[Intro - Lil' Jon]

Usher...

Lil' Jon...

Ludacris...

[Usher (with Lil' Jon)]

Yeah, man

Once again, it's on (It's on)

You know we had to do it again, right?

[Lil' Jon]

We had to do it again, boy

Want you to sing to these ladies, man

[Usher (with vocalizing)]

(Ohh-oh-oh-ohh)

A'ight, so I'm up first? A'ight, lemme have it...

(Ohh-oh-oh-ohh)

Let's do it...

[1st Verse - Usher]

Baby, how ya doin'?

Hope that 'cha fine, wanna know what you got in mind,

And I'm,

Got me fiendin' like Jodeci, girl, I can't leave you alone,

Take a shot of this here Petrone' and it's gon' be on,

V.I.P. done got way too crowded,

I'm about to end up callin' it a night,

You should holla at 'cha girl, tell her you shake it the scene,

Pull off, beep-beep, shotgun in the GT with me

She said, "Ohhh-ohhh, I'm ready to ride, yeah,"

"'Cause once you get inside, you can't change your mind,"

"Don't mean to sound impatient, but you gotta promise, baby, ohh..."

[Chorus - Usher]

Tell me again (Tell me again, my baby),

That we'll be Lovers and Friends (Ohh, I gotta know, baby, aw yeah)

Tell me again (Make sho' you right, ohh, before we leave),

That we'll be Lovers and Friends (Ohh, it's a good look, baby)...

[2nd Verse - Ludacris]

Sometimes wanna be your lover,

Sometimes wanna be your friend,

Sometimes wanna hug ya,

Hold hands, slow-dance while the record spins,

Opened up your heart 'cause you said I made you feel so comfortable,

Used to play back then, now you all grown-up like Rudy Huxtable,

I could be your Bud, you could beat me up,

Play-fight in the dark, then we both make love,

I'd do anything just to feel your butt,

Why you got me so messed up?

I don't know, but you gotta stop trippin',

Be a good girl now, turn around, and get these whippings,

You know you like it like that,

You don't have to fight back,

Here's a pillow - bite...that,

And I'll be settin' seperate plays,

So on all these separate days,

Your legs can go they separate...ways...

[Chorus - Usher]

Tell me again (Tell me again, my baby),

That we'll be Lovers and Friends (Ohh, it's a good look, baby)

Tell me again (Tell me over-and-over-and-over again),

That we'll be Lovers and Friends (Make sho' you right, before you choose)...

[3rd Verse - Lil' Jon]

I's been know you fo' a long time (shawty),

But fuckin' never crossed my mind (shawty),

But tonight, I seen sumthin' in ya (shawty),

That made me wanna get wit 'cha (shawty),

But you ain't been nuttin' but a friend to me (shawty),

And a nigga never ever dreamed to be (shawty),

Up in here, kissin', huggin', squeezin', touchin' (shawty),

Up in the bathtub, rub-a-dubbin' (shawty),

Are you sure you wanna go this route? (shawty),

Let a nigga know before I pull it out (shawty),

I would never ever cross the line (shawty),

Shawty, let me hear ya tell me one mo' time...one mo' time...

[Chorus - Usher]

Tell me again (Tell me again, my baby),

That we'll be Lovers and Friends (Ohh, it's a good look, baby)

Tell me again (Make sho' you right, ohh, before we leave),

That we'll be Lovers and Friends (Tell me over-and-over-and-over again)...

[Outro - Usher]

Oh-oh-hoo

Oh-oh-hoo

Oh-oh-hoo-ohhhh-yeaaah...

[Ludacris (with Lil' Jon)]

Please tell your Lovers and Friends,

That Usher, Jon, and Luda had to do it again (Hey!! (Hey!!)

Please tell your Lovers and Friends,

That Usher, Jon, and Luda had to do it again, that's right (Hey!! (Hey!!)

Please tell your Lovers and Friends,

That Usher, Jon, and Luda had to do it again (Hey!! (Hey!!)...

I've just eaten the biggest lunch I've ever had! It consisted of:

- 1 x Chicken Tikka & Lettuce Baguette

- 1 x Bag of Prawn Cocktail Walkers

- 1 x Bag of Salt & Vinegar Seabrooks

- 1 x Large Custard Tart

- 1 x Galaxy Muffin

- 1 x Toffee Crisp

- 1 x Bottle of water.

