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October 19th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: The voices in my head.
Feeling: ecstatic
woot i remeber i forgot to tell people my new Sd user name. ITs Daywalker, and i had it set to private so that must explain all of the blank screens lo.
The Question of the day: what would you do for a klondike bar? I mean what would you really do for one.....>???????!!!!!!sdtaertre |
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That is one weird show |
October 16th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Well i finally remebered my other Sd user name lol, after about a month but hey! I updated it for the foo man shu out there. I 'll add everyone later.
Squidbillies: that has to be the most random piece of shit i have ever seen... i mean its like robot chicken+Aqua teen - sanity... ug wow. Its really funny if you watch it closly, and i do mean closely like stick your fucking eyes to the screen. Thats also great cheap laser surgery! |
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Sweetness |
October 11th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
I feel really good right now. I feel that a great weight is off my shoulders. I dont have to deal with all that personal shit anymore. Just so everyone knows, i dont hate anyone, what ever happened is done as far as i'm concerned. I have no ill feelings for anyone other than the one invloved. I'm moving on and alot happier.
To all those who have been their for me thankyou and especially you kyle. You are one of the best friends i have, all of your input has been greatly appreciated.
To my friends: i am making a new SD nice all of these past entries have been under false pretences, or depressed, so i want to start with a more positive environment. I shall let you all know the user when i make it. |
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Lies always hurt more than truth... |
October 10th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
what a surprise... not i knew it for a while. My relationship with AShley has died. It did a while ago i knew that, i held on for some reason or another. I thought she was different, i was wrong. Just the same girl i knew back at the beginning of summer. I seriously tried to think differently of her. But now i can't help but have a undescribable resentment... I mean i could have delt with her just telling me that it was over, when she first felt this way... but no... she kept it intact for " i dont want to hurt him" omg people... LIES HURT MORE THAN TRUTH. Why the fuck play me... i even appologized to her for acting the way i did thinking i was at fault...no... she "just wanted to make me happy"...she knows how i feel about lies and superficiality. And i got hit with a truckload of it, tonight.
Angry... no idea...i'm beyond that... She's ruined my respect for her. I hope she knows that. |
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Yay! |
October 10th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: LP-Numb
Feeling: swamped
Today was kinda suttle, for the most part even drama seemed kinda lame. Yearbook just being a bitch. Lol soo many layouts ug... i hate it. i cant wait to drop that class. I'm actually pretty fine after HC, everyone seemed physically drained. I was like the only one who wasn't it seemed, maybe cause i slept 14 hours sunday lol.
I might ride out to Saginaw,depending on the day sometime this weekend.One of my old friends and her bro is coming up like Sat or Sun with her parents to stay at their cottage in grand rapids. They apparently go there sometimes now and then and they wanted me to meet with them at the mall in saginaw. Scott i guess kept my address, and Phone number, That i told Daniel after We moved. I was really surprised at first because it took a while to recall the name or that they still had that!. Then I was freaking out. Back in Commerce I used to hang out with Daniel, her younger sis Jennifer, and their Bro Scott everyday after school. Good times, man that was like 4 years ago... wow time does fly. I hope i can see them, i miss those days. |
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Homecoming |
October 8th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: Howieday-Collide
Feeling: blissful
This weekend has been awsome so far i went the game and saw the bucks kick the ass out of beaverton.. i mean c'mon... it beaverton. I also got to scare the shit out of Nicole which is always a plus ha!
Then the dance tonight was really fun. Kyle, Carla, Pa, Kristy, Ashley and my self all went to houghton lakes china King buffet which was totally num ness! Then we split up and went to the dance. Ashley and i got there about 20 minutes early. They made everyone stand outside for 10 of them... it was really cold. I took a bite out of my ticket and Ashley killed hers lol. But then everyone showed up and the party got going. I had alot of fun, i have never really danced for 3 hours before! Ashley wore high heels to the dance but she took them off because they were uncomfortable. Which made slow dancing a bit harder but non the less more enjoyable. Ashley was a total bombshell , i have concluded. i mean when i saw her at her house for the first time i was all 0.0, lol bad me > |
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October 6th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: MSI- I'll rebel against anything if its easy.
Feeling: freaky
Today in drama was amsome i mean i really had fun. Havent just let loose like that in a while. I reallty enjoyed the story game, it's fast furios and random, my style exactly. We got our duo monologues today. Apparently i'm a annouyed customer trying to return a coffee maker to a word manipulating sales clerk. Very ammusing to say the least. The part i play is neat cause it seems like something i would do in real life.
