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Not that any of you care, but I have a new (well not really new) diary. Ihavenoname.
That's it.
Don't ask why I made it.
I have no idea.
If you care at allllllll you'll add me! :) |
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December 16th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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I have such a horrible headache.
My eyes are watering...
Oh how I hate headaches.
Anyway, things have been...well...they just have been.
umm...yea...It's been a while since I have updated..
The diary thing..well...it takes alot of time...
though I must say when I do get the chance to...it is very much a cathartic experience.
I have found a new light in the dark world I am submersed in.
what that light is...I can't really say.
I find the more I learn about myself and form my own opinions, the less sense I make to the people around me.
I am so very misunderstood.
and with the way things are today, no one really cares.
It's understandable yet so very frustrating at the same time.
I have come to the conclusion that art truely does save.
Sevas Tra people.
Im out. |
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December 11th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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"Mark my words and remember me" |
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November 24th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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so I lied. though its nice to know how much you guys CARE hhaha.
anyway...i have nothing to say lol |
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November 13th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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....I'm so done with this journal....blech |
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November 3rd, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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ahjksadhfsjkdfh~HKJHKJHKJHKJSDHFKJSHDKFJH!!!! GOOOBER |
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November 1st, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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jeeze...everyone hates me now. |
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October 30th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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ummmm... |
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October 28th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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around 20 food court gummies.
I think im gonna be sick. hahah I want another one! lol
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October 27th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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COMMENTS!!!! LEAVE THEEEEM |
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October 25th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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...i'm just a waste of time. |
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October 23rd, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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.....the end. |
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October 21st, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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Buried Alive
[intro]
i speak in verses
prophecies & curses
....i hate my life.
[verse]
no miracle is coming ....[hate you]
it's just a hole
nothing's wrong with you
must maintain control
everyone's asking questions
no place is safe
i'll forfeit resurrection
to escape the pain
... i hate my life.
[chorus]
I HATE MY LIFE.
[verse]
i speak in verses
prophecies & curses
this storm of thorns is growing ....[hate me]
there's no end in sight
chaos claws my jaw
& incites a mental riot
i'm in the mouth of madness
with a tongue of poetry
i ate the spine of Atlas
now the world is crushing me
.... i hate my life.
[chorus]
I HATE MY LIFE.
[outro]
BURIED ALIVE BEHIND ENEMY LINES
SURROGATE CHILD FOR THE SINS OF ALL MANKIND
HATE!!
BURIED ALIVE BEHIND ENEMY LINES
[buried alive, buried alive]
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October 20th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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You cannot kill what you did not create-slPnt |
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October 19th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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Nein-Otep
MY PAIN, MY PRIDE
THESE SCARS ARE MINE
MY PAIN, MY PRIDE
THESE SCARS ARE MINE
i will tell you a story,
that's never been told
i will tell you a secret,
5 lifetimes old ...
my life has been a prison,
a labyrinth built beneath the mountain of Tragedy.
i'm a stain on the cloth.
i'm just an after-thought.
but i
would die
for this ....
but through the veins of decay
i'll remain to betray
to live like Caesar.
to die like Jesus.
to build my own religion,
no gods, no laws
to celebrate pain
forsaken & ashamed
to watch them all,
crawl beneath us ...
on this bed of nails & regret
dying of fevers, betrayal, & sweat
I CRY ...
[chorus]
my organs are rotting,
my enemies are plotting ...
I AM MADE OF PAGES
PARAGRAPHS & INSPIRATIONS
PAPER GIRL, BURN THE WORLD,
I PASS THE FLAME TO YOU!!
MURDER
MAYHEM
HURT HER
HATE HIM
MURDER
MAYHEM
HURT HER
HATE HIM
MURDER MAYHEM
HURT HER HATE HIM
MURDER
MAYHEM
FUCK HER
SLAY THEM!!
[verse]
my pain, my pride
these scars are mine
my pain .....
MY MISERY HAS BEEN FORMULATED
INTO AN EQUATION OF NIEN
MY SANITY WROTE
A SUICIDE NOTE
BUT ONE OF US IS ILLITERATE
AND THE OTHER ... IS BLIND
MY 1st ACT OF TREASON
WAS PICKING UP A PEN
MY 1st ACT OF LOVE
WAS FINDING MYSELF AGAIN
THE HARDEST THING TO DO
WAS STANDING UP TO YOU
NOW I'M OFF MY KNEES
NOW YOU'RE BEGGING ME "PLEASE"
I'M THE WOUND & THE WEAPON
THE FRACTURE & THE FIST
[chorus]
my organs are rotting,
my enemies are plotting ...
I AM MADE OF PAGES
PARAGRAPHS & INSPIRATIONS
PAPER GIRL, BURN THE WORLD,
I PASS THE FLAME TO YOU!!
MURDER
MAYHEM
HURT HER
HATE HIM
MURDER
MAYHEM
HURT HER
HATE HIM
MURDER MAYHEM
HURT HER HATE HIM
MURDER
MAYHEM
FUCK HER
SLAY THEM!!
[outro]
THAT STABBING IN YOUR HEART,
THAT BLACK HOLE IN YOUR SOUL,
SLOWLY RIPPING YOU APART .... THAT'S ME!!!
THAT'S ME!!!
SO LET IT BE WRITTEN,
SO LET IT BE DONE!
THE BRIGHTER THEY SHINE,
THE DARKER WE BECOME!!
VAE VICTUS!
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October 17th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH |
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October 16th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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I got another otep cd and got 6 gauges for my ears...bloody hell did they hurt, and I wanted to skip the 6s and go to 4s...yea right!
aah I do not want to go to school tomorrow. BlechNess!
I think im going to chage my diary around again...but for now im way too lazy and tired lol
my ears are in alot of pain though...aaack I put them in while watching the evil dead. ahah.....its a sick and twisted 80's movie. a woman gets raped by a tree. Its really quite nasty lol
also saw elizabethtown. ...wow...aha it really was a great movie, but im sure not many people will appreciate it. Its definately not your normal "chick flick" its actually...really twisted. Its so hillarious though. well, im off to read for a while and then go to beeed. |
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October 15th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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:-( :-( :-( :-( :-( |
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October 13th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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jkhsdkfjhskdgh guhkdjghdkfgh I AM SO COOL! yesssssssss |
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October 11th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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aaah Im so tired.
weee.
im gonna get something to eat...mmm...food.
