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Friends of Katiemanson
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December 31st, 1969 @ 4:00pm |
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| 168 hit(s) | (6 comments) | !!!!!!! |
| November 9th, 2005 @ 12:00am | |
| by ic0nsz4y0u | |
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later lovess;; Lauren M.♥ |
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| 1335 hit(s) | (18 comments) | u no u luv me!. |
| I Don't Deserve SHIT | May 15th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by starryeyes | |
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Listening to: So Sick - NeYo
Feeling: depressed
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH AND HE FUCKING DOES EVEYTHING HE POSSIBLY CAN TO MAKE MY LIFE HORRIBLE IM SITTING HERE CRYING AS HE MAKES FUN OF ME AND HAVE U EVER GOTTEN TO THAT POINT IN UR LIFE WHERE U JUST WANNA FUCKING STAB URSELF OR BEAR MASE URSELF OR JUST FUCKING KILL URSELF CUZ UR SO FUCKING STRESSED OUT THAT U FIGURE IF U JUST REPEAT THE SAME ROUTINE EVER SINGLE FUCKING DAY WHY NOT JUST FUCKING STOP REPEATING IT GOD I SOUND LIKE A FUCKING EMO BITCH RIGHT NOW BUT FUCK IM IN THE MOOD TO JUST FUCKIN GO SLIT MY OWN FUCKING THROAT RIGHT NOW I CANT FUCKING STAND THIS ANYMORE, I PUKE AND I PUKE AND IT'S BEGGINING TO JUST NOT BE ENOUGH I NEED TO FUCKING DO SOMETHING MORE SATISFYING CUZ CLEARLY I APPARENTLY JUST DON'T DESERVE TO HAVE A GOOD TIME SO I GUESS I HAVE TO THINK OF SOMETHING MORE FUCKING TORTUROUS FOR MYSELF NO ONE KNOWS ABOUT ME PUKING N SHIT BUT MY BOYFRIEND, N HES STILL A BITCH ABOUT IT, BUT WUTEVER IF NO ONE CAN FIND OUT ABOUT THAT, NO ONE WOULD BE ABLE TO FIND OUT IF I JUST DID WORSE SHIT RIGHT I NEED SOME SORTVE HARSHER DRUGS OR SOMETHING IM SICK OF THIS SHIT, MY BOYFRIENDS MADE IT CLEAR THAT I DONT DESERVE TO LIVE |
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| 95 hit(s) | (0 comments) | Break Me |
| I FRICKEN HATE FLAKEY PEOPLE!!! | January 22nd, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by freethehippiesagain | |
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Feeling: placid
stupid staci, she says "oh lets hang out i'll come get you" *gets excited* STACI NEVER F-ING SHOWED UP!!! I'M SO ANGRY!!! she doesnt even care...she didnt even call... |
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| 41 hit(s) | (0 comments) | hoe-bags |
| Summer Rain | July 20th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by tinkleberry | |
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I want to move out...but I don't want to move in with some random people...and I think my friends want to stay at home... hmmm But I did see some houses that would be nice to rent. |
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| 265 hit(s) | (1 comments) | leave comment |
| More and more features | Monday, September 15th, 2008 |
| by news | |
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- the Comment Browser is back - the Friend Browser is back - Sitdiary chat now has smileys |
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| 1740 hit(s) | (12 comments) | respond |
| Cover Girl and All ! | January 11th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
| by vixen | |
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Feeling: amused
God Bless ~Renee Angelina |
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| 117 hit(s) | (0 comments) | Set Me Free! |
| crap | August 13th, 2008 @ 3:50pm |
| by kaetae | |
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Listening to: crap
Feeling: carefree
Krsunny [8:59 PM]: seriously Jami106894 [9:00 PM]: HAHHAHA Krsunny [9:00 PM]: and her crap for brains are crap Jami106894 [9:00 PM]: thats prolly the funniest thing ive heard |
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| 192 hit(s) | (3 comments) | no apologies |
| ~476~ New... | February 12th, 2008 @ 12:00am |
| by psykopathalien | |
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Listening to: Static X-Cold
Feeling: alone
.... That is all.. ~*~*~ Two Words Once Choice No Regrets~*~*~ |
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| 377 hit(s) | (0 comments) | ~Kill me quickly~ |
| Narcissistic Junkie | October 16th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by psychocutter | |
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Go there. Now, damn it. Message me. And I'll add you.-- |
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| 260 hit(s) | (0 comments) | Narcissist |
| Find me. | November 17th, 2008 @ 5:06pm |
| by blackvomit | |
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I wish it was scarf weather, it would make me feel better about staying inside. It would make me feel better about not getting up. The microwave is heating up a frozen pizza for me, and that sort of feels comforting. It's making my apartment smell like Chuck E. Cheese, and that really feels comforting. Right now I would like to watch a movie and pretend I'm the main character. So that's what I'll do, because nothing else matters right now. -Amanda |
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| 103 hit(s) | (1 comments) | be honest. |
| Sitting | June 20th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by bloodymoon | |
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She's taking Earth science. I feel her pain. I had a Colombian teacher for earth science...he was crazy......those crazy colombians...he rambled a lot...and you couldn't quite understand what he was saying. His voice was a mixture of Sebastian from the little mermaid and any random deep voiced messican. So now I'm here with a jumbled scattered brain and no where to fuse this energy but through here. Where no one goes. This site is slowly becoming dead to the world..I remember when the log in list would go on and on and on and there would be like 100+ new people who sign up every day. Or every other day or so... But yeah. It's interesting to see where sites go..how they fluctuate....and...my friend's chest just popped...apparantly...so now i must go. Short pointless entry. Yay. Hurrah! later my lovelies! |
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| 62 hit(s) | (0 comments) | Commentary o.0 |
| *sigh* | August 13th, 2008 @ 3:50pm |
| by draqulynlee | |
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Listening to: Nothing (just silence)
Feeling: antisocial
