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May 14, 2008 |
Feeling: happy
So today I turned 28... Two more years till the big three-oh... When I first gout out of bed, my joints ached like I was 60, but I think that was psychological... xD
Got a nice email from my mum wishing me a good day as soon as I woke up and logged on... Said I was spending the day with Ana, so she hasn't phoned, but I'll ring her tomorrow for a chat, so that's all good...
Spent the whole day with Ana, had a wonderful time, every moment was perfect, every second golden. And my name has never sounded sexier... :D
She bought me a fucking HUGE card, it's so pretty... It says:
"Happy Birthday to the one I love... Love U... There's no one I'd rather say this to... Always and forever I Love U... HAppy Birthday Jon! I know you're gonna have a wicked cool day! And I can't wait 'til the day I'll wake up beside you on your birthday! Well, everyday really... I love you Jon, always and forever... Ana xXx"
And reading it now, it's made me well up with happy tears, which it did earlier, but I didn't let her know that, it'd ruin my reputation as a hard man... *cough*
She got me a damn good looking book too, Book of the Dead by Patricia Cornwell...
So yeah, the whole day with her was awesome... Gonna try for 4 one day... xD
Then, I got to see my beautiful kids, took them up the park and "accidentally" bumped into Ana and Laura... The kids adored Ana and Ev seems to have a little crush on Laura... Hee hee!
We had a woodchip fight also involving a football, then chased around trying to tickle Evan and Ana... Amber hugged her goodbye, Ev didn't but he can be shy... And then they kept talking about her and asking when they could see her again... Positive or what?! Helps if my kids like my fiancee...
Dunno how the ex-wife'll like that though... :/ But if she doesn't she can go fornicate herself with a wooden stick...
Yeah, took them back to their nan's and I got to spend and extra hour with them cos it was my birthday, their nan even made us pancakes! Bless her... The kids made me cards and gave me weird little gifts... Evan gave me a pirate bag and Amber gave me a weird little ball-on-a-string-with-plastic-triangle-looking thing... o.O But anyways, it was cool... Evan also drew a icture of us in my card... Weird thing was, I was in a dress... Well, maybe not so weird, but you know... And he wrote "pooooooooooooh" randomly... xD
Since I got home, I've drunk two big mugs of coffee and got a little hyper, chatted with Ana all night long and I'm really looking forward to seeing her again tomorrow...
I'm gonna get jumped... XD
Peace xXx |
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| Para você… |
May 12, 2008 |
Feeling: loved
Ana, você fêz-me o homem que o mais feliz eu fui nunca. Você termina-me, e eu pensei que eu afixaria este apenas para que você o diga. Você espanta-me. Você surpreende-me. Eu tive certas dificuldades no ano passado e todas as vezes, mesmo antes que nós estivemos “junto”, você foi lá para mim. Você ajudou-me. Você consolou-me. Você ajudou-me sempre a ver a luz na extremidade do túnel. Você soube sempre que eu começ com os maus momentos. E você era direita, não era você? Porque eu começ com os maus momentos. Com você.
Sempre que eu sou triste ou para baixo, tudo que eu tenho que fazer é retratar seu sorriso perfeito, seus olhos sparkling e eu sou lembrado que eu tenho a felicidade onde conta o a maioria. Eu te amo tanto Ana, você é meu pinguim, minha lagosta, meu tudo, meu nada. Nenhum mater o que você lhe chama, você é meu e eu sou seu, agora e para sempre.
Eu sou o melhor que eu posso ser com você por meu lado, e eu sou orgulhoso do fato de que um dia eu poderei o chamar Sra. Lipscombe. Eu te amo Ana, com cada onça de mim, do coração, da alma, do corpo e do espírito.
Eu apenas tive que dizer-lhe uma mais vez... xD |
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| Silver Lining |
May 12, 2008 |
Feeling: relieved
Okay, rent is pretty much sorted, I should be thankful for that, even though the person bailing me out is a douche...
Got a call from the guy I did a day's work for last week, he's eager to get me doing more for him, so that's a plus...
I've got Wednesday to look forward to, my fiancee and my kids meeting for the first time, me turning 28 (old maaaaan...) and seeing my fiancee for the first time since Friday last week...
The interview has been rearranged for Friday, so that should be good...
And as for the weekend... Well, that's just gonna kick major fucking ass... xD
So really, my last entry on here seems pretty desperate and pointless now...
Ohoh, plus, she's getting her hair cut today! Can't wait to see the new look... :D
Peace to one and all, and to one and all a good day x |
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| Jeez Louise... |
May 12, 2008 |
Feeling: frustrated
Job interview rearranged AGAIN.