....yea..
byeness. |
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October 10th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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my confession- otep.
thats how I feel right now.
It feels like im being torn apart. literally.
gah!
....i need help....im so stupid.
I need to find someone out there who is going through the same stuff to talk to....
gaaaaah......my god, im so dumb |
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October 8th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: my confession- otep
"My Confession" -otep
... my confession
because i'm diluted
&
perfectly flawed
i shall
live by passion
&
not by law
and i'm
insecure ...
i need aggression
to
feed the spiders
of perception
and i'm
supposed to be strong
& have
all the answers
a
cannibal
in the
new church of cancer
but i'm
nothing special
i'm not unique
i have
many secrets
& i
eat the weak
and i'm
at an end
i'm at an end .....
and there's ...
NO WAY OUT!!
[chorus]
i need to find my sanctuary
..... someplace safe
gotta get this outta me
..... this is my escape
II.
and i
think about it
all the time
i'm
volatile
&
afraid to cry
but i'm
still not comfortable
in my skin
and the
anesthetics slowly
wearing thin
& i
need to talk to
someone new
i need a different
latitude
& i'm
in this void
all alone!
feeling needy
... hungry to grow
but i'm
suffocating
-- can't come down
and .... no ....
THERE'S NO WAY OUT!!!
[chorus]
i need to find my sanctuary
.... someplace safe
gotta get this outta me!
.... THIS IS MY ESCAPE!!!
--- all i see is sadness
all i see is sadness ....
what's left?
-- this will teach them.
this will teach them,
......you've got to......
push.
Push.
PUSH....
YOUR WAY OUT!!!
FOLLOW ME!
FOLLOW ME!
THIS IS YOUR WAY OUT!!
........you are not alone
- this is where i hide my power
- this is where i become free
- this is where i take control
- and slowly choke your fantasies
- i want to know my day is coming
- see my enemies be punished
- shed my skin again
- this will be my best revenge!!
SHED MY SKIN AGAIN
THIS WILL BE MY BEST REVENGE!
...This is like the story of my life.
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October 7th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: otep-blood pig
Feeling: awkward
This song is so amazing. I love it...so much :-P
uumm....yea...I dont really know what to say. today was good, got out of school at one, Im so tired though. Prolly will go to sleep semi- earliy.
I dont have much homework this weekend which is a very exciting thing for me :-)
anyway, im out, Im gonna go play guitar for a while
peace out homies! |
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October 6th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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I LOVE ALL OF YOU...Because....well...I dont know. You are all sluts! wait...no...yes..? YESSS!!!!!
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October 5th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
...... I have nothing to say, just felt like making a new entry. woot woot. go me.
someone leave me a damn comment!
....please? =(
no comments....people hate me :-( |
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October 4th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: static-x bled for days
Just watched Law and Order:SVU....best show ever might I add, but yea, this shows creep factor was tripled....twas very creepy. anyway, I must be off now, sleep is very appealing right now, good night everyone and sweet dreams. |
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October 4th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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Song of the day, since I dont know what to say.
heh.
thats rhymed. How disgusting lol :-P
Hooks and splinters-
YOU FUCKING PARASITE!!
I'LL BEAT YOU TIL YOU DIE!!!
it hides inside me,
IT HIDES INSIDE ME!
SIC SEMPER TYRANNUS!
EVERYDAY YOU DECAY
IN CHAINS, DISMAYED
BROKEN SOUL, SPLINTERED BONES
GHOST-CHILDREN
IN THEIR GRAVES, SOLD AS SLAVES
UNSTABLE, GREEDY FLAMES
LIFE IS A SACRIFICE
A 7 INCH SLICE
THE STILL-BORN WASTE
OF A SUICIDE CHRIST
i'm learning to like the pain ....
I HOPE YOU DIE
WE, BROKEN PEOPLE
I HOPE YOU DIE
WE, BROKEN PEOPLE
it hides inside me,
IT HIDES INSIDE ME!
EVERYTHING IS DEAD
EVERY DAY IS BLACK
WORD BECOMES FLESH
BLOODIED, BURNED, & SCRATCHED
EVERYTHING IS DEAD
EVERY DAY IS BLACK
THE FACE I WORE WAS YOURS
AS I LAUNCHED THIS SELF-ATTACK
HYPOCRITE!
HERETIC!
BLASPHEMER!
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in pain.
insane.
a bullet in the head
a knife wound in the .....
i cried, as my innocence died.
i cried,
as my innocence died.
DEATH WILL HAVE MERCY,
I WON'T.
HERE IN THE SERIAL-KILLER HOLY LAND.
[i will sit, i will wait, i will make no mistake,
i will sit, i will wait, for as long as it takes]
IT'S NOT OVER,
WE'VE ONLY JUST BEGUN.
LIKE A FETUS ON THE FLOOR,
LIKE AN ADDICT WANTING MORE,
LIKE A SEX SLAVE ... CRYING & SORE ...
I WANT TO SMELL THE VIOLENCE,
I NEED TO SEE YOU BLEED,
TAKE ME INSIDE YOUR SOUL & MAKE IT WEEP FOR ME,
.... I NEED TO BELIEVE.
[outro]
I WILL SIT!
I WILL WAIT!
I WILL MAKE!
NO MISTAKE!
I WILL SIT!
I WILL WAIT!
I WILL MAKE!
NO MISTAKE!
FROM SLAVE TO MASTER!
I'VE BECOME THE HYRDA!
MORE HEADS & VENOM!
IT HIDES!
INSIDE!!
ME!!!
HOOKS & SPLINTERS!
HOOKS & SPLINTERS!
[it hurts to exist]
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October 3rd, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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I got my guitar!!! see the bootiful pic right above my entry??!?!?!...well yea, thats it, cept its metallic red :-P YYAAAAAAAAY |
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October 2nd, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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why do people find the need to break my heart.
over.
and over.
and over again.
