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October 10th, 2008 @ 2:18pm |
Listening to: "Drug of Choice" 10 Years
Feeling: delicious
Interesting night last night.
fun night last night.
I went to the "Slave to the Metal" tour last night, it was a night to promote local and unrecognized metal bands from all over NC.
A part of me did think it sounded like fun, and Anna really really really wanted to go because Steven from her work was supposed to be there. He wasn't though. Of Course.
Soooo I went with her in hopes to see this Steven fellow.
I guess I've always been that kind of person who goes with the flow. I've always just ended up in the most random situations, and ask myself 10 seconds later "Wait a minute, what the hell am I doing? how is this happening?"
well, we went to Slave to the Metal. Me, Anna, and Emma.
As we walked in, we realized that being female, we were in the extreme minority. Metal is apparently more of a guy thing.
So bands played; I can't for the life of me remember the name of the first one, but it was pretty bad. The second band played, it was Laura's boyfriend's older brother's band, called Killing Avarice. They were actually pretty damn good.
Then Redemption was Never Promised played. they were shitty.
Throughout this whole thing, of course, we people watched. We do that a lot.
Emma was kind of obsessed with one fellow we cleverly nicknamed "Camera Boy", because he had an extremely nice, large, expensive looking camera and was taking photos. This one had long black straight hair and snakebits and a septum.
There was another one, who had a lime green shirt with skulls all over it. Some grindcore band I'm sure. He was hardcore dancing a ridiculous amount. Like Flips&shit.
and many other interesting ones as well.
Well, RWNP was pretty awful. So after that, we left, becuase, well, we didn't like these bands. It was about 10:15 when we walked out the Brewery.
I sat on my car, Emma&Anna sat on Anna's, we were sitting, talking, trying to decide what we wanted to do.
Next thing I know, I see a boy wave at me. It's the one who was hardcore dancing a lot, with Camera Boy at his side. I look behind me, to make sure it is in fact me he's waving it. There's no one behind me, but I'm wondering why on Earth he's waving at me. Then he finally yells "hey!" and then I know it was, in fact, me. I waved back.
He introduces himself and camera boy, their names are Lopez and Trey respectively. We talk for a moment, he asks us what we are doing right now.
I told him "trying to figure out what to do the rest of the night, actually"
He proceeds to invite us to his friend Tyler's apartment for a party.
Sketchy? I know. but I'm very much a spur-of-the-moment type person. I said sure.
So we follow him to this apartment complex.
We have to park in visitor's spots, becuase apparently they do tow.
We find one for Anna, then the whole group piles in my car to find a spot. We finally find one, we're far as hell away from Anna's car, and apparently Tyler's apartment.
Well after a long walk to Tyler's apartment, we arrive at the "party."
We walk in. The group consists of the 5 original people and three other guys.
Wait. Party?
But they didn't even question it. It was the five guys sitting around watching TV & going on MySpace.
well, this was weird. I did manage to learn their names though. The first thought that went in my head was "Shit, this isn't a party. Shit, date rape." Except not. I did think it was weird though.
There's liquor all over the apartment. One guy even takes out a giant jar of weed. sketchsketchsketch.
well Tyler declares he wants to play Beer Pong. He asks me to be Trey's partner. I told him I had to drive that night. Emma declares loudly that she doesn't [wtf? she's sleeping over at my house that night, and doesn't even ask me if it's okay for her to drink. My fucking parents are home. I declare again, WTF?], and ends up as trey's partner, playing against Tyler and TJ.
At one point, this one guy who I can't remember his name, offers me cocaine. I tell him "I've never done cocaine."
He asks me "do you want to? come on outside."
I say "Dude, I have to drive home in like an hour."
He continues "come on, it only lasts like 15 minutes! you're just left wanting more though..."
I tell him no thanks.
This whole night was inconceivably strange.
more people come in. It finally starts feeling like an ACTUAL party. They all seem to know eachother. I start feeling awkward. Most of them leave. Trey& TJ leave becuase they are meeting one of their over 21 friends to buy them beer. Other of the kids who came leave becuase they are meeting their pot dealer. I felt so out of place it's ridiculous.
