Listening to: Michael Buble - I wanna go home
Feeling: alone
Well alot has happened since the last time I have wrote anything in thos thing. I mostly write in my MySpace blog so, yea. August 6th was a long ass time ago.
Just in the last week, there has been soooo much stuff that has happened. Oh my, haha. Well to start off the last entry that I wrote, I sappose I am over that now. It's been like a year and a half, and I am over it. Finally. I think someones Family member finally gave me the slap of reality that I need.
I was pissed off when they did it, but now I wanna say thank-you:] Even though all of that still hurts when I think about it all, but that's the problem, I have to stop thinking about it..
Now, I just have other stuff that I worry about. I'm not ready to voice anything on it yet so, that will be for another day.
I just thought tonight was a good nigh to unwind and write. All my friends are out having a good time, so I'm just gonna get stuff off my chest, with limited interuptions:]
Well I think I am gonna tell about alot that has been happening.
Last august after I wrote this, I had my party, haha. There was homecoming which was really fun, as always. I didn't have a date, as always..
Of couse, I can't forget Thanksgiving. I spent Thanksgiving with Jen and her family this year. Mom had to work so, me and my family celebrated Friday instead. It was really nice to go to a realy family holiday:] After we ate all we [Jen, Jess, Shane, Heath & I] just sat around all afternoon doing nothing. It was fun:] Seriously. You might think it would be boring, but for someone that's never had that before, it's something special:]
Then there was Christmas. Michael came home:] He has a new girlfriend, and I think he should keep this one:] She's really nice and I think he really likes this one too;]
Umm, and then there was New Years. Which I must say was the best New Years for me yet:] I went to Jen's. Kayla came and picked me up and we went to Jen's. Then right after we pulled in Heath pulled in behind us. And by like 8p.m., Dipper and Dunstin were there. And how can I ever forget the water fight? Ohhh my, let's just say it was funny, but Kayla & Heath didn't get wet so, I was a meany and rang my shirt out on Heath:] We all watched the ball drop and stayed up till like 2a.m. then Dipper and Dustin went home. Then we all get into bed, but Kayla, Heath, & I stayed up till like 7a.m. while Jen slept, haha:] Late night conversations with those people is what I love about them=] We all woke up at like noon and I gave Heath a wet willie because he wouldn't get up, haha:] But, by like 4p.m. Kayla, Me, & Heath packed up and went back to our homes:]
Ohhh, and me and Jen made a bet that she can have me a boyfriend and someone to kiss next new years while the ball is dropping to ring in 2008:] I say no, she says yes. This is where the bet lies. We shall see;]
There wasn't much that happened after all that. But, then of course there was valentines day.. Which you can read my anti-Valentines day @ my blog on MySpace. (www.myspace.com/emptyshadows18) But, yea eventful day. We had no school. There was the big snowstorm, now called the Valentine's Day Blizzard:] Oh, joy=]
Then there is eventful February 22nd 2007. A day I will probally never forget. Okay, so me, Jen and Tom had a Kay Club dinner to go to. So, we get into Jen's car and head off to it. The roads and everything were perfectly fine, untill we get to Elk Lake intersection. So, we keep going down ther road and then we come to a corner. The corner is obviously slippery and we slid out. Jen corrected it, no problem. Then I guess she tapped the brakes, BIG mistake. We started to fish tail and we went straight across the road hit a small pile of snow that sent us spinning into a 360, we slammed up against a snow pile and then went flying backwards into a wire that holds a phone pole up, which stopped us from hitting the pole:| Talk about scared shitless. That was an understatement for all of us.
Jen hit her head off her window, Tom smacked his knee off the consoule and I was slammed up against the passenger side door and luckily only have a small bruise on my thigh. We are all very luck to have even walked away from that. We got outta the snow bank and on our way. We stopped at the gas station called Jen's parnets and they came and got us. But, we are all okay, and fine. Happy to be here, but still scared and tense up and shake when we get into cars..
Other than all of that, nothign has really been going on in my life:] Just simple little Johnna, that seems to have big problems. I deal with it all though, little by little:]
J♥hnna
I may be surrounded by a million people,
but I sill feel all alone.
Oh I miss you, you know
And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you,
Each one a line or two,
well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough,
My words were cold and flat, and you deserve more than that.
I feel just like I'm living someone else's life.
When everything was going right,
and I know just why you couldn't come along with me,
But this was not your dream, But you always believed in me.
Another winter day has come and gone away
And I'm surrounded by a million people, but
I still feel alone. |