Ive become nothing. just flesh and bones. Ive lost my soul and all will to live.
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October 2nd, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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Youre uncle is a whore.
Be proud.
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October 1st, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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So, my guitar should be here any day, Its quite exciting...Might be getting a job at USM....but..yea..I dont know.. eh. anyways, I..really need a life lol sitting here all day is making me sick, Maybe ill got to the fair today...hmm...well, im gonna go take a shower and...yea hopefully you bitches will leave me a comment or two. |
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September 27th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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Ok Ok, So you people see that fucking awesome guitar ^^^^ yea, well guess what. Im getting it! should be here in....5 days...Dayum straight! and Not only am I going to that unearth show, but soulfy+boston=Me...well not really, it only means that ( if I can get tickets) Im soooo going. Max is my hero.
umm...yea...thats about it. ... weeeee |
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September 27th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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yiddie yadda yadda doo |
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September 26th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Why?
What am I going to do? Im just a kid. I shouldnt be worried about my mother being killed. Im scared,Im tired but Im not weak...or maybe I am.. It sickens me that I can do nothing about this though, Its a very sobering thought that I may not have a mother in two years. And why should he stop there? Who says that he wont kill us all.
I can't go back to how I was, I refuse to.
But I cant do this on my own. Is that weak? To admit that I need help. or is that considered strong because I have come to terms that I AM weak. Or am I just foolishly rambling on? I dont know anymore. |
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September 26th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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November 3rd-As I lay Dying, Unearth, Slipknot. guess who is going bitches? I am! Yesss! |
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September 25th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: otep-house of secrets
Otep - House Of Secrets
Shh It's okay, it's okay
This is our
Dirty, little, secret
We're all alone in the city
My hands are stoned with pity
I could get by or get high with fifty yeah
And I, I, I, don't feel pretty
Today
And there's a lady in a stable
Her daddy reads her fables
About the moon and his bride
He's in her room every night
And feeds upon a table
Of silken robes, an altar of stone
But the child is unable
To run run run
And flee his tower of babel
So blood blood blood
Slithers down her ankles
We're all alone in the city
My hands are stoned with pity
I could get by or get high with fifty yeah
And I, I, I, don't feel pretty
Today
Come one, come all, witness the fall
Cry to the sky
Today we break away
Uprising
In the house of secrets
What happens here stays here, say nothing disappear
Uprising, what happens here stays here, uprising, say nothing
disappear
Uprising
Locked away
In the chamber of hysterics
Here
In the house
Of secrets
In the house of secrets
I will tell you of loneliness
Shhhhh
best bloody song...ever lol
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I am in so much pain right now.
Though i'm sure no one really cares.
But thats ok. Isnt it? God,right now everything is just so confusing.
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September 23rd, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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WACKA WACKA |
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September 21st, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: otep-hooks and splinters
what an amazing song.
No one ever comments me anymore, Its sad. :-( I feel like a loser and a failure in life!
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September 21st, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: lamb of god-dimera
school sucks. cheese is yummy. God save the queen! |
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September 18th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: lamb of god- laid to rest
Feeling: baffled
salt n pepper chips.
I have mixed feelings.
good? not good?
I dont know.
kinda...tangy...kinda gross.
but...im still eating them.
why, you may ask? I have no idea. lol |
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September 14th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: meshuggah-rational gaze
Feeling: alive
...So I am going to a Slipknot show Unearth and As I lay Dying with also be there. I am so pumped! Im not a big Slipknot fan myself, personally...I think the masks suck. Yes, I know why they have them...but...Its just doesnt tickle my fancy. heh
But yea, Im really excited to see As I lay dying, Im also possibly, Im not sure yet, but I may be going to see NIN, so Im wicked wicked excited about that, im really hoping that everything works out and I can go. Im hoping that Shadows Fall will come around my area sometime, because I REALLY want to see them live. they are so amazing.
I was going to go see Interpol, but that was a no go. I was bummed, I really like them.
....yea...MCR and the used...really bother me now. Im not really into that kind of music anymore, but still, they were ok until everyone started liking them. Not that they have gotten worse music wise, but the fact that these little "punk" kids are starting to like them makes them loose alot of appeal.
But yea, Ive heard that MCR is HORRIBLE in concert.
...I may be getting my guitar soon! weee...Im so excited. I either was a B.C. Rich Warlock, Beast, Or a Zombie. Im leaning towards the Zombie right now, because...well...I have a sick obsession with zombies, as one may have noticed with the whole Sit name..:-)
Anyway. School....Is going ok. It sucks,but hey, what would someone expect, Its school.
I have a Sign Language test tomorrow...Its gross....Blah.
Well... I really have nothing left to say...
because..Im a loser like that...oh well..
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September 12th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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DAMN YOU PEOPLE AND YOUR LACK OF COMMENTS. DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMNN YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOU |
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September 10th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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my hair is so curly right now ahaha it makes me laugh. ahah...weeee....well i have nothing else to say
aaah its so fucking cold in my room! BLAH!
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September 8th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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mother bitch= fucking sexy ass word hahahaha |
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September 6th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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school sucked major balls. lol Now. Must go do HW...then guitar....
so here is my song for the day...ill update lata.
