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Friends of Lightning15
| The On-Going Woman | April 7th, 2008 @ 12:00am |
| by xchokeofbloodx | |
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Feeling: neurotic
and i can't believe the way i keep throwing it all away. i'm almost twenty and already i see my youth slipping away. i always feel like i'm running out of time, but my priorities are atleast RIGHT WHERE THEY SHOULD BE. being a waitress is one big stage act. i have to get better at memorizing my lines and multi-tasking. its kind of like rubbing your stomach with one hand while trying to pat your head with other. i was never one of those kids who could do that. don't get me wrong though...i'm not slow. infact, i catch on really fast. i love the new job...so far anyways. the biggest argument shawn and i have is, who loves who more. he is an amazing boyfriend...and an even better friend. he's pretty much the nicest person you'll ever meet. shawn has taught me alot, and i'll always love him for it. i love him with all of me. |
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| 103 hit(s) | (1 comments) | centuries of me |
| 915 | December 3rd, 2008 @ 9:32pm |
| by advertisement | |
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Feeling: sleepy
How Long is Seven Days, Really? By this time next week (that is, 8:27 Early Wednesday Night 10 December 2008), I will be a college senior. But wait...How? I don't feel any older than I felt when I was 16. I still find it hard to believe that I'm enrolled in Uni at all. Sometimes I am walking to class and it hits me, whoa. I'm at uni...and I'm not just pretending. I feel like i'm actually pretending to pretend to be in college. Who the fuck am I? |
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| 16 hit(s) | (0 comments) | Am I Real? |
| [74] He's The Only Man I Need | December 28th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
| by darkangelbaby | |
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Listening to: Tu Hombre by Kartier
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| 323 hit(s) | (13 comments) | Always Been You |
| its been so long. | March 12th, 2008 @ 12:00am |
| by jorge | |
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Feeling: fine
i love my marine! |
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| 572 hit(s) | (0 comments) | tell me a story.. |
| matthewjerusalem | August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
| by punksunstarz | |
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Listening to: my boo-usher f alicia keys.
Feeling: dandy
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| 324 hit(s) | (0 comments) | droppings. |
| x0x0x God Dang | August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
| by kierkier11 | |
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Listening to: Candy Shop - 50
Feeling: great
thats it Love, Kier #90 bitch |
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| 116 hit(s) | (5 comments) | you'retheposterboy |
| Back again. | September 14th, 2008 @ 11:42am |
| by iloveslipknot | |
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Listening to: none
Feeling: tired
Wow. I just readed all my old entrys. I was a crazy girl. Its amazing how people change in little time. I can't believe this site is still up. -danielle |
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| 113 hit(s) | (2 comments) | CHAOS!! |
| No Freakin Way | February 2nd, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by xxswtxheartzxx | |
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Feeling: impish
Long time no...write. Yeah anyway i've been up to nothing Same routine as always School.Sleep.Depression.Happiness.Confusion hmm.. Tomorrow is friday. at last. school is killing me. the teachers atleast i cant wait till this weekend!! Saturday ill hopefully b hitin up the *mall* and mayb goin to see *when a stranger calls* or something and just hang out w/ dad AND its nick and my 1- month anniversery :) SUNDAY = SUPERBOWLLL YO! GO STEELERS! Heck yes. I think im goin to nicks for the day hanign out w/ the gang eating and watching the game hopefully Knowing my mom though ille ver get there late or leave early grr. Hopefully things will go..my way Yeah idk i dont feel good and i really need to try and focus on homework or not. mayb ill just work on muh art proj. yeah. Lv it. |
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| 92 hit(s) | (1 comments) | Enough Already. |
| [250].*.It's been a while, since I could, hold my head up high... | November 30th, 2008 @ 6:12pm |
| by pinkcandylips | |
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Listening to: mute
Feeling: aloof
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| 64 hit(s) | (0 comments) | COMMENT XO |
| Untitled | August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
| by brittney4104 | |
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Feeling: better