It really was one hell of a lunch, and now I feel ill - but it was needed.

I'll tell you what else is needed. Jo! Yes we're here again talking about her again. She's coming over tonight - I hope. Then we're going shoppin on Saturday. I can't get over how much this girl still means to me. When we met up first time couple of weeks back, it was like we never broke up. Cuddles, Kisses, Laughs it was perfect. I want that feeling to last, I really do. I'm willing to do whatever it takes! I don't want to lose her again! I find it difficult finding the balance of telling her how I feel, and leaving her to her own thing. I don't want to be too clingy because that was part of the problem last time - but I honestly feel like I could spend the rest of my life with her.

I took an online quiz thingy, about Star Signs and dating - Apparently I should never date a Capricorn. See this poses a problem, as Jo is a Capricorn. I know it's just a stupid quiz and I shouldn't take notice, but it's hard when you're reading astrologies sites and they all say the same. Libra's (me) and Capricorn's (Jo) can have decent relationships, but it seems like it's a lot of work. Now, I don't have a problem putting that work in because I want her bad, I'm just not sure she wants the same thing.

I suppose we should continue how we are, just seeing each other at weekends, chilling out, having a smoke/drink, going shopping. We've both agreed we're not rushing into it!

We'll see how things go eh? :D

It's Like, I don't care about nothin man,

roll another blunt, Yea (ohh ohh ohh),

La da da da da da La, Da Daaa,

La da da da, La da da da, La da da daaa

I was gonna clean my room until I got high

I was gonna get up and find the broom but then I got high

my room is still messed up and I know why (why man?) yea heyy,

- cause I got high [repeat 3X]

(La da da da da da da da da)

I was gonna go to class before I got high

I coulda cheated and I coulda passed but I got high

(La da da da da da da da da)

I am taking it next semester and I know why, (why man?) yea heyy,

- cause I got high [repeat 3X]

(La da da da da da da da da)

I was gonna go to work but then I got high

I just got a new promotion but I got high

now I'm selling dope and I know why (why man?) yea heayy,

- cause I got high [repeat 3X]

(La da da da da da da da da)

I was gonna go to court before I got high

I was gonna pay my child support but then I got high

they took my whole paycheck and I know why (why man?) yea heayy,

- cause I got high [repeat 3X]

(La da da da da da da da da)

I wasn't gonna run from the cops but I was high

I was gonna pull right over and stop but I was high

(La da da da da da da da da)

Now I am a paraplegic and i know why (why man?) yea heayy,

- because I got high [repeat 3X]

(La da da da da da da da da)

I was gonna pay my car note until I got high

I wasn't gonna gamble on the boat but then I got high

now the tow truck is pulling away and I know why (why man?) yea heyy,

- because I got high [repeat 3X]

(La da da da da da da da da)

I was gonna make love to you but then I got high

I was gonna eat yo pussy too but then I got high

now I'm jacking off and I know why, yea heyy,

- cause I got high [repeat 3X]

(La da da da da da da da da)

I messed up my entire life because I got high

I lost my kids and wife because I got high

now I'm sleeping on the sidewalk and I know why (why man?) yea heyy,

- cause I got high [repeat 3X]

(La da da da da da da da da)

I'm gonna stop singing this song because I'm high

I'm singing this whole thing wrong because I'm high

and if I dont sell one copy I know why (why man?) yea heyy,

- cause I'm high [repeat 3X]

La da da da da da, La da da da, Shoop shooby doo wop.

Get jiggy wit it, skibbidy bee bop diddy do wahhh

- cause I'm high [repeat 3X]

(hey where the cluck at cuz) [clucks]

Well my name is afroman and I'm from east pomdale (east-pom-dale)

and all the tolweed I be smokin is bomb as helllllll (excelent delivery)

I don't beleive in Hitler, that's what I said (oh my goodness)

so all of you skins (skins) please give me more head

You know when you get that feeling that everything is turning around, and things start to look good.

I've got that - but it's weird, because it's like I feel it's not going to last. That at some point the new found enthusiasm and stability is going to fade.

I was watching a film last night - and in it, one character said "love isn't just a feeling". And that made me think, they're right, love isn't something that "just happens", its something you need to work at, without effort from both parties involved, love cannot exsist. It's a big a problem for one, as it is for the other. Making love work means going at it together! Together we make an awsome team - and I truely believe that with effort it can last. It's just are you willing to put that effort in? I dunno.