I'm 17. I'm a virgin. I've never done any form of drugs in my life. :)
I did tell them my age though.
All they told me was how great it was to be out of high school.
I'm not sure how old they were, actually. But I know they were under 21 [wristbands]. Older than us, though.
All in all, strange night. Around midnight, we had to leave. So we did. Lopez helped us find our cars. we exchanged numbers, hugs, and left.
Strange, strange, strange night.
I'm not sure why I even went.
I've never done something like that before.
I made it home before curfew. Thank god.
Nights at the Brewery.
Now I know why my mom hates it so much. |
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October 3rd, 2008 @ 2:33pm |
Listening to: "Insurance?" The Higher
Feeling: accomplished
is your best friend a virgin?
No.
If you were on death row, what would your last meal be?
hmm...probably chili?
How's your heart lately?
okay.
Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Trey
Did you have plans today?
I got senior portriats, getting tutured in AP chem in like half an hour...
Are you waiting for anyone's call right now?
Sort of? I mean, I'm waiting on Jason for the details on Saturday...
Is the last person you kissed mad at you?
haha no.
How many windows are open on your computer?
4
Story behind your myspace name?
Kelly in Stereo
Are you sarcastic?
yes
Are you shy?
Not really.
Are you talkative?
usually
What are you doing tomorrow?
Flex day!! :) and then work :(
What are you looking forward to?
The Ting Tings concert October 26 :)
&& how about graduating? although that's a whiles away.
Maryland day :)
Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
Yes.
Where was the first kiss you had with the last person you kissed?
On Flynn's bed... :/
Latest you stayed up in the past week?
4 am. I love Charter.
Where are you right now?
Office.
Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
Yes
Do you like pepsi or coca-cola?
Coke
Are you listening to music right now?
yes
Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
I want a whole buncha piercings =) Nape, Spiderbites, Naval, hips =)
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Anna
Who last called you babe/baby?
Flynn =/
Do you curse in front of your parents?
rarely
What is your current annoyance?
AP Chem
Who did you last lay in bed with?
Flynn =/ (JUST LAYING. nothing more)
What would you do if your best friend told you they were moving?
cry
Who pissed you off yesterday?
Cami
What are you supposed to be doing right now?
Getting ready for work
The last person you talked to on aim?
Jason
Would you rather watch football or baseball?
Baseball
Three things you did today:
Recieved a rape whistle, watched 13 Conversation about One Thing , & Changed a tire =)
When a friend walks out of your life, do you go after them or let them go?
no one has really abandoned me...
What are you thinking about right now?
I really don't want to go to work tonight...ugg.
Who will your next kiss be?
Well, I know who I'd like it to be =) |
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Prayer request card. |
October 1st, 2008 @ 9:08pm |
Listening to: "HTML R00lz Dude|" The Devil Wears Prada
Feeling: eh
So.
I went to the relationships&sex church group thing last night.
It's funny.
We get rather sidetracked kinda a lot.
We mostly talked about creepers all night.
I really hate that.
I just starting thinking about stuff, you know?
Like, if a really ugly guy does something nice for you, it's called "creeping" but if a hot guy does it then it's "aww so sweet."
Not to say, you know, that there aren't creepers. 'cause there are. All I'm saying is that you shouldn't call them that 'less they do something actually creepy like have a shrine of you or something, not if they just wait outside of a class of yours to talk to you. Annoying, perhaps, but not creepy. and you know we love that if it's a boy who we like. So yeah...stop overusing "creeper."
We talked about surrounding ourselves with people who would furter our faith and not diminish it...
That part's hard for me, you know?
I started thinking about Jason. Like, we're hanging out saturday night with a bunch of his friends. He also warned me that there might be weed there. I told him that I would still go, becuase he knows I WON'T do that.
I told Andrea (youth pastor) that. I was honest--I told her that I've known Jason since I was in kindergarden and yes, we're rather good friends. And he has pressured me to smoke pot before, and I've always resisted.
