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Friends of Styrofoam

 
a single post-it rose.
"it's yellow", i sayy. "for friendship."
"for friendship??"
"yea. friendship."


&then i run awayy.
108 hit(s) (0 comments) | animal crackers.  
I'm glad I looked down.

Now, all I have to do is board
that plane with that one way ticket.

And leave this shit hole behind.
145 hit(s) (1 comments) | --.--  
One way
Feeling: ambitious
10.46am

It's funny how small things can make you happier than big things that are meant to be joyous. Well, perhaps.

Like a conversation that settles you down a little. Or someone not caring that you're being all PMS-y. Yeah, yeah, so I do get over emotional, I wish I didn't, wish it wasn't such a cliche. But at least I've started to recognise it now. Before I just assumed all the ups and downs I was feeling were just me and my crazy head.

What annoys me is when guys assume just because it's PMS it's not legitimate feelings. Perhaps they're accentuated slightly, but personally my little sobbing fits and then ultimate happiness come from things I have been feeling anyway. It's just that the things that before made me a little annoyed or upset now make me hysterical. It's not as if suddenly because of hormones your entire position on life changes.

I wonder if dreams reflect anxieties a lot. I suppose they do.
I wish I could show my friends know how much I love them.
579 hit(s) (2 comments) | snap.  
98
Listening to: Unwritten - Natasha Bedingfield
Feeling: angry
I just flipping wrote a huge entry and I forgot to check to make sure I was still signed in. GOD!

This spring break has been awesome. Too bad I have to do homework today. xD. Anyway. About spring break. On Wednesday, Jade came over and stayed the night. Then on Thursday we went to Borders and met Katherine and Cameron. On Friday I went to Wal Mart with JoJo and I got some eyeliner and lip gloss. Then on Saturday I went to Katherine's and helped her with her garage sale. We went to the mall after it was all done. Katherine, Luke and I lost their mum so we were running around the mall looking and paging for her. Finally we decided to stay in the middle at one of the tables and finally we found her. We left the mall and got some shakes and went back to Katherine's house. We jumproped for a while and then Luke left to go to Timmy's house. After a while, Katherine's brother took me home and that was the end of that day.

Yesterday, the Millers came over (including Myles)! As well as Uncle Richard, Kiersten (Rhonda's sister), and the Oaks. Before everyone got here; Mandy, Myles, Teresa and I played Apples to Apples and then we blew bubbles. Teresa called a lot of her friends, but the only two that could come were Aaron and Arthur and they came over and played Apples to Apples with us and Dad and Kiersten. Then we played Catch Phrase after Aaron left and finally everyone went home. It was a great day.

Today I have to do my science homework and then I can go to Wal Mart with my mumsie dearest so I can get some shoes.

KTHXBAI

//chelly♥
113 hit(s) (1 comments) | Pass it to Chelsea  
Kyle's Movin' On Up!
Umm so yeah. Does anyone still stop by here at all? Lol regardless, if anyone who ever at one time ever wants to get in touch again, or just wants to read the poop that comes out of my mind, i thought i'd let ya know that i can now be found at:

www.myspace.com/thekyleloganshow

so come on down and stop by! or not it's entirely up to you!
168 hit(s) (0 comments) | Drop a Line  
Atlas
I'm dreaming, and in my dream I feel alive.
I feel newborn.
Clean slate.
Swept of all the guck.
I've got all the clues in hand, the puzzle on my mind, and the time to finish it.
So finish it.
81 hit(s) (0 comments) | go at it  
like whoa
Hello there!
Things are a little different
But still the same.

My own two-bedroom apartment
Got engaged
Grduated from college
Became an assistant at my work

I need a new job though
A career

Advice: Do not become an anthropology major. There are no jobs!

42 hit(s) (1 comments) | leave comment  
New diary, comment me and I'll probably let you know what it is.

102 hit(s) (0 comments) | Say You Won't Care  
Summer Days
Listening to: not so much
Feeling: amused
yeah it's been awhile i know

got another comment about my background, but i love it that way. annoying as physically possible.

i probably have less readers this way.

I have a job at a coffee and candy place, there is way more crap about coffee then i thought possible. funny how that is.

Marriage life is good. He's a sweetheart, and still convinced that i'm a fairy.
I want to illustrate for a children's book. about a fairy, but i'll have to make it as good as the "special" book.