Suche gut gebauten 18-30jährigen zum Schlachten“
Der Metzgermeister
Heute treff' ich einen Herrn
Der hat mich zum Fressen gern
Weiche Teile und auch harte
stehen auf der Speisekarte
Denn du bist was du isst
und ihr wisst was es ist
Es ist mein Teil – nein
Mein Teil – nein
Da das ist mein Teil – nein
Mein Teil – nein
Die stumpfe Klinge gut und recht
Ich blute stark und mir ist schlecht
Muss ich auch mit der Ohnmacht kämpfen
ich esse weiter unter Krämpfen
Ist doch so gut gewürzt
und so schön flambiert
und so liebevoll auf Porzellan serviert
Dazu ein guter Wein
und zarter Kerzenschein
Ja da lass ich mir Zeit
Etwas Kultur muss sein
Denn du bist was du isst
Und ihr wisst was es ist
Es ist mein Teil – nein
Mein Teil – nein
Denn das ist mein Teil – nein
Yes it's mein Teil – nein
Ein Schrei wird zum Himmel fahren
Schneidet sich durch Engelsscharen
Vom Wolkendach fällt Federfleisch
auf meine Kindheit mit Gekreisch
( now for the english translation :-P )
“Looking for a well-built 18 to 30-year-old to be slaughtered”
The Master Butcher [2]
Today I will meet a gentleman
He likes me so much he could eat me up
Soft parts and even hard ones [3]
are on the menu
Because you are what you eat
and you know what it is
It is my part – no
My part – no
There that's my part – no
My part – no
The dull blade good and proper
I'm bleeding heavily and feeling sick
Although I have to fight to stay awake
I keep eating while in convulsions
It's just so well seasoned
and so nicely flambéed
and so lovingly served on porcelain
And with it, a good wine
and gentle candlelight
Yeah I'll take my time
You've got to have some culture
Because you are what you eat
and you know what it is
It is my part – no
My part – no
Because that's my part – no
Yes it's my part – no
A cry will ascend to heaven
It will cut through hosts of angels
Feather-flesh will shriekingly fall
from the top of the clouds onto my childhood-rammstein- mein teil
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September 5th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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Till Lindemann is sexy...
If you dont know who he is...
Search him on google...ahahahahaha :-D |
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September 5th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: rammstein-Keine Lust
Feeling: amused
Well since I have nothing to say at the moment, I will give you the lyrics of my favorite rammstein song of the day. :-) heh
Keine Lust
Ich hab' keine Lust
Ich hab' keine Lust
Ich hab' keine Lust
Ich hab' keine Lust
Ich habe keine Lust mich nicht zu hassen
Hab' keine Lust mich anzufassen
Ich hätte Lust zu onanieren
Hab' keine Lust es zu probieren
Ich hätte Lust mich auszuziehen
Hab' keine Lust mich nackt zu sehen
Ich hätte Lust mit großen Tieren
Hab' keine Lust es zu riskieren
Hab' keine Lust vom Schnee zu gehen
Hab' keine Lust zu erfrieren
Ich hab' keine Lust
Ich hab' keine Lust
Ich hab' keine Lust
Nein ich hab keine Lust
Ich hab' keine Lust etwas zu kauen
Denn ich hab' keine Lust es zu verdauen
Hab' keine Lust mich zu wiegen
Hab' keine Lust im Fett zu liegen
Ich hätte Lust mit großen Tieren
Hab' keine Lust es zu riskieren
Hab' keine Lust vom Schnee zu gehen
Hab' keine Lust zu erfrieren
Ich bleibe einfach liegen
Und wieder zähle ich die Fliegen
Lustlos fasse ich mich an
Und merke bald ich bin schon lange kalt
So kalt, mir ist kalt . . .
Ich hab' keine Lust
and here is the same song in english for the non german folk ( like me :-) heh )
Keine Lust(Dont feel like it)
I don't feel like it
I don't feel like it
I don't feel like it
I don't feel like it
I don't feel like not hating myself
Don't feel like touching myself
I would feel like masturbating
Don't feel like trying it
I would feel like getting undressed
Don't feel like seeing myself naked
I would feel like it with big animals
Don't feel like risking it
Don't feel like going from the snow
Don't feel like freezing
I don't feel like it
I don't feel like it
I don't feel like it
No I don't feel like it
I don't feel like chewing anything
because I don't feel like digesting it
Don't feel like weighing myself
Don't feel like lying in fat
I would feel like it with big animals
Don't feel like risking it
Don't feel like going from the snow
Don't feel like freezing
I'll just keep lying here
and I'll count the flies again
I listlessly touch myself
and notice I've been frigid for a long time already [1]
So frigid, I'm cold . . .
I don't feel like it
-rammstein :-P
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September 4th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: rammstein-reise,reise
Feeling: angry
How I love this song. Rammstein Is alot different than most of the stuff I listen to but how I love them. KMFDM and Kraftwerk are also two of my Favorite Industrial bands....they are german...of course haha
Umm yea I dont really know what to say. So many emotions today I cant cleary pick what Im feeling, which Is why I said I was angry...because that just always works..for everything haha...
umm yea...Nothnig to do today so I will be bored as hell. My family doesnt like to celabrate like anything besides christmas..so...yea...what bitches..haha.
i know this feeling.
I hate it.
Ive gone through this before
Not again.
I dont know if I can deal with this again.
I dont want to die again.
someone save me.
please?
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September 3rd, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: Rammstein-Moskau
Feeling: addicted
I got another Rammstein Cd today, So Im really happy. Reise,Reise. The song Im listening to right now, Moskau, Is so funny to listen to because there is russian in it. And me being Russian makes it very entertaining to listen to. Umm ...Today was boring, Played alot of guitar which was good, but other than that, I just read and stuff...yea...I need to get another Shadows fall cd....I really want the art of balance, I dont know why I havent gotten it yet, Ive wanted that one before any of the other ones I got...weird..lol
Anyway...I dont really have anything else to say...except, someone comment cause I feel like a loser haha...peace out
aaah but I leave you with some wonderful pictures of...dun dun dun dun....BRIAN..ahaha, enjoy! :-D
 hehe he looks slightly retarded in this one...but...he looks amazing non the less
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i have nothing to say, this diary is pointless. |
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August 29th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: machine head- my heart bleeds for none but my own
Feeling: agitated
So i'm FINALLY back home. Oh I am so happy. so so happy. But my brother whom is staying at my house is a fucking jack ass. Getting drunk all the time and getting violent with me.....So I am here locked in my room waiting for my parents to get home from NC....The week was fun but tiring. ...well...I dont know what to say...Ill write more when Im a bit more...talkative...lol |
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August 20th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: shadows fall-those who cannot speak
Feeling: alienated
Ok so in about an hour I am leaving for my sisters house, with whom I am spending the whole week with. Which means this will be my last entry for a whole week. comments are nice to come back to :-D heh Even if..you dont know me...or hate me...they are interesting to read lol. Soo..even though its completely..impossible im aiming for....dun dun dun dun 100 comments haha. Ill prolly only get..like two though, if that even.
