huge scoops of cookie dough ice cream, YUMMY!!

So like yeah i'm talk to melissia and katie. The thing is.. I love them both.. and its crazy. Cuz i dont know who to choose i have a slight idea because one of them lives in the UK!!! and the other in North Carolina. What should i do?!?!?! god i fall inlove so easy.. *slaps self* lol. well buh bye.. i'm talkin to peeps..!

HAHAHAHA i'm going to see all the awesome peoples at Raw on may 5th for my sisters b-day. Trish is like hot and so is lita.my faves are Kane , lita, trish , edge, and carlito lol. Thats not cool!! lol he's hella funny i love it lol. i'm gunna make a sign for carlito.

I'm going to see my aunt on may 25th , i'll be gone for a week so i will miss you all Very much . i'll miss amber, kristin, my fool , my buddies morgan and nicole , and everyone else.

My ex friend kept calling my house at 10pm and wouldn't say anything i'm gunna beat her fucking ass valerie will pay. I'm gunna call her today and cus her ass out. shes gotten me up to the point where i could seriously kill her.

I'm in alot of shit right now i love 3 people . and i dont know what to do.. someone tell me what do i do?!?!?!

i cant believe i yelled at kristin i feel bad.. even though she promised not to break up with me.. i'm so heart-broken i was happy until she hurt me again.. i was inlove and i still am.. my feelings will never changed and i believe she doesn't wanna speak to me ever again... i wouldn't wanna talk to me either.. i'm such a bitch.. i think i'm bi-polar i seriously freak out to easy and get pissed to easy.. and then i start crying...

I want to go see my Aunt but my mom doesn't know when i can go. i wanna go during spring break that sounds like a plan to me.I wanna see her so badly.. shes all depressed and Alone and i'm gunna make her laugh and we're gunna watch movies and be weird lol. I miss hanging out with her. i used to be at her house 24-7 . I cant believe this has all happened.. my uncle is gone... i still cant believe it... i never got to say goodbye...

This all hurts becuz i believe i could have done something to stop this all. Like maybe call my uncle and talk to him. I'm gunna start calling my Aunt 4 - 5 days a week and maybe talk for about 10 minutes just to see how shes doing and all that junk.. but i really dont have much more to say so.. bye

{A}

Afi,

Atreyu,

AcDc,

Aiden,

all american rejects,

Aerosmith,

As i lay dying,

a perfect circle,

arch enemy,

Against all authority,

Avril lavigne.

{B}

Blink182,

Bleeding through,

black sabbath,

the birthday massacre,

blindside,

bad religion,

brand new,

Bayside,

bury your dead.

{C}

Children of bodom,

Cradle of filth,

Cannibal corpse,

chevelle,

Comeback kid.

{D}

Disturbed,

Dimmu borgir,

Dope,

Drowning pool.

{E}

Emery,

Evanescence,

Everytime i die.

{F}

FROM FIRST TO LAST,

Funeral for a friend,

fall out boy,

from autumn to ashes,

fear factory.

{G}

God forbid,

Greenday,

Godsmack,

Glasseater,

Good charlotte.

{H}

Hawthorne heights,

Hollywood Undead.

{I}

ICP,

It dies today,

Ill~nino,

In flames.

{j}

NONE

{K}

Kittie,

KoRn,

Killswitch engage,

The killers.

{L}

Limp bizkit,

LOST ALL FAITH,

Lacuna coil,

linkin park,

Lynrd skynyrd,

Lamb of god.

{M}

Marilyn manson,

MxPx,

Megadeth,

mudvayne,

my chemical romance,

muderdolls,

metallica,

mushroomhead.

{N}

Nirvana.

{o}

The offspring.

{p}

Puddle of mudd.

{Q}

Queen.

{R}

Rammstein,

Rancid,

Remembering never.

{S}

Slipknot,

Stonesour,

System of a down,

Superjoint ritual,

Sublime,

scary kids scaring kids,

scars of tomorrow,

spitalfield,

silverstein,

Seether,

Sugarcult.

{T}

Trapt,

Transplants.

{U}

UnderOath,

Unearth,

the Used.