I know I am.

I don't even know why I still use this place - too many bad memories. But then again, maybe it's good to get something written down - so you can look back and say "yeah, that was bad, and I was a dick, but where am I now? Higher, happier than ever before." We learn from our mistakes, and we all make them - cos we're only human. It's willing to learn from them that makes the difference. We made some mistakes last time, and things didn't work out - so this time, lets not make the same mistakes, lets really work to make this the most beautiful thing in the world. I believe it can be!

You saw me lost in treading water

I looked pathetic and

As helpless as a stinger

Without a bee

But underneath my presentation

Yeah

I knew the walls were coming down

And the stones that fell were

Aiming away from me

Hey what would it mean to you?

To know that it'll

Come back around again

Hey whatever it means to you

Know that everything

Moves in circles

I saw you standing in

My headlights

Blink blink blink

I thought I'd run you down

For the weight you left on me

instead I pushed rewind

Reversed and drove away

And see you

Disappear in my rearview

Brought to me the word

Reciprocity

Hey what would it mean to you?

To know that it'll

Come back around again

Hey whatever it means to you

Know that everything

Moves in circles

Round and round we go

We could know

It'd end so well

We fall on and we fall off

Existential carousel

Spin

Hey what would it mean to you?

To know that it'll

Come back around again

Hey whatever it means to you

Know that everything

Moves in circles

Everything moves in circles

Round and round and

Round and round and

Round and round and

Round and round

Well, what can I say? Tonight, was unexpected. However, it was needed.

I made my feelings very clear for someone tonight and we've worked a lot out. This kinda thing is nothing but the truth. Deep from the bottom of my heart, I do still love you, always have and always will. Nothing in the world could change that now.

This does pose the question however, where from here? I think in this case it's best if time is left to it's own devices, we see if this was seriously meant, or just another chat.

All thats left to say is, I hope, I wish, I want, this, to be the start, of something so special, we'll never be seperated again.

To you, my love. =]

x

Trading life for life

It all must fall

It must end with us

It must end with me

Insinuations of what might be

Fight through deprivation

There will be no sleep

Heed my cry

Because of greed and hatred

To dust we return

They will see the strength in our numbers

Only then will the self-righteous learn

Yeah!

Insinuations of what might be

To the masses we mean nothing

But it starts in the hearts of the few

Witness the birth of a people

Unite, renew

There is no forever, just today (just today)

Don't let your sacrifice waste away

Waste away (Waste away)

Through change and purity

Turn the shadows to light

Buried beneath the ashes

Is a passion for life

There is no forever, just today (just today)

Don't let your, your sacrifice waste away

Waste away (Waste away)

Let there be no more of this bloodshed

Let there be no more of this bloodshed

Let there be no more of this bloodshed

Heed my cry

There is no forever, just today (just today)

Don't let your, your sacrifice waste away

Waste away (Waste away)

Waste away (Waste away)

So it's been quite a year so far - Let me explain (you may wanna get a brew :))

At the back end of last year, I was saying that I had a good feeling about 2006, that it was going to be the best year yet, one to remember for the rest of my life. So far, this year hasn't been far from that, but for all the wrong reasons. I'll start with the bad stuff.

So early this year (April), I lost my driving license - A complete shitter as now I have to get the bus - I made a mistake and now I'm paying the price for it. 12 month ban, 120 Hours community service and £50 fine. I think the fine was more to add insult to injury than anything else. Losing my license meant I lost my job, it's rather hard to get to preston from sabden everyday when you don't have a car.

After losing my job, I went into a bit of a downer phase - Sleeping till about 3pm, getting up, doing fuck all until about 3am, then going to sleep again. This trend continued for about 3 months. It wasn't just affecting me, it was affecting the whole family, I even started having hugh arguments with my bro (which rarely happens).

In about May time I was hospitalised by a kid 3/4 years younger than me. To cut a long story short, I got into a fight, ended up losing, having 7 stitches in my eye. Doesn't sound too bad (I'll link photo later) huh? Wrong - It got worse. The lad who bashed me decided to be a clever cunt and give me more grief for pressing charges. So he came round to my house, and smashed both mine and my brothers car windows. Something we weren't too happy about - but we knew it was him. We called the police and they did fuck all about it - as usual. Thats not the end of it - 2 weeks later he came round again, and did my mum's car over, this was turning into a joke. We called the police, again. They did fuck all about it, again. My dad started raging at them, which he's quite in his right to do so, but they had a point, unless they caught him doing it, they couldn't arrest him.