Well today its my brother in laws birthday party thing...should be much good food to eat lol.
Anyway, so im going to go..take a shower now..and then im prolly leaving. So bye everyone for now. Ill miss everyone dearly lol :-) bye |
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Ok, so..I was talking to this kid on AIM...hes 18..it was so weird. he lives like...45 min away from me..lol Ive never actually talked to someone who lived in maine also lol...
yea..and im pretty sure he knows some people I know which is slightly creepy. lol
yea..well...wow..I should prolly sleep since I didnt sleep last night either lol.
hmm...Sleep well everyone...love yall |
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August 19th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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If I left Sit would any of you people miss me?? |
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August 18th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: Shadows fall-stillness
Feeling: amused
Just got out of the shower,and Im waiting for kate to call me when she gets home and for my mum to bring me FOOOOOOOOOOOOD I so hungry! lol
Umm yea, thats about it...I dont really have anything else to say....Except..that...brain fair..is..my hero...:-) haha...Umm...yessas...Im gonna..go...listen..to.music..=-P
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August 17th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: Shadows Fall- Acts of Contrition
Boring day today, Woke up at 7:55am..heh...havent done that in a long time, Though I did fall back asleep at 10am for like and hour lol. Im waiting for my father figure to come back home and take me to get a new cd player, since my other one brokeded haha ...It could be either because I used it too much, or because I dropped it so many times. I tried saying I was sorry to her. But she just wouldnt LISTEN and BROKE anyway! Damn cd players. Its like talking to a friggen wall! pft..cd players are losers. Hehe
umm...and then...Im off to get some school supply shit....Im gonna try to find a japanese binder my friend told me about..heh..:-)
umm...yessaaaa...
Just watched Metal Injection...the coolest fucking tv show thats not on tv lol
much fun...yea..well Im gonna go now...maybe eat something...or..ya know listen to music as usual....have fun kiddies heh :-)
Oh and btw, If you people feel like making me smile and make me feel less like a loser, comments are nice :-)
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I got a Shadows fall cd....OMG, I ALMOST PEED FROM HAPPINESS ahahahahahahahahaha
its the newest cd "the war within" Not really the one I wanted but its still realllllllllllllllllllly good.
I also want to get an opeth cd...damn..they are just so fucking cool....DAMN EUROPEANS! lol...wait...dude...I just dissed myself ahaha...wait?? Im confuzzled...Im just going to shut up now heh |
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well today was a horrible day. I woke up and had a headache because I over slept. I then went to a couple stores with my mom and sister and my headache started getting worse. By the time I got back home I felt like I was going to throw up and started shaking. I took some advil and some of that gross fizzy shit, and styared feeling somewhat better like 45 min later. now im all weak and tired..eh...Im going to try and wake up at like 11 tomorrow so I dont get sick like that again..well...im gonna go read now..comments are nice :-) |
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Just got back from Kates house. Much fun, Her little brother woke me up this morning by punching me serval times..He is only a year old so It was really cute. :-P
Umm..yea..Im really tired we didnt sleep much last night, Tim came over at like...7:30 and stayed till around 11:30 it was much fun, should have pics from that sometime soon that Ill post on here lol
Tim threw me over his shoulder and it was very painful..and then..for some odd reason I put a permanent marker that didnt have a cap on it in kates sweatershirt pocket( which I was wearing) and I forgot about it, and it basically ruined it. I feel really bad, but I have no Idea why I put it in there LOL umm..lets see...Im hopefully getting an electric guitar soon..some kind of warlock..hmm...im not too savy with what is what with that shit. as long as it plays well...and..well..I like what warlocks look like soo ....mhmm.... Lets see...anything else to say??? I dont think soo....lol well Ill write again lata.
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aaaah...I have to get ready for church....Its been like...a year...since i have gone, and im not too happy about that waking up at disgusting hours of the morning....should be illegal....normal people shouldnt get up until at least 10 am! lol
umm so yea...tis much suckyness...i dont even know why I am going, Its so difficult to understand those people...Oh well...I suppose I will still go anyway..lol...bbl :-)
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isnt this a nice comment?
"your best friend is a cunt and she got whatshe got becuz she was a whore evin when she was little she was sucking cock i bet she liked it. if she was still young i wood do it.
so she started young you got to sexually moles them be for tha grow
so im happy for the cunt.
p.s fuck you did you think i care just cuz your frend was a 5 year old dick sucker? "
First of all.. Learn how to fucking SPELL before you start saying shit. It will actually make you look slightly more intelligent.
Second...If you want to live I suggest you dont say shit like that in public. lol Your sorry attempt of trying to sicken me or "hurt my feelings" was unsuccessful, You can't sicken the already sick ;-)
So please, Do us all a favor and fucking drop dead you slimy peice of shit. Honestly...So fucking slit your throat or something. have a wonderful day babe =-)
Yes..Well...Im done with that...It just simply irritates me that people leave fucking useless comments like that...I dont give a shit about their fucking sick heads... If you dont have something intelligent or something worth reading to write. Fucking cut off your fingers before you comment me. ...
heh..yea...So enough with that. Got back from the 'tives place... .... im so tired now...eeek...well im gonna go get some icecream :-) heh |
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o.O I have just made the decision...cause I wasnt too sure about it... But I am deffinately dreading my hair next summer. Because by then(my hair grows fast) my hair will probably be to my shoulders so I will be able to do it. And if I dont like them in a year or so after that...I can just take them out...I mean yea....Its prolly gonna take hours, but there are ways to take them out without chopping your hair off...and Im planning on keeping them in until Im at least 18( prolly longer though) because by that time I will be able to dye the dreads different colors without my parents having any say in it lol...and by then the dreads will be like down to my hip...which will be exciting....Or..I could just let my hair grow until im 18u and THEN dread it..but I dont know. we will see, Im aiming for next summer, but....yea...we will see cause my hair is REALLY short right now...( well for my liking anyway lol) |
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quick entry before I leave.