I thought I was over my little crush on Jordan, but I guess I'm not. Today he was playin basketball in the upper balcany and some of the girls in track went up there to throw shot, cause it was so damn cold outside. Well I really didn't want to throw it but I decided I would, so I threw it and I was pretty good. Then when I decided to throw it again, he like walked right up to me stared at me, smiling, trying to mess me up. Nearly everytime he did that I felt like blushing but you couldn't tell cause my face was red from running so much. But he would just stare at me, like 2 feet from me everytime I would get ready to throw it. I then told him that I would throw it at him if he didn't stop and he was like, "No ya won't." And I acted like I was gonna throw it but didn't. Some people are thinking "Wait a minute. I thought you like that Dyran kid, or whatever his name was?" Well I do, but I had a crush on Jordan at the beginning of the year. But he doesn't like me, thou I think he might now, now that I'm dating Jeff. *wants to scream* What is it with me and 8th graders? Every guy I've liked in this past year has been an 8th grader. I mean come on, why do I keep falling for the 8th graders? Probably cause they're all 16 or 15, like me. "Wait, how can you be 15 and not in their grade?" My birthday is in the summer, I'm the third youngest in my class. I'm in 10th grade and most of them are 16 or 17, and possibly 18. I hate being so young and liking kids my age in a lower grade. "Why?" Cause I don't get to see them much, except at lunch. *sigh* Whelp, whatever. Autumn, the bitch friend of Kelly, was being an asshole today. Lily Jo brought a cake for Trisha, cause she never gets a cake on her birthday and Ashley Wall was like "why are you still celebrating your birthday?" And Trisha told her cause she wanted to then when lunch was over and Trisha was taking the last of the cake to offer it to the cooks, Autumn asked her the same thing. I told her that she wanted to still celebrate it and she was like "Was I talking you? I don't think so." And I said "Well, if we want to make her birthday all week we will." And she just hmpfed and walked off, like she was all big and bad. *shakes with rage* With something to think about, I'll be leaving you Aye, avaste!  I am a giant mutant kitten. Not strange at all.
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| 230 hit(s) | (2 comments) | *growls* Answer |
| New Years Revolution | August 13th, 2008 @ 3:50pm |
| by xobscurex | |
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But I did have fun, and there are places I wish to explore near my friend's house now. I think it's weird how a new year brings in a new skin. Why not every month, we just change something about ourselves? Or every millenium; that'd have to be something pretty big. I remember spending the start of 2000 or 2001 at my friend's house, though afraid for my life that something spectacular like Jesus ripping off the roof of my friend's house and taking me into the sky was going to happen. But no that did not happen, I just got suckered in to everyone else's dream/fear. But despite the anti-feel you may have gotten from what I think of a New Year's Resolution, this year, unlike others, I think I will work on something. Because I have emotionally changed recently. I want to take a stronger look at my appearance, and change it. This is the issue with me lately. I even started a trend of re-"tracing" a K into my arm, everytime the skin begins to heal. Which started out of a complicated day, when everything was bothering me, I was in an arguement with someone, and I felt very, very ugly. So I took manicure scissors and made a K into my arm. And I feel this K represents something big about me, and so now to let it fade away seems wrong. It's starting to now, so when I press save after I finish typing this, I may have to redraw it. Notice I'm avoiding words like "cut" or "carve," just because that feels oh so cliche, and I'm really trying to avoid fitting in with those dorks that cut themselves and brag about it on their blogs. And just so you know, I do not practice cutting in that fashion. Any cuts I've given myself represent a piece of my personality, similar to a tattoo. I give myself tattoos. Remember "I do not mutilate, I destroy and then create,"? Or something like that. Just go an entry or two back. So no, my resolution is not to stop retracing a K, or to stop giving myself tattoos, but to continue evoking the power of the K. It's to redraw that K, so it can redraw me. Because I'm going to be fucking beautiful. And that's how I plan to utilize the Resolutionizationism System. The day I drew that K, I felt my metaphorical bones crack. Every joint stayed as it was, but it began changing. And I feel like I'm changing, not in the sense of love or friendships, but in the sense of viewing things. The way I see out from my inner circle of precious gems. I hear my mother pulling up now, so my concentration has just died. And I guess it's a good time to end here, since I have to be awake by seven to go to work at eight. Maybe K will wait until after work tonight. Happy 2006, to all you celebrating. I plan for this to be an interesting year for myself, and let us hope it turns out as nicely as I wish. -2:43 AM |
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| 123 hit(s) | (0 comments) | Create God |
| good lordy O_O | September 22nd, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by murderdoll | |
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Listening to: You Spin Me Right Round - Dead Or Alive
Feeling: bored
Awww I've missed this thing. Pity I'm not staying, huh xD Ah well, nevermind eh? Hope you're all doing fine ♥ |
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| 82 hit(s) | (0 comments) | [+NuMB+] |
| she knows all about these heartbreaking things. | November 6th, 2008 @ 1:42am |
| by bloodmortica | |
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Listening to: lucero
Feeling: depressed
i loved him so much. it's so strange loving someone for so long, feeling so safe and secure, spending all of your time and energy on them, thinking they'll be there for you forever, and then just two months later they're blocking you on facebook and sending you e-mails saying that they never want to even hear your name again. i never want to be in another relationship again. i'm sorry if this all sounds incredibly dramatic and prepubescent, but i don't know if i can handle another one of these. it's not fair to anyone, and especially not to me. i have so many baggage from all the stupid relationships and disappointing boys i've been with that i don't think i'll be able to trust anyone for a long time. |
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| 24 hit(s) | (1 comments) | drain the blood |
| to question what is unknown | April 8th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
| by stupidgurlbb | |
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| 86 hit(s) | (1 comments) | can u hear me now? |