Another bad thing about this year so far is that I've had fuck all in the way of a love life. It's all gone to pot since I split up with Jo. She's still my ex?! how sad is that? (This update is for her ;)). So my love life down the pan. It doesn't help after seeing a certain picture. That not only did I break up with probably the best girl in the world, she's still THE most stunning, gorgeous, beautiful young woman I have ever seen. In a word, she's perfect, but how can u disagree? Nothing is going to change how I feel about her, especially not pictures like that! I'm thinking maybe we should have a drink sometime, but she doesn't talk to me anymore :( The occasional Hiya on msn is about it!

Now for the good bits. I got a new job!!!! After the 3 month funk of unemployment I made it back into the working world. I'm a Service Administration Consultant at a company called HML - They do out-sourcing for major mortgage companies. Part of the Skipton Building Society Group. It's a great company to work for, everyone is friendy and helpful and I've fit straight in.

We're getting a house! Yes, finally after sponging from our parents for 20 years, me and my brother have decided to get our own place - it's a pride and privacy matter more than anything - being able to stand on our own feet, instead of living with our parents. Also, we can do what we want when we want and not have anyone complain about it. So we'll be throwing a House Warming party sometime soon - I'll keep you updated.

The little cunt that bashed me in, and smashed our cars up? He's going jail - for a long time! He's currently standing trial for the following crimes:

- 1 Count of Actual Bodily Harm

- 2 Counts of Arson

- 3 Counts of criminal damage

- 2 Counts of disturbing the peace

- Numorous breaches of his ASBO.

So the little cunt is going to get it - and when this piss breath thick piece of shit gets out of jail, I'm going to find him, snatch him off the street, put a bag over his head, strip him naked, beat him to within inches of his life and leave him to rot on a moor in the middle of no-where. There is no way in hell he's getting away with it.

It's my 21st birthday a week today - I think we'll be holding a party somewhere, but I need to finalise this - I'll keep you informed. I suppose it is one thing to look forward to.

All in all, this year has started pretty shit, but brightened up along the way. It's not over yet, not by a long shot and we've still got plenty of time to make this year the best one so far! Afterall it is my 21st year on this earth! I'm still on the search for a girlie, so if ur interested, mail me ;) morfq3@gmail.com.

Thats me for now - I'll update again soon - Keep your eyes peeled! Peace!

>=]

x

To see you when I wake up

is a gift I didn't think could be real

to know that you feel the same as I do

is a three-fold utopian dream

You do something to me

that I can't explain

so would I be out of line, if I said

I miss you

I see your picture, I smell your skin on

the empty pillow next to mine

you have only been gone ten days

but already I am wasting away

I know I'll see you again

whether far or soon

but I need you to know that I care

and I miss you

(I miss you)

Once again, it's update time. I seem to have come to a dead end in my life. It would seem my life has no direction, nothing to indicated what path to take. The signs have gone black and i'm lost. It's coming up on xmas 2005, nearly a year since Jo and I started going out (if you put it that way). I've been doing a lot of thinking.

"what would it be like if we were still together?"

"Why did I do the stupid thing and let someone so gorgeous go?"

"Is there any hope for me?"

The kind of questions a regretful person would think. I'm struggling to organise my life. Yeah I have a steady (not well payed) job. A car. A home, loving family. Still it seems somthing is missing..

I know people say "there's always someone worse off than you", but with this feeling, this gut instinct of disaster creeping upon me, I feel like the unluckiest person alive. Sure there are people worse off, but It's not them that matter, It myself.

I'm useless with money, once again got paid and fucking blew it all, I don't even have enough money to get any xmas presents.. but there are soooo many people to get presents for. I feel drowned by life. Like life is opening up into a big black hole, and i'm slowly falling into nothing. A point of no return.

Regretting I fucked up with college, I could have been at uni. Regretting I fucked up with Jo, we could still be madly in love. Regretting losing contact with my friends, we could all be together still. I'm losing my grip on reality.

I just need someone to take over my life and get it back on track while I take a break and relax my mind and my body. So i can quit spending money on useless junk and start spending money on things that really matter in life.

