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Friends of Skipants
| February 6th, 2007 @ 12:00am | |
| by rabiddog | |
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| 171 hit(s) | (2 comments) | vos mots sont rien |
| January 22nd, 2006 @ 12:00am | |
| by lana | |
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Listening to: Haste the day - American love
Feeling: bewildered
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| 243 hit(s) | (5 comments) | love me/judge me |
| November 22nd, 2007 @ 12:00am | |
| by sexyhair | |
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| 455 hit(s) | (4 comments) | leave comment |
| Kyle's Movin' On Up! | January 28th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
| by mrshowwithkyle | |
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www.myspace.com/thekyleloganshow so come on down and stop by! or not it's entirely up to you! |
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| 289 hit(s) | (0 comments) | Drop a Line |
| straightedge | March 24th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by stfu | |
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| 325 hit(s) | (2 comments) | STFU |
| I hate... | March 21st, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by elfindancer | |
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Listening to: I should tell you - Rent soundtrack
Feeling: disappointed
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| 130 hit(s) | (2 comments) | what do you think? |
| Sorry guys... | January 29th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by heather121 | |
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Feeling: accomplished
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| 313 hit(s) | (2 comments) | An Diamo! |
| Ironic | April 9th, 2008 @ 12:00am |
| by cowgirl21 | |
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Listening to: Brand New - Play Crack the Sky
Feeling: upbeat
To be honest, I miss my senior year sometimes...I was comfortable in who I was, I had Monica, Sam, Dan, and Alex. I was in love, I hated my parents, and I couldn't WAIT to get the fuck outta Roscommon, because gods forbid I ever go back and make my life there. I still feel that way. I just feel nostalgic, and a little amused at what my point of views were, and are now. Back then, dating=bf/gf, now, there's a major difference, and it's not a big deal to flirt with someone at a party you may never see again, it's even okay to kiss them, although I draw that line at sleeping with them. It's perfectly okay to get drunk and silly, and when you puke, don't be embarrassed, because the person taking care of you has been there too, and you'll both probably be there again, getting each other water and trying to make them eat bread and stop with the shots. I've always been sarcastic, anyone who knows me knows that, but now, I'm less afraid of what other people think, and I'll speak my mind and stand up for what I believe in, and if I'm wrong about something, I'm still damn stubborn about it, but I'm getting better, and I think that just comes with growing up. People who think differently aren't the social outcasts of high school, here, in college, they're the people you stay up with at the all night coffee shop talking about EVERYTHING and coming away with brand new thoughts and perspectives. Living on your own is nice too....and sucks balls. You have to deal with roommates and new habits, which, if you're lucky (I was) you get away with a new friend or two, and only a few minor arguments. If you're the type of person whom mommy picks up after, cooks for, and basically cares for like you're 12, then you'll hate it. Doing your own laundry, cooking...or not...good meals, knowing when to tell yourself your room MUST be cleaned if only to preserve your state of mind. You appreciate what your parents have done for you more, and I call my mom at least every other day, if not just to say hi or find out how my grandparents are, then to find out how to clean something, cook something, fix something, whatever. Not ashamed to admit that there have been a few days when I've called home to talk to one parent or the other about 4 times in one day. Sometimes it's just nice hearing a familiar voice, especially after a bad day, or when you need some advice and there's no one else who would know. Dating is very different, obviously, I never would have thought at 19 months ago I would be here, with my random guy problems...well, one guy problem, and not even a problem, just...I don't even know. But it's there, and I'm dealing, although I should ante up and maybe try to figure it out. That's what really provoked this blog, not that I really miss RHS, just the people who've either grown apart, or grown so fucked up you just don't know them anymore and really don't want to, and the fact that I knew I was loved, and loved back. It's an amazing feeling, when you know you can go to this one person and count on them being there. I still somewhat have that, the love for someone, and all I want is that little bit more, that little reassurance that what I think is right, and I am loved. So, really, I need a hug, and that's all, just from someone who honestly cares about me, who isn't just a friend when there's a party we're both at, who knows me and whom I know back, I want that absolute feeling of being safe and comforted and knowing that he can come to me if he ever felt this way too. |
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| 210 hit(s) | (0 comments) | Speak To Me |
| #365 its gone | December 29th, 2008 @ 12:05am |
| by sandman | |
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fuck i actually do, i feel like utter shit, theres a gurl that likes me and im fucking breaking her heart cause i cant decide if im ready or not to try again and i wanna be, i just cant get over myself. there you go, to all you who said it your right I CANT FUCKING GET OVER MYSELF FUCK ALL YOU. |
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| 84 hit(s) | (0 comments) | Revillusion |
| (123) new kitty | August 9th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
| by sinisterbanana | |
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| 429 hit(s) | (1 comments) | chuck chuck! |
| [05] New Boyfriend | November 27th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
| by leigh | |
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Listening to: BEP-My Humps
Feeling: exhausted
Leigh ♥ Just For Fun:  Your twin is Paris Hilton. Your sexy and cute atthe same time. You also know how to strike apose. You are the girl all the boys want. Youhave evrything you want and everyone wants tobe you.
QUiZ: Who is your twin celebrity y??{ w/ great pics !!} GiRlS OnLiI brought to you by Quizilla |
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| 124 hit(s) | (2 comments) | Kiss Me I'm Yours |
| Confusion, to the max. | December 1st, 2005 @ 12:00am |
| by sangriaysol | |
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Listening to: lindsay lohan. UGH.