SO yeasterday majorly sucked. but Im feeling better. I talked to my oh so wonderful sister and she brought up my spirits. Might hang out with natasha tomorrow. hopefully she isnt going to boston heh I told her Id stalk her anyway lol
umm..yea..so Im eating..chocollaattteee rigt now. Its quite delicious.....heh ..yeaa well Im off to my wonderful guitar lessons..maybe i will see....heh...nevermind =-) |
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August 12th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: meshuggah-rational gaze
Learned to play some Machine head songs...and...the rest of a system of a down song..and..umm.yea a deftones song...much fun. Im getting better :-) heh Ive decided to completely cover Sheeba(my guitar haha) in stickers...mmm...much much fun lol
amyway....I have nothing else to say lol Sit FINALLY started working for me again. twas being dumb earlier..mmm...so now im prolly gonna go read a book( Memoirs of a Geisha) and ummm yea....If anyone wants to talk IM me at RabidBtrfly17 :-P
Billie jean by Michael Jackson is such a fucking awesome song, heh I dont care what anyone says...Its..just...so..awesome haha
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ok...Seriously, If you were surfing...and were attacked by a fucking SHARK and lost you ARM, wHy the FUCK would you go and surf again....I mean...what the fuck, Losing one arm wasnt enough to learn your lesson?!?! lol o.O people are so damn crazy lol
Or....You could be cool like Dane Cook and Punch the shark in the face.
ahaha here are some of the best fucking quotes ever by Dane cook, If you people havent heard any of his stuff DO SO! he is fucking hilarious! :-P
"How did Mary die?
A tire...hit her in the face!
Well what was Mary doing with her face near a tire?
No this tire hunted Mary down, this tire was out for vengeance, this tire wasn't fucking around."
"And the pickles...and the pickles....Chicken Nuggets with sweet sauce all over my body!"
"Slip and Slide! Would have been fun if Dad checked for rocks before he laid it down, Slip and Bleed from the anus they should have called it."
hehe and my favorite one:
"Fuck this game! Its four in the morning grandma! You WIN!! I'm sitting on Baltic with Crap! I'm paying luxury tax outta the ass!! And I hate it when you're the banker grandma, where'd all those pink fifties come from?! Get away from me grandpa, Nana, is a cheating whore!!"
"The movie Dune, is in my chocolaty drink!"
"I don't like when juice wears tights!"
"Yeah I go into the sea sometimes just to fuck around with the sharks"
"He had no peepee, no cash and prizes, no, bagok!, no scrummdittliumshous"
hehe Prolly not funny if you havent heard..it...but...yea it makes me smile :-)
here is a poem my lovely best friend wrote a looooooooooong time ago...Its short but one of my favorites.
"Lost souls, Kiss goodbye
The life you held so dear,
Cause when you dont hold on to love
you simply dissapear. "
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well im going to sleep now people, leave many many comments cause I feel like a loser and because I dont have a life and I need to have something to look forward to in the morning ahaha..
umm...yea....and PEOPLE read the whole entry cause it fucking rocks. dane cook is my hero and...umm...yea....Felicia you are one cool cat! lol I put you in my entry! dont you feel all special and sexy now? heh Fairwell My dear SitD Friends, Till tomorrow/
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To anyone that reads this: You must go to this site!!!!!!
www.savetoby.com
its awesome! :-) |
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August 11th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: otep- warhead
Feeling: exhausted
So I woke up at 10am which was a very difficult task for me seeing as I didnt fall asleep until 4am. So that was fun lol
umm...went out with the parental figure and just recently got home...hmm...very interesting day so far. Guitar lesson tomorrow, should be quite fun....I get to see....-cough-...nevermind lol...
um...yea...I rally dont have anything to say, just figured I should make a new entry.
went to the mall with sophia,ben and eleni the other day...sucked ass...though..the mall in general sucks ass.... Its quite pointless going there, but there really isnt anywhere else to go...except for the movies and funtown...which are both expensive.
um yea...sophie and ben apparently arent on good terms, so keeping them from bickering was quite annoying.....but other than that...twas ok...now im going to go play on my guitar..and...yea...much much fun...lol
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August 10th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: static x -start a war
I have nothing to say yet I felt like making a new entry. arent I special??? Mhmm...
I did something stupid...ahah...umm..yea..Im thinking thats all there is to say.
I must go now...to...do something...I dont know what yet...Maybe some guzitar playing..maybe..throwing myself out of my window...im leaning towards option A...we will see..heh
Is it weird that I find Marilyn manson strangely attractive....?
hehe jack whiiiteee :-)
oi...he is so hott. =-D
I have also been called very strange for thinking rob zombie is attractive ahaha...hmm :-D
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Im eating some pasta right now...Its quite disgusting. actually its some of the worst shit I have ever eaten. But....For some reason im still eating it lol :-)
You Are 80% Weird
You're more than quirky, you're downright strange.
But you're also strangely compelling, like a cult leader.
How Weird Are You?
I dont like fish. Its quite gross...Same with lamb..I dont see how people can eat that shit..
ehh im going to sleep now, i have to wake up EAAARRRLLLYYYYY soo...yea...must sleep...LEAVE SOME FUCKING COMMENTS.
I feel like a loser make me feel special hahaha
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August 10th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: sepultura-roots bloody roots
Feeling: angry
So yes, I just woke up and it is currently 1:55pm. My stupid family are...well...stupid. lol So I sit here listening to music and drinking Mt.dew.
...ek...Max cavalera is so cool..he was so hott back in '98....what a pity...:-P anyway. Im going to go take a shower and...stuff...yea..I have nothing left to say.
Fucking Llamas. ^^
People Disgust me :-)
well most anyway...