Clinging onto reality by a finger, rapidly losing grip on that, and those around me that really matter. I need a change, I need to get out of this place and start a new, get a better paid job, get the money, learn to budget, learn to cope with life as it is thrown at me. I just cower in a corner and hope that when I open my eyes everything is fine again, but it never is. It ME that's got to sort it out... but how!?

2005 has been a year of ups and downs, started on a high, ended on a low. But........... I have a good feeling about 2006, I feel it's going to be the year that I get things sorted, get things back onto track and settle myself down. It's up to me, I suppose, to keep that going.

2006 here I come, you'd better be damn ready, cos it's gunna be one hell of a show.

[Dr. Dre]

Back when Cube - was rollin wit Lorenzo in a Benzo

I was bangin wit a gang of instrumentals

Got the pens and pencils, got down to business; but sometimes

the business end of this shit can turn your friends against you

But you was a real nigga, I could sense it in you

I still remember the window of the car that you went through

That's fucked up, but I'll never forget the shit we been through

And I'ma do whatever it takes to convince you

Cuz you my nigga Doc, and Eazy I'm still wit you

Fuck the beef, nigga I miss you, and that's just bein real wit you

You see the truth is

Everybody wanna know how close me and Snoop is

And who I'm still cool wit

Then I got these fake-ass niggaz I first drew with

Claimin that they non-violent, talkin like they *voice sample*

Spit venom in interviews, speakin on reunions

Move units, then talk shit and we can do this

Until then - I ain't even speakin your name

Just keep my name outta yo' mouth and we can keep it the same

Nigga, it ain't that I'm too big to listen to the rumors

It's just that I'm too damn big to pay attention to 'em

That's the difference

[Chorus: Phish (repeat 2X)]

What's the difference between me and you?

You talk a good one - but you don't do what you supposed to do

I act on what I feel and never deal wit emotions

I'm used to livin big dog style and straight coastin

[Xzibit]

Yo I stay wit it

While you try to perpetrate, play wit it

Never knew about the next level until Dre did it (YEAH)

I stay committed while you motherfuckers baby-sitted

I smash you critics like a overhand right from Riddick

(Yeah!) Come and get it, shitted on villians by the millions

I be catchin bitches while bitches be catchin feelings

So what the fuck am I supposed to do?

I pop bottles and hot hollow-points at each and all of you (Come on!)

A heartless bastard, high and plastered

My style is like the reaction from too much acid - never come down

Pass it around if you can't handle it

Hang Hollywood niggaz by they Soul Train laminates

What's the difference between me and you? (What?)

About five back accounts, three ounces and two vehicles

Until my death, I'm Bangladesh

I suggest you hold yo' breath til ain't none left

Yo that's the difference

[Chorus]

[Eminem]

Aight, hold up hold up!

STOP THE BEAT A MINUTE!! I got somethin to say

Dre; I wanna tell you this shit right now while this fuckin weed is in me

(The fuck?!) I don't know if I ever told you this, but I love you dawg

I got your motherfuckin back, just know this shit

[Dre] Riiight? .. Slim, I don't know if you noticed it

But I've had your back from day one, nigga let's blow this bitch

[Em] I mean it dawg, you ever need somebody offed - who's throat is it?

[Dre] Well if you ever kill that Kim bitch, I'll show you where the ocean is

[Eminem]

Well that's cool, and I appreciate the offer

But if I do decide to really murder my daughter's momma

I'ma sit her up in the front seat and put sunglasses on her

And cruise around wit her for seven hours through California

And have her wavin at people (Hi!) Then drop her off on the corner

at the police station and drive off honkin the horn for her

Raw dawg, get your arm gnawed off

Drop the sawed off and beat you wit the piece it was sawed off of

Fuck blood, I wanna see some lungs coughed up

Get shot up in the hot tub til the bubbles pop up

and they nose and cough snot up, mucus in hot water

That's for tryin to talk like The Chronic was lost product

That's for even THINKIN of havin them thoughts thought up!

You better show some respect whenever the Doc's brought up!!

So what's the difference between us? We can start at the penis

Or we can scream, "I Just Don't Give a Fuck," and see who means it!

[Chorus 2.25X]

Here I am again, another update..

Thinks......

......

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......

......

......

NAAAHHH!! :D

I'm not growing up yet, it's only 20, and the best birthday is to come yet!!!

