| 56. i can't believe i did that.. |
May 9, 2008 |
so last night i agreed to be this girl claire's designated driver for a party. i was kind of pressured into doing it, but not really. i don't know why i agreed.
i think i just wanted to KNOW what i was not missing. i wanted to know that i was completely right in my decision. i wanted to know that everything i thought about drinking, drugs, smoking, and parties was accurate. i wanted to know that i really do feel extremely uncomfortable in that situation. and i wanted to know that i really do get scared around drugs and alcohol. so now i know. i was right. one hundred percent. the drunken party scene is a horrible thing to be involved in. the same thing happens at every single one. doesn't matter if the people are different, doesn't matter if the location is different. guys go to get girls drunk and high to hook up with them. girls go to let guys get them drunk and high to hook up with them. it's not a good place to be.
the absolute worst part was that i dragged kiefer along. i made him go with me so i wouldn't be alone and so i was protected. it was a good feeling to have him with me in that garbage dump of a situation, but i felt bad the entire night. i felt utterly selfish for asking him to go. he had a final to study for and i kept him out from 8pm to 3am practically. i feel awful.
but i'm happy that i KNOW. |
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