I like my job
I love my man
I love being so close to my new family
I love have a free house
I like the house
I hate the electral work in the house
I like that i'll have an empty apartment in Kansas City.
I hate dial up

I want to listen to my music but i can't cause it takes too stinking long

at least when i'm doing bakery i can listen to the music there.
347 hit(s) (1 comments) | *cough cough*  


new : catamaran









i hate you anyway.
no one ever said i was a great person but you. just another one of your contradictions.
131 hit(s) (1 comments) | correct my mistake  
Sweet Dreams #25
Listening to: Twentieth Century Fox - The Doors
Feeling: emotional
Before going to a club on Saturday my parent's had great news for both of us (my brother and I). They were going to get Divorce! Yes, isn't it marvellous? After 18 fucking years together, love flies away.

WTf are they thinking of? The didn't even bother to explain us why . . . they just told us that we wouldn't understand, ohh Fucking A . . . well at least I could yell at them without a further remorse.

Anyway, now my father has gone, he has moved living my mother, my brother and me alone. The worst thing is that I shall have to decide who i will be staying with . . . or not.

Well, don't know what to do, things are getting better day over day, aren't they?

87 hit(s) (2 comments) | leave comment  
bad times
Feeling: achy
so things are crap again. noticing a pattern. i dont need this thing unless something bad happens.

i should've known from the way things started out. so i got with this girl at a party, and then we started seeing each other.

i just got really jealous and paranoid. and i screwed things up. and its over now.

i think im doing pretty well. feeling like an idiot, embarassed...sense of loss...

normal?
183 hit(s) (0 comments) | leave comment  
False Pretense
It's sacrifice
False pretense you'll hurt again
Stop pretending to deny
False pretense you'll hurt again

Oh, it's time to let it go

I can't seem to understand it how you turned out to be so cold
You tried but were caught red handed, are you happy with your role?
It's funny to me how you've turned into such a joke...

It's sacrifice
False pretense you'll hurt again
Stop pretending to deny
False pretense you'll hurt again

So play the game until you run out
And play the game into my hand
380 hit(s) (2 comments) | Enter if you dare  
Just thought you should know...
i am so happy. my girlfriend and i are just getting better and better with eachother. We have crossed a major hurdle and completely stopped arguing about the one thing we argued about most. We are happier than ever and havnt had any kind of mentionable argument in forever. life is good! just getting better, and i cant wait for summer to get here!

we are going to have
so much fun!
109 hit(s) (1 comments) | im listening  
54
so there's this kid named tyler...who has stolen my heart without even knowing it.

i can't wait til the dance ♥


edit&;
ADD ME ON THIS ONE:
camisadoxx
125 hit(s) (1 comments) | b&w=love  
why does this happen to me!
Listening to: inside out- eve 6
Feeling: discombobulated
i swallow my pride to talk to you, thinking you're gonna explode on me for just existing and conversing with you. who the fuck do you think you are? i waited for you. i told you yet you pull this shit where you're not sure and that you dont wanna be a secret. i didnt say you were gonna be a secret. FUCK.

that afternoon/night/morning was nice. i told you it felt like a dream. not real. we were an us again. we were able to just be. even kevin just blahhed. i mean we watched weeds. and then just ate. i made you ramen. and last night, well you know, i remember what you said, you wanna be with me forever.

then prove it.
89 hit(s) (4 comments) | oh yes.  
holy geez louisee
well well well..
its been about a thousand years since ive been on this thing and im only on here because im stressed and bored out of my mind.


boy troublesss....
this is a new thing for me and im nt enjoying it haha

Getting to know someone sucks... because its pretty awkward until you do know eachother..
Lame i'd say!!

aanyhow thats about it..
woot..
err..
yess..
well..
mhm..


now that ive said evrything that i needed to say i shall vamousse.
59 hit(s) (0 comments) | speak up.  
Fraken Pie Part I
There once was a kitchen in a small house on oak street. One day a boy name david decided that he was going to make a pie. he started to make the pie and continued to fashion it when he put in the crust it didnt quite fit so he moved it around until it did. Any part that was left open he covered up with pie ging it this ugly shape. He poured in some unrip blueberrys and way to much surgar and butter and then put a very ugly and moldy flour topper on top of the pie. He shoved it in the oven and went about his buiesness.

2 Hours later

"Man waht smells" said david "ohh crap the pie." David quicly ran to the kitchen adn took the pie out of the oven. the pie had popped open and look disgusting with burn't blueberrys all mushed up on the inside. "Ohh my god this smells bad" said david. He quickly preceded to take the pie and throw it in the garbage hoping that his mom wouldnt find out about it...

9:00 p.m.

It was trash night so david took the rest of the trash out and put the garbage bin on the side of the curb. After david went inside a white van pulled up along side the garbage can. A tall scientest came out of the van and said "quick give me the life formula that doesnt work and causes things to become bloodthirsty killing machines so i can toss it in the gabage" His bigger lacky handed him the vile while saying "uhh boss whouldnt we put it somewhere else where it wont do nothing?" the scientest got back into the car whle saying " Im the one with the PHD and i say it wont do anything i mean hell its not like theres a pie in there or something, whats the worse that could happen" AS the lacky drived off he said "wahtever you say boss and then they were gone .