Yet again, i'm hard of cash. I can't make my wage last more than a week, I need to start being responsible with my money, I have just started my own Insurance, and the deposit was £200, which was a hefty sum, but I could have handled the rest of the money better.. Instead of spending it on shite, save it?! Yeah thats an idea, but will it work?! :/

I got a new motor, I still haven't got a name for him/her/it yet. Had to spend a bit of money on it to get it running right, but now it is, wow.. Miles quicker than Rex, unfortunately I feel i rushed into it, and am wishing I still had rex. There are perks, but there are cons as well. Risks you have to take, but i'll stick with the new one for a bit, get my no claims going and get somthing faster! Definately back to a clio though! :D

Other than the above i'm pretty peachy. Doing well at work, enjoying it so thats good :) Not been out in a while, being skint and all.

Me and kacy are still talking :D Just as best friends should :P I've slightly lost contact with adam and ste and that since i left college, but I still manage to get out once in a while and have a bash with them. Which is always good, although veez is getting tiring now, it's run it's course i think. If you ask me the place needs knocking down.

Anyways I've rambled on enough now, I need my sleep.. Laters :D

>=]

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY BITCH!

that took some

typing.

>=]

Well, so here I am again, it's been getting a bit shaky recently, not been updating much as i've been busy. Below I shall explain why.

I've turned over a new leaf, I apologised to caddy and kacy a couple of weeks ago, just so I didn't feel as shit, because however much I try, I couldnt help but fuck things up for them. So I decided to leave them to it, i'm staying out of it now :)

I got a promotion at work, I'm now Deputy Manager of Wine Rack in Penwortham, which is on the far side of Preston to me. It's an ace job, i'm people's boss!! Buzzin off that.

Rex is looking more and more cleaner and better everyday, I've managed to fix all the major problems with him, and he now has 4 alloys back on, and has been valleted. He's all nice and shiney again, which is good! I have some more plans for him, next month some new springs for his suspension, and bucket seats / harnesses hopefully. We'll see how things go :)

I met Steph on the friday just gone, and She's amazing!!!! I love her even more now! Even tho we didn't get to talk right much, she showed me the rizla game, and had me on the giggles for most of friday night/saturday morning. She's ace, and I can't wait to meet her again, and talk a bit more! wubs joo huni!!!! xXx. We were both buzzin off this choon i've got on here, it's sooooo funny, but we have no idea why!

I've quit smoking weed, well cut down. I've decided that weed isn't really doing much for me at the moment, and seen as my brother has quit, I've decided to follow his tracks. I spent all this weekend just gone, completely battered (hull saying ;)), and i'm feeling it a bit, also my dad had a massive go at me for it. So now is as good a time as any to cut it out. I'll still smoke it now and again, special occasions, but I've been on a bit of a bender recently, and have been smoking it every night.

I've got a brighter outlook on life than a few weeks ago, things seem to be picking up again, and i'm not suicidal anymore. I just hope I can keep this good trend going. I wanna feel like a did at the beginning of this year, I was on top of the world, and it's been going downhill since then.

I have a good vibe about 2006, it's going to be a good year, I can see it coming. I dunno what it is, I just feel 2006 is going to be a good year.

Anyways, that me for now, knackered, moff to bed! Night Night! Xx

>=]

Woo.

See I'm ridin high, ridin high (echos)

Whoooo!

Kinda broke you see me, so all I got is FIVE

I GOT FIVE!

Verse 1 *(Knumskull & Yukmouth)*

(Knumskull)

I Got Five On It

I got five what you got nigga?

(Yukmouth)

Damn I think I got two bucks in my sock nigga.

(Knumskull)

Well that's that

fuck it

I think I got three bucks in my backpack

enough to get a phat sack.

(Yukmouth)

Hell yeah!

(Knumskull)

You got some zags?

(Yukmouth)

Not at all man.

(Knumskull)

Let's get some from the store.

(Yukmouth)

Fa sho, because a nigga need a Tall Ken.

(Knumskull)

Damn

open the door blood.

(Yukmouth)

Nigga where my keys at?

(Knumskull)

I don't know?

(Yukmouth)

Remember I gave 'em to you to go get that weed sack.

(Knumskull)

Oh here they go in my sock.

(Yukmouth)

Put your seatbelt on

cuz there's hella cops parked up the block.

(Knumskull)

Well nigga bust a U-ey then.

(Yukmouth)

Nigga fire up that doobie then.

(Knumskull)

Hell nah!

