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Friends of Sinisterbanana
| for good | August 1st, 2008 @ 12:00am |
| by emeraldclaire | |
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Listening to: here in your arms
Feeling: grateful
New scenes New ways Love It's been a while since I've updated. woo! Last semester went wonderfully. I keep growing. And As I go through these new experiences my capacity of happiness and ability to love increases! I do believe trials and tribulations really stretch out my heart so more good and fill in the space. And it's been such a wonderful ride! I remember his last words I shouldn't be spiteful. But they go through my head over and over again And I pity But those words are what motivated me. I called mom shortly after "Mom, wil anyone ever want me? Will anyone ever see me for me and love what they see?" I pitied myself for just a moment. I was near the taylor quad when I heard those last words By the time I reached Carriage House I was a new woman. so thank you, dear friend, for that feeble attempt that completley changed my life. Yes,Thank you! So last semester recap. I made new wonderful friends who completely turned my life around. I met people who actually believe in that movie at the end of our lives...and believes and strives for those certain moments. One would turn to me and say, "that was a total moment! The camera was angled like this!"... Or "I really am excited to see that moment again!" I became close to people I never thought I could. I starved and watched the food network channel. I screamed when I saw that doll head pop up in my window... I am on the 2nd floor. I experiened two of my friends getting engages...and never got steak for it. I found my major and my minor and I believe I'll stick to it. Sociology and marriage and family studies. I regained my love for love and I have a totally different self esteem. my swirl is going up. I bought this new laptop for 500 dollars and it works like a dream. I cried a LOT I became and ambassidor and IREP leader... I broke the rules. And through rocks at doors... I transformed and I'm happy. I'm motivated. I'm moving forward. Oh, and I fell in love mmmm. which love saved my life and I'm eternally grateful. It was almost forbidden. But we let it live. Such a crazy ride! I love that boy even now. Here in your arms-hellogoodbye driving in his truck his hand on my knee he listening to every word I said (or giving the appearence of listening) Long walks overcoming every little thing pushing the button on the climbing wall finding the large water bug and later disposing of it because it turned the container black crazy neighbors who begged for starburst throwing rocks at his door and spraying him with the water gun...he was so proud crossing the railroad tracks and that simple question-"where" haha weekend trips to rigby and IF almost drowning and proving that body heat really is the only way to get warm. those crazy blacklight dances and the loveyoulongtime concert. I really do hope you choke and die. stadium singing and the smell of pickles moments of silence with outbursts of laughter 15 minute naps and studying for hours in that lounge that smelt like moldy clothes birthday wishes and priesthood blessings That trip to G's and tears overflowing Whispered those before taboo words saying goodbye Oh, what a ride we're on. Now pressing on not knowing whats ahead. Florida and RExburg. Bring it on |
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| 490 hit(s) | (1 comments) | I like you |
| Summer Days | July 19th, 2008 @ 12:00am |
| by 2scoopsofcream | |
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Listening to: not so much
Feeling: amused
got another comment about my background, but i love it that way. annoying as physically possible. i probably have less readers this way. I have a job at a coffee and candy place, there is way more crap about coffee then i thought possible. funny how that is. Marriage life is good. He's a sweetheart, and still convinced that i'm a fairy. I want to illustrate for a children's book. about a fairy, but i'll have to make it as good as the "special" book. I like my job I love my man I love being so close to my new family I love have a free house I like the house I hate the electral work in the house I like that i'll have an empty apartment in Kansas City. I hate dial up I want to listen to my music but i can't cause it takes too stinking long at least when i'm doing bakery i can listen to the music there. |
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| 639 hit(s) | (1 comments) | *cough cough* |
| I'm 19 | January 7th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
| by natters | |
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Feeling: amused