Midnight

The sky clouded up and a vicious thunderstorm started up. By chance the garbage bin was completley made of metal and again by chance it was hit with the lightning. the garbage bins lid flew into the air and one long and stangley strawberry like arm reached out.

End of Part 1
51 hit(s) (2 comments) | leave comment  
i'm mad bored, in comp class... shud be working but i'm not haha
55 hit(s) (1 comments) | leave comment  
Pointless
[Take me back to the person I was when i first met you.
I was irrationally happy
and i liked that..]

I was thinking the other day about how incomplete i feel. Not that I don't have everything i need to survive, but more in the sence that i "just don't know". I really don't what is good for me anymore. Is what makes me happy, good for me? My obsession over *him* which makes me happy good for me? When i push people away because they make me angry good for me? I feel like i have no guidance like I did as a child when things were straight right and wrong. I guess life is all about finding whats best for you.

[i have an addiction to caffine and it makes me the happiest version of myslef. Is that bad?]

128 hit(s) (4 comments) | leave comment  
What a twist?
Humorless.
Senseless.
Tasteless.
humaniod.
Chronological.
Biological.
Disgusting.
Filth.
Dirt.
Face.
Mountian.
Dinosaurs.
Crippliling.
Spelling.
Hatchet.
Management.
Government.
Slimes.
Rudeness.
Hooligans.
Obscenities.
Beans.
Gracie.
Control.
Contruversies.
Mythilogical.
Symbolism.
Nameiology.
FAG MAN.
233 hit(s) (0 comments) | Twist the Knife  
*[08] don't hold the phone!!
well... as a continuation of my last entry:

i called my cousin and told her that i couldn't believe that she had believed what i told her. haha. she said that she still believed it, and i said " fine... believe what you want.. i still can't believe that you fell for it." i kinda feel like a bitch for doing that though. i really shouldnt lie to family, but she asked me... so i had to lie to her either way... if i didnt... i would be completely insecure around her. yeah so..

i was just on the phone with my boy. oO0oOooh i love that boyy! :) anyway... my life is still a GIaNT mess and i dont kow... i am just annoyed by life... dont worry... i am not going to do anyhting drastic.. i guess i will just have to cry myself to sleep for a few more nights.[[as if it were only a few more nights...]]

- i am worried that this diarymay have gotten exposed... as to who i am... so i will probably make a new one soon... just thinking of a name.

161 hit(s) (2 comments) | save my soul  
Yo!
Listening to: none
Feeling: cool
YOOOOOOOOO. Just thought I,d come by and say hizzie!!
187 hit(s) (3 comments) | mwa ha ha!  
I can't wait for a new diary
Listening to: Ball and Biscuit-The White Stripes
This is a chapter of my life that I've closed. Or at least, I've wanted to.

I don't want to share this diary with people. There's too much in it. Too many feelings and secrets that new friends need not know about.

Two days after my previous entry said marvelous girl and I broke up. That was a horrible experience for me. I've got other things in mind now, though.

So, I don't plan to be updating much more until I can create a new diary.

Like I've done with two other diaries, this chapter needs to come to a close. :)
29 hit(s) (1 comments) | Dismantle Me.  
ohhhh boyyy
Listening to: snow patrol-hands open
Feeling: amazed
i'm in love with my best friend. only, we aren't dating. but today, things improved...a lot. he told me that when he's a senior and i'm a junior that he wants us to go to prom together because he'll have nobody else to go with! i was so happy. and yeah...other news: went shopping yesterday, got some new flip flops, a pair of shorts, etc...summer stuff.
19 hit(s) (0 comments) | bubba sparxxxx!  
Are you satisfied....
My favorite poem ever
i just needed a place to put it for now
:]



'Once on a yellow peice of paper with green lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Chops"
because that was the name of his dog
And thats what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and a gold star
And his mother hung it on the kitchen door
and read it to his aunts
That was the year Father Tracy
took all the kids to the zoo
And he let them sing on the bus
And his little sister was born
with tiny toenails and no hair
And his mother and father kissed a lot
And the girl around the corner sent him a
Valentine signed with a row of X's
and he had to ask his father what the X's meant
And his father always tucked him in bed at night
And was always there to do it

Once on a peice of white paper with blue lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Autumn"
because that was the name of the season
And thats what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and asked him to write more clearly
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because of its new paint
And the kids told him
that Father Tracy smoked cigars
And left butts on the pews
And sometimes they would burn holes
That was the year his sister got glasses
with thick lenses and black frames
And the girl around the corner laughed
when he asked her to go see Santa Claus
And the kids told him why
his mother and father kissed a lot
And his father never tucked him in bed at night
And his father got mad
when he cried for him to do it.