(Yukmouth)

You major skanless potna.

(Knumskull)

Well sue me then.

(Yukmouth)

Oh, be like that on a roach?

(Knumskull)

Nope, look at them hoes!

(Yukmouth)

Man fuck them tricks, nigga let's get smoke!

Pass the doobie to the left biddy-bum-bum-boo!

Whoa! What the fuck wrong wit you?!

(Knumskull)

Damn I had a flash back

this nigga frontin me some yay

but you know that he ain't gonna get his cash back.

(Yukmouth)

Nigga what if the cash jack?

(Knumskull)

Oh it's cool

Fuck this, I'm puttin it in the cuts.

(Yukmouth)

It's bad enough he got not tags on the Cutlass

(Knumskull)

Eh you know what? 84th is the closest.

(Yukmouth)

Yup

Oooh!

a fat ass Hamp, nigga let's smoke this.

(Knumskull)

Let's roll a blunt wit the skunk.

(Yukmouth)

Why you bring that skanless ass sack?

(Knumskull)

Man this shit ain't no punk.

Here smell this.

(Yukmouth)

Roll it up then nigga!

(Knumskull)

Haha, yeah!

(Yukmouth)

Let's go half on some liquor

yeah go get some Tango or something.

(Eh, I got to see some I.D.)

(Knumskull)

Aww man, shit I ain't got nothing!

(Sorry)

(Knumskull)

Man I spend wit you all the time.

(Sorry no I.D., no colors Icy Bine)

(Knumskull)

Aww fuck that!

(Yukmouth)

They didn't let you get the drank?

(Get out my store!)

(Knumskull)

Man I ain't trippin.

This font colour has nothing to do with my state of mind whilst writing this entry.

What the fuck am I talking about? Of course it does! I'm down, i'm as down as I can be. In fact i've not been on a downer this bad .. EVER!! I'm bordering on depression, in fact i am probably very depressed at the moment. I chose "bleh" because it reminded me of adam, and he makes me laugh. Like the only thing to be happy about.

This is a entry I never would have thought i'd put as pubilc, but fuck it.

I'm an asshole. I'm a downright prick. I make myself out to be a nice guy when i'm not. Not just with girls, I'm talking everything. See i'm a smart lad, or so i'm told? However, I've just spent the last 3 years of my life fucking up my LIFE. I'm a waster. I've got to face the truth, there is nothing in life for me now. I obviously didn't want to go to uni that much. But I do!!!! See I've done nothing over the last few days, but think, and regret not getting on with things, not knuckling down and getting my grades at college. I didn't get a bollocking off my mum and dad, but it's more powerful when parents just stare at you with blanc faces after seeing you've just failed 2 years at college. They hardly said a thing, but they didn't need to. It doesn't help when all the people I've met over the last 3 years, are all saying wooo!! I've passed!! i did so well.. Just sends me even more down to the gutter. I'm proud of all my mates. However, it only further illustrates how fucked up i am.

I know it now, I'm a loser. It's my attitude towards everything, I can find reasons excuses as to why I didn't do things. But if I were a half decent person i'd have done things in the first place. I thought it would be easy to put into words, but i'm finding it difficult to comprehent any way of saying how I feel at this present time.

Since Jo, i've gone worse, i'm not blaming it on her at all, i'm just saying. Back then I wouldn't have even thought about cheating on her, or anyone for that fact. but now, well now is a different story.

See while i'm here admitting i'm a nob, i may as well say that I've been leading people on, I'm in it for the sex, it's obvious, see that didn't bother me that much with Jo, in fact i reckon it was the sex that spoilt it. But Kacy? how many times have I told her i Love her? and led her on thinking i wanna get back with her, it's fucking stupid. and i'm a fucking idiot. because Kacy is an awsome girl, and i've just been playing with her. Kacy i'm sorry :(

My car, well where do i start? I haven't cleaned it since i went to the french car show, i've washed the outside once or twice, but that it.. And i treat cars like shit, much like i treat everything else in my life. I'm not set out for it. I love driving, but it's obvious I think cars look after themselves, i mean a perfectly mint R reg clio, 10k down the road as had a new engine, new drifhshaft and hub, in turn has fucked up the tyres. Things are rattling, but i don't do anything about it.

I'M A FUCKING DICKHEAD!