Feeling: abnormal
so R came up to visit as scheduled, and as predicted, basically threw himself at me. I got the full-fledged "I know I messed up before and that I'm dating someone at my school in upstate NY that's 3 1/2 hours away, but I see a side of you now that I didn't before, and I miss you, and I want to be with you." I realy had no idea what I was going to do before this actually happened. And then I did a strange thing. For the first time in my relationship history with R, I turned him down. That's right, I said no. For all the right reasons. Afterward I felt horrible and he was really upset and all, but I know it's what I had to do. I'm not saying we're not ever going to be together. I'm just saying that I'm not so sure I'm the person for him right now. Which brings me to be other constant dilemma, C. C, the one that got away, literally. We broke it off when I went off to school in August- his idea and wishes, not mine. He's still in high school (a senior) and was afraid I'd get here and never see him, or worse, meet someone else, so he decided to end it and spare himself the emotional heartache later. I think. Well, first semester ends next week, with final exams the week after. And, while I've only talked to C once since we broke up- in person at a football game back in September at our high school- I haven't really met anyone here that I'm interested in. Or that's interested in me. Except Scott, which is an automatic no because he's really just not my type and we don't have any connection at all. And there was the Alex thing, but that was more him trying to get in my pants, quite frankly. So yeah. As for the not seeing him excuse? I've been home pretty much every other weekend. Except I'm not coming home in between Thanksgiving and Christmas because there's only 3 weeks, and I have a TON of work to do and a bunch of weekend dance performances I have to be in. So there was basically no reason for us to break up, if that was his only reasoning. He said there wasn't another girl, and that he didn't want to date anyone else. So far, he's been right- he hasn't dated anyone else, even casually. So maybe, if there's no reason.. I should talk to him? I don't know. Some days, like today, for example, I REALLY want to be with him. I wake up after pretty shitty dreams and think, "My God, I've lost the only person who ever really meant anything to me and I've got to get him back before I forget that." It literally HURTS to not be with him on days like today. I miss it. Not just having a boyfriend. I miss HIM. I keep having random flashbacks of things I forgot. Like how last Christmas he gave me a HUGE wrapped present, which ended up being a box inside a box about 15 times, weighted down with rocks to confuse me, just for fun, and the last box was a jewelry box and a not. Or how he gave me his sweatshirt at mini golf one night, or sat with me and rubbed my back in the summertime at camp when I got overheated and couldn't breathe. How he never let me open my own car door once. How up until the last day we dated, a year and 2 months later, he still gave me butterflies when I was with him or thought about him. He's just always been there for me. And now, I just get a sick, sad feeling in the pit of my stomach. Other days, I feel like maybe it's best we never talk again. I think that's one of my issues. We were so close for so long, and then all of a sudden, I've had no contact with him for, well, it'll be 4 months a week from today, actually. We're not even friends, or civil. It really just sucks. So when he's online now, I just stare at his screenname, wondering if I should IM him. Say something. But what would I say?.. And what if he didn't answer me? That's why I stopped trying to contact him in the first place, because he wouldn't return calls, emails, IMs, or anything. I'm just so afraid of losing him forever. I never thought this would happen. Like with R, even WE manage to still be friends through it all.. although right now we're not speaking. He basically thinks I'm crazy because I'm not over C yet and that I need "more help than he can give me"...which makes me feel like A) a loser and B) like maybe I really AM crazy. I am such a basketcase. Who's going to want me now? Has anyone ever really? And when did I get so dependent on other people? I used to be so independent... Comment if you actually read that. Hah! |
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| 56 hit(s) | (2 comments) | leave comment |
| So many closes | April 23rd, 2007 @ 12:00am |
| by deathwish666 | |
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Listening to: Glamorous-Fergie
Feeling: beat
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| 89 hit(s) | (2 comments) | fuken eh? |
| rough | February 13th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by obscurity | |
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I'm beginning to think too much and at the same time, losing my grip on reality. As absurd as that sounds. Every night I'm finding myself staring at a blank spot on the ceiling, not thinking about much.. But thinking about everything. I fall asleep on the same note every night, some psuedo fucking thought of "wow, I'm really alright. Things are okay." Every night. I fall asleep around that point. Obviously, I'm only fooling everyone else. Because I'm not buying it. There's times were I really am happy. With Ash, or with Him. I'm not giving up this time. I'm not going to just let go and want to start over again next time I'm feeling a little depressed. I won't give up. Anyways, lost about 9lbs since last week, woo. Today: Breakfast: Spoonful of peanut butter After school: red pear about 10-15 grapes. Dinner: 2 small peices of fish. salad. That's all I'll eat tonight, and writing it out seems like I ate a ton. Gross. I feel gross for acting this way. I'm a hypocrite. |
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| 72 hit(s) | (1 comments) | alllriiightttt |
| Your shoulders | April 9th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by troubledsoul | |
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| 60 hit(s) | (0 comments) | I'm listening |
| nine: AHHHHH!!! | April 20th, 2008 @ 12:00am |
| by troublemaker | |
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Listening to: Garbage
Feeling: freaked
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| 170 hit(s) | (1 comments) | talk shit. |
| fridayy. | September 13th, 2008 @ 12:10am |
| by styrofoam | |
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Listening to: DEATH MAGNETIC.
Feeling: bizarre
it was amazing. people care. last year of high school. easyy shit. until college apps, maybe. "the promise is null &void." the end of that dreaded drunken promise! i care about him. he lies. to me, to himself. helpless. i hate her. &her stupid accusing questions. she buys a new face to put on each dayy. it's so easy to be happyy. if you're up for it. it's so easy. love//miss youu all. |
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| 438 hit(s) | (0 comments) | purple bunnyy. <3 |
| NEW SITDAIRY!!!! | October 29th, 2008 @ 5:57pm |
| by nightshade | |
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sorian thats it just sorian ok ^_^ |
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| 388 hit(s) | (0 comments) | this life |
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