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Friends of Dreamsofmisery
| on y va | February 20th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
| by heartsonwires | |
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Sometimes you beat the bar, and sometimes the bar beats you. it seems empty but life is the only constant thing about it it seems unfair but opposites are never assured it needs a change but sometimes the change needs you and sometimes it will walk away but that's just something that happens I'd like to see you try. |
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| 114 hit(s) | (1 comments) | speakeasy |
| More and more features | Monday, September 15th, 2008 |
| by news | |
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- the Comment Browser is back - the Friend Browser is back - Sitdiary chat now has smileys |
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| 1735 hit(s) | (12 comments) | respond |
| WHAT SHOULD I DO | April 6th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by maninspiderweb | |
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Listening to: all the things she said
Feeling: shocked
he was the first guy i fell in love with and i wish i could have been with him forever..... so right now i am between a rock and a hard place...... i want to get ahold of him but i dont know if i should.. if anny one has anny sigjestions please help me out i dont know what to do..... i would realy like to get ahold of him but if i do and he dont respond i would be crushed and i dont want to be sad anny more...... WHAT SHOULD I DO!!!!!!!!! i want to cry JONATHAN |
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| 312 hit(s) | (5 comments) | slice a message |
| Reality hits hard | October 18th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
| by anitispirit | |
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Listening to: Green Day- Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Feeling: ugh
Wanna hear the best part? I'm a coward. I can't ask him out or anything with this low opinion I have of myself. So now I've offically made myself a deal. When I have a flat stomach and a decent ass, I will tell him that I like him and possibly ask him out. Believe me, for me this is a monumental decision. Even so, there is no way I'll go alone. I'll bring Keara or Chrissy with me for moral support. And so I don't feel totally stupid when he says no. At some point this year, this desire for a decent butt and stomach will come true. Here is what I'm doing. A.) The Special K diet B.) 30 minutes of pilates every morning. That's gotta do something for me, right? And if not...I might just have to resort to more desperate measures. Meh. I'll go on to describe my day for you. This morning I had FCA (fellowship of Christian Athletes, though oddly enough there aren't many atheletes in the group...). We meet once a week for a bible study type thing at McDonalds. I had a cappacino and thats it. Yay for me. Now from there, I shall describe my different moods throughout the day. Yay! Creative Writing: Creative Physics:Confused Drama: Overwhelmed World Lit: Bored Aiding: More Bored AP English:Frantic Novels: Ready to leave school From there, I got on my school bus, where I rocked back and forth with the music flowing from my cd player...until The Fourth Stop. Which is where I picked up my current mood. If it wasn't bad enough that I have a crush on Alex... I haven't completly let go of my crush on Dillion. Have I neglected to mention Dillion in my past entries? Well... He's a really super cute goth who rode my bus and was in my Newspaper class that was always nice to me and was treated badly by most people. Why I liked him...I dunno. In fact, I can't even tell you why I like Alex...except maybe for the fact that hes also super cute and funny? Sigh. Now back to my mood story. At The Fourth Stop...I saw Dillion again. Which is when I started feeling awfully twitchy. Well...not just me. More like my heart. It seems to speed up just a little bit and then send a shiver down my spine. Okay...it doesn't just speed up. It literally jumps into my throat. It's like a tickling sensation. It's...I can't really describe it well enough. All I know is that between this whole Dillion and Alex thing... I feel twitchy. On a side note...do you think its stalkerish if I accompany a friend to the alla carte (spelled wrong I'm sure)line just to stand a little bit closer to the guy I like? Cause yeah. I did that. Today. *hides* Mandy |
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| 53 hit(s) | (2 comments) | leave comment |
| Par-tay!! | October 23rd, 2005 @ 12:00am |
| by deathofshuyin | |
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Listening to: Crazy Town
Feeling: explosive
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| 284 hit(s) | (7 comments) | Scream At Me |
| My love is to waste | November 13th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
| by donotfear | |
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Listening to: Secret Window
