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Friends of Crusader
| [708]Identity | February 15th, 2008 @ 12:00am |
| by bottledemotion | |
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Unfortunately, at some point in the past three years, I let some unfamiliar force take control of my life. This unfamiliar force is what I believe to be a metamorphasis. I am reaching a new chapter in my life, and I am forced to let go of the old. I cannot stay the same forever ... that very thought is unsettling. I wonder if the transition from adolescence to adulthood will feel like the time I felt my childhood slip through my fingertips. I remember the day my youthful energy diminished and my soul was no longer as carefree as a child's. I am losing my identity. Adulthood carries with it so many demands, yet so few rewards. |
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| 1574 hit(s) | (5 comments) | What of my soul? |
| February 14th, 2007 @ 12:00am | |
| by sopointless | |
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yes? here. and here (please!) |
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| 355 hit(s) | (0 comments) | kgsks do it. |
| August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm | |
| by ilovetheleafs | |
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Wish I was too dead to cry, my self affliction fades. So dies all innocence. And I don’t feel like I am strong enough. Sometimes everything is wrong. And the lightning flashes in her eyes and he knows that she knows. Do you even care if I die bleeding? And in the end we'll fall apart. |
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| 556 hit(s) | (7 comments) | Temptation |
| {100} MADE IT!! | August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
| by flameheart | |
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dude, yesterday was friggin hell! I sat at home all day and had nothing to do. i kept asking my brother if he wanted to go outside, but nooooooo he didn't, friggin hell. O well..... I need a life, or atleast a boyfriend. anyone open? ok disregard that last little bit there. I think i am going crazy. at the strangest moments this feeling of living alone for rest of my life comes over me. And that scares me. I am sure some people know what i mean damn i got to stop being so emo. I never really used to care, but now for some reason i do. I turned 16 and i have never had a boyfriend, now thats sad! O well, screw all of you happy-in-love people. Really, i hate all of you x_x not really, but seeing people happy just makes me upset more. i am like a little rich bastard that wants everything and can't get what she wants. I want a relationship, and it is the last thing i can get. I could probably get a degree in math before i could get anyone to hold me. yeah...and i hate math. screw all you happy people in the world, its my time to be selfish and upset. comment all of you lonely people. I don't want to hear anything about how i will find someone soon. soon as in when? I have waited 16 years, isn't that enough? ahh fuck....emo entry again..... but really, this is how i feel. Alone, cold, and in need of a hug. and no one to give me one. no one really ever comments on my emo entries. i would like some, but no cliche crap thats going to make me feel worse. [xeditx] Well thomas and adam are over now. I am friggin bored. I think later i am going to go bug them downstairs. I can hear them. I dunno who is playing but whatever. bahhh boredom, i need a life. or somemore friends. I am starting to feel like the random sister that tags along with everyone. you know almost a 5th wheel type thing. o well, i am good for somthing i know it....just haven't figured out what that somthing is. o well i have nothing to do here so i am going to go bug them. I would talk to andrew, but he is a bum and never really talks back, so i end up saying i hate him. o well. comment all of you! |
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| 492 hit(s) | (4 comments) | Make me _____ you |
| #365 its gone | December 29th, 2008 @ 12:05am |
| by sandman | |
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fuck i actually do, i feel like utter shit, theres a gurl that likes me and im fucking breaking her heart cause i cant decide if im ready or not to try again and i wanna be, i just cant get over myself. there you go, to all you who said it your right I CANT FUCKING GET OVER MYSELF FUCK ALL YOU. |
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| 77 hit(s) | (0 comments) | Revillusion |
| Depressed | September 8th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
| by anakin | |
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I can't believe how powerful words can be. Something said to you can effect you for a long time, I know, I'm one of those people who have witnessed how powerfull words can be, how hurtfull they can be. Human speech is so powerfull people don't even know it. Some use it to make others jealous, some to make people angry. Words can change peoples emotions. I too upset to go on right now, I think you know this is effecting me some how. C ya |
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| 304 hit(s) | (1 comments) | enterthenightmare |
| {12} Yo | December 21st, 2005 @ 12:00am |
| by satrianivai | |
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Its not like he hasn't been on the computer he is on like alllll the time, always whining at me to get on! So yeah, I am soooo cool.....o.O w00t dave is a tool! ahahahahahaha Don't ask your sister to help you make a password hehe Well...i cause to much trouble :) i am just a trouble maker! hehe Everyone loves me! :) Edit Well he still hasn't noticed that i have taken over his diary. humm lets see, hes a loser! yup, thats got to be why :) Well yeah, its not like he hasn't been on the computer Lindsey can i go on the computer *whine* lindsey please, i want to go on the computer *whine* let me on the computer I should tell him to update so he can see this. Or should i start writing entries..ooo ideas, ideas! |
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| 372 hit(s) | (3 comments) | leave comment |
| finally | November 19th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
| by nikki3405 | |
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Feeling: depressed
