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Friends of Satrianivai
| August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm | |
| by ilovetheleafs | |
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Wish I was too dead to cry, my self affliction fades. So dies all innocence. And I don’t feel like I am strong enough. Sometimes everything is wrong. And the lightning flashes in her eyes and he knows that she knows. Do you even care if I die bleeding? And in the end we'll fall apart. |
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| 563 hit(s) | (7 comments) | Temptation |
| {100} MADE IT!! | August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
| by flameheart | |
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dude, yesterday was friggin hell! I sat at home all day and had nothing to do. i kept asking my brother if he wanted to go outside, but nooooooo he didn't, friggin hell. O well..... I need a life, or atleast a boyfriend. anyone open? ok disregard that last little bit there. I think i am going crazy. at the strangest moments this feeling of living alone for rest of my life comes over me. And that scares me. I am sure some people know what i mean damn i got to stop being so emo. I never really used to care, but now for some reason i do. I turned 16 and i have never had a boyfriend, now thats sad! O well, screw all of you happy-in-love people. Really, i hate all of you x_x not really, but seeing people happy just makes me upset more. i am like a little rich bastard that wants everything and can't get what she wants. I want a relationship, and it is the last thing i can get. I could probably get a degree in math before i could get anyone to hold me. yeah...and i hate math. screw all you happy people in the world, its my time to be selfish and upset. comment all of you lonely people. I don't want to hear anything about how i will find someone soon. soon as in when? I have waited 16 years, isn't that enough? ahh fuck....emo entry again..... but really, this is how i feel. Alone, cold, and in need of a hug. and no one to give me one. no one really ever comments on my emo entries. i would like some, but no cliche crap thats going to make me feel worse. [xeditx] Well thomas and adam are over now. I am friggin bored. I think later i am going to go bug them downstairs. I can hear them. I dunno who is playing but whatever. bahhh boredom, i need a life. or somemore friends. I am starting to feel like the random sister that tags along with everyone. you know almost a 5th wheel type thing. o well, i am good for somthing i know it....just haven't figured out what that somthing is. o well i have nothing to do here so i am going to go bug them. I would talk to andrew, but he is a bum and never really talks back, so i end up saying i hate him. o well. comment all of you! |
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| 499 hit(s) | (4 comments) | Make me _____ you |
| 284 | August 7th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by frodo | |
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Ugh its early. Not as early as I got up at camp, but meh. Still early. Well, a lot has happened since I've come home, including settling back in, getting used to being at home, and I'm now single. Yes that's right. Don't bother asking why because I really don't want to talk about it. I don't want to sound like a rude jerk, but I just don't. But I'd better go find something to do for the rest of the day. Later. |
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| 513 hit(s) | (2 comments) | Am I Evil? |
| Depressed | September 8th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
| by anakin | |
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I can't believe how powerful words can be. Something said to you can effect you for a long time, I know, I'm one of those people who have witnessed how powerfull words can be, how hurtfull they can be. Human speech is so powerfull people don't even know it. Some use it to make others jealous, some to make people angry. Words can change peoples emotions. I too upset to go on right now, I think you know this is effecting me some how. C ya |
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| 309 hit(s) | (1 comments) | enterthenightmare |
| finally | November 19th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
| by nikki3405 | |
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Feeling: depressed
1) summer was awesome. wenever i wasnt at home working i was with sheldon. however cuz of this i lost all my friends. 2) dog got put down june 7th because he had a tumor and cancer. he was creamated 3)started school at fleming college. taking general arts and science. its a joke course. so easy and retarded 4) got on the F.A.S.T team for campus (first aid support team) 5)came home for thanksgiving and found out my mom had lung cancer since july. by the time i saw my mom she had already been through radiation and everyhting and was in really bad condition. got mad and couldnt handle it so i took off at 2am and went to sheldons. week and a half later got a call at school from my dad "your mother is in the hospital. get home asap" so i packed my stuff and rushed home. spent 7 hours in the hospital with my mom whom was hooked up to oxggen ivs and other shit. she was asleep the entire time. she opened her eyes and looked at me wen the nurse came in to give her a needle. and seeing the look in her eyes wen she looked at me was terrible. later that night sheldon came down. then 5am the next mornign we get a call from the hospital "shes gotten worse" so my dad left to go there. an hour later he came back "your mother passed away 2minutes before i got there" cried basically all day reading her journals that she had written within 2 of the months she was sick. then the funeral and wake came. longest day ever. burried in her my clothes cuz she didnt have nice dress clothes, put barkley in her arms, and ya. btw. she had lung cancer which was fast approaching, spread to her brain and liver. 6)school has never been the same. not movitated to go anymore. skipping bout 5-8 classes a week. not sleeping at night. 7) got really mad one night that my dad didnt tell me my mom was sick till it was too late. the last time i saw her before she was noticibly sick was the day i moved into school. anyway, i got mad and punched my mirror. didnt end well. 8) sheldons dad and his new gf (whom r living together in there new house) seem to be tryin to split us up. 9) sheldon and mine 1 year is thursday (3 days) |
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| 338 hit(s) | (2 comments) | Leave one! |
| Love? | August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
| by socrazy | |
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I think we all believe that we're in love with the person we're in a relationship with. And we try so hard to believe it, because we're all afraid of being alone in the end. Sure some say they're fine, and for all I know maybe they are. But they're probably trying to convince themselves they don't need anyone, or that one-day they'll meet the person they're supposed to be with. Do we ever really know, not just try to convince ourselves? Now don't go thinking that this means I'm contemplating things about Adam. Because I'm not, it was just something that randomly popped into my head while reading old entries and thinking. (You can breathe a sigh of relief Adam, it's not going to be a repeat of last year for you. As long as last summer for me doesn't occur, which I know won't happen.) Also we survived me being gone for a week, so I know it's okay. Vincent Kennedy McMahon "If you have a relationship that can survive being away from one another. The bond will grow stronger. But if it breaks at one infraction, you never really had anything at all." Sandman (Adam), August 11, 2005. #48 A New Beginning. That was all that was written. I believe it was written in the middle of July, I really should start putting dates on everything I write. lol. Later, Meaghan. |
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| 324 hit(s) | (3 comments) | Make my day worse |
| A Love Letter By Ludwig Van Beethoven | June 3rd, 2008 @ 12:00am |
| by mcrbaby | |
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Listening to: Sex And The City: The Movie Soundtrack - Sex And The City Theme
Feeling: lucky
I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved. ever thine ever mine ever ours |
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| 223 hit(s) | (0 comments) | .×.Comment.×. |
| Olivia | 11.21.08 |
| by scott | |
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