Feeling: neutral
I feel terrible about it for a number of reasons: She's alone now, and since Will passed, she's alone at a time when I promised I would be there. My love is going to be wasted, because I'm not about to stop loving her. I know everyone is going to tell me to move on, but I don't care. I'd rather love her and never anyone else rather than forget. I don't know how to end conversations, since I can no longer say that I love her, even though I do absolutely and totally. I'm happy because hopefully she'll learn to be happy and then things will get better. I hope she comes back. I know I sound stupid, but I really pray to god that she comes back to me. I feel lousy. I'm trying to stay strong for her though, so maybe she'll see that I can be better. I hope she comes back. I doubt that she will, so I guess my love with be wasted. But in the end, I'd rather "waste" it on her than give it to someone else. |
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| 328 hit(s) | (10 comments) | Forget-Me-Not |
| June 13th, 2006 @ 12:00am | |
| by atreyu | |
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| 357 hit(s) | (6 comments) | waste of time |
| Reflect on the year | June 10th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by missyoung | |
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Hope you are all well. Is it creepy that I miss classes already? |
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| 228 hit(s) | (2 comments) | Comment? |
| trerothoarhjfngfoapjpoh!!! | October 19th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
| by enigmaticryu | |
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Listening to: The voices in my head.
Feeling: ecstatic
The Question of the day: what would you do for a klondike bar? I mean what would you really do for one.....>???????!!!!!!sdtaertre |
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| 265 hit(s) | (10 comments) | Ignore the pain. |
| Holy hell hole in a damned basket, baby! | April 10th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by phineusq | |
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Feeling: sleepless
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| 295 hit(s) | (1 comments) | Enter Your Words |
| One of the few good ones. | December 2nd, 2005 @ 12:00am |
| by freakthegeek | |
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Listening to: Gorillaz - Dare
Feeling: miserable
Wank Masta Wack, The Geek |
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| 195 hit(s) | (4 comments) | Make My Day! |
| My room is trashed.. | April 20th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by thepeaches | |
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Feeling: annoyed
"Login is temporarily disabled while we fix some database problems. We'll be back shortly. 4/20/2006" Stupid myspace... They're probably off getting stoned. I really need new music. I'm really sick of listening to this old stuff on my computer. Someone make me CDs... My house smells like cauliflower. God. So gross. Whatever happened to my mothers good cooking? Oh yeaaaaaaaah.... Low carb diet. *twitches* My rooms so messy. Blah blah. I don't know why I'm updating this... Completely pointless, I know. |
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| 224 hit(s) | (1 comments) | Don't Panic :-) |
| In da hood | February 1st, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by daywalker | |
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Listening to: random key strokes
Feeling: sweaty
Standing in line to See the show tonight And there's a light of Heavy glow By the way I tried to say I'd be there waiting for Dani's the girl is Singing songs to me Beneath the marquee Overload Steak knife Card shark Con job Boot cut Skin that flick She's such a little DJ To get there quick By street but not the freeway Turn that trick To make a little leeway Beat that nic But not the way that we play Dogtown Blood bath Rib cage Soft tal Standing in line to See the show tonight And there's a light on Heavy glow By the way I tried to say I'd be there waiting for Dani's the girl is Singing songs to me Beneath the marquee Overload Black jack Dope dick Pawn shop Quick pick Kiss that dyke I know you want to hold one Not on strike But I'm about to bowl one Bite that mic I know you never stole one Girls that like A story, so I told one Song bird Main line Cash back Hard top Standing in line to See the show tonight And there's a light on Heavy glow By the way I tried to say I'd be there waiting for Dani's the girl is Singing songs to me Beneath the marquee Overload |
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| 157 hit(s) | (1 comments) | Random link |
| HI!!!!!! | January 31st, 2007 @ 12:00am |
| by hammetrulzesp | |
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this is caeleigh bet your wondering how i got in here |
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| 91 hit(s) | (1 comments) | Holla! |
| its been a long time | March 26th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by lovemehateme | |
