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WALKING BLIND |
August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
Listening to: nothing
Feeling: abandoned
well its friday night and all my freinds have decided 2 be nerdy ppl and stay in due to our skool certificate being on monday. i dont know y but im not worried, weird!
so yea Tom's *sigh* formal is in 10 days and he hasnt said anything about it 2 me. im scared
i bet hes forgotten about me and asked sum other hot chik, yea thats prob wats happenend,
gee and i thougt he was avoiding me!
i saw Tom *sigh* at the races on Tuesday. he was wearing a suit *sigh* very nice! he was talkin to me but not a word abotu the formal.
im not sure what he was talking about actually - too much champagne libby thinks!
PEOPLE TO KILL LIST
* myself oviously
* alana-annoying ratty nerd thinks we're mates
* bethany college community
....wait scrap all them
PEOPLE TO KILL LIST
* EVERYONE
better :)
well other stuff has happened, like i got a new fone yay! and last night we performed this greese thingy at the enmore for dancing, and im pregnant...but nothign 2 exciting so ill go!
bye to all and all for one!
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life as karen 1 |
August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
Listening to: eskimo joe
Feeling: addicted
PART 1
omg tonight is like the first time in a week im able to write in here SO SHUT UP FAGS! im just going to pretend its last thursday...rewwwwiinnd. so last night was one of the BEST nights ever! no no i didnt get laid it was the Blink concert! :D:D:D it was my first time in a mosh (yes im not proud) and wow was it crazy. i got crushed trampled and sweated on more than id liked to have been. when i got home i was washing all the dirt off my feet, and wondered why the blackness wasnt coming off, then realised they were bruises! |
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IM BACK |
October 16th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: silence
Feeling: different
libbys decided to re-join the D team.
missed you all and i know i know you've missed me too.
for some reason all my friends have vanished :(
its nearly midnight and i need my beauty sleep and all so just quickly.
here is whats changed since the last time i spoke..
1. I got kicked out of school
2. I actually started comming to school
3. I got accepted back into school
4. I got a new job
5. I got fired from new job
6. I planned a holiday to thailand
7. I am over all faggy boys previously mentioned
I dont know im happier about life now. weird because things arent that great at the moment... getting kicked out of school deffinatley messed me up. Things just seem clearer, happier for me.
Ive realised i do love my family and should stop treating my home as a motel.
That my (true) friends will help me through anything and i love them to bits.
Ive realised life isnt going to magically hand me the sort of life i want and im going to have to make some sort of plan, and work for it. I still refuse to plan my life and i live for excitment and un-expected events, but if i breeze throught everything ill look back when im 30 and realised ive been waiting for life to find me. Instead im going to find it.
Ive realised people only give you so many chances and trust, and that shouldnt be messed with.
Ive learnt that im capable of dealing with shitty situations, and am able to laugh at them later.
But most of all, which i sort of always knew... i've learnt everything you do each day, has got to be for yourself. not to please others.....or to follow the crowd.
Not being selfish - just being yourself.
well very inspiring i know but its just how i feel at the moment. It feels like for once things might be ok.
ill keep you posted
Libby xxx |
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why did i wake up |
June 2nd, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: incubus
Feeling: mixed
NOTHING LIKE HAVING THE BIGGEST ANXIETY ATTACK OF YOUR LIFE INFRONT OF YOUR EX- MUSIC TEACHER AND YEAR CO-ORDINATOR!
them grabbing you trying to calm you down...
you grabbing the wall pushing them off you, trying to breathe...
then having your principal tell you theres a more than good chance of not receiving a HSC, followed by stupid rhetorical questions...
but whats more is the school councellor who DOENST KNOW YOU suggest you go to a hospital and have your HEAD EXAMINED for CHEMICAL IMBALENCES!!
all in one days worth of school, a day where you werent ment to be there, but on an excursion.
you was me today. and i don't think i can take any more punishment for being me.
im worn out....
peace x Libby
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EVIL SEVENTEEN |
May 26th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: SILVERCHAIR
Feeling: blissful
WELL TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY MOTHER FUKERS!!!
yep 17 at last.
i probably should have got my L's last year, becaus now i could be driving....meh what u gonna do..
I love kool freinds who buy me mad prezzies like tomatoes and transvestite fish. i dislike faggy fake friends who give me a fake hug and mutters the words happy birthday to me.
i also like gay friends who give me cards with pictures of HIM in them.
speaking of HIM, HE invited me over 2morrow nite. seems too good and too random to be true.
