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Feeling: overwhelmed
6:19 Early Thursday Night (13 November 2008)
  Massive Recreational Rooms

I had this really weird dream last night.
Caleb came and we went into our new room but actually it was upstairs instead of downstairs. and it had this awesome big queen sized water bed, and was attached to another room that had my old twin bed in it, and it was decorated in pink. Then attached to the room with my old bed was this huge room with hardwood flooring and high ceilings. It had a bar, pool table, ice machine, soda dispenser, our old big screen TV, some couches, popular art, and a mess of other things that I don't remember.

Then my aunties were over looking at the room as well, and we were all sitting at the bar, talking and laughing, then somehow everyone was gone but me , and I realised there was a massive party going on and I was going to get in a lot of trouble...even though the party wasn't my fault?

anyway i just really liked the idea of having this huge rec room attached to my bedroom...with a bar and tvs and couches and whatnot. Oooo, We are living in a material world, and I am a material girl! */Madonna*

some pretty awesome things happened today, like I got to sleep in for an hour and a half or so, I was let off of a parking ticket because it was my first offense (next time i will check my OWN rear view mirror for the hang tag instead of the car next to mine), and my boyfriend found a mushroom as big as my head. YEA!

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parallels and typewriters
Listening to: tunturia - lost in the hidden forest
his typewriter is writing of something parallel
another nowhere bound galaxy
he is the key or keys
any key, monochromatic
it is an unthinking unit--its fingers mechanical
reaching out through the absent space
reaching like infinitely growing snakes
anxious to press against letters upon letters upon period.
his stereo surroundings are kin to puppet strings
wrapping itself taut against his body
he wants ever to conceive himself into the moving life
and in some quickened response to his centric thought
the many strings made of airwaves lifts him up and up
through the open airways; through the man-made;
through the cumulus he ascends to his static perch
an ancient living thing with emerald appendages
he inhales with plastic lungs to capacity
and without regret, but for the ensuing exhalation--
the sound that moved out of his facade
took the shape of an exotic crow's caw
a murderous cacophony erupted in perfect unison
and in metronomic time
the typewriter continues its forward slither
the voice of heroism collides with the malignant digits
from the might of this nuclear imagination
the typewriter's advance is lulled and nullified.
he drifts downward towards, then beyond the rotten typewriter
out and through the absent space.
suddenly, he finds himself writing of something parallel
another nowhere bound galaxy.
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[211] one step at a time
Listening to: secondhand serenade
Feeling: aggravated
I fucking give up; on everything.
I'm so fed up with this shit.

Ugh; I can't do this anymore.
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five
5.51pm

I really haven't written for a very long time, which is pretty awful really, for something that is meant to be a diary. Basically my mum has been really ill for the past couple of months, but she went into hospital last week for a final check-up and they've basically given her an all-clear. She had breast cancer and she's had it before and gone into remittance, so I don't know how reliable this is to be honest. Anyway, it's brilliant that the doctors can't find anything anymore. Mum hates being poked and prodded (to be honest, who doesn't?) so it's just great for her to be able to get on with things.

In other news, we got a new chest of drawers and wardrobe delivered last night! They're really nice and go well with our bed, and before we'd had to have Dan's parents' old things because we couldn't really afford to get new things when we're both only training and also having bought a place together. It's really beginning to feel like home now which is amazing!

I promise to update this more now!
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I was there...
Feeling: angry
On Wednesday, I decided that I needed to do some shopping. I was going to meet a friend at Westroads mall. I went there a bit before she did. While browsing around in Dicks Sporting Goods, I notice a commotion with the sales clerks. One approaches me and the few other women standing there in that area, asks us not to panic and he needs us to proceed downstairs. I ask why.

"Because there is a man firing a gun in Von Maur."

When I left the mall, they weren't sure what was going on inside. They told us if we were parked in the immediate area to run to our cars and exit the parking lot.

I was escorted out of a mall by two armed police officers because someone "snapped" and felt the need to cause harm and kill innocent people.