So I got up as I realize my long white dress that was full of ruffles, the dress was bright of the comfortable sun, it seems to blind me. With my long dark hair flowing like the grass I suddenly realized, too peaceful. Filling with fear as I felt the forest inching forward, I wanted to run, needed to run but looking at the forest was keeping me in a trance being curious. Finally breaking from the trance that seems to last too long, way too long, I turned away from the dark, scary forest and I ran and ran in the opposite direction from the forest. As I ran, it seems to go in slow motion and getting me no where. Even my heart beat was pounding slowly cause of the way my speed was when I was running. To my right there is a mirror-like pond that had a deck. The water was enchanted by the sky. There wasnât a ripple in the water which strikes me odd because of the breeze through the grass. To my left there was a garden that was filled with the most amazing colors but I didnât stop to make out the shape of the flowers because my eyes were on my goal which was straight forward on the white house that seems to be one and a half story tall. As I ran in the semi-frozen time, with my bare feet softly pounding on the ground without a sound, the house seems to grow further and further away as I try to come closer to it. I turned to look at the forest and it seems to grow near and bigger. I try to scream out but the fear has taken over my voice so I kept on running and running which was getting me nowhere. Then there was a great pain in my leg and then I started to see the grass growing near. I was falling, and since I was falling it seems that I was falling in a wide black hole. As I keep falling into the black darkness, I heard a voice, âWake up,â someone pleaded. It sounded like a womanâs voice. Then I felt like I landed with my heart there racing. I woke up trying to breath. I felt like I was under water for a long time. I gasped and gasped for air. I shot up from a bed, waking from the eerie forest dream. âDoctor, Doctor, come quick she woke up!â shouted a lady that has a face that looked familiar. She has deep red hair that seems to stretch out forever, with eyes of a green shad of jade. I was gasping for air mesmerized about this amazing womanâs face. âWho is sheâ as my thoughts was trying to race through my memory but I donât remember anything, not even my own name. âOh thank God, my baby is back,â as the woman looked at me in amazement. I couldnât find my voice to talk but my mind was racing with questions to ask. She reached to touch my hand. I guess I felt the heat from her hands before she even put them to mine. I felt frighten so I moved my hands out of her reach. âOh Ronny, itâs me your mama, donât you remember me?â asked the woman with a concern but polite face. I didnât know how to answer; I couldnât find my voice to speak, so I laid there in a bed just staring at her. I donât know why but my heart returned to a normal pace. Just a look of the woman made me become relaxed. I reached my freezing hands to touch her face, she was shocked about my cold icy hands, but she began to smile as my hands wonder on amazement of her face. The door opened, and there was a man dress in a bright white coat standing in the door way looking in to see who was in the room. âRonny, Ronny Sadie?â asked the man. âYes, her name is Ronny. Who are you?â demanded the woman with red hair. âWell, I am Dr. Roberts, you must be the mother,â informed the doctor. âYes, Shelly Sadie,â answered the woman. âAh, letâs have a look at Ronny.â The doctor took out a flashlight to examine my eyes. When he finished looking at one of my eye and about to go onto the other, I felt a chilling flash and my vision went bright white. Then through the brightness I saw something. I saw eyes of the color of amazing grays eyes. They looked excited then it seems to grow angry because they turned black. Then everything turned white again. âRonny, are you alright?â asked Dr. Roberts with concern. âWhat?â I seem to whisper out. âYou seemed too dazed out on us,â explained the doctor. âUh, Doctor, will Ronny be going home today, she has been her for quite a while.â informed Shelly. âHow-how long have I been her?â I asked in a choked weak whisper. They look at me with some discomfort, I was afraid of the answer. âUh, about three months,â admitted my doctor. Three months? What?! I felt lost, apart of me just wanted to get up and run. I donât know why but I had that vibe that I hated hospitals, being closed up, locked up with no way out and without knowing it. I want to know why I was here, but I think I was a mile behind from ever knowing. The truth was, I was afraid of the truth but I needed to know. âHow did I get here?â there I asked, but why arenât they answering? âWhy am I here,â still no answer, maybe a little louder. âWhy am I here, why?â I couldnât stand the silence anymore so I started screaming âwhy am I here, answer me, answer me over and over again. No one would just answer me, but they screamed for a nurse. She came to drug me with a needle. That still didnât stop me from asking one more time. âWhy am I hereâŚâ My speech slurred and the room became blurry and dull and that was the last thing I remembered. The throbbing pain in my head was the thing that woke me up. I woke up and the room was filled of empty darkness. I can hear the nurses walking down the hall and I can see the lights from the halls creeping under my door which set an eerie glow through out the room. I continued to look around and I can hear the tick tock of the clock on the wall. I wonder what the time was but I couldnât see the hands for the hours and minutes. I sat up, my body felt really heavy and my head feels like it weighs a ton. I tried and tried to get my strength to lift my legs out of the bed and put them on the icy floor. Tick-tock, tick, tick, tick as the clock sang along as I started with all my might to stand up. Of course since I have been lying in the bed for quite some time, I couldnât stand. Instead I fell to the freezing floor. âDamn itâ I scolded myself. |
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| 67 hit(s) | (0 comments) | Bitchin'! |