Hannah has many theories:
maybe its not him,
maybe hes being a fag and it settin me up, maybe he just wants sex.
i tend to agree with all of these, but guess theres only one way to know for sure, go over to HIS tomorrow night. Wow how weird and nervouse it will be, i garentee i will stutter at least 35 times.
Well anyways its all very exciting and gives me something to think about.
ill write again soon i promise!!
Love always Shibby-The-17-Year-Old!!
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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A demented affair that was labelled love |
April 25th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: tick tock
Feeling: alone
SORRY IT'S LONG BUT THE CREATIVE JUICES WERE FLOWING...
Once, I was totally besotted with a boy. I would hound him, attacking his tough spirit with venomous hurt, via my acerbic tongue. For years, I trailed his shining heart.
You have that certain taste, that special smile, those thousand dollar-a-piece eyes.
I would gather around him like smoke from an unattended cigarette, my arms and heart and legs, I only wanted more limbs with which i could cover his entire body- consuming him as I would a juicy peach.
Give me your left hand, carry your bag with your right, and walk with me to a place that can be seldom found.
For years, I courted him in reverse. I loved him to the point out of right hate. We would speak on the phone to each other every night, sending over mixed messages and wrung out bitterness, all the while saying, 'I love you' with a false hope held under each syllable.
Your ears will take water and block the sweetness of caring syllables of your supposed friends and cellophane lovers.
He told me that he couldn't make love with me because he was not sure if I was his 'one'. I was being worn down to a rambling mess.
Your poor soul will not have popcorn to nibble, will not be given a footrest, won't be treated to a skip or fast forward button.
I was highly strung, was crying over the smallest matters, breaking down, skipping school, stealing away, and all I got in return was a false sense of being cared for by a cold, cold hearted boy.
"Fat is a word of distinction. Killing is newsworthy, death is referred to in the third person, nipple warmers are a must in New Zeland, curry is the arseholes friend, cafes are booming, the weather changes as I do, Dylan hasn't come back for a year now." Sipping coffee and cruel you take a seat across from your reflection and converse in non-sensical dialects of Balkan tongues.
The beginning of our second year together, signalled the end. The end of a demented affair that was labelled 'a love'.
TAKE CARE
LIBBY XOXOXOXO |
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brand new me |
March 2nd, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: chanting....
Feeling: intellectual
this is just a quick entry
im sorry sitD but from now on i am no longer devoted to you.
i have myself a real diary, made from paper and evertything, where people cant read it and i can be super duper honest.
i wil still drop in every now and then of course.
well today i went to the Buddhist temple in woolongong
describe it in one word? - inspiring!
(other words to describe it - beautiful, amazing, peaceful, magical, breathtaking, wonderful)
geez and i though religion was a laod of shit.
the ideas they have about life are just beautiful, i wanted to know so much more about everything to do with buddhism.
i think im going to become a christian with buddhist beliefs, caus i still believe in God etc...
wow religion = touchy subject
all i can say is i loved it there, i wish to live there one day!
i feel different now. inspired.
well thats about all,
cyaa!!!
p.s the more i think about Azza the more i like him, it's soooo fukin anooying, hes not even that gr8! (yes he is :( ) i have like created my own little world in my head where we are going out and shit. man im such a faggy loser! |
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long time no see |
February 16th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: matchbox 20
Feeling: exhausted
im sooo sorry sitD!!!! its not my fault i havnt written in here for soo long, but i went away, then skool, then masturbation...it just all took over :(
well im back everyone!
i just came back from dancing and stupid trians stupidly fuked up grrr *raise fist*
but i met a hot guy who started talking to me
he smelt sooo good
i was wearing purple dance pants with GEMMA on my ass
thanks alot god!
in brief......i hate skool yr 11 blows!
i have to start comming to skool on time this yr or they will kick me outa skool. so i have gradually blended in with every other on-time-freak.
i have lost my trademark :(
quick low down on current guy situation:
1) havnt spoken 2 adam (21 yr old with gf) in over a month! sooo proud. but wish he would call me :(
2) azza (guy in band) who im strangley liking more and more each day ONLY talks to me when hes promoting hes stupid band (actually its good ) and is only nice to me when he wants me to watch one of his shows!