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Feeling: aloof
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| 246 hit(s) | (1 comments) | choose a path |
| Synthetic Soul | December 15th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
| by biokinetic | |
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Listening to: Merf
Feeling: abused
*shrugs* .......I dont remember what I was going to say...I dont think it was important so that's ok... Rhymes...*indicates sentence above* I have a shitload to do tonight... Like... watch tv and stuff... So I should get right on that. O.o HypoThyroid roidroidroidroid I wish I wish I wish I were..dead. |
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| 95 hit(s) | (3 comments) | leave comment |
| The survey, first and only thing on SD. | February 19th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by killmewell | |
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Step 1: Open up whatever MP3 program you use and add every song in your collection. Step 2: Put it on random. Step 3: Post the first line from the first 15 songs that play, no matter how embarassing the song. Step 4: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from. Step 5: Cross out the songs when someone guesses correctly. Step 6: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING! 1) I woke up in a dream today, to the cold and the static, and put my cold feet on the floor. 2) A cold winter sun, my feet underground 3) I can feel it in the way your blood and heart beats 4) So you think you can tell Heaven from Hell 5) She burns 6) When we grew up and went to school, there were certain teachers 7) Have I told you lately that I love you? 8) There's no one in town that I know, you gave us someplace to go 9) It's been such a long time, I think I should be going 10) There's a lady who shows all that glitters is gold 11) Like the sound of silence calling 12) All the times have come, here but now they're gone 13) On a long and lonesome highway east of Omaha 14) Here is your broken character, the one left of Heaven 15) City's breakin' down on a camel's back |
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| 91 hit(s) | (2 comments) | You Know You Do |
| Big Noodle | February 23rd, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by morose | |
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| 178 hit(s) | (1 comments) | butterflies |
| Uh-oh | December 7th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
| by distantthings | |
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| 55 hit(s) | (0 comments) | leave comment |
| Done | December 16th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
| by ihearvoices | |
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Listening to: I
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| 155 hit(s) | (0 comments) | Preach it Sister |
| long time, long time. | March 18th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
| by inkbaby | |
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a year and a half? i'm not exactly sure what compelled me to login to this diary and write in it. somehow, for a short time, i got caught up in reading the old entries of friends and became a bit nostalgic... or was reminiscing, at least. i went through and deleted all the old entries in this diary, and sometimes i wish i weren't so jumpy at the idea of erasing my past. it's kind of cool down the road, say about two years down the road, to go back and read through old entries and be like "holy shit... it wasn't a dream!" maybe it's just me though. i've grown a lot. i'm still stuck in the limbo between reality and dreams, and boredom. oh, how my life is and has been boring. well, i guess not so boring one could say, but not very eventful in the types of events i could possibly be looking for. where shall i start?? june 2006 is a good place. at the beginning of june, merely days after graduating, i packed my bags and came to lincoln park with my sister and her boyfriend at the time. what was supposed to be a temporary vacation of sorts -- after spending months upon months claiming i was going to stay in roscommon until the end of the summer -- became a permanent living situation. i got a lame excuse for a full-time job at mcdonalds. i had met a guy through my cousin who at the time, i thought was "great"-- shortly thereafter, two weeks went by without any communication between us whatsoever, and i gave up on him and moved on... to the hot manager at mcdonald's. his name was joe, and he was a tattooed, brown-eyed, skinny vision of perfection... with the self-esteem of a high school dropout... perhaps because he was a high school dropout, perhaps because he just didn't want to see it any other way. i was crazy about joe from the moment i saw him, but it was wierd as hell for me... because he was the kind of guy that made me feel like i was in high school again, the beginning years... the hot guy who i would like, but would never like me in return (and i wouldn't blame that guy... i was very awkward at 14 and 