| 193. summer oh seven | August 9th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
| by hizzlilangel24 | |
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Listening to: four letter lie - *feel like fame*
Feeling: broke
work work work six days a week. and when i can i hang out with my friends. also i was in a pagent yippie i won miss personality. i also made plenty of new friends. but only some count :P oh oh oh i also went to WARPED TOUR and hershy park(: yeah it was funn. kay on seven seven oh seven i started going out with josh, you no that kid im always talkign about it. about. and i dont no if it is even a good thing right now cause were fighting :/ but we are going to see each other on saturday so we will see how things go. anyway thats it for now. all i have plans is going to the fair some more and soem parties (: kayyyy well i do love josh.(: what am i do right this second. well its fuckin almost 4 in teh morning and im still up and wide awake hangign out with jenna. fun fun. I'll show you how to make a heart-beat. |
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| 324 hit(s) | (0 comments) | BiggestMistake x3 |
| wow this is so old, and ahhh! | December 2nd, 2005 @ 12:00am |
| by imyourdestiny | |
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Listening to: none
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| 90 hit(s) | (3 comments) | tell me baby... |
| Still feeling great. | March 19th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by nasteygirl | |
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Feeling: great
Im still smiling. Im so happy im with Cale. Hes the love of my life. I love everything about him. I never want it to end. Yet im only 15. IM so happy when we are together. Lifes great. The chick that wanted to smash me has liek fully backed off. Im becoming great mates with my old mate. Still have my old mates but those times are changing. I still Love them.. Nothing going to change that. But I love Cale. Its so great. Its been pretty much 2 and a half months. Yeah. Hehe K sorry guys.. Hope youz are all well.. Love yaz. Xoxox Ashleigh |
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| 270 hit(s) | (2 comments) | | Hit Me | |
| siempre me dejas | December 1st, 2007 @ 12:00am |
| by emotionsfade | |
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Listening to: siempre me dejas
Feeling: defeated
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| 152 hit(s) | (1 comments) | speak ur heart out |
| Ironic | April 9th, 2008 @ 12:00am |
| by cowgirl21 | |
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Listening to: Brand New - Play Crack the Sky
Feeling: upbeat
To be honest, I miss my senior year sometimes...I was comfortable in who I was, I had Monica, Sam, Dan, and Alex. I was in love, I hated my parents, and I couldn't WAIT to get the fuck outta Roscommon, because gods forbid I ever go back and make my life there. I still feel that way. I just feel nostalgic, and a little amused at what my point of views were, and are now. Back then, dating=bf/gf, now, there's a major difference, and it's not a big deal to flirt with someone at a party you may never see again, it's even okay to kiss them, although I draw that line at sleeping with them. It's perfectly okay to get drunk and silly, and when you puke, don't be embarrassed, because the person taking care of you has been there too, and you'll both probably be there again, getting each other water and trying to make them eat bread and stop with the shots. I've always been sarcastic, anyone who knows me knows that, but now, I'm less afraid of what other people think, and I'll speak my mind and stand up for what I believe in, and if I'm wrong about something, I'm still damn stubborn about it, but I'm getting better, and I think that just comes with growing up. People who think differently aren't the social outcasts of high school, here, in college, they're the people you stay up with at the all night coffee shop talking about EVERYTHING and coming away with brand new thoughts and perspectives. Living on your own is nice too....and sucks balls. You have to deal with roommates and new habits, which, if you're lucky (I was) you get away with a new friend or two, and only a few minor arguments. If you're the type of person whom mommy picks up after, cooks for, and basically cares for like you're 12, then you'll hate it. Doing your own laundry, cooking...or not...good meals, knowing when to tell yourself your room MUST be cleaned if only to preserve your state of mind. You appreciate what your parents have done for you more, and I call my mom at least every other day, if not just to say hi or find out how my grandparents are, then to find out how to clean something, cook something, fix something, whatever. Not ashamed to admit that there have been a few days when I've called home to talk to one parent or the other about 4 times in one day. Sometimes it's just nice hearing a familiar voice, especially after a bad day, or when you need some advice and there's no one else who would know. Dating is very different, obviously, I never would have thought at 19 months ago I would be here, with my random guy problems...well, one guy problem, and not even a problem, just...I don't even know. But it's there, and I'm dealing, although I should ante up and maybe try to figure it out. That's what really provoked this blog, not that I really miss RHS, just the people who've either grown apart, or grown so fucked up you just don't know them anymore and really don't want to, and the fact that I knew I was loved, and loved back. It's an amazing feeling, when you know you can go to this one person and count on them being there. I still somewhat have that, the love for someone, and all I want is that little bit more, that little reassurance that what I think is right, and I am loved. So, really, I need a hug, and that's all, just from someone who honestly cares about me, who isn't just a friend when there's a party we're both at, who knows me and whom I know back, I want that absolute feeling of being safe and comforted and knowing that he can come to me if he ever felt this way too. |
