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November 1st, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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Kim is gonna be fine. She got back saturday night. Her mom hates me though but I don't mind. At least she's alright and hopefully things will start to get back to normal with everyone. |
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The Patient |
November 1st, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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A groan of tedium escapes me, startling the fearful.
Is this a test?
It has to be. Otherwise I can't go on.
Draining patience. drain vitality.
this paranoid, paralyzed vampire act's a little old.
But I'm still right here, giving blood and keeping faith. And I'm still right here.
But I'm still right here, giving blood and keeping faith. And I'm still right here.
I'm gonna wait it out
If there were no rewards to reap,
no loving embrace to see me through this tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now.
I'm gonna wait it out
If there were no desire to heal
The damaged and broken met along this tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now.
I still may. And I still may.
Be patient.
I must keep reminding myself of this...
If there were no rewards to reap,
no loving embrace to see me through this tedious path I've chosen here,
I certainly would've walked away by now.
And I still may. And I still may. And I still may.
I'm gonna wait it out.
I'm gonna wait it out.
Gonna wait it out.
Gonna wait it out.
-Tool |
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October 26th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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i dont ever remember feeling this horrible.
it was all my fault in the first place....
not hers. |
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That Perfect Day |
October 25th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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Your life slowly bleeds
helplessly I stood by
I just can't believe
these things have happened
to you and me
I thought you were safe
while I was away
it's what kept me going
from day to day
But I was to late
you had already gone
caught in a tragic fate
just keep holding on
I should never have left
on that perfect day
when our lives came crashing down
and I'm the only one to blame
I can't hold back now
the pain I hide away
I can't go on without
seeing you another day
Wish I could reset
like the games we always played
but life it seems
is a little harder than that
time starts slipping away
as my heart starts to crack
you seem so far away
when are you coming back
I miss you more than ever
these pictures that I have
are memories that last forever
-To Kim (I miss you and hope to see you soon) |
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Free Bird |
October 1st, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: Skynyrd
Feeling: distant
If I leave here tomorrow
Would you still remember me?
For I must be travelling on, now,
'Cause there's too many places I've got to see.
But, if I stayed here with you, girl,
Things just couldn't be the same.
'Cause I'm as free as a bird now,
And this bird you can not change.
Lord knows, I can't change.
Bye, bye, its been a sweet love.
Though this feeling I can't change.
But please don't take it badly,
'Cause Lord knows I'm to blame.
But, if I stayed here with you girl,
Things just couldn't be the same.
Cause I'm as free as a bird now,
And this bird you'll never change.
And this bird you can not change.
Lord knows, I can't change.
Lord help me, I can't change.
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October 1st, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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....so this what 5:29 feels like. |
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Lament to Separation (sumthin like that) |
August 18th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Nevermind i am going back to arkansas. kinda have to, even though it hurts so bad to do it. Sorry to those that find out about this through a computer screen first. love you guys for always being there for me, at least the few that were... thanks for the good times.
love you guys |
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Shatterday |
August 15th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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Days are numbered 6-6-6
And I'll begin the countdown
By calling off the circus
somewhere in these
Cryptic scriptures
I'll find myself drifting in a sky
Full of...
Scars they cut into you
Blisters rose colored hue
Mayday we're going down
These mescaline memories are morose
Your kerosene company is comatose
Our days are numbered 3-2-1
And when you bit the bullet
I held the smoking gun
Somewhere in these
Violent volumes
I'll find myself drifting in a sky
Full of...
Scars they cut into you
Blisters rose colored hue
Mayday we're going down
These mescaline memories are morose
Your kerosene company is comatose
And I would sick up half of my cold eye
To set you on your head
If I were you then I would memorize
This loose lipped lullaby
Instead of waiting
Carving out your own
Scars they cut into you
Blisters rose colored hue
Mayday we're going down
Follow we went around
Scars they cut into you
Blisters rose colored hue
Mayday we're going down
These mescaline memories are morose
Your kerosene company is comatose
-Vendetta Red- |
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Breakdown |
August 13th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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I hope this old train breaks down
Then I could take a walk around
And, see what there is to see
And time is just a melody
All the people in the street
Walk as fast as their feet can take them
I just roam through town
And though my windows got a view
The frame im looking through
Seems to have no concern for me now
So for now
I need this here
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
This engine screams out loud
Sayin the beat gunna crawl westbound
So I dont even make a sound
Cause its gunna sting me when I leave this town
All the people in the street
That i'll never get to meet
If these dont bend somehow
And I got no time
That I got to get to
Where I dont need to be
So I
I need this here
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I need this here
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I wanna break on down
But I cant stop now
Let me break on down
But you cant stop nothing
If you got no control
Of the thoughts in your mind
That you kept in, you know
You dont know nothing
But you dont need to know
The wisdoms in the trees
Not the glass windows
You cant stop wishing
If you dont let go
But things that you find
And you lose, and you know
You keep on rolling
Put the moment on hold
The frames too bright
So put the blinds down low
I need this here
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I need this here
Old train to breakdown
Oh please just
Let me please breakdown
I wanna break on down
But I cant stop now
-Jack Johnson- |
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Fucking Choices and no Time |
August 11th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
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Well it seems that i must make a life changing decision again.... AGAIN! I could stay in Evansville and live in a different home or move back to Arkansas with my grandparents. Ive already moved back and forth twice to change my life for the better and each time my plan goes to shit. I know if i leave for Arkansas i wont see some of my most of my friends ever again and yet it would be selfish of me not to go cause of the state my grandparents health. I just dont no what 2 do. Furthermore the cops would watch my every move due to my criminal history in AR. Court has granted me permission to come back but not 2 leave at least till im 18. I dont know who 2 turn 2 for help. Ive got 24 hours 2 decide. enlighten me... sum1 |
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