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falling up
note: here's a re-post from another site i'm at. it may be a bit repetitive, for which i apologise, but i should at least post an update when i've got one, heh.





i have been reading like a madwoman lately. last week, i read (and finished) one book each day. most of the reading was actually done during work (shh don't tell), but my productivity didn't suffer for it, so i'm not too worried.

i hadn't been to the library in awhile, so i kind of outdid myself. i walked out with a stack of books, an even bigger stack of DVDs, and some old-time radio show CDs.

and i'm still waiting on some items to come in.


i also ordered a new book on amazon a few days ago. i can't wait for it to get here.

i'm a book-fiend.


work has been canceled for the week, so i'll have to file unemployment . . . before our TWO-WEEK VACATION starts on monday. after over four years of working at this place, you'd think i'd know to plan this better. but the lay-offs don't usually come up until mid-september, so i thought i was being crafty. fat chance, but at least i'm getting paid for part of it.

mike, meanwhile, is getting paid for all of it; he has two weeks of vacation that must be used up before thanksgiving (they don't allow people to take off on holidays - how fucking stupid is that?), so he came up with this nifty little idea.

so i guess i've got three weeks off.

that should give me some time to accomplish all the shit i've got piled up. i hope.


it's been very grey out for the past week, raining off and on. i don't mind too much, though - this time of year, i always get excited for fall. i'm not entirely ready for summer to end - at least, not until after our vacation is over - but when i think of the leaves changing, the colour of an autumn sky, and the scent that always comes with the season, i get a bit excited.

then i go christmas-crazy.

it's already started; i've been wanting to watch 'holiday inn' and, since we're going to chicago for part of our hols next week, 'while you were sleeping.'


as far as the wedding and europe are concerned, here's a lazy-arsed copy+paste from that dreadful mind-trap, myspace:

europe will be a one-month trip to start. the first two weeks will be spent gallivanting round as many countries and sights as we can comfortably fit; if we like the atmosphere and feel it'd be possible to actually move there altogether, the next two weeks will be spent finding a place to live/stay and a place to work. if it ends up being more difficult than is possible, we'll spend the entire month traipsing round instead.

i'm hoping for the former; however, if it turns out to be the latter, we'll have our hol and then come home for a bit . . . and shift our aim toward moving to canada.

if we get married in europe, it'll be an elopement, with a reception and vow-renewal here. otherwise, we'll have the ceremony here as well, and we've a few places in mind for that. still trying to figure out the best solution to this, but we'll take it as it comes.


in other news, we're trying to find a new place to live. if we want to do all the shit listed above, we're gonna have to save some more cash.

there's a place not too far from here that we've been thinking of. it's a one-bedroom, which is less than we've got now (2-bedroom with 1200 total sq. ft.), but it's quite spacious as is -and- it has a nice-sized kitchen with an ELECTRIC STOVE. i don't mind the gas stove we've got now, but electric is, to me, much easier to cook with/on.

we'll be saving $50 every month's rent, plus everything except electricity is included - even off-street parking. we'd have our own entrance, too, so we wouldn't be disturbing anyone else.

i hope mike goes for it. (=



sorry for being such a slacky-wanker on posting. when i -am- home, i'm usually cleaning or cooking for the bake-sale or trying to work on the tattoo design i should've finished by now. otherwise, we're out walking (weight-loss plan still in action) or grocery shopping or doing whatever else.

i'll try to be more efficient, but we all know i've said that a million times before.




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11/19/08

I feel nothing..
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BOLLOCKS
Feeling: abused
BOLLOCKS
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Feeling: awful
"You were in love once you can be in love again. You're just not trying hard enough."