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| 137 hit(s) | (0 comments) | Speak To Me |
| im going to kill myself NOW!!!!!!!!!!!! | August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
| by firecrouch27 | |
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Listening to: FAGGET MUCIC
Feeling: argumentative
i say im going to kill myself and i dont do it maybe its becuase this is the internet and everything i say is a lie and i do it to amuse myself and my friends oh and im going to kill myself cause i have no friends and suck ass body and a face that looks like shit always |
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| 204 hit(s) | (7 comments) | cut my balls?? |
| September 15th, 2005 @ 12:00am | |
| by fearbefore | |
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im leaving. |
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| 177 hit(s) | (1 comments) | leave comment |
| yo girl, shake it. | October 26th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
| by libidolivin | |
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sex should seriously just be a casual thing. as long as you keep it casual, then no one's feelings can get hurt. as long as it's not too casual then everything will be okay. so this is like the first time in 3 years i've drank pop (soda, coke, soda-pop...whatever you call it) |
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| 72 hit(s) | (1 comments) | touch me |
| update | October 28th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by skylinebabe | |
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and one of them is josh.hes 24 and really nice and sweet.me and him get on reallt well,and well we are kinda like seeing each other,and he isnt like sum other guys.he like sat down wit me and was like "i just want to tell u were i stand" cause we had sum probs wit this other girl cause she kinda likes him as well but yer he said that he doesnt like her and if i wanted me could still hook up n stuff n like after this thing at tafe we could get together or wateva.anywayz yer me n troy well josh has been really helpful wit that like he understands where i am cuming from n y i put up wit all the shit he puts me though.i have been trying so hard not to call troy but i had to yesterday just because he sent me a txt n i had missed calls from him.so i think its best if i dont talk to him anymore or just of a while to see wat happens.cause he alwayz cums bak to me but not this time. im happy wit josh n he makes things so easy to hard and like i dont have to be sumthing that im not when im wit him. that was a lil update. |
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| 219 hit(s) | (0 comments) | leave your story |
| bored as usual | February 25th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by ressurrection | |
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| 268 hit(s) | (18 comments) | ur time will come |
| I won't wait | June 3rd, 2008 @ 12:00am |
| by shatteredme | |
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Listening to: rilo kiley
Feeling: balanced
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| 100 hit(s) | (0 comments) | eat you heart out |
| August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm | |
| by gollygosh | |
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Where does it come from? Its as though it has a realm of its own. One of illusions, where adverse bacteria of sorts breed, forming in the Aether and waiting to squirm inside of you as parasites. Of this place of illusions all bad erruptions form. Whatever the negative energy, its ussually caused by some illusion not concrete enough to grasp, but present enough to choke your very soul. But what is not concrete can be dispelled. So why do we let such unfounded threats contain us? This is because they are so obscure, that although in their obscurity they can seem strange and unfounded. They also in this same quality scare us into submission, with apprerhension of the unknown. How do we then, rid ourselves of these parasitic knots? There is a Universal law which states that if we walk in truth, illusions cannot exist on our path. With untruths, we open the floodgates to this outer realm of illusionary thought. nothing external can give us either security or power against fear. Our fears are what cause us to live amongst this state of illusion. |
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| 266 hit(s) | (59 comments) | and you? |
| finally | December 1st, 2008 @ 10:32am |
| by sk1ppy | |
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theyre also getting better with jordan. we're going to see eachother over he Christmas break. Who knows... maybe i did change too much... we'll see. I cant wait to see him. and as for me, i am content. |
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| 7 hit(s) | (1 comments) | wanna buy a duck? |
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