15). there was a reason i felt that way though, as i soon found out... joe treated his personal relationships like high school relationships; for a 21-year-old, i guess things hadn't changed for him. from the way he clarified our status, to the way he broke up with me, to his lack of communication skills and lack of desire to communicate in the first place. things ended almost as quickly as they began (but that's alright... the sex wasn't that great. as is with any guy with a negative confidence level.) he broke up with me after passing a horrendous cold/virus on to me, immediately after i had pierced my septum. so no only was i constantly sporting a mucus-encrusted septum ring, i was also sick as hell, unnattractive as hell, and depressed --- about the breakup, and the fact that someone with so much potential, such as joe, had to be so... lost. so from there on, time now being the end of july (didn't i mention he broke up with me the night before his birthday? for some reason, i'll be remembering his birthday now....) i met the anarchist, free-spirit, punk-rocker intellect guy; with whom i enjoyed spending my time. *TO BE CONTINUED* |
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| 154 hit(s) | (0 comments) | fReEsPiRiTs |
| Classes | April 17th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by virtue49 | |
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Listening to: TV - RENT
Feeling: yummy
MW: 11:00-11:50 Moral Problems (PHL 118) 12:00-12:50 Pre-Calc (MTH 130) 2:00-3:15 Religion & Social Issues (REL 235) 5:00-6:15 Math for Elementary Teachers (MTH 151) TR: 12:00-12:50 Pre-Calc (MTH 130) 2:00-3:15 Education of Children (EDU 280) 5:00-6:15 Normal Speech/ Language Acquisitions (CDO 130) F: 11:00-11:50 Moral Problems (PHL 118) |
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| 419 hit(s) | (2 comments) | Memories of Us |
| one and a half years later. | November 30th, 2008 @ 5:11pm |
| by resla | |
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Listening to: modest mouse - night on the sun
Feeling: dazed
it's been so long since i've even logged into this site, i'm surprised it hasnt been deleted. that's not a bad thing that it hasn't been deleted; running through these old entries is like running through my history and past and re-living the times that i have recorded and probably forgotten all details of. this song is really sweet! to whomever may be reading this, i highly advise checking out modest mouse. all of their albums. this one is especially good so far, i haven't heard it before, it's called 'everywhere and his nasty parlour tricks'. to update on where i left off... i was dating rob then. when i last made an entry. actually, that was before we were dating. we were hanging out constantly, smoking more pot than most humans ever bother to. i was staying with my sister and her boyfriend, and rob kenna in a townhouse in wyandotte shortly after her and jeff broke up. my sister found out she was pregnant, and not even a month later, we both found out rob [kenna] had been stealing our money that we had been giving to him for the rent for the four-month duration of our stay. spending it on heroin. we booked. she and steve found a new upper flat, and i moved to a mutual friend's house, a total stranger basically, and rented a room from him from may until october of that year, when he was supposedly "losing" his house. rob [not kenna] and i were dating by then, and i had been riding out to wyandotte all summer on my bike to see him. so he offered that we get a place together, and i found a cheap two-bedroom upper flat in wyandotte. shortly after seeing it, we moved in. we stay there from early october, through christmas, past my birthday... stop. two weeks. he breaks up with me. i was totally lost. i didn't know where i'd be staying, how i could be totally self-reliant, nothing. i found my own apartment, and rode my bike 20 miles a day, roundtrip, to work. sometimes 60-hour weeks! i obtained a new driving permit, practiced, and received my license. worked my ass off, re-built my savings, and a few weeks ago, bought my first car. so here i am. and i'm fucking proud. look what a year can do. let's see where else it'll go. :) |
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| 160 hit(s) | (0 comments) | super twat? |
| promise. | August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
| by tragedy | |
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selfish. that i am maybe, maybe not. everyone is a bit selfish in some way i think. yes i do think about myself a lot but im not the only one that i think about, if anyone would take the time and pay attention then they would know that i think about everybody else first, or at least the people that matter to me. i dont think many other people do the same for me, but thats alright, thats just the kind of person i am. mirror mirror, how amazing is my finger? corey |
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| 86 hit(s) | (6 comments) | leave a message |
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