I also admitted that I know I shouldn't hang out with him, becuase I KNOW he's a bad influence on me.
And what she said was that it was great that I hung out with him, because I was probably influencing him. Many people can't hang out with these kinds of people becuase they're too tempted. But if you can hang out with them and not be tempted, you should.
"If you're on a diet, don't keep a chocolate cake in your refrigerator."
I know (I KNOW) Jason's a bad influence on me. But I tell myself that it's okay because I have never done pot and am very strong in my convictions against it.
and I am.
I'm really quite surprised by how much it's already ruined my life and I've NEVER EVEN TRIED IT.
There's the fact that this drug has completely dissolved my relationship with my brother.
There's the fact that apparently the entire school thinks I'm a pothead, so much so that one of my friends heard someone say that walking down the hallway, and there's even fucking bathroom graffiti about me. Though I've never tried pot, I've somehow built up that reputation. that shit pisses me off.
and just other stuff.
I just don't like it...
Well Jason is one of my best friends on the realz, but he's SUCH a huge pothead.
And it never used to be an issue!
Except lately, he's decided I should try it.
I keep saying no.
But it's at least showing it's face, like it never used to
I mean, I have never done pot.
I'm not planning on.
Yes, I'm against it.
But...when he offers it, I can't help but feel a little tiny bit...tempted.
I know I'm human.
I don't think it's horrible. because an much larger voice in my head is screaming "NO FUCKING WAY YOU IDIOTIC HYPOCRITE SLUT WHORE STONER."
And so I always proceed to tell him to shut the fuck up becuase I'm not trying pot.
so I mean, no, I shouldn't be hanging out with him.
But I am.
and I mean, no, I'm still against pot.
But I mean...he introduced me to Flynn.
That was bad for me for a number of reasons.
He has encouraged me to do other immoral things.
I just...I can't even fool myself anymore.
..but I just don't want to lose a friend too, you know? |
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Prayer request card.
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I'm allowed.
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Mindless Self Indulgence
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Fuck New Jersey
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I put the abs in abstinense
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destroyed.
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Taste and Smell
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problem child.
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seventeenth
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Fuck The Dream
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First
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I'm fake
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pretty
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Not Alone
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Us
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I care.
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I like presents =)
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Conchrete
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He likes to hear my singing
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gushing
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You seem so full of Cocaine
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Lost
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heart test
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gentlemen
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Go to sleep
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Take me seriously.
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dramarama
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Future pierced ears <3
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Sexiest blondes alive!!
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Myspace survey
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purple
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Figured something...
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Good snuggling...<3
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Wishin' Y'all
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labels=sucks=real
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gas leak
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Irony
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cute?
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skaloveX1000
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Tune in, he's listening
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you won't get in my pants
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It's not you
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I've been cheated on.
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realization.
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Regatta HOT&Wilmington
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elections etc
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Trust Amnesia Soundtrack
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Secrets kill
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Mom's closet :)
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Church Van= Heart
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My uncle's story
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Once a warrior, always
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Plaid Pants
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Life's too short...
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2005 Jamboree
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Migrate away!
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akward sunburn
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so special
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high schooler, me?
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Being around him
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get your own
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fences and rockers
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CA and J.
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I can't stop murder
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Pause
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Many faces of Shady
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29,000, and no1 cares.
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lost contact
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I just pretend
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So many
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Kind Lady
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Believe my eyeliner
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noise VS name
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family convo's
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gift inventory
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im not safe w/ u
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GC song survey
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thanks
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too honest?
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grow up
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scared
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Sheela
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never me
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questions
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13, maybe 14, not 17.
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fall
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define "Need."
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venting
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GAH! MORE survey
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not anymore.
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g'bye neal!
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we made it!
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fuming
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perfect guy
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dead Lizard
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i forgot you were here
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Don't let her find out
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long survey...
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screw it all
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GC dream
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camping trip
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boys, guys, and dudes.
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just more survey crap
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three things survey
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silver
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that was short
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nothing makes sense.
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MEH!
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secret yen
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random tears
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test grade
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