Well i am no longer speaking to Ali anymore.. i went to the school today and she had the balls to come up to me and hug me! I said "dont even touch me".. and she just walked away... plus shes been talking hella shit about me. But who gives a fuck! alot of people say shit about me like.. dyke, lesbo , wannabe emo/goth..fuck em! them can die. they obviously have nothing better to do with there time then stop and say something about me or anyone.

I'm still with David its goin on 7 months now. Since October 14th. i remember when i first met him he was so shy.:P and cute. I talked to him alot we were friends.. soon we became more then that, when he finally told me he's liked me since the 9th grade when he first saw me! I was like awww cute. i told him i liked him too and a week later we started going out. It started as a crush then grew to love. i love him . But i have some doubts about the relationship... cuz he wants to have sex.. but i'm not ready for that just yet... i might break up with him but its too hard he's so cute..he's sweet to me and everything.. but i think i just like girls now. Besides he met some hot guy and he likes him maybe they'll hook up. Me and David will still always be at least the best or friends.

Well I talked to Kristin Lastnight.. i love her more than David.. she knows i love her and i believe she still loves me . But the distance is a huge issue when we get together.. i cant wait until i go and see her.. She lives hella far sometimes i wish she lived around the block lol. that would be kickass we'd be hanging out every fucking day .Plus we'd be together if she lived that close...

I might see my Aunt soon. She wants me to come and see her.. it hurts me because shes alone.. I wanna make her happy and i want her to stay happy. We've have'nt seen eachother in hella fucking long.. toooooo long.. so long it depresses me... its been 4 years...I miss my uncle too.. i wish he was still around....

written by: Summer

Song Title: I Live For Darkness

verse 1:

I walk in the night

I have no fright

I live for the night

I love the dark

I hate it when its bright

it blinds my sight

chorus:

I live for darkness

I've tried the holy ways

the evil is within me

I laugh at the brainwashed f*cks

I sound really f*cked up

don't I?

verse 2:

the evil is in me

the sight of you I cannot bare

I slit my wrist

I don't care

I hate it when its bright

it blinds my sight

*back to chorus*

end:

watch the blood

run and hit the ground

written by: Summer

Song Title: Tell Me I'm Real

verse 1:

sometimes I just can't take it

it makes me feel like shit

I don't know why I'm always crying

it probably started with your lying

the worst place is in your eyes

you're eyes are darker than the sky

look into my eyes

tell me why you lied

chorus:

please don't hurt me I can't take it

look at me

tell me that I'm real

touch my face

and indicate you love me

verse 2:

medicate me

I just want to leave

you won't let me be

do I mean anything

life is the worst

it's cursed

you make my life fall

my sparkled eyes turn away

*back to chorus*

end:

why did you lie?

Written by: Summer

Song Title: Forever Knife

verse 1:

I've been longing to hold you

You know that I love you

I want to show you how I feel

I trust you with my soul

you make me whole

chorus:

I look at my blood red scars

it was the blade sharp and deadly

but thanks to you the pain is gone

the blades been gone

never again will it bring me down

verse 2:

I used to feel so much pain

until the day I met you

then it went away

you've changed me to this day

you have my heart

I'll hold you forever

I'll make it all better..

*back to chorus*

end:

*whispers*

please don't cry

I'll never leave nor will I die

I'll love you forever without a knife

Written by: Summer

Song Title: The Bullet

verse 1:

the way she said it

made me get it

it was over

her mom made her

but her mom can't change her

I'm goin crazier

what she did was stupid

and I can prove this

she's so stupid

the smart s*it I did

was stop loving that

f**king b*tch

chorus:

cuz she's the bullet and I'm the target

ya ya

she's the bullet and I'm the target

she shot my heart

she didn't miss

she's such a b*tch

but I'm over it

verse 2:

if I ever saw her

I'd break her jaw

and throw her into walls

til she feels the pain she gave

she's the biggest w**re I've ever seen

she needs to die

* back to chorus*

verse 3:

I can't take her s*it

it gets me pissed

shes such a bore

and a stupid w**re

YA YA YA

I'd rather hit her

than be caught kissing her

a s*ut who wears

grody thongs up her a**

* back to chorus * * chorus x2 *

end:

F*CK YA!