3) pat (whom i have loved for the past year and a bit!) msges me sayin hes single again and wants 2 meet up. i smell sex in the air, i think thats all he can smell too. so im gonna have to see wat happenes caus i cant fall for another guy who jsut wants sex AGAIN! (i.e. adam, azza, bro, pat....list goes on)
4) bro (ex who took to formal) is bein really sweet to me, but agian i smell sex in the air. which should b fine but when i think of him going out with any other chik its makes my blood turn cold. strange...
AND THATS IT FOLKS. once again its soo simply complicated.
Azza's band is playing friday night. i said id go if i had nothing else on. (i have been planning what to wear ever since he told me about it 2 months ago! but shhh)
my plan is to act like i dont like him!
ill prob end up going home suicidle....meh
well this was just a quick hello
OMG I FORGOT HANNAH AND SOPHIE ARE NO LONGER SINGLE! weird huh!
my dinners prob burnt to a smouldering ash so better fly butterfly!
cya dude
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so uninspired |
January 3rd, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: hmmm hmmmm huh?
Feeling: unworthy
so this is 2005 aye?
nothing special.
latley my mimd has felt like a blank piece of paper.
you know somethings ment to be written on it, but havnt figured out what yet. and the longer you look at it...the more the blankness stings your eyes.
the only thing im saying about guys at the moment, is they really know how to mess with girls heads...and i dont even think half of them know they are doning it.
i read somewhere that its a proven fact that girls get more emotionally attatched to guys than vice-versa.
but i refuse to blame science for the way im feeling.
dont think i could handle another reason to hate science.
on a more positive note...
saturday night me and my freinds somehow find ourselves in the appartment of this black dude who owns Home (nightclub in city)
hes names Duke (got to be coolest name in world) and hes 21 or so, and we are suddenly having him and hes freinds - who just so happen to be MODLES - cooking us dinner.
they were all so nice and so non sleezy in any way. it was a really fab night. i dunno why jsut was.
sunday i took off work because i woke up with massive hangover!! so called in sick :D
then waited for Hannah to finish work and we both trecked to the SGC to watch the cricket. our freind got us free tickets :D :D
ahhhh it was great, couldnt get more auzzie than that!
sittin at the cricket with drunken mates, watching them yell and obbussing the cricket players and other spectators, while watching your friend get chatted up by totally pissed yobo in little white shorts and a comical oversized hat slowly sipping on his VB.
ahhhhh the serenity.
well im off once more.
see ya round like a rissole!
bye!
libby xoxox |
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merry fukin xmas |
December 27th, 2004 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: and so this is christmas.....
Feeling: abused
Theres something about hearing the guy you like say that you were nothing but a drunken mistake that makes you stop and think 'gee god thanks alot, i love you too!'
A few things have happened to me recently
* realised aaron will never like me or invite me into his wolrd so i should stop obsessing
*CHRISTMAS EVE! yayay
it wasnt too bad this year, to what i thought would be a good year, turned out shit, then finished up ok.
"super cool party" fizzled out so a few ppl just came bak 2 mine. all in all id say it wasnt bad.
* HAD CHRISTMAS! YAYAYAYAY
for once it was actually ok, well it was an improvement from last year - listening to my dad tell me how much he hates me over christmas dinner.
Hannah and i have realised we are identical and share the same brain, (half each to explain the weirdness)
we have the exact same guy problems....and because i know you all care soooooo much im gonna say them muuhahahah :D
my guy probs:
# guy called Joe really likes me and thinks i like him because i got drunk and hooked up with him last week :S
# adam and me are still 'at it' and for once i dont mind caus as much as i like being with him, i dont look at him as a potential bf.
# guitarist dude (Aaron) - totally in love with him after spending a really sweet night together, just found out he sees it slightly different :
Friend "so what happened with you and libby?"
Aaron "what can i say, we were both drunk"
Libby *insert heart breaking*
# guy called pat who i have just gotten over - (365 days later) decided to msg me again and want to sleep with me again EVEN though he does have a gf. id like to take this chance to add that i imagined marrying this guy...he is in my view PERFECT.
so yay guy who has taken me a year to get over now wants me, and im scared to say yes in fear for it taking another year to get over him
think ill say no. (good in theory, not in reality)
well i could blab on more but im sure you really dont care, all i have to say is God is playing a really sick joke on me atm. i know i shouldnt get all gooey and sad over guys, and i normally dont, but its the time of year to get all sad.
ill probably end up a spinster by this rate.
well cya fags
Libby xoxoxox
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