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siempre me dejas |
December 1st, 2007 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: siempre me dejas
Feeling: defeated
whyyyyyyyyyy the fuckkk !!!! he was supposed to be over her !! they broke up!!! we were getting along so well..and i invited him ! and then she goes will all her charms and her pretty face and her minimized body and works her way into him again..whats fucking wrong with her !! they broke up! get over him! it is soo unfair..and now he is going to tell me he can't come with me anymore because he's getting back with her..im so fucking mad and sad and feel so useless..what can i do !??!?! i can't get him to like me im so unlikeable..if i've never got anyone in this stupid world to like me why would he? and im going to be fat and ugly and with no date again..I WANT TO KILL HER !! seriously get over him you stupid bitch GET OVER HIM!! |
| 153 hit(s) |
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whatever gets you through today |
May 31st, 2007 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: the weekend
Feeling: alone
i think i'm a loner..i always feel so alone..i'm getting used to being with myself..
so its been a long long time..i'm still single.. i stopped my terrible habit of biting my nails and i'm afraid its starting again because yesterday and today i bit the hell out of my hands..but i'm trying hard so thats what matters.. i'm still a real mess but know i try to hide it from myself..i say to the world i don't smoke but i still do..i'd like to get out of my house and don't come back in like 6 years..thats how my family is doing..but i think im better with myself as wierd as it might sound..its like now i know me..with all the shit thats been going on now i know that i might be alone and might dont like me a whole lot but at least i know who i am..and i know that this is the person im gonna live with my whole life so i better start liking myself..anyways..on monday i went to a friends house to the pool with all my friends..it was pretty cool..i wanted to post some pics but i can't remember how..so..i wont..later.. |
| 79 hit(s) |
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hands that hurt |
April 22nd, 2007 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: explosions
Feeling: intrigued
These hands bleed the pain away
Pain caused by themselves
These hands they tremble everyday
Scared of marking, unstoppable mistakes
These hands promise tears shed at night
Tears that sting their pitiful sight
These hands, full of stories that burn
The eyes of strangers that dare to stare
These hands are guilty, these hands are wounded
These hands plead freedom of being tortured
They hide and they sweat when they feel the coming
Of fears or wounds or anger or simple sobbing
They know they’ll get punished for being so hurt
For hurting each other, they’ll have to do it again.
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| 81 hit(s) |
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still desperate for light |
April 22nd, 2007 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: explosions in the sky
Feeling: breathless
i can't believe how so much time passes by and yet nothing ever changes. my family is still a wreck. i still cant wait to get out of school. i still have to be running to catch up with my friends. i still bite my nails to the point of bleeding everytime. i still like to hurt myself. im still at the verge of crying everytime im awake. im still waiting for something amazing to happen. i still wait until tomorrow to start a full and happy life. i still regret every breath i take. i still wish i could do everything different. i'm still trying to stop smoking. i'm still causing myself pain because it feels good. i still wish i didn't. |
| 71 hit(s) |
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noboday said it was easy... |
December 2nd, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: your hand in mine (goodbye)
Feeling: nothing
everything is so fucked up...at school i cant wait for it to finish im counting the seconds for my last exam...its so hard for me and that fucking class is with him so im gonna see him..and my xmas party is almost here and i dont have someone to go with...i mean i have many options but i wanna go with him so everybody else is not good enough but this time im not giving up my pride and inviting him...so im not sure who im gonna invite and anyways i know anyone who i invite im not gonna have such a good time cuz i wanna go with him...:S:S:S i cant wait for the fucking school to finish and the fucking party to fly by and vacation to by here and i can hibernate for a complete week... |
| 74 hit(s) |
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