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August 9th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: Static-x-I want to fucking break it
Feeling: shocked
This one's for the assholes
This one's for the freaks
This one's for the stupid fuckers
Trying to keep me incomplete
They can't take me outside
They can't take me down
They can't take my thoughts 'cause
I will smash their face into the ground
I want to fucking break it
Feel this anger building
Feel this blow your mind
Feel this break the silence
I can't keep my hate pent up inside
They can't take me outside
They can't take me down
They can't take my thoughts 'cause
I will smash their face into the ground
I want to fucking break it
I want to crush you from the inside
I got no time to fake it
I got no time to waste with your kind
Take this for the last time
Take this for release
This one's for my enemies
You know who you are
Fuck off, please
I want to fucking break it
static-x - I want to fucking break it.
hmm...the song describes how I feel...except..a little less angry and a little more lost..hmm...just one of those days I suppose
there are so many songs right now that could describe how I feel. Yet I really dont know how I feel. So many emotions. ...does that make any sense?...no...I suppose not..I cant really say that I am in a bad mood...yet..there is something missing. I dont know...maybe its just lack of sleep ...
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Am i the only peron on this site that doesnt post poetry? lol I feel like a loser lol
Sorry people, Im just not talented like that. What I do write I dont really show anyone because it sucks lol. yea..soo...thats all I had to say...I will shut up now haha
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my eyes wont seem to stay open
I suppose it is time to sleep
..... Till tomorrow...have a wonderful night. comments are nice :-) leave some if you love me heh
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August 9th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: sevendust-enemy
Feeling: blah
oi im soo tired today. I feel so drained and i havent really done much, eh it sucks.
school starts back up soon...how fun...
blah.
mmm well enough complaining for now...Im gonna..sit here..and..do ..nothing lol..
I got a cut under my finger nail....It..hurts..like..a bitch....damnit.
and I managed to do it with a pen...Im a fucking retard lol.
....Is it just me...Or does Fall Out Boy fucking suck?? I dont see how people can listen to that shit...they are even worse than simple plan..ugh...
Anyway. mmm...Havent eaten anything today...feeling slightly sick but I suppose thats my own fault lol:-P
ahhhh Karyn Crisis is sooooo fucking awesome! :-P
....Im going to get a tattoo of a dragon wrapping around my stomache when I turn 18...Im quite excited
this is what I want it to look like but on my stomache and a little bigger
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....People are always afraid or sickened by the "freaks" ....the ones dressed in black and shit, which might I add I was a "goth" once heh....anyway, people always steer their children away when they walk by or give them dirty looks. Now, I have toned my look down alot since last year...I still cant bring myself to wear pink, but im ok with that lol. anyway! But when you look like a slut or ..."normal" they simply dont pay attention to you. Now....I think people should just be fucking afraid of everyone. because I may look normal, But I am a fucking nut case lol. Why im not in a white padded room with fluffy bunnies is beyond me!
anyway that was pointless. im done now lol
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eeek this is my favorite song of the day!!!
Dirt house- Static-x
My dirthouse
Watch it happen from the box
Mind wanders
Dirty dirty word
My dirthouse
This is where it all comes down
Look into my eye
You feel my skin, its dirt
Drive me wild
Remember when you blew my mind?
Cut through me
Living in the dirt
These dogs are curled up in a little ball
These dogs are freezing their asses off
Go, go , go
Pick up the pieces
I wanna call this my home
Go, go, go
Pick up the pieces
I've got some pain of my own
Open the box
See whats inside
You make the call
Sick of it all again
Tear me down
Pushing on my every nerve
Scares me
I hope i don't get burnt
Look closer
Look into my dirty mind
Feeling sick inside
My blood has turned to fucking dirt |
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August 8th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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im fucking sick of it. I dont care anymore...
i love wayne static :-) |
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August 7th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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Comment to this entry and tell me anything that you want... but post it anonymously (if you want).
Anything.
A story, a secret, a confession, an apology, a fear, a love, a hatred -- anything.
Be sure to post anonymously (if you want) and honestly.
Post as many times as you want.
Then, put this in your diary to see what your friends (and perhaps others who you don't even realize read your diary) have to say.
(yes i stole this from someone. you can steal it from me if you want.) |
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August 7th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: Static-x- I'm the one
HOLY SHIT! Ok, I got Start a war by the X-ness. :-) heh...Its quite good. i really like it :-) Im gonna get another shadows fall cd too.... eekkk
Ok. so..Ive lost 5lbs...I wasnt even trying...So I currently weigh 105...I dont know if thats healthy, but eating has become more of a burden because Im never hungry...eh..and I feel weak and tired all the time. Im thinking thats because of the lack of food, but I cant help it. Im just not hungry...hmm..
Gutiar lessons again tomorrow. should be fun...eh..I dont know..
Anywhooo yes...I say " The devils rejects"
holy shit....
that was a sick and twisted movie. funny as hell. It was SoO bad that It was enjoyable lol. Rob Zombie is a little hottie though lol..
I have weird taste in men lol
...I think its the long hair....men with long hair are sexy.....ugh haha..:-P
havent eaten all day so Im thinking nwo is a good time to get something in my stomache lol |
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August 5th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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I decided to make a new entry because the old one was well....old lol
So I have nothing to say but I am putting that pic of karyn on this entry too because she fucking rocks. I WILL have hair like hers one day! lol
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"This Is The New Shit"
Everything has been said before
There's nothing left to say anymore
When it's all the same
You can ask for it by name
Babble babble bitch bitch
Rebel rebel party party
Sex sex sex and don't forget the "violence"
Blah blah blah got your lovey-dovey sad-and-lonely
Stick your STUPID SLOGAN in:
Everybody sing along.
Babble babble bitch bitch
Rebel rebel party party
Sex sex sex and don't forget the "violence"
Blah blah blah got your lovey-dovey sad-and-lonely
Stick your STUPID SLOGAN in:
Everybody sing,
Are you motherfuckers ready
For the new shit?
Stand up and admit,
tomorrow's never coming.
This is the new shit.
Stand up and admit.
Do we get it? No.
Do we want it? Yeah.
This is the new shit,
Stand up and admit.
Babble babble bitch bitch
Rebel rebel party party
Sex sex sex and don't forget the "violence"
Blah blah blah got your lovey-dovey sad-and-lonely
Stick your STUPID SLOGAN in:
Everybody sing along.