1) summer was awesome. wenever i wasnt at home working i was with sheldon. however cuz of this i lost all my friends. 2) dog got put down june 7th because he had a tumor and cancer. he was creamated 3)started school at fleming college. taking general arts and science. its a joke course. so easy and retarded 4) got on the F.A.S.T team for campus (first aid support team) 5)came home for thanksgiving and found out my mom had lung cancer since july. by the time i saw my mom she had already been through radiation and everyhting and was in really bad condition. got mad and couldnt handle it so i took off at 2am and went to sheldons. week and a half later got a call at school from my dad "your mother is in the hospital. get home asap" so i packed my stuff and rushed home. spent 7 hours in the hospital with my mom whom was hooked up to oxggen ivs and other shit. she was asleep the entire time. she opened her eyes and looked at me wen the nurse came in to give her a needle. and seeing the look in her eyes wen she looked at me was terrible. later that night sheldon came down. then 5am the next mornign we get a call from the hospital "shes gotten worse" so my dad left to go there. an hour later he came back "your mother passed away 2minutes before i got there" cried basically all day reading her journals that she had written within 2 of the months she was sick. then the funeral and wake came. longest day ever. burried in her my clothes cuz she didnt have nice dress clothes, put barkley in her arms, and ya. btw. she had lung cancer which was fast approaching, spread to her brain and liver. 6)school has never been the same. not movitated to go anymore. skipping bout 5-8 classes a week. not sleeping at night. 7) got really mad one night that my dad didnt tell me my mom was sick till it was too late. the last time i saw her before she was noticibly sick was the day i moved into school. anyway, i got mad and punched my mirror. didnt end well. 8) sheldons dad and his new gf (whom r living together in there new house) seem to be tryin to split us up. 9) sheldon and mine 1 year is thursday (3 days) |
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| 331 hit(s) | (2 comments) | Leave one! |
| Dreamland Returns - #11 | June 13th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
| by dreamland | |
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Inekwar and I agreed that it was a stunning victory, but we didn't let the thought of victory make us too confident. I still put the men through various training exercises, knowing full well who was left to defeat. Famine was an easy victory, but Pestilence would not be so easily defeated. War would definately be one of the hardest Horsemen to defeat, but Death would be next to impossible. But I knew just how to defeat them all. Pestilence was cocky when it came to battles. I would have to use that cockiness and stupidity to my advantage. War was also very cocky. Because he was the Horseman of War, he naturally picked the best fighting troopers, and believed them to be undefeatable. It would be easy to defeat him, although I'd have to train the men extensively to defeat his troopers. Death would prove to be a challenge. His troopers were almost invincable, but I'm sure if I killed a few, the men would be convinced that they aren't unkillable. Death himself would be a challenge to fight as well, but there is only one thing in this known universe that can overpower death. And that is life. The real challenge would be if after their individual defeats, they attacked me all at once. The men would have to deal with the rest of their combined forces, which I was confident they could do. To fight the Four Horsemen all at once while trying to make sure your troops were staying alive would be hard. Especially if the battle against them went as it did before in the forest. And this time, Death would surely not be merciful about his dealings with me. That thought frightened me. I waited for almost a week after that planning with my army, hearing nothing about the movements of the Four Horsemen. After another three days, I heard news from a scout that Pestilence and his army had finally started moving. They were marching straight at our position, with Pestilence leading an army of 2 500 troopers, outnumbering my forces by an even 1 000. I didn't like those odds, so I made sure to get the troops to build extensive defences of a hilltop. If Pestilence wanted to fight me, he'd have to lay seige to the hilltop, which differs from his preferred fighting with army against army on a level field. I almost smirked at the thought of Pestilence getting angry because he had to go out of his way to fight outside of his comfort zone. But several days later, I would truly see how well he would fight. |
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| 157 hit(s) | (0 comments) | Leave one |
| Love? | August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
| by socrazy | |
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I think we all believe that we're in love with the person we're in a relationship with. And we try so hard to believe it, because we're all afraid of being alone in the end. Sure some say they're fine, and for all I know maybe they are. But they're probably trying to convince themselves they don't need anyone, or that one-day they'll meet the person they're supposed to be with. Do we ever really know, not just try to convince ourselves? Now don't go thinking that this means I'm contemplating things about Adam. Because I'm not, it was just something that randomly popped into my head while reading old entries and thinking. (You can breathe a sigh of relief Adam, it's not going to be a repeat of last year for you. As long as last summer for me doesn't occur, which I know won't happen.) Also we survived me being gone for a week, so I know it's okay. Vincent Kennedy McMahon "If you have a relationship that can survive being away from one another. The bond will grow stronger. But if it breaks at one infraction, you never really had anything at all." Sandman (Adam), August 11, 2005. #48 A New Beginning. That was all that was written. I believe it was written in the middle of July, I really should start putting dates on everything I write. lol. Later, Meaghan. |
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| 318 hit(s) | (3 comments) | Make my day worse |
| Why?? | July 15th, 2008 @ 12:00am |
| by catchmyfall | |
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Feeling: confused
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| 380 hit(s) | (0 comments) | to.live.is.to.die |
| Olivia | 11.21.08 |
| by scott | |
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| 9440 hit(s) | (7 comments) | comment |
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