I thought I'd write a little about what I learned in my 18th year. 1. I learned true love is something you have to work at. 2. You can't trust a man just because you trusted him before. 3. Don't give up on something worth it, but don't start anything that isn't worth it, either. 4. Your temper isn't worth hurting others. 5. Maturity isn't something you earn, it just happens. 6. Love is fickle and can change with the wind. 7. Running away can actually accomplish something. 8. I'm on my own, as much as I depend on others, it is my life and decisions. 9. Work can be tough, but it has to get done. 10. I know what I want, but it is me who has to get myself there. There is prolly more, but I'll leave it at that for now. Seems common sense, I know...but how many other ppl are living by them? It's more difficult than one thinks... You can't stop loving someone, just because it will never work out. All you can do is go on living anyway, because what you want is bigger than one person to love. |
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| 193 hit(s) | (0 comments) | You want to... |
| perfect.........ish | August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
| by mormongirl07 | |
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"You say you feel like a natural person, you haven't got nothing to hide. So why do you feel imperfection cut like a sword in your side?" Under the Weather, KT Tunstall I wish I had an answer. Dear Diary, Kadee and I spent most of the day together, and it was good. I worry about her, but we had fun. We watched the OC for the first time in forever!!! Tonight we had fun. Sitting in the back of my mom's car talking and laughing and listening to my iPod. Emily is married! So strange. She's barely older than me... younger than Sarah... My nose is cold. Today was good. I got to see Kadee and a close friend. I haven't seen either in them in quite awhile. I woke up and decided to eat junk food, so that's all I ate all day. I watched the OC. I almost dyed my hair... lol. But... Okay. This is what I decided. Out of five children, I am the only one my parents expect to be perfect. I am to never make mistakes. I am never to disobey. I am never to have opinions that differ from theirs. I am never to be independent, yet I shouldn't depend on them... I want to make them proud, too... So I try to be perfect to make me happy because it makes them happy... eh... I'm too tired to think about this. It makes me tired. I just want... to not have to worry about being perfect... Love, Lisa Ann P.S. But... I do love my parents. P.S. I think I'm just feeling about five million different moods right now. So forgive me if this entry makes absolutely no sense or if it's just pathetic. Because really, feeling happy and lonely and at peace and troubled and scared and careless all at the same time... wow. You gotta cut me some slack. ;) |
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| 536 hit(s) | (3 comments) | Say Something! |
| this exists...? | October 7th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
| by koreodaoreo | |
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Listening to: none
Feeling: whiney
my name says "josh's koree" and that i am sixteen. that is not right. i am not josh's koree, nor am i sixteen... but i am still a girl... i don't really come on here anymore. i use LiveJournal now... sorry sitdiary, i love you still! it's late - i think i'll go have some hot chocolate and read something... 'night. |
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| 278 hit(s) | (0 comments) | say something! |
| 184-MORTAL COMBAT! | February 16th, 2008 @ 12:00am |
| by photobyfrancis | |
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Listening to: Mortal combat
Feeling: giddy
~Britney Francis~ |
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| 321 hit(s) | (3 comments) | Come on! Click! |
| still hurting | April 20th, 2008 @ 12:00am |
| by openeyedjosh | |
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As for other life, I'm exhausted from working graveyard shift. I only have a week and a half of working left so that I can do things before I leave. And it feels like my friends don't want to do things with me anymore, which is really sad because i miss doing stuff with them. In the music department. I love to write music and i've been in 3 different bands, and i've had 2 cd's our 2nd cd i've put some of the songs up for review, and we just keep getting bad reviews that bash what i've worked so hard for and it makes me want to stop writing music, but I want to be heard. I mean, our song with the best reviews got a 2.8 stars out of 5 and it's just really sad to me to have that happen. I know i can do it, it's just that it's really tough when not even your best friend wants to listen to your stuff, or your mom doesn't want to buy a cd. And then you get only to see what the rest of the world thinks of your songs, and you get nominated for writing "the stupidest song I've ever heard" award. life just isn't going well right now......not even well. Well, I really hope that life is better than this when i get back from my mission in two years. Otherwise it's really not worth it. I'm just not happy anymore, and I can't find happiness anywhere. But i guess i'll keep looking. |
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