I've fallen.
I hope for our sakes I can get back up.
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If this works, we're in good shape.
Welcome to the other side!
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Yes we did!
Listening to: Aesop Rock: "Bring Back Pluto"
Feeling: relieved
Congratulations, Barack Obama, 44th President of the United States!!!
Not just a minor victory either, but an electoral landslide including Florida, Ohio, North Carolina, Indiana, Colorado, Virginia, and Iowa, all traditionally red states.
I have no other words to add right now.
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Blahhhhhhhhh
I feel yucky :(
I slept until 15 minutes before calculus, 2 1/2 more hours of sleep more than usual. I took an hour nap after calculus. I droned through lunch, and chemistry. I worked on math homework that made me want to kill myself. I went to dinner even though I felt like puking. I took a 2 (almost 2/12) hour nap until I had to go to this "modern dance" concert. I'm still scratching my head. My head has been killing me all day. My entire body is sore. My knees are making a weird sound when I go up the stairs. I'm hungry and nauseous at the same time. I'm freezing cold when everyone around me is hot. I'll live I suppose. That's not what's making me feel the yuckiest anyway. I thought I was special... but everything is still about her... isn't it obvious that she's moved on? I'm more real to you than she could ever be. You've never even met her in real life... I know you in real life... I meant it when I told you that I loved you... I thought you did too...
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distinction.
i was under the impression that this space would never again exist.

how times do change.
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Listening to: silence
Feeling: frustrated
i hate when life throws you a hard ball, especially with girls.

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enough
Feeling: offended
fuck. i've so had enough of the bitch.
it's not even on and off anymore. she's constantly fucking me round.

just now:
we have a disagreement on the boundaries for the youngest child.
she first threatens to tresspass me from this house, then says she';s going to the police to say i shouldn't be in possession of firearms.
whatthefuck
then, i dont allow her the candy i just bought saying she's "being ho-ey towards me"
that didn't go down well. she turns off my monitor, stands in my face, trys snatching at the bag of candy.
then she says "i'm not being ho-ey, how was i being ho-ey"
i say "think"
"i disagreed with you about..."
"no"
"yes, that's all i said..."
"think harder"
"no that's all i said"
(repeat 5 times)
"well if you dont tell me then i can't say sorry for it. i probably didn't say it, you probably are just making it up"

what.
that's always her answer. i'm being silly. i'm just making it up.

childish and pathetic and i've really had enough. maybe she shouldn't have sugar, cos this only really started after i gave her candy when i got home.

she also says that all of the bond paid on this place belongs to her "cos i owed her money"
my memory isn't too good, so i can't debate this, but i'm sure she's screwing me on it.

and the other week, when i stayed out all saturday, and she was pouty until monday, then she was shitty all tuesday, then she sucks my cock.
what the fuck

is it just gingas? or are all women this fucked up?
myself and a friend had an epiphany the day other:
for every woman you see, even the smoking hot ones in tight clothes (or no clothes) there is at least one man who is sick of her shit.
so i guess it's all women.

sigh.
tribute to "the solution" =)
_ra
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People Learn To Deal
I read way too much into everything.

I just downloaded and listened to a song that somebody thought I would like, or... well, I'm not sure what they thought. Something along the lines of "it's totally my song" or "describes my life"...? Maybe I missed something but I definitely got the wrong message. At least I hope I got the wrong message. Because the message is vastly -- vastly -- weird. Awesome. But WEIRD.

I was talking to Matwichuk a few weeks ago about grief and loss. He said that our actions are done for approval by loved ones.
Eversince we had that conversation I have found that it is quite true, and it scares me because I'll still be doing things for my parents when they pass on and thus will be constantly reminded of the gaping hole they will have left behind. And it especially scares me because of mum's cancer.

Lately I have been stepping out of my old self and doing weird shit like buying strange clothing, altering my appearance pretty significantly, drinking (weirder still, actually wanting to drink), hiding behind stacks of homework and burying myself in my bedroom for hours at a time doing shit-all. Maybe I was always like that and I just didn't realise it? Maybe it is another step towards my shitty familial disassociation. Or maybe I'm just numbing myself with mindless distractions.

What I would like to do more than anything else is get up and get lost in some new world far away. But I guess I'm sort of already lost in my own without really trying.

Mike, Ghost World was amazing.

--Kyra
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