I've disappointed my dad, my mum, my whole family. I've lost all my friends from admitting to shit in the entry, so I can't have disappointed any of them. Most of all i've disappointed myself, to the point i feel physically sick thinking about how fucked up i've made my life. I'm a complete and utter waste of everyone's time and patience.

So now i'm going to go and find another excuse not to do somthing, and continue living my life in the shitball it's rolling itself into. Because thats all i meant to myself right now, a big ball of shit rolling down a shitty hill.

Well to everyone that i thought i cared about, it's been nice knowing you. You're all probably not going to speak to me again after this entry.

Oh before i forget, i'll give u another example of my womanising.

There's this lass called gemma, who i'm currently with.. I went out with her not so long since, and things were good, then I met a lass on hotornot, you've heard that story.. Esstta, see i dump gemma, get on with esstta, she comes over to meet me, we have sex, and she goes home.. i barely text her and then she says it might be better being friends, i agree, and a couple of days later, having strung her on, i'm back with gemma. Good isn't it? NO IT'S FUCKING NOT... I'M A PRICK, FULLBLOWN 100% NOB.

and to all those that maybe to care about me. You'll not see me for a bit, i'm going to stay inside all the time, and just go to work and back. I'm going to cut off any link to me with anyone that still likes me, cos i'll only take them down with me.

so fuck it.

>=[

Hit them with a lil' ghetto gospel

[Chorus - Elton John:]

Those who wish to follow me (My ghetto gospel)

I welcome with my hands

And the red sun sinks at last into the hills of gold

And peace to this young warrior without the sound of guns

[2Pac]

If I could recelect before my hood dayz

I'd sit and reminisce, nigga and bliss on the good dayz

i stop and stare at the younger, my heart goes to'em

They tested, it was stressed that they under

In our days, things changed

Everyone's ashamed to the youth cuz the truth looks strange

And for me it's reversed, we left them a world that's cursed, and it hurts

cause any day they'll push the button

and yall condemned like Malcolm x and Bobby Hunton, died for nothin

Don't them let me get teary, the world looks dreary

but when you wipe your eyes, see it clearly

there's no need for you to fear me

if you take the time to hear me, maybe you can learn to cheer me

it aint about black or white, cuz we're human

I hope we see the light before its ruined

my ghetto gospel

[Chorus - Elton John]

[2Pac]

Tell me do you see that old lady aint it sad

Living out a bag, but she's glad for the little things she has

And over there there's a lady, crack got her crazy

Guess she's given birth to a baby

I don't trip and let it fade me, from outta the frying pan

We jump into another form of slavery

Even now I keep discouraged

Wonder if they take it all back while I still keep the courage

I refuse to be a role model

I set goals, take control, drink out my own bottle

I make mistakes, I learn from everyone

And when its said and done

I bet this Brotha be a better one

If I'm upset, you don't stress

Never forget, that God hasn't finished with me yet

I feel his hand on my brain

When I write rhymes, I go blind, and let the lord do his thang

But am I less holy

Cuz I choose to puff a blunt and drink a beer with my homies

Before we find world peace

We gotta find peace in that war on the streets

My ghetto gospel

[Chorus - Elton John]

[2Pac]

Lord can you hear me speak!!

To pay the price of being hell bound...

First off i'd like to say, this entry is in pink for no specific reason, i'm just fed up or red and blue.. anyways and the second thing is that, if this entry bangs on a bit.. My apologies i'm stoned.

So I put my picture up on hotornot the other nite because i was bored.. got a bit of a confidence boost from the overall rating thingy.. didn't expect anything else..

Until....

Someone clicked yes to wanting to meet me.. :O

big shocker indeed.. So i checked her profile out (yes, a her, i'm not gay.. (like burnt face man)).. anyways, she looked fair hot on't sly.. so I clicked yes back and sent her an email.. she sent one back and we got chatting..

I met her 3 days ago, and we've spent at least 4 hours on the fone.. talking to each other, we've hit it off in a big way..

She says I have a awsome voice, and we're already up for meeting each other.. I dunno what it is about her, but her personality strikes such a pleasnt blow, i'm hooked... + we've got matching sense of humour's..

Not only that, but i truely believe i'm bordering on love again, I can't stop thinking about her.. and i haven't met her yet, but she does it for me in so many ways already..

I don't mean for this to sound mushy n shit, but it's the truth..

I just really wanna meet her too.. It's quite insane really..

but at the same time...

Swishness on a stick.

>=]