| everything is gonna burn | August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
| by lovelydisgrace | |
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Listening to: nothing
Feeling: abnormal
~~ I'm so angry. I shouldnt be, but I am. I feel as if I could set everyone and everything on fire with just my hate for it. It's not them, its me. I know that. But it's killing me to be this angry. Everything and everyone is so annoying lately and its such a pain to try and make conversation. I must assure you,it's really not them, its me being way over sensitive these days. Things are strange. I cant even try to care about anything anymore. I see the things I need to do but I cant feel any sort of desire to acheive them.(depression?) no this is something else. Something of an ironic moribid bitter happiness I suppose. Bittersweet. Its a sick sad world in lulu brain But As always I'll get over it. So dont you worry and lets have a fiesta! ayi yi yiyiyii!!! Ta Ta my children. I mean loves. -lulu- |
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| 160 hit(s) | (2 comments) | scream.a.lullaby. |
| case of the exes | January 6th, 2009 @ 2:59am |
| by ruinmytears | |
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when i have realtionships which end good usually and after a year or so i tend to bein chattin with them and they ask me if i lied if cheated and they stilll love me. and ask dfor advice. Watching me like you |
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| 5 hit(s) | (0 comments) | Do it! |
| August 18th, 2008 @ 2:20am | |
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| 386 hit(s) | (1 comments) | sip a shot |
| 9) figured it out..... | August 13th, 2008 @ 3:50pm |
| by iluvvvalo | |
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Listening to: Him-Funeral Of Hearts
Any way i just thought of that when i was sleeping well kinda when i woke up to if that make sence???? i'm gonna go get ready 4 skool AGAIN (it sux) and i will write sumfin a lil more interesting l8r.bye for now x btw plz still help me find a HIM concert if u know where there is 1 in Scotland! thx Well went to skool, it was ok today,i did a NAB-this is like an internal test that i have to take if your'e gonna pass the the whole class.So even if i pass my final exam and dont pass 1 of the NAB's then i.... fail as simple as that!!- anyway i think it went ok!! i have started my studying coz my exams start on Friday i have a English exam 1st and then i have, maths,german,modern studies and finally music! but i get study leave which is kool!! coz me and Jay [rasmusskate] are on study leave together so we can hang and do a little bit of stuying i suppose!! lol right now i am eating a yoghurt, i'm not listening to any music but i was on the skool bus-right here in my arms by HIM of course so it is kinda stuck in my head. My dad is messin around with his new fone its really annoying. i have a really saw throat it hurts when i swallow, but i suppose there is nothing i can do about it, it SUX.i have to work again 2nite last night i was the last one on apart from the bar dude Jason. oh yeah i work in a restaurant i am a waitress it is fun when it's not too busy! but then when it is busy it gives us sumfin to do. this is quite long so i am gonna go now. 1 more thing lawrence wrote about sumfin funny in his english exam he wrote about cannabals ina glass house and they were all 'munchin' on each other STANGE i am gonna go have a bath and make myself cleaner as i am already clean! ;-) lou xx |
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| 146 hit(s) | (2 comments) | talyho sweethearts |
| summer | June 4th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by ulnevanoe | |
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| 78 hit(s) | (0 comments) | hit me ♥ |
| finally | August 13th, 2008 @ 12:00am |
| by emptypromises | |
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Listening to: pieces of me/ ashlee simpson
im am so hyper its crazy i dont know where i got it from but i have this sudden boost of energy its crazy i ran a mile yesterday. i was so excited and tired all at the same time i dont think im going to run today i just dont feel like getting dressed and going up to the school even thought its like 5 mins. away anyway i dont really have much to write about other that the fact that i want the beastie boys new cd ok a list of cds that i want: 1 to the five boroughs- beastie boys 2 the beautiful letdown- switchfoot 3 wating for my rocket to come- jason mraz 4 chariot- gavin degraw 5 and the joss stone cd i dont know what its called i bet its probably called joss stone that would be funny i also want the spice girls cd doesnt matter which one they were the greatest and i dont care what anyone says good times and great oldies hmm well im done 16 today i didnt run at all i really wanted to but i couldnt get anyone to come with me ( my mother makes me take my brother or sister with me when i run because its not safe to go it alone) my mother is gettin all pissy again about me playing field hockey shes all ahahhh the heat the cost your school work and grades your always tired blah blah im like im tired all the time wheither im playing or not its pissing me off and my arm is so itcy i dont know why i thought i needed i job i think i do but the only place i could work is in fast food and my older sister says i shouldnt because there are mean people that order fast food and theyd piss you off i can understand that i get angry easily but its passive aggressive so it doesnt really count i guess thats about it> |
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| 173 hit(s) | (4 comments) | losers say what |
| Fuck It | April 18th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by c0nfused | |
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| 205 hit(s) | (1 comments) | Dont.Forget.Me |
| February 14th, 2007 @ 12:00am | |
| by sopointless | |
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yes? here. and here (please!) |
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| 354 hit(s) | (0 comments) | kgsks do it. |
| ♥ | August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
| by clayaikengelic | |
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Listening to: Avril Lavigne-Together
Feeling: old
-_- just...argh... hug me... |
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| 73 hit(s) | (3 comments) | someday... |
| [*258*] Goodbye | February 26th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by xlostrealityx | |
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Listening to: Stick Wit U - Pussycat Dolls
Feeling: lovely
