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Just don't listen
Feeling: abandoned
stop listening, stop listening
to what other people say
stop caring, stop caring
oh please don't let me cry
not here, oh not here
where they're all so near
just ignore them
they're not worth the tears
it doesn't matter what they think
so please, please tears stop
stop listening, stop caring, stop crying... Please!!!
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Myspace and LJ
If you want to add me on myspace and LJ.

http://www.myspace.com/xmansonettex

http://www.xmansonettex.livejournal.com

Once this site is fixed Ill be back.
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The Voice
Listening to: The Diary Of Jane-Breaking Benjamin
Feeling: depressed
“He doesnt like you. What were you thinking?”
"There is nothing special about you at all, ever wonder why you never have a boyfriend huh?"
"I thought this time I would have a chance I thought this time would be different."
"Isnt that what you said all those other times? Youre soft you need to be fucking stronger. Face the facts you arent good enough for anyone."
"I know, whats wrong with me? "
"Whats wrong with you? Everything is wrong with you. Your eyes are always twitching looking like youre on some kind of drug or something. You dont have an hourglass shaped body. Your face gets red all the time and people notice these things. As for your personality, thats even worse! Youre annoying as hell. You always open up to people and tell them things they dont really care about. Quite frankly no one wants to listen to you anyway. This is why you never have a boyfriend. No one can stand you. They wont tell it to your face but you know its true. They talk about you behind your back. Why do you even trust them?"
"No Theyre my friends. They wouldnt do that."
"Thats what they tell you. I see otherwise.
You shouldnt have fallen for you. You KNEW it wouldnt be any different than last year. Why did you go against what you said?"
"I really liked him. He seemed different from the others. He seemed so kind and genuine. I thought it would work. I thought Id have a chance."
"You knew you didnt have a chance. You shouldnt have fallen for him. He was too good for you. He was everything you ever wanted in a guy. Why did you ever think you had a chance?"
"I felt so much different around him than any other guy I have ever liked. I felt so amazing around him. His touch was like heaven. I just Felt amazing when I was with him and I dont know why. It just felt right"
"Well thats why you cant have this. This is your punishment for what you did to the others. You hurt others and this is showing you the pain they feel. And the worst thing is, is that you CONTINUE to hurt them. Wont you ever learn your lesson."
"Ive never felt like this about anyone before I wish I didnt have to learn this way"
"Suck it up. Youre supposed to be strong. You cant love and you need to deal with that. Youre fucking nothing"

"See he doesnt care If he cared he would have said something"
"I know"
"He would have talked to you about it. He would have asked what was wrong. "
"Yes"
"He doesnt care about you does he?"
"No he doesnt"
"Good youre learning. You deserve nothing"
"I know"
"You're a freak and you know it. You tried to change yourself well what the fuck did you become hmm?"
"I became myself"
"What the fuck does that mean? You're worthless"
"I know."
"You're a failure"
"Yes"
"You are fucking nothing and you deserve nothing."
"I know"

"He probably likes another girl"
"I know"
"She's better than you"
"She is"
"Why's that?"
"Because I'm nothing"

~Kristina
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The Kids Are Alright
Listening to: "On The Dark Side" - Eddie and the Cruisers Soundtrack
Feeling: ambivalent
Hey all,
You've gotta love a singer who really knows her stuff like Patti Russo does. Strong, confident, spectacular, all these come to mind, but she's also kind and gracious. Patti Russo rocks!!! Find out more about her at http://www.patti-russo.com. Unfortunately, Patti has no official website, but this is best fan site on the web. I'm working on my own fan website to spread the word about one of the greatest female performers ever. I wish I was as pretty as and could sing as well as Patti!!!

Keep a look out for "Pledge This", the new National Lampoon movie starring Paris Hilton. Of course, I don't give a rat's ass about Paris, but Amanda Aday will be in it! I dobut anyone on this site has seen HBO's Carnivale, but in the first season Amanda played the infamous cootchie dance Dora Mae Dreifuss. If anyone has seen the show, I'm sure they'll agree that her character added depth and color to the show, and that her death had to have been one of the spookiest in TV history.

Cheers,

Scarlett,
The Killer Queen
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Feeling: swamped
Oh my gosh! I have FRIENDS on here! How cool is that?! Sorry, I just had to write that.

TO THE AUTHOR OF THE DIARY 'FLOWERS AND PIGS' ON THEIR JANUARY 29TH ENTRY:

That made me so sad! Especially the heart ache part. But if a certain athelete, if he's as aware of your feelings as you say he is, can't bring himself to GET OFF HIS STUPID FREAKIN' CELL PHONE and talk to the pretty girl sitting next to him right then, then maybe he's not worth exerting so much effort on your part. For instance, I wouldn't dwell on the "my heart aches" part so much. The "Nooo! Fuck you!" part seems a bit more suitable in that instance. And it doesn't mean you can't still go to the dance. Although, I admit, it takes a brave soul to go stag by themselves.
I know you were in a blah mood today, but just know that no matter what happens, you have friends who love you, some of which who have taken to the creepy habit of running up to you and throwing their arms around you in the hallway (NOT GUILTY).
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life
Listening to: mariah carey
Feeling: bitchy
im pissed i just got fired and dezzary ran out and we doint know were shes at she got pissed at having to be at work i would not blam her either.
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Yes we did!
Listening to: Aesop Rock: "Bring Back Pluto"
Feeling: relieved
Congratulations, Barack Obama, 44th President of the United States!!!
Not just a minor victory either, but an electoral landslide including Florida, Ohio, North Carolina, Indiana, Colorado, Virginia, and Iowa, all traditionally red states.
I have no other words to add right now.
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cracks in the floor


my grandmother died today just after midnight.
today is/was her 90th birthday.
we were rather close; as such, i am not taking this particularly well.


i realise that things haven't been well for her in awhile; she's had congestive heart failure issues for three years now, and she has become increasingly weak during the past five days.
i am glad she is not miserable anymore, and likewise happy that she can finally be with my grandfather again,...but
...ugh.
damn it.
DAMN IT.
FREAKING DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



i was going to ring her this morning and wish her a happy birthday, and mum & i arranged for flowers to be sent for her today.

mum & dad & i were going to visit on sunday and have a small party to celebrate her birthday.

i didn't know her phone number was the same at her assisted living flat until late last night; i could have talked to her sooner!!!! why didn't i ask about that when she moved in there???
and i didn't want to pass my cold onto her because she was so weak already, and i knew it could've been disastrous, so i was waiting until i felt better before visiting.

why do i have to be bloody sick so damn often???!?!??!
why didn't i check the number and ring her earlier???????????




...[sigh.]

i am going to avoid the internet and general human interaction for awhile.

this is the saddest day, and the ones to come are only going to get worse.


i miss her more than is possible to articulate.
)'=


______
thursday, 23 october 2008
10h42 CDT

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Am
Listening to: Tsunami Bomb
officially going to Boston from February 13-22

Am happy
Am excited
I am
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