Once on a paper torn from his notebook
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Innocence: A Question"
becuase that was the question about his girl
And thats what it was all about
And his professor gave him an A
and a strange steady look
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because he never showed her
That was the year Father Tracy died
And he forgot how the end
of the Apostle's Creed went
And he caught his sister
making out in the back porch
And his mother and father never kissed
or even talked
And the girl around the corner
wore too much makeup
That made him cough when he kissed her
but he kissed her anyway
because that was the thing to do
And at three A.M. he tucked himself into bed
and his father snoring soundly

Thats why on the back of a brown paper bag
he tried another poem
And he called it "Absolutely Nothing"
Because thats what it was really all about
And he gave himself an A
and a slash on each damned wrist
And he hung it on the bathroom door
because this time he didnt think
he could reach the kitchen.'
261 hit(s) (5 comments) | Rawr.  
fridayy.
Listening to: DEATH MAGNETIC.
Feeling: bizarre
turned seventeen on mondayy.
it was amazing. people care.

last year of high school.
easyy shit. until college apps, maybe.

"the promise is null &void."
the end of that dreaded drunken promise!

i care about him.
he lies. to me, to himself. helpless.

i hate her. &her stupid accusing questions.
she buys a new face to put on each dayy.


it's so easy to be happyy.
if you're up for it. it's so easy.


love//miss youu all.
172 hit(s) (0 comments) | purple bunnyy. <3  
[ 43 ] Smile
Listening to: Eleanor Rigby - Beatles
Feeling: fabulous
4 . o4 p.m.
oh, look at all the lonelyy people

where doo theyy all belong?

anywayys. so this saturdayy...
we're supposed to go to the mall.
me and holli.
to meet kaden there.
and his two friends:
nathaniel && supaflybrian.

it will be FUN
if holli can go.
she might stayy the night
on fridayy night.

which means she will get to
ride the bus home with me.
which would be uber fun!

we're probablyy not going to
actuallyy buyy anything.
just go to hang out.
shanti was like "who goes to the mall
to hang out? you do."
i lol`d. hehe.
i love that bxtch.

holli = myy wife.

dont be jealous.
i am colddd.
]:
stupid snow.
but at least myy
room is clean. [:

haha im so sillyy~~!

alright well i'm going to
go find something more
productive to do, i suppose.
hahaha.
me. productive.
i can be so funnyy sometimes!

bye.
54 hit(s) (2 comments) | CLiCKiTYCLiCK~!1!!  
- 39 -
Listening to: In Repair - Our Lady Peace
2 . 10 pm
Dear Diary,


Haven't you noticed that music can always change your mood? I have.

I burned my leg yesterday. It's 2nd degree.
With my curling iron. No, I was not trying to curl my leg-hairs. It was still hot and I was winding the cord around it. It's icky. I know it will scar. It was before the Stevenses came over. Abby, Michael and I jumped on the tramp and talked and had a jolly good time.

I hope the Miller's call us to do something tomorrow. I haven't seen Miles since ... I don't remember. He's been at his boarding school in Nebraska. Of course he comes back for holidays. But I dont really see him during them.

I really want to go to Logan High. Really. Because Jade's probably moving between now and then, and Karlee's going there, and Katherine's going there, and everyone else is going there. And Luke will be there for two years. Ian, Sharpay, Kameron, etc.

♥//chelly
122 hit(s) (2 comments) | gossip...  
A smile on the midnight train
[An entry which happened a few months ago]

I saw a lady last night who was on the midnight train. She was French - mid forties was my assumption - and she had two children with her, a teenage girl and a younger teenage boy. She was gradually getting tired and her children were becoming ever still and silent as their last drops of energy fell further from their eyes as the night wore on. I couldn’t help but observe the woman. She was attractive and delightful in that touristy way. What I couldn’t help notice though is how much she kept smiling at her children’s brief words and movements; Her smiles were that of, “yes I’m tired, but my children and my life no matter what struggles I could face fill me with everlasting joy”.

It wasn’t long before I started to feel reminded of my mom and the way she would smile at every short word spoken or little movement made when she herself was somewhat tired and dreaming of sleep.

As the midnight train wore on reaching its each destination, the lady’s eye’s closed, her children slept and I then descended at the next station where I walked home through the midnight that smiled.
21 hit(s) (1 comments) | Open your heart  
 
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