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Friends of Scarletsoul
| Find me. | November 17th, 2008 @ 5:06pm |
| by blackvomit | |
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I wish it was scarf weather, it would make me feel better about staying inside. It would make me feel better about not getting up. The microwave is heating up a frozen pizza for me, and that sort of feels comforting. It's making my apartment smell like Chuck E. Cheese, and that really feels comforting. Right now I would like to watch a movie and pretend I'm the main character. So that's what I'll do, because nothing else matters right now. -Amanda |
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| 105 hit(s) | (1 comments) | be honest. |
| I need to win | December 24th, 2008 @ 2:32am |
| by parapara | |
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A lot of times I don't feel normal but I know that's how everyone feels and it useless to whine about it. Still, I feel on the outside. I'm really in a battle against myself. An 'I against I' scenario. I need to better myself, take chances and seize the day but I'm afraid and I'm stubborn. I'm afraid on the one hand I won't do the things I need to do until I'm pushed so close to the edge that I'll take that leap out of desperation and rebellion, screaming "fuck you life. Fine I'll just plow through these things with force and hate." And on the other hand I'm afraid that I NEED to get to that edge to WAKE UP and realize how fast my life is passing me by. But what is that edge? And is there another way to get what I want without having to come those extremes and eventually giving up and taking what wants me? That's scary. I make excuses all the time and I fall back too much on destiny and fate. "It'll all happen eventually, just give it some time." It won't happen until I MAKE it happen. Maybe I'm jaded or bitter because of those times where I stuck my foot in the water and the water was too cold or the sharks were too visible and now I'm sitting on the deck chair looking at everyone having so much fun in the pool on a hot summer day in the middle of July while I sit in my snow globe in the dead of winter. I need to smash the glass, cut my feet and dive in. I need to win. |
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| 127 hit(s) | (2 comments) | go at it |
| May 6th, 2007 @ 12:00am | |
| by realhorrorshow | |
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Listening to: terrible angels - cocorosie
Feeling: bleh
cocorosie was amazing last sunday. it was a night that was truly unforgettable. |
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| 85 hit(s) | (1 comments) | shoot |
| 2oo7 | January 26th, 2008 @ 12:00am |
| by leadercrit | |
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I am honestly NOT the same lady I was before. I have gotten bitter and lost how gullible I used to be. I learned who my TRUE friends were and in the process figured many so called "friends" were stabbing me in the back. One must ALWAYS be careful what you say on the Net, someone's going to read it. I lost the one woman I have ever loved last year and I miss her terribly. I dream of her and I wake up thinking she's cooking breakfast or going to pop into my room to kiss me good-bye before she heads off for work. I found out that I can truly like someone so much I can't find any other kind of happiness with someone else. It's just not the same. Every other guy seemed like an ephermeral pleasure rather than what I feel for this other man. He makes me happy and I love being with him. Clearly no one else can know because you just haven't SEEN. And that's your loss... ...I have changed for both better and worse. I am called "Every parent's WORST nightmare" in my circle of friends because of this shit I have done. Clearly, it's not over for me. I know that in these next months, I'm once again going to change drastically. But it's life. The only thing permanent in life is change. |
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| 67 hit(s) | (1 comments) | Amuse Me |
| 389 | December 23rd, 2008 @ 8:35pm |
| by vakkergotisk | |
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I've stuffed myself silly with cookies. Its quite disgusting to be perfectly honest. My lack of self control has been horrid lately. I just checked my final grades, Ouch. I must do better next semester. I don't even know if I want to go to school next semester. Sometimes it just seems worthless. I'm just a fuck up sometimes I guess. Not much else to talk about I suppose. Just a boring Christmas break. Doesn't really feel like Christmas much. |
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| 166 hit(s) | (0 comments) | touch me |
| every few steps | January 4th, 2009 @ 6:38pm |
| by vgwrksbrto | |
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Listening to: The Calendar Hung Itself
Feeling: aloof
I dont want to deal with it again. you know how it was with him. the whole sexual thing we talked about was just on both our nerves. i just rather you do things without me having to ask. and certain things you do and i like! I'm stressed and worried if i'm even going to school. Its great you cared that i'm happy and not havin to deal with denisse and angie. thank you and for all its worth, even if you never read this, i love you. |
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| 16 hit(s) | (1 comments) | oh yes. |
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