No money AGAIN.
Rent due and landlord is getting fucked off waiting.
Had to ask someone for a loan, that I really did NOT want to have to ask.
Two days til I turn 28 and THIS is where my life is... |
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| Late, Late Show |
May 11, 2008 |
Feeling: happy
In the city, where angels fear to hover and devils come to croon, the sex of the night lets down her black narcotic hair under a yellow opium moon. Here a shadow of a shadow, an earth bound ghost shivers, not from October chill, but in erotic pain. He says to his dead lover "We should never have come here, with flesh so soft and hearts so unwise, but like tigers in tall tall grass,like Christ in the Garden of Gethsemane, we sucked in our fear and we came here." Now all the atrocities are replayed, like a late late show, "We came here but we never should have stayed, though we had inertia and radius and depth, we took the last train with velocity and passed our own deaths." So, the CROW spirals down through a collapsed dream and the only sound he makes is like a concave scream... |
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| Updating |
May 11, 2008 |
Listening to: Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom incidental music... xD -
Feeling: alive
Well, life is going kinda good and yet I still flaw... I keep doing self-destructive things, like last week when I pissed off my best friends by talking shit and not really knowing or meaning what I was saying, because my state of mind was totally screwed up. Damn. Gonna deal with that situation as and when...
But here I am, sitting here on Sunday night, thinking how good this weekend was, taking my kids to see my mum up in Derby. For the FIRST TIME IN 3 YEARS I WAS ALLOWED TO HAVE MY KIDS UNSUPERVISED OVERNIGHT! Woop... It was legendary, we stayed up so late talking and having fun, even though I was throwing up Saturday afternoon / evening cos of something I must've eaten... The weekend was just so damn good, no bad points can spoil it in my memory... Not even my alcoholic brother being too pissed to turn up to what turned out to be a fun family reunion...
Now I know I keep banging on about it and tell me to shut up if I start to bore anyone, but... I have finally found my perfect partner, my soul-mate, my penguin, my lobster, my one and only true love, my everything, my nothing... Ana, you are my world, I adore you, I can't wait til we can be all we can be... Anyhoo, enough mushy stuff...
Point being, I showed my mum photos of her and her exact response was "wow, she's pretty"... And mum's coming down on the 6th of June (ironically what would've been my 10th wedding anniversary with Pet... Ugh) to meet her, she's excited and I hope Ana is too...
So now I'm back in Reading, feeling a little low because I wish I lived closer to mum and seeing Selles' status update, it kinda made me think how I should visit more before it's too late, you know? And yet, I still have my spirits raised because I'm back in Reading and I can see Ana again... YAY!
Got a job interview tomorrow for some temping work, got a 3-month temping job that I've been put in for, but most exciting work-wise is the prospect of possibly becoming the PA to one of the richest, nicest men in this country and earning a ton of cash... Fingers crossed...
Book contract is almost sorted, sorting out the final things now, so my writing career actually has a decent future right now...
Oh...
And...
One last thing...
Jon ama Ana com todo seu coração...
Peace out, people, hope you are all well...
xx
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| I Hate Everything About Me |
May 7, 2008 |
Feeling: depressed
Why the fuck can't I pull myself out of this? Life's not that bad, but I'm seeing the dark clouds rather than the silver linings...
Now I have to act all smily and happy for the sake of my kids when all I want to do is crawl into a pit and die...
I don't deserve her, anyone else would've kicked me aside by now the shit I keep doing, the grief I keep causing... She's got her own problems, she doesn't need me adding to them, so I have to stop being like this for her sake, for ours...
Well, here I go, another act in the drama of me... |
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May 2, 2008 |
Feeling: numb
Perfect, alienated my loved one by being a silent dickall morning thinking too hard about not being able to make rent and being made homeless, then the fucking landlord tops it off by asking me when I'll be paying.
Gonna go jump off a bridge... |
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| Jobby Job Job |
April 28, 2008 |
Listening to: NTrance - Set You Free
Feeling: accomplished
Well, had an interview with the temping agency, will find out tomorrow if I make it through to second round interviews on Thursday...
Here's hoping...
If not, maybe my OTHER career option will spring itself on me...
Hmmm... |
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| CONTRACT!! |
April 25, 2008 |
Feeling: excited
I JUST GOT MY BOOK DEAL CONTRACT THROUGH!! ALLS I GOTTA DO IS GET IT CHECKED OVER LEGALLY, SIGN IT AND THEN SIT BACK AND WAIT BABY!!
WOOHOO!! |
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