Their is also class mock elections which is awsome because most people are putting me down as most philosophical, and unpredictable. ^-^ oh yeah! Most people know of the unpredictable part but the philosophical part is something i only do outside school or online. I had a really awsome conversation about the aspects of realism, optimism, pesimism, and of course sur realism the other night. Hmm i've always wonder what the best choice is.
I prefer realism because its the most open and allows the clear view of the world without all the blindness of negative or the over positive, wishful thinking and blind stimuli. Mreh of course theres always sur -realism, but thats alittle on the close minded part for me. If anyone has any opinion feel free to add a comment. I love the concepts of ego/ meta cognitive thinking. I think i'm getting back into the old mind set. ha zah, as pat would say !:) |
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Mr. Zimblowski! |
October 4th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
hmmm what does a person say lol when they are ammused. Mreh i just got back from Grayling. I got my other set of contacts wooot lol. Hmm i need to find a good restraunt to eats at for homecomming i need some ideas.... hmmm maybe some kind of exotic food or something. Although of course no fish....*frowns* sigh*.... i likes fish though! Naw no biggy i wonder if kyle has any new ideas. My well if anyone has any lemme know! I must now go back to my home planet! *googles eyes a bit* we ll i shall post my character for my story tonight.
Thegeroff Uhvieathin: In the city of Thay, ruled by the notorious red wizards, a decade of slavery in the city of his birth, and the rejection from the arcane acedemy, he escapes his homeland in search of a way to over throw the Arcane rulers of Thay and end the tyranny that has suppressed the people for almost half a millenia. Through any means possible...
Xantos Faldren: Heavy built , and weathered human warrior from the north. Strength unmatched in the mortal realms, nor any opponent vanquished him. Although he bares the scares of the year after year of war, and unsettled disputes of his homeland. Doning his battled crimson stained armor and aired fathers sword, he treks on with courage ful fled. After the Death of his brother, and the kindknapping of a life long friend, he travels south in search of some awsers to his troubled past.
Arimal Moondown: His quest leading him far from his comanthorian home. The death of his family, to the hands of the dark elves, the spared young elf is taken in and raised in the wasy of a mysterious order, and vows retribution to the dark ones. This gray elf vowed never to feel happiness till every drow has been anilinated of the face of Faruin.
Audia Darleth:A rogue from the east quiet yet tranquil shade like companion, finds a place in the lengths of road before her. After a sheltered and suppressed childhood, bent on superficiality and wealth. She rebels, leaving everything behind and treks on through the Sword coast on a quest of freedom and free spirt to the heart felt depths of danger and adventure.
Zoloft Stormshield: A battle harden dwarf from spine of world. His home raided by hords hob-goblins and other monsterous humanoids. Killing most of the Dwarves he held dear, and dividing his clan into a brutal war against this exspansive foe. He search for the magical amulet that should turn the dwarves war in their favor. His family tresure scatter across the realms, and possibley lost to time and distance. He search for his fathers Rose axe ammulet. To possibley restore just a piece of normality to his mountain home.
I shall do the rest when i'm not too sleepy. |
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be the chi , feel the chi. |
October 2nd, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: Family guy in the background
Feeling: zoned
I think its offical now. I 'm going to write a story. I have been wanting to for a while, its been hard to really have the time and or the ideas for it but i think i have all that i need. Its going to be a fantasy novel i think. I already have the first scene planned out. The books going to feature all of my friends in it, each person will be a charater in the story. I planned to make it forgotten realmish/dnd kinda thing, but with a realistic kinda twist. I shall post the characters on a later date once there al planned out. I also plan to make an anthology of my quotes/ philospofical sayings, poetry ect.
I feel very creative right now and i want to use that energy for something. ahh yes what a day. I feel very relieved right now, i can't wait till tommarrow.
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A change for the better |
October 2nd, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: Breaking Benjamin-Home
Feeling: happy
I will admit my SD entry from yesterday was extremely angry. I was mad that i found out about something. I didn't know really how to react to it. I was angry... but i remembered one of my own philosophical influences " anger only clouds judgment." Which was so very true in this case. I'm not angry anymore, because i realized that i was the one at fault, i have changed since the start of my relationship with Ashley. I'm not the fun Ryan i used to be, and i have been taking everything way too seriously. I wasn’t talking to her like I should have, I left her in the dark of my feelings,. She couldn’t have really taken my moods then, really any other way but negative. I realized that now. Ashley is my friend, I was her friend, we made that more. But I forgot that fact, and now I have felt the repercussions of that. I will change my ways because I need to…even at home my mom doesn’t know how I feel on a lot of things, or that I give her the wrong signal at times when I mean something else or nothing at all. This probably causes a lot of our arguments. I think that part of me needs to be altered, I don’t want to feel like I did before. Things need to be improved and I plan to make them.
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