Me and Mike wound up breaking up for like 5 days and I was devastated. But with help from his dad, we're back together... and we're doing alot better now. We haven't gotten into any fights or anything. We exchanged promise rings. 12 more days until it's 6 months for us. But sad to say... I'm not gonna be updating anymore, cus there's no reason for me to write all this down, just to remind myself of my shitty past. I'm happy with Mike, and it's going to last forever. Bye everyone. |
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| 119 hit(s) | (0 comments) | ~p.s. i love yOu~ |
| fuckthis | February 21st, 2008 @ 12:00am |
| by siamesegun | |
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Feeling: whiney
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| 359 hit(s) | (1 comments) | american womanhood |
| .:o37:.codes!!! | August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
| by nygirl | |
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Listening to: hellogoodbye
Feeling: energetic
IF YOU WANT TO USE ONE YOU HAVE TO TAKE THE SPACE OUT OF THE < script or style ex. < style (it will look like this) (it will look like this) style> (make it like this) F.o.R. s.C.r.O.l.L. b.A.r. < style type="text/css"> BODY { scrollbar-face-color: #000000; scrollbar-shadow-color: #0099FF; scrollbar-highlight-color: #00FF33; scrollbar-3dlight-color: #FF00FF; scrollbar-track-color: #000000; scrollbar-arrow-color: #FF6699;} f.O.r. T.e.X.t. T.r.A.i.l. (or words around the cursor) < script src="http://www.boomspeed.com/htmlcodes/texttrail.js"language=javascript id="properties"message="YOUR TEXT HERE"colour="YOUR COLRO HERE"="YOUR FONT HERE"> F.o.R. w.O.r.D. f.L.i.P. < style type="text/css"> -->a:hover{filter:fliph(color:#FFFFFF, strength=5);height:0px;width:inherit}//--> f.O.r. S.t.A.t.U.s. M.e.S.s.A.g.E. b.A.r.(the thing on the bottom) < script language="javascript"> window.status=("YOUR MESSAGE HERE") F.o.R. p.O.p. U.p.(the screen that comes up b4 the entry) < SCRIPT language="JavaScript">alert("type what you want here")< /SCRIPT > if there are ne that u have and would like to contribute....plz do so |
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| 652 hit(s) | (29 comments) | Thunder |
| more icons yay!! | May 23rd, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by x0chrissy0x | |
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Listening to: Buttons
Feeling: impish
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| 152 hit(s) | (4 comments) | watz up |
| fill it in | August 13th, 2008 @ 12:00am |
| by mypie | |
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Listening to: why the hell would i tell you
Feeling: playful
01. I _____ Kaitlyn. 02. Kaitlyn is _____. 03. Kaitlyn needs _____. 04. I want to _____ Kaitlyn. 05. Kaitlyn is too _____. 06. Someday Kaitlyn will _____. 07. Kaitlyn reminds me of _____. 08. Without Kaitlyn, it's _____. 09. Kaitlyn can _____. 10. Meeting Kaitlyn is/was/will be _____. 11. The worst thing about Kaitlyn is _____. 12. The best thing about Kaitlyn is _____. 13. I am _____ Kaitlyn. 14. I think Kaitlyn should_____. |
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| 107 hit(s) | (0 comments) | leave comment |
| ~57~ | March 28th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by wastingtime | |
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Listening to: the all american rejects - night drive
Feeling: pleased
lots of lyricals, some ashlee, OC, random bands and randoms, etc..                           
oh seth cohen, i love you!  
♥noise and kisses+ |
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| 587 hit(s) | (6 comments) | stay there |
| new year...same pain | December 31st, 2005 @ 12:00am |
| by brokenwords | |
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Listening to: CURSES
Feeling: placid
&& i love how i am in my room about to cry and everyone is in the living room talking shit about me for no reason! FUCK OFF! |
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| 306 hit(s) | (4 comments) | Xx♥xX |
| Back again. | September 14th, 2008 @ 11:42am |
| by iloveslipknot | |
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Listening to: none
Feeling: tired
Wow. I just readed all my old entrys. I was a crazy girl. Its amazing how people change in little time. I can't believe this site is still up. -danielle |
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| 186 hit(s) | (2 comments) | CHAOS!! |
| The End | July 5th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by kristy3578 | |
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| 253 hit(s) | (0 comments) | ---- |
| Holy fuck, she's 15. | August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
| by firestormx | |
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Listening to: As I Lay Dying - Forever
Feeling: alive
Completed writing: 4:20am Words: 4.5k Average reading time (At 250 words/minute): 18 Minutes Okay, so it's been almost two fuckin' months. I figure, when people start boycotting my diary, I should start updating, eh? Alright, it is currently 11:00pm. I have to leave for my 'family reunion' in 12 hours. And you know it takes me like 5 hours to get dressed, shower, do my hair, put on my makeup, choose a suitable outfit, grab my book and borrowed CD player, and hop in the car! And since I can't wake up from my sleep without at least 6 hours of sleep, I'm simply not going to sleep tonight. Fortunately, before I started writing, I noticed there was some coffee still in the pot upstairs, which means I can make my special coffee mix! Fill the cup half way up with cream, a quarter with coffee, and the rest with sugar. It still tastes really bitter, but at least I can take a sip, and not spit it out. Oh! Oh! Speaking of spitting liquid out, I had a cavity filled this week, and my mouth got numbed, so whenever I would drink something, it'd all come flowing out. Man I love being numb! If anyone works at, or near a veterinary clinic, STEAL ME SOME NUMBING NEEDLES! Anyway my last entry was about me turning 15. (I'm still getting happy birthdays from people...YOU PEOPLE ARE TWO MONTHS LATE!...But you're awesome anyway.) Today Deanna turns 15. And yes, it was a coincidence that I decided to write this entry today. So yeah, two birthday entries in a row. FUCKIN' BLAH! I'm writing this entry in word, 'cause apparently I'm horrible at spelling stuff. Well, apparently I suck at sentence structure too, as those FUCKING ANOYING GREEN LINES are showing me. I'm gonna look through the options to see if I can turn it off. *three seconds later* holy fuck! Word has macros! I never knew that! Awesome! Holy crap, word has so many uber-1337 features! I never looked through ALL the menu options before! Holy crap, I have so much respect for MS Word, now that I've looked through the options. Hot diggity, I got rid of that fuckin' green line. =) Okay, so anyway, it's Deanna's birthday. All she wants are CDs for her birthday. I think that's awesome! But now I'm starting to think it was one of those weird, "I meant something different than what I actually said" kind of things, that girls apparently do. Therefore, I shall go to the...