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Friends of Beatmyheartout
| dearest rach | August 13th, 2008 @ 3:50pm |
| by suicidalscars | |
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Feeling: tortured
there are no words to describe how worried and sick i feel right now. everything that could go wrong is running through my head at the highest velocity possible. i cant help but think that if you're hurt then it's my fault. horrible things wont stop harassing my eyes; your father doing something again, you hurting yourself to the point of no return, someone else harming you. its becoming unbearable. i dont know what i would do if i lost you, my dearest dearest rachael. i love you so much; you have absolutely no idea how much i care for you. i feel like we're connected somehow. like we were meant to met and help each other. these minutes wont go by quick enough so that i can run home and get on msn to hopefully see you on there and be reassured that you, my darling rachael, my sister, my better half, are ok. i would be dead without you. i cannot stand the thought of losing you. i cant bear to even think of that because i fear that i will break down and cry until i cant cry anymore. i cant lose you, too. no, not you. you're too important to me. i've already lost someone important to me, but they aren't nearly as important to you. i'm praying to a false god that i've never believed in that nothing is wrong and that you're just in one of those moods where you say things that you dont mean. oh my god rachael, im dying right now not knowing whats going on with you. i swear that i would do anything to help you! i would sell drugs, i would steal, i would sell myself to drunk men on the streets, i would kill to help you and make sure that you were ok. if you need to get away from there, i will work anyway possible until i have enough money to fly you over here, just to make sure that you are safe and ok. i would die for you rachael. i love you so much. god, i hope that you are ok. . .please tell me that you are ok and that nothing has happened to you. please, just leave me at least one word telling me that you're ok. please, oh god, please let you be ok. . . i love you more than any words can say chelsea |
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| 612 hit(s) | (1 comments) | otep saves |
| girl meets guy, girls falls for guy, and what now? | April 9th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by babypink9826 | |
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Listening to: say a little prayer -aretha franklin
Feeling: deceived
what do you do when the one person you want to be with, doesn't want to commit? what do you do when the one person who makes you happy the most, wont stay by your side? what do you do when the one person that makes you weak, isn't so weak about you? what do you do when the one person that you would give anything for, hasn't given anything for you? what do you do when you long for this persons touch, and they're so close yet so far away? what do you do when you have all these questions, but no answers? that's why i am here. if you know me or don't know me, please give me advice. -THE BACKGROUND- a friend tells me after school one day, "so and so likes you, thinks you're hot, and wants to go out with you." i look at her and think, 'no way. i am a freshman, this guy is a senior. no way in hell does he see anything in me.' secretly, though i tried to hide it, i was flattered. not really knowing the guy very well, i just kind of kept it in the corner of my mind. later that night i get an IM from his friend on AIM, and he asks me if i want to go to a wrestling meet with him, THE guy, and a couple other friends. of course i say yes, though i'm not sure what's going to happen. the next night here they come to pick me up. i get in the car and He looks at me and smiles and says, "HI KYLAR!" and of course i say hello back. that night was a night i will never forget. it was so close to perfect in so many ways. the way he looked at me, the way he talked to me, the way he acted around me. i couldn't have asked for more. the next thing i know, i'm in california for 5 days over christmas break. he goes to a party and hooks up with a girl. feelings develop for the both of them, and of course he was torn between the two girls. we hung out everyday that was possible for us to hang out over the break. we texted a lot, and everything seemed so great. it was what seemed like would become one of those relationships that everyone is jealous of. two people so infatuated by eachother. but, not for long. no dream come true for me. to make a long story short, he continued going to parties and hooking up with her, then saying sorry to me. things got better over time because for some reason that i'm not too sure of, they stopped talking. good or bad, i was happy. i finally had the chance to show this guy how strong of feelings i had developed for him. in the last month, things have been SO good. everytime i see this guy, i feel something through my body. i feel like he's the only guy who can give me that feeling. two or three weeks ago, he asked me to go to prom with him. of course i said yes, very happy that he asked me. we hang out everyday for a week, and a lot on the weekends. he spends the night at my house, and we talk a lot. he smiles at me, and gives me huge hugs. he sends me all these signals leading me to believe that finally we can have a relationship, and be happy together. but yet, nothing has happened between us. so where am i now? after these 4 long months, where am i? what am i doing here, and why am i here? this is my question. should i talk to him about things? should i tell him that i want to be with him, or to let me go? should i tell him that he can't keep leading me to believe things will change, when they aren't going to? should i tell him all my feelings and risk everything? or, should i let it play it self out for longer? confusion runs through me like no other, but i don't want to let him go. i don't want to see him walk away. somebody, advice..? |
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| 59 hit(s) | (1 comments) | leave ur love...<3 |
| February 13th, 2006 @ 12:00am | |
| by hugsandwishes | |
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| 143 hit(s) | (0 comments) | Say You Won't Care |
| February 17th, 2006 @ 12:00am | |
| by purplelollipop | |
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It's depressing. I wish I could take every wrong thing I did and make it right. God how different the world would be. But I guess we all need to learn from our mistakes. Too bad I obviously haven't. It'd be nice to play with a razorblade but I'm going to my moms house tonight and that'd just cause more problems than it's worth. Not like it solves anything for anyone else anyways. You guys all probably think that I'm just pathetic. When I really am. Okay...bye. |
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| 80 hit(s) | (1 comments) | ... |
| Everything | January 20th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
| by miriah | |
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Listening to: THe music in my head
Feeling: artistic
Everything I want Everything I need I see it in your eyes And I feel it in your touch Oh, Everything you are IS everything to me I can't help but feel The Way I feel About you You're Everything Oh, You're Everything to me The one I want to be with The one that's right for me You're everything I need boy Oh, You just gotta see You're the only one that I adore You're the only one for me You're everything Oh, You're everything to me |
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| 218 hit(s) | (0 comments) | shoot me |
| bitches | March 3rd, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by calmlikeabomb | |
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Listening to: be yourself - audioslave
Feeling: nostalgic
were going to the malll, lol i havent seen her since like 5th grade She used to be one of my best freinds and i liked her soo much..iguess i like her now to. i noticed i dont like the people i used to . im sick of there bullshit and them playing games with me |
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| 68 hit(s) | (2 comments) | Imagine |
| Fkn finally | June 5th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
| by omgiheartyou | |
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Sitdiary finally works Where do I start Hmm i'm madly in love with my boyfriend We fight alot, but i couldn't live without him problem is, hes moving 3 hours away and i'm heartbroken I havent slept since 9 am yesterday So its almost been 24 hours. I don't awnna go to school except at the same time i do to see everyone asldjf |
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| 41 hit(s) | (0 comments) | leave comment |
| fridayy. | September 13th, 2008 @ 12:10am |
| by styrofoam | |
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Listening to: DEATH MAGNETIC.
Feeling: bizarre
it was amazing. people care. last year of high school. easyy shit. until college apps, maybe. "the promise is null &void." the end of that dreaded drunken promise! i care about him. he lies. to me, to himself. helpless. i hate her. &her stupid accusing questions. she buys a new face to put on each dayy. it's so easy to be happyy. if you're up for it. it's so easy. love//miss youu all. |
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| 435 hit(s) | (0 comments) | purple bunnyy. <3 |
| Olivia | 11.21.08 |
| by scott | |
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