Everything has been said before
There's nothing left to say anymore
When it's all the same
You can ask for it by name,
Are you motherfuckers ready
For the new shit?
Stand up and admit,
tomorrow's never coming.
This is the new shit.
Stand up and admit.
Do we get it? No.
Do we want it? Yeah.
This is the new shit,
Stand up and admit.
And now it's "you know who"
I got the "you know what"
I stick it "you know where"
You know why, you don't care.
And now it's "you know who"
I got the "you know what"
I stick it "you know where"
You know why, you don't care.
Babble babble bitch bitch
Rebel rebel party party
Sex sex sex and don't forget the "violence"
Blah blah blah got your lovey-dovey sad-and-lonely
Stick your STUPID SLOGAN in:
Everybody sing.
Are you motherfuckers ready
For the new shit?
Stand up and admit,
tomorrow's never coming.
This is the new shit.
Stand up and admit.
Do we get it? No.
Do we want it? Yeah.
This is the new shit,
Stand up and admit.
So,
LET US ENTERTAIN YOU
LET US ENTERTAIN YOU...
Blah blah blah blah everybody sing along.
-marilyn manson
that is one of the other few MM songs I like....simply briliant lol..quite catchy, i have it stuck in my head right now lol |
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August 3rd, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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eeeeeeek my diary is so shexaaaay :-P |
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August 3rd, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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ahaha I fucking LOOOOVVVEEE these pics of Brian Fair..holy shit...he is so hott....that is my dream man right there heh...guys with dreds are sexy...:-)
new layout...heh...I looove it lol Its a bit annoying to scroll down so much to see an entry but I couldnt bare to not put those pics on here haha...Hes just so damn sexy and has a brilliant voice. Im usually into harder stuff, but I really loooove shadows fall. heh :-)
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ahaha Me and kate took some insane pics last night...some of them came out really good...then there were some where we looked like retards. it was awesome.
I was looking at the pictures kate took at camp.. Damn...she is amazing, she has a way of capturing things and making the weirdest things look beautiful.....I myself paint...I dont take pictures unless I absolutely need to lol. anywayz..once I get those pics ill be posting them on my myspace thingy.. :-P
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August 3rd, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: rammstein-bestrafe mich
Feeling: amused
aaah Im so tired today...I stayed up until four in the morning and woke up at 8:30...soo yea...my brother is here in maine. hes a jackass, but I love him haha...hes only staying for a couple weeks I was told...but...we will see...I dont really believe it.
Umm...yea...not much else to say really.
Ill write more when im not falling asleep lol
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August 2nd, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: shadowfacts
Feeling: inquisitive
Aaah Im in so much pain today, my arm feels like its gonna fall off...umm Yea, gonna go to kates in a couple hours, should be fun...hmm...Not much else to say really...nothing new happened...and Im a boring person..so Ill shut up
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August 1st, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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Eeeek Im so tired, therefore I must sleep hah
Anyway, I should be back on tomorrow, but I may not be because Im going to kates house....yea...wee...Umm yea, anyway Everyone have a lovely night and a great day tomorrow
love yall.
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HOLY SHIT! I just listened to the best fucking song EVER! its Rational Gaze by Meshuggah
damn...what a good song. here are the lyrics for it.
Rational Gaze
[Music: Fredrik Thordendal]
[Lyrics: Tomas Haake]
Squint your eyes to see clearly. Blur reality to make
it real
Let focus go from your deceiving eyes to know what's
been concealed
We've all been blinded - Subjects to visual
misinformation
A systematic denial of the crystalline
To see the fine grain, to read the hidden words
The context of parallel truth - Devoid of
fragmentation
Our light-induced image of truth - Filtered blank of
its substance
As our eyes won't adhere to intuitive lines
Everything examined, Separated, one thing at a time
The harder we stare the more complete the
disintegration. -Dissolution
Eyes re-opened, Reasoning focalized, Receptors
activated
Perspectives distorted
The ladder beyond our grasp
The twin-headed serpent forever hidden
Where's the true knowledge -
Where engines of the sane & insanity merge
The clarity. The unity
Reality untouchable, transparent, invisible
to our fixed, restricted fields of vision
Existence taken for granted. -Absolute
Possessed, owned, controlled
By the common sense-infected rational gaze
Onward forever we walk among the ignorant
Never stray from the common lines
-meshuggah |
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August 1st, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: rammstein-mein teil
Feeling: angelic
IM BaCK FUCKERS! :-) umm Yea so today was fun
We had a Softball awards thing, we played a game twas much fun, I didnt pitch because Im a loser haha but when I went up to bat I did a 360 and fell flat on ass haha.. people laughed...it was great. And then i got really hyper and did like 8 laps around the field...heh...yea..and tomorrow Im going back to kates house and hang out with her a Jakkkeeee...weeee...I love that kid he is such a weirdo haha...
um yea....I think thats about it....wait...no...there is something else.
I ate...cookies...alot of them..they were good...Ok OK NOW im done lol
so i leave you with my favorite song of the day
Prejudice
Shame of all nations
What seeds do we plant in an infant's mind?
Seeds of destruction
And don't you trust their kind?
This hate is deep-rooted, get rid of the weed
Destroying the harvest
Of peace that we need
Prejudice
Shame of all nations
We got to live in the same neighborhood
When you take a man's life it don't mean that you're good
Same blood runs through your veins
Your hate proves you're insane
See a man's face but you can't see his heart
Don't even know him but you tear him apart
Them kind of things, they're just killing off the Earth
Madness, mayhem, we must desert...
Prejudice
Shame of all nations
Breeding hate, don't need no segregation
If dirty people are all I can see
Then in their eyes the same dirt covers me
Take off the blindfold, it's time to enlighten
Come out of the wickedness, step out of the night
One man's agony is another man's joy
For self satisfaction we're prepared to destroy
One man, one earth and one destiny
To kill Satan and give God the glory...
Prejudice
Shame of a nation
Breeding hate, dont cause annihilation
For real...
[Lyrics: Benji / Max C.]
-Soulfly
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