*shudder* mall tomorrow. (I'm so good at doing this stuff, eh? Waiting 'till the day after her birthday to buy her something) By mall, I mean wallmart. Because apparently everything is cheap, and the quality is crap. Cheap products + crappy quality = birthday girl appreciating the quality of my 20+ CDs! Nah, I'm not that stupid. But it's not going to be fun. When I walk into a store, I know exactly what I want, and I should know where I have to go to buy that item, within 20 seconds, or I start to panic, and run out the door screaming. So, wtf am I going to buy? I have no clue. But I'm going to be using the money I owe Mike to buy it. XD I've got a big bag of those "berries" candies for her. It was 5 bucks at Costco, so I just HAD to buy it! But then, I figured it was probably all hard and stale, so then I got the bright idea: "I know! I'll just give it to Deanna! This bag could easily look like it's worth 10 bucks!" Therefore, she gets a bag of candy. For the record, I bought another bag of it too, and if you eat the whole bag, without sleeping, you WILL get sick. Okay, it's past midnight now, so I won't bore you people with this. So instead, I'm going to talk about *looks at notes on what to write about* Holy fuck, I haven't written in two months, and I've barely got anything to write about. Let's see, first, click these two links: My site Just click it because I'm cool. You can close the window once you're done staring in awe. (Even though my friend designed the site...I just coded it...So you can't really see the part that I made) EMO DIARY DUDE, SOMEONE MADE A DIARY CALLED "emo"! Some of you might remember (I doubt any of you will) that a while ago, I wrote that there was no diary named "emo" in one of my other entries, so someone went and made a diary called emo! Read the first entry, just 'cause it makes me feel special. Okay, enough with the links. Back to the CDs, they're so awesome! For me anyway. With 20+ CDs, I'm listening to all these old songs I used to listen to. All the chicks start yellin' all the hot babes Throw their bras and their shirts and their panties on stage So like every single night they pick a fight with me But when we fight it's kinda like sibling rivalry Because they're back on stage the next night with me "Dude I just think your trying to steal the light from me" Yesterday Kuniva tried to pull a knife on me Coz I told him Jessica Alba is my wife-to-be This rockstar shit is the life for me And all the other guys just despise me because Wow, then there's all these old Eminem songs I used to listen to, and just...WOW, LINKIN PARK! Hmmm, what else *tries to look through the CDs without knocking them all down* -The Used -Tupac -Three Days Grace -Evanescence -Billy Talent -Swollen Members -Kittie (I swear, the screamer sounds like a guy) -Story of the Year -DMX -Breaking Benjamin -D12 -Papa Roach Man, my storage hard drive died...Holy crap, back in March! Anyway, now it's corrupted, and I can't even figure out how to format it. (I've given up on saving the information) All my music was on that hard drive. I've kept all the music I've had, for the past couple of years, on that hard drive. Ever since it corrupted, all I've really downloaded was screamo. Lots and lots of screamo. (And some emo with screaming) Stop sleepin' on the roof, bitch! Sorry, I'm gonna be quoting random stuff from the music now. Oh! I'll bet you guys want to know why I haven't updated in 2 months, right? No?! =O Oh well, I'll tell you anyway. As most of you know, I've been doing math 'till June 15th, then I've been working on other sites for people, and playing games...Lots and lots of playing. Fuckin' games are so addictive. I got half way through Killzone in one day. (Played about 14 hours straight) Fuckin' games. I hate them so much. So yeah, Math, Sites, and those Fucking Games. Damn, D12 world is such an awesome album. Know what's cool? Some lady from my church is a fuckin' PhD in PHYSICS from FUCKING OXFORD! A PhD in PHYSICS from OXFORD! She's really quiet, and timid, and looks kind of twitchy...Kind of like she's had a nervous breakdown, or something. It'd be so cool to be like that! I want to burn out some day. I'll have kids like me going "Wow, you're so cool", and I'll teach them all this awesome stuff, like in anime, where this old guy, who everyone thinks is useless, turns out to be a genius, and trains some random kid to save the village. Speaking of old stuff, I've got a book on C from 1988! It's from Microsoft! It's so awesome. My youth leader from church gave me a TON of old computer books. Most of them are un-returned library books. He's so cool. XD I want to teach my Sunday school class sometime. It'd be awesome. And I'll be just like him. He's funny, he invited me over to his house once, and we listened to some underoath (Him and Kayla are the only people I know who like screaming...Oh, and Lyndsey (I spelt it right!) likes it too, I think) then out of no where, he's like "I want a Popsicle", so we walked over to the store, and bought a Popsicle. On the way back, some kid rode his bike by, and was singing Brittany Spears, or something, and Dan (Youth leader) was like "What the fuck was with that kid?! Oh, sorry about swearing. You swear right?" "Yeah" "Yeah, that's right, I saw it in your MSN name" (He added me to MSN) "Heh" "Yeah...I cried all night when I saw that." So funny. And if I'm talking to fast it just means you're listening to slow And if you listen a little faster maybe you'll catch up, Bitch Jew Ja Jaw Jaw Da Dun Jew Ja You just made me mess up, Bitch Bleeb Blab Blah Blah Blah Blah It don't matter, I'm just blabbering Like you understand what I'm saying Anyway I'm just traveling In one ear and I'm out the other You're so fuckin drunk all you hear is the Beat da beat I hate people who just listen to the beat. It's the rapping that's important! I don't see why people would like instrumentals. They're so...Blah! Acapellas are awesome, but "music" is boring. That's why I like rap, and screamo. All the effort is put into the vocals. Of course, the lyrics have to be enjoyable, which means that most rap sucks. But meh, there is good rap out there. Like Eminem/D12, Sage Francis, Tupac, some DMX, KJ-52, etc. Remember, music about drugs and violence are much better than music about sex. And music that sounds good without any of the above (KJ-52? Linkin Park? (LP is cool, 'cause