I'm sick. Just plain sick, like stuffed nose.. conjested yuckie head feeling, soar throat, really tired + time of that moooooooonth.. which just adds to it all lol, but ive been handling it prettyy good. im pretty happy
Tonight I just had a lazy day. i liked it. I came home from schhoool, did some homework, changed into my comfy clothes, put my hair in a ponytail, and put my sex and the city..season 3 dvds on. And i watched them, all night. They really make me think. I've just been so confused about everything lately, over thinkign things, and underthinking things.
So many things that happen to those girls.. besides having random sex with everyonee lol ican relate to. i just love it. It made me so sad though. The episode where Aiden and Carrie break up is the worssssst. I always cry in it.
Aiden was my favorite boy on sex and the city. All of Carries boyfriends are very opposite, and.. they each have good qualitiesss.. but if i had to choose one of them, i would have picked aiden. Hes just nice, and funy, and sweet, and easy going and layed back, and just so real and practical. He was the best thing for her.. and then Bigg, comes out of nowhere, while hes marriedd.. and just like that, no matter how hard she trys, she messed up, and there having an affair. Its so retarted, adn it makes me so mad. I know its just a show, but it made me thinkk...
If you had something amazing goign with someone, someone amazing, and everything was perfect.. and so much more then anything else you ever had, why would you, in an instant go back to something in the pastt.. when it obviosly didnt work out?
I mean, everyone wants the perfect realtionship right? Well then how come, no matter how close you may get sometimees, its never enough? I know im never going to have an affair, or anything like thatt.. but what i have is so good, and sometimes i judge it and compare it, and when the littlest things happen.. or when they may not seem to be perfect at the moment you need them to be, i wonder. I have an all around good guy. Theres things about me im sure he could do without, and theres things about him i could probably do without.. but i tihnk its those little things that make it a relationship. If everything was perfect, all the time, and there were no times of imperfections.. i dont think it would be a relationship.
I believe that relationships should be full of those amazing times when everything is perfect, and those moments when you never want to move or be apart, and times when you just feel special.. but ive came to terms with the fact, that... everything i have in my mind, of the perfect guy, will probably never be met.. and if somehow it were, it wouldnt be enough. The perfect guy, is the one who is so much of what you thought of, and more. More of everything, the good and the bad.
I know this sounds stupid, i mean.. im only 15, and i have so many thinsg ahead of me, and so many experiencess ahead of me.. but i just realized tonight, that nothing can ever be exactly what you picturedd.. but sometimes, it can get pretty close =)
wow. alrightyy, lol besides me being all wrapped up in my feeelings, and trying to get them straightened outtt.. Me and kella are on a sugar/junk food strik, and its actually starting to driveme nuts. Its actually so hard. I eat so much junk food. like i knew i did.. but not eating it makes me realize HOW much i eatttttttt. I just want to lose weighttttt. so badlyy
Soccers almost over. Im so sad actually.. because i have no idea whatsa going to happen with tryouts, and what i want to happen. I liked this season, and i love my coach.
i hate change. lol i really do
i wish things never changedddddd
♥ Favorites ♥
food- hmm pineapple?
color- rainbowww
name- Chelsey
friend- Jesska Dine Maria Linhhh, Phil Luke Ashton
memory- juniour highhhh days
playground equiptment- the swingss
song- umm.. fall to pieces :)
flavor of candy- watermelonn
fruit- pineapples and strwberries
veggie- hmmm carrots
soda- sprite
fruit drink- orange juice
expression- hmm.. i odnt get that one
shoe you have- umm my new running shoes lol
number- 17
screen name you've had- *chelss
pattern- umm.. lol
book- Ive only ever read The lion the witch and the wardrobe more then oncee.. so probably thattt, i liked it
magazine- cosmoooo
shirt- um right now, my navy blue american eagle one
pair of pants- ugh i love wearing my sweat pants righ tnowwwwwwwww
dog breed- golden retreiver :)
store- llotsssss
accessory- necklase?
hair color- blondeeeish
family member- my mom, sisterrrr
season- summer.. i misss it so much
day of the year- my birthday and christmass
birthday you've had- um my 14th with jess taylor and jakee
month- august
day of the week- friday
holiday- chrsitmas
time of day- uhhh depends
imaginary friend- none at the moment
snack- frozen fruitt
sport- soccerr
jiggy you do- hm lol MINE AND DINES CHINESE GROOOVE
band- umm ive been listening to fall out boy alottttt lately
singer- lotsssss. iL brian adamsss
brand of clothing- umm lotsss
brand of shoes- pumasss
jewelry- my necklase luke got for meee and my crossss
subject in school- english
friends parents- PHILS MOM and jesskas mom and dines mom
radio station- jack and vibe
weather- warm and sunnnnnnnnnnnnnny
♥ current (as in at the moment) ♥
shirt- blackk
pair of pants- my pink polka dot pajamasss
shoes- nonnnee.. just socks
socks- theyre amy's.. lol theyre blue with red heartsss on them
makeup- nonnee right now
hairstyle- down and curllyyy
chair you're sitting in- a comfy computer chair
food you're eating- nothingggg
song you're listening to- nothing
friend you're talking to- nonnnee its like 2 in the momring =S i need to go to bed.. i have soccer early in the mornign =(
boyfriend- Luke Austin Davis ♥
bestfriend- Jess, Dine, Phil
people at home- my mom, step dad, borther, other brother, and little sister
place you're at- my computer room
AIM screenname- i dont have aimmm
movie you're watching- noneee
bladder- uhhhhh my current bladder? aha?
pet nearest to you- my kittyy soda
book nearest to you- noneee that i can see
time- 2:02AM eek
Alrightyyyyy
so im really bored and I cant fall asleepp, so i came on here. And i played around with my diary thingggg, and changed it all up.. and i havent actually wrote in here in a supper long timee, so i decided im gonna.
LOTS has changed in the last year.. last 2 years. Its crazy, I was going through my old sitdiary and was deleting all my old entriess, and then i came to onee.. that i rememberd writing because i just wrote about one day. And i stoped deleting the rest. Becausee.. it was nice to remember how things were. Its wierd. I like how things are going right now, and Im overall prettty happy.. but it made me sad.. reading how different things were, not even a year ago. The people who were in my entry im still friends with, but nothing like we were. Things are different. So much has changed..bad change, and lots of good change, but i simply hate change.
I've never been good with change, and i just cant take it. I love my boyfriend. I love being with him. I love my friends. I love my 3some with jess and dino. I love when luke and me and ashton have so much funn. I love seeing phil still. I love how me and adam are becoming friends again. But i miss so much.
Everyones changed. and everythings changed. And i dont know why it bothers me so much. I think its the memories. I miss in grade 7, when we didnt have anything to worry about.. and we were all just best friends, and we didnt have to worry about stupid tihns, and we all just had fun. And i miss grade 8.. i miss being with phil and adam every single dayy. I miss everything that went on that year. I know this makes no sence, and im just in a wierd moood, but i dont know why things have to change.