it's rapping AND a bit of screaming. w00t!)) I hate "mainstream" rap, so fuckin' much. (By mainstream, I mean pretty much anything that's not Eminem.) If you think about it, Eminem is pretty much the only rapper I know, who isn't constantly bragging about parties, how much money he has, how be "straight ballin'", or how he's so much better than everyone else. (For the record, I'm referring to Eminem's older stuff...His newest album is just so...Fucked up now.) I love his attitude, he's like "Yeah, I don't give a fuck what I say about myself, in fact, I think I'll start insultin' myself right now! - Wait! Did you just insult my daughter? I'm gonna FUCKING KILL YOU!" So awesome. And he's AMAZING at putting lyrics together. It's just that his newest album's topics for the lyrics are so fucked up. Like, look at this: Hickory Dickory Dirk Diggler Look at me work wizardry with these words Am I a jerk or just jerk chicken Or Chicka chicka chicka chicka jer jer jerkin the chain 22 jerks and a jerk circle Or is it a circle jerk or wait a minute What am I sayin, allow me to run it back and rewind it Or Either before, during or after peforming the act of that which Is normally referred to have such, more commonly known phrases That are more used by today's kids In a more derogatory way but Who's to say, what's fair to say, and what not to say? Let's ask Dr. Dre Dr. Dre? (What up?) I gotta question if I may? (Yeah) Is it gay to play Putt-Putt golf with a friend (Yeah) And watch his butt-butt when he tees off? (Yeah) But, ut! I ain't done yet In football the quarterback yells out hutt-hutt While he reaches in another grown man's ass Grabs on his nuts but just what if It was never meant it was just an accident But he tripped, fell, slipped and his penis went in His teeny tiny little round hiney but he didn't mean it But his little weenie flinched just a little bit And I don't mean to go in into any more details but What if he pictured it as a females butt? Is that gay? I just need to clear things up Til then i'll just walk around with a manly strut It flows together SO FUCKING AMAZINGLY! But it's SO FUCKING MESSED UP! Fortunately, I can fall back to something like Tupac. His lyrics are amazing, but he's (usually) got a decent topic for his lyrics. Well, sort of decent. It's better than "ass like that". A lot of what he says (up here in Canada anyway) is irrelevant now. If I knew Tupac in real life, I'd get SO FUCKING ANOYED with him talking about it being so hard being black. It'd be like an emo kid. XD "Nigga, kids are gettin' gunned down every day by drug dealers. *takes a puff of the blunt* I just wish there was some way I can stop all this useless violence." "...Argh! I'd slap you, if I wasn't scared you'd shoot me!" But that's about the only annoying part about Tupac. The rest of him is AWESOME! He was smart (in a creative way, not a logical way) and he was really nice to most people, but will still get offensive towards people who offend him, and stuff...And the best part...HE GOT SHOT IN THE FUCKING HEAD! (Among other places.) He got shot 5 times (once in the head), and he just gets up, and goes to smoke some weed. I wanna get shot in the head with something powerful when I die. 12 gauge at point-blank to the temple. Angled up a bit. I'd go flying like HL2. It's be so awesome. I also want to get shot WITHOUT dying, just 'cause it's cool to get shot. But anyway, you've got Tupac, vs the new Eminem, and...Ya' know what? You don't care, do you? If you cared, you'd be listening to these artists yourself, and wouldn't need me to tell you this. So let's go back to what I should buy Deanna. I was thinking an escalade, but Dani thinks that's a bad idea, and apparently Walmart doesn't sell them. They don't sell Mercedes, Lamborghini's, or BMWs either. Blah. I want to get some big, black SUV when I get rich. But me a kick-ass, government-looking suit, some awesome sunglasses, tint the windows fully black, then drive of into traffic. Then I'll just lean out the window and yell "GET OUT OF MY WAY, OR I'LL SHOOT YA'!" That'd be so awesome. Odds are, I'll need a cheaper car, before I can afford a nice SUV, so I want to get one of those old Hondas, or Toyotas. You know, the really square, small-looking ones? The ones that look like they're 500 bucks? They're so awesome eh? Some people think people will laugh at them if they drive those. I have a solution for them. Simply get some Porche stickers, and put them on your bumper or something, then tell all your friends "Yup, Porche pays me 500k to have those stickers there." Square cars are so awesome. I want an NSX. I'm running out of things to say, so I'm going to tell you everything I can remember about the past two months. Let's see...Two days ago I tried to do a backflip onto my trampoline, from the metal bar around the trampoline. (You know, the metal thing that all the springs are attached to, that attach to the trampoline mat?) I can do a backflip without much of a spring from the trampoline, so I wanted to see if I would be able to do it on the ground. So I tried it. Okay, I jumped up, started to bring my legs up over my head, stated to curl up...Right about then, I came straight down on my head, and my head curled into my chest (With a very loud "CRAAAACK", I might add) then my legs kept going over my head, and swung my body backwards, thus unfolding my face out of my chest, and burning it along the trampoline. And that is why I am paralysed, and have a rub-burnt nose. The moral of this story, is, that if you're going to do a backflip, do it off your snow fort, not your trampoline. Alright, that was your amusement. Now you must read through my past two weeks. (Or you could just skip it, I guess...Just remember, this is a DIARY, I have to tell about what I did these past two weeks) I've been sending e-mails back and forth with Angela, so she knows all about this...Actually, I'll just copy and paste (and edit) my e-mails to her. Okay, Deanna's little sisters came over to Matt's house, while I was at his house two Fridays ago (Deanna was at her uncle's house), and so I played on the trampoline with them all night. Apparently they had fun. I didn't. They beat me up, and called me "fat baby", and were showing off all their tricks that I couldn't do, etc. Cocky lil' 10/12 year olds. *glares* Nah, it was all fun. Deanna: Every time we come on the trampoline, they start talking about you. I feel special. =) -------- Then, on the Monday before last, I went to a picnic thing with my homeschool group (One of those mass-picnic things, where we take up a whole park) and I followed Deanna, who was following these two younger kids around. Then she had to leave early, so I went and sat on some rocks by Lake Ontario, with Matt's diskman, and sat there, watching the water, with screamo screamin' in my ears. I got so many awesome ideas...Which I won't bore you with...Because I forgot most of them. But anyway, it felt good, I want to do something like that again. -------- Last Friday, I went to Deanna's, with the rest of the youth group: I'm back from Deanna's! It was awesome. XD Most of the time me, her, her sisters, and a couple other people just sat around on the trampoline. First we started throwing random soccer balls at each other, and this one person started bleeding, and I was all like "Oh! Oh! Make me bleed!" so everyone started whipping ball at my face for the next 10 minutes, and I kept dramatically falling off the trampoline backwards, and landing on random sharp gardening equipment, etc. (I never actually did start bleeding) Then we played Horse (Someone does a trick, and everyone else has to match it, or they get a letter of the word horse) Deanna can do a backflip now! And I can do a double frontflip! (Two in the air) Then Deanna does a 180 backflip, then I do a 360 backflip, then I try to do a 540 backflip, and I landed on my face, still spinning, and got a burn all along the side of my face. (Still no blood. =() Then we just sat around talking, and abusing my rugburnt face some more with soccer balls. (And making me cry, by calling me a fat/skinny/cookie baby. =() I'm sore now. XD -------- ...Like me getting a haircut, and now I have short hair, and everyone wanting to rub it yesterday? I should probably tell you about yesterday. IT WAS THE MOST I'VE EVER TALKED, IN A LOOOOONG TIME! I think I'm starting to come out of that stupid shell. =P There's not really much to say...Deanna, her little sisters, and her friend walked around, dragging me on rides, poking me (I scream like a little girl when people poke me, and they find it fun.) Oh, and Deanna held my hand...Just to keep me from running away in line, but still. Er, lemme try and tell this story in chronological order: I arrived at Deanna's house around 9:30 (Her older brother was driving people, and I was using her mom's ticket, 'cause she was conveniently sick) So anyway, her brother was out 'till 6:00 that morning, so he didnt' want to get up until around 10:30. (We played cards, and read my book...Well, I read it, her sisters made fun of me for reading it, and Deanna was defending me. =P) So then Me, Deanna, and her two little sisters, drove over to her brother's girlfriend, and picked her up. Then we began our long drive to Canada's Wonderland. (The amusement park) On the trip there, Deanna had a diskman, and I conveniently had some cds in my backpack, and no one else liked the music Deanna's brother's g/f was playing on the radio, so me, Deanna, and her sisters all listened to my music...For about 10 seconds. Apparently they think they'll go deaf if they listen to too much screaming, so they let me hog the cd player. Of course, there was a price. I had to carry around their girly bracelets all day on my wrist. That was awesome, I felt so pretty wearing them. =) So anyway, we got there, feelin' all pretty 'n' stuff, And we went on rides and stuff 'till about 1. (Well, I only went on two of the rides. And the second one was only 'cause Deanna dragged me on. All the other ones I stayed behind and read my book) Then around 1, we met Jessie and Leah (People that we just so happened to be friends with) and we all went off to eat. I didn't want to eat, 'cause the food is SO FUCKING EXPENSIVE (Seriously, a hamburger and fries are 8 bucks) but her brother bought me a piece of pizza, and wouldn't take my money, so I ate. Then we walked around, for a while, then Jessie figured it'd be fun to hear me scream like a girl, so she started poking me, and I would scream. (for fun) Until about 4, the day basically consisted of them trying new ways to make me scream, and me ditching them when they went on rides. Then, after that, they started trying to figure out ways to get me to go on the rides. Offering me knives, blood, hugs, threats, etc. After going on a couple of rides, they ran out of stuff to bribe me with, so they dragged me into lines. I had lots of fun trying to escape the lines. =P After that, Deanna just said please at the rides, and I went. =P Except for this one ride, that I really didn't want to go on. She GRABBED MY HAND (There, we held hands. =P) and dragged me into the line. I almost escaped twice, but after her little sister tackled me, I figured I couldn't escape. Umm...A bunch of other stuff happened, but I forgot. If we're talking about something, I'll remember something from yesterday, and mention it. So if you want to find out more, you'll have to keep talking to me. =P Damnit, I held her hand...Sort of...and you weren't going to do anything for me holding her hand! (You don't like Toledo anymore, right?) Meh, anyway, I guess you'll just have to be proud of me. XD ----- I'm so awesome at copy and pasting stuff, eh? So basically, every time I see Deanna, it gets awesomer. (Fuckin' word, doesn't think "awesomer" is a word...Doesn't think "fuckin'" is a word either) Now, to analyse song lyrics. "Atreyu - This Flesh is a Tomb" I'll never need to see the sun again There's enough light in your eyes to light up our little world So take me, take my away Kill me slowly, I'll never be the same If that's not a love song to the computer, then I don't know what is. "I'll never need to see the sun again" How many computer geeks want to see the sun again? "There's enough light in your eyes, to light up, our little world" How many computer geeks do you know, who sit in "darkness", but say there's plenty of light coming from the monitor? "Kill me slowly" Some idiotic people think the computer can kill you. "I'll never be the same" That's for sure. Therefore, I have deduced, that Atreyu's drummer is a computer geek. Now then, to make this entry pointlessly longer, I'm gonna copy over something that I e-mailed Angela. (Yes Angela, I'm creepy, and save all the e-mails I send to you. =P) Anyway, today I missed church for the first time in...A really long time. If my parents don't take me, I bus. But this weekend, I've been at my friend's house for the weekend, but I wanted to go anyway. (He went to work this morning, so I couldn't get a rid off him) so I walked all the way to the fucking bus station. Took me two hours. I estimated it'd take half an hour. I was about half an hour from his house "Oh shit, it's 8:30. Hmmm, maybe the bus leaves at 9?" So I kept walking. Then I kept doing that for the next hours. "Maybe it leaves at 9:30..." I got to the bus station at 10. Church starts at 10:30. It takes about 2 hours of transferring, and stuff, to get to church by bus. So I'm like "Oh well, fuck it...Haha, fuck. I have to walk ALL THE FUCKING WAY BACK TO MATT'S FUCKING HOUSE! FDSALFJSDLFJLKSDFJL" I got so pissed off when I realized that. (I'm really slow, as you can tell. I mean, I kept walking to the station, even though it was 9:30, and I'd get there an hour late.) So yeah I walked for four hours, and now I've got all these blisters, and I like, pulled every mucsle in my leg, and...Yeah, I don't exercise much. I'm done with this entry now. Remember that coffee I mentioned earlier? I mixed it in with some hot chocolate, creamer, and sugar, and it still tasted horrible. And ya' know what? Even after I swallowed it all, it still hasn't taken effect. Therefore, I'm just gonna go to sleep. But I'll have a longer entry, eventually! I promise! (Pfft, right. Remember last promise I made? That I would update 10 days ago? =P) So yeah, when I get back from family reunion, I expect comments containing: -A happy birthday wish to Deanna -Your name, age, sex, address, and what time you'll be home alone -A big "welcome back Robbie, we missed your crappy entries so much!' -A good place to buy Speed, for cheap. |
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| 744 hit(s) | (75 comments) | I read it all |
| August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm | |
| by ilovetheleafs | |
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Wish I was too dead to cry, my self affliction fades. So dies all innocence. And I don’t feel like I am strong enough. Sometimes everything is wrong. And the lightning flashes in her eyes and he knows that she knows. Do you even care if I die bleeding? And in the end we'll fall apart. |
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| 554 hit(s) | (7 comments) | Temptation |
| I'M COLD. 8-( | November 28th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
| by crimsoneyed | |
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Listening to: Marilyn Manson - Fundamentally Loathsome
Feeling: frozen
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| 68 hit(s) | (2 comments) | Glomp me hard |
| I can't think of a good title | April 6th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by whoami | |
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What I'm thinking right now is what I really just want to vent in here, but as always I feel it silly to do so, because although it feels significant to talk about right now, tomorrow or possibly later (doubt it) I will not be thinking so negatively in relation to what I'm feeling right now. So whats the deal? Well; love and who will be the one that I live a life of love with if at all. You see, I still have the theory that I won't ever have love simply because of the life that I will lead - nothing bad, in all honesty... something across the lines of my career (motor racing) and who I am in general. To put it simply really so to end this nonsense, I as in right now can't stop thinking whether I will ever find love... hopefully with a certain someone, who knows... probably someone new that I've never met before, or will my life turn out the way I felt it would just the few years ago... Who knows? Someone does and I felt he already told me. |
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| 356 hit(s) | (1 comments) | Come on in |
| sup my peeps | January 20th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by warriorlink16 | |
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Listening to: when im gone_eminem
Feeling: blah
ps what happens when a jew with a bonner walks into the wall his nose brakes |
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| 108 hit(s) | (3 comments) | talk bitches |
| New Year. | December 31st, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by bamargera838 | |
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Feeling: lazy
I'm not doing shit. |
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| 295 hit(s) | (1 comments) | Lay it on me... |
| guilty by association | September 24th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
| by ilikefire | |
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we went to brandyns house we met this kid austin ithink his name was and then he wanted to go to publix and i got little strawberry gummy straws and cc got gum and he wanted to get dust off he didnt have ne money so we lent him some then he did it and brandyns dad came in and thought tht me and roxie and cc did it but we didnt |
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| 266 hit(s) | (4 comments) | dead letters |
| thepain | January 29th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by slipknotfan17 | |
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Listening to: f-f-a-f-
Feeling: misplaced
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| 276 hit(s) | (7 comments) | cross my name |
| hey teacher | August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
| by franzfreak | |
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Listening to: Hey Teacher - Louis XIV
Well I’m just a girl and want you instead of the drugs that get me high You keep on telling me these pretty lies Well I’m just a girl and want you instead of the drugs that get me high I’ll never talk out of turn again in class Will it be alright if I see you tonight Well, I feel like a bird in a cage For you to notice me, Well I’d take out a knife Suicide right on the stage I’m like a fish on a hook Water splash into the brook Well, teacher says he's twice my age Hey teacher could you ease my pain I can only watch you so long I can only watch you so long, so long I can only watch you so long I can only watch you so long, so long Who’s your teacher’s pet? |
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| 213 hit(s) | (3 comments) | give me first aid |
| when it all falls apart | September 25th, 2008 @ 1:30am |
| by interrupted | |
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Feeling: ambivalent
I'm in all sorts of pain. |
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| 164 hit(s) | (1 comments) | Will you miss me? |
| Do you remember me? | May 29th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
| by eleanorrigby | |
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Listening to: Space Oddity- David Bowie
Feeling: nothing
Probably more. I'm only updating so they won't delete this diary like they did my other one. My 9th and 10th grade memories are very important to me. I'm graduating next week. These diaries are better than facebook/myspace. My friends list has dwindled from like a million to eight. I only remember who one of them is. Ain't life a pip? Love ya |
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| 61 hit(s) | (0 comments) | Je t'aime |
| {100} MADE |