Happiness goes out to Carla for making this a fun diary!
Where is the love?!
February 12th, 2006 @ 12:00am
Feeling: frustrated
So a couple weeks ago I jumped on the MySpace train. I feel so...conforming. Oh well. It's pretty cool mostly, and my sister and brothers are all on it so that's cool. Anyway, apparently Friday there was this really nasty bulletin posted about some "snobby *itches" in our school with a petition for people who agree to sign. It was one of the rudest things I have ever read. It didn't come right out and say anyone's name, but the descriptions of the people are very detailed and it's obvious who they're talking about, and those people know that it's about them! It's just so mean, and I'm embarrassed and disappointed that one of my friends actually signed and reposted it! It's horrible. I'm not even friends with the girls that it's about; in fact, I think those girls can be extremely rude a lot of the time, but still, no one deserves to be trashed, especially for the whole world to see! Between this and all the crap on the bathroom stalls I just have to ask: WHERE IS THE LOVE?!?!?!?!
Ugh. Boys. They're kind of stupid. (No offense to those of you who are boys). Is it really that hard to be just friends with a girl? I mean honestly. It's ridiculous. But at the same time I know from experience that it can be hard to be friends with a guy and not fall for him. Most of the time though I've realized that in fact I didn't actually like the person that way, I just got my feelings confused. Sometimes feelings suck. Sometimes feelings are the most awesomest things EVER! *sigh* I guess the awesome feelings wouldn't be so awesome without the sucky feelings. Life. It's so...Life. As frustrating as it is sometimes, I have to admit I LOVE it!!!!!!
I think that the word "senioritis" is a very cool word, however, wouldn't it be even sweeter if 'senioritis' was now called "seniorsmitis?" It just has a real nice ring to it, ya know? Now, don't ask me how or why I came up with this term. This literally just popped into my head as I was coming up with an entry title. I think perhaps from now on I will forever call it seniorsmitis! You should do so too! It'll be fun!! :)
New Year's Eve was so much fun!! I went to Crystal's for a few hours, and we drank fake wine (which is so yummy!) and straight lemon juice (don't ask, lol), and we watched the Exorcism of Emily Rose! Holy crap that movie is freaky! Like, beyond freaky!! I am still having a hard time falling asleep 'cause I keep thinking about it! AHH! And then we watched this freaky thing on her computer that freaked the crap out of me! Then the ball dropped and it was great fun! After that we went outside and had an awesome snowball fight (Adam Klockziem totally tackled me with a white wash! Ouchies!), and then me, Mir, Julia, Vanessa and Rachel went to Julia's house and watched Mr. and Mrs. Smith and then went to sleep. And apparently I was laughing in my sleep for about 45 minutes. I dunno. That's what Mir said. Anyway, I should go to sleep now! Nighty-night! Hey, and watch out for those bed bugs---they bite!! (hehe, I'm just so clever...ok, maybe I'm just lame! lol)
Wow, I'm an idiot. Last night Rachel (Griffin) came over, and my parents were gone, and we watched America's Next Top Model for almost 9 hours! How sad is that? But the really sad thing is, we are obsessed with that show now, and would probably watch another marathon of it (from a different season, of course). But yeah. It was nuts. Once we watched a couple episodes we just had to watch and see who won. We also prank called Jess, from Montana. He was one of the prankers that called Michigan people when I was out there, so we decided to call him. We pranked him a couple times, just saying random things, and then we ended talking to him for over 2 hours! It was crazy. But it was fun. He's a pretty funny person, and real easy to talk to. But Rach and I are really stupid, because we ended up staying up until 5:30! Which means that 'cause tonight's New Year's Eve, we'll be staying up uber late 2 nights in a row! AHH! Oh well. It'll be fun. I'll probably pass out as soon as the ball drops, but oh well. :)
Oh my stinking potato peeler. I am so sick of this ridiculous song in my head. My dad said something about Chanukkah starting yesterday this morning, and my mom started singing the Chanukkah song (you know, "Chanukkah, oh Chanukkah, something something menorah..."), and it got stuck in my head. Now, many many hours later I'm still singing it and it's driving me nuts cause I only know the part that I just wrote, so I'm saying that same part over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and I think I'm done with the 'and overs" now. Yep, I am done. And now it's Sims 2 time. I haven't killed anyone lately...muahaha. Just kidding! Vanessa and Nick were accidents, and I'd really rather something like that doesn't happen again! Ciao!
Fair is foul and foul is fair. Never have those words had so much personal meaning. I feel flabbergasted, stupid, slightly betrayed, and so many other things. But I'm glad I know. It'll make the moving on process much easier. I realize how non-detailed I'm being and how ridiculous it is that I am, but I want to and have to. And I'm writing in this because I just need to vent. Besides, it adds more mystery this way. lol. I am a dork.
Do any of you have any non-detailed or detailed experiences of this line from Macbeth being proven true? If so, share! Or don't! Whatever floats your pretty little boat! If not, don't share! Or make one up! :)
lol. Ciao!
So here are the lyrics I promised earlier. Granted, not every single part pertains to me, but most of it does, especially about the taking a risk thing. I'm bad at the risk-taking game...! :)
Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreamin' of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray
Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanting to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away
[chorus]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jetplane, far away
And break away
[chorus]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I love
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
But, gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, break away
[chorus 2]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye, gotta
Take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Break away
Break away
I love Christmas! Not because of all the presents, which are tons of fun, but just the whole atmosphere of it. I love all the joy and love that people spread. I'm sad it's basically over. :( But the atmosphere will stay (with me at least) for a couple more weeks. Actually, I like to think it stays with me all the time, but that's for deeper, much more spiritual reasons that I'm not going to get into right now. Anyways. The past couple of days I've been thinking about college and stuff (surprise, surprise), and I got the 'new' Kelly Clarkson CD for Christmas (I love her!), and so I've been listening to "Breakaway" a lot, and I've decided that's kind of my theme song for this year and how I've been feeling. So I'm going to post the lyrics in here. I think I'm going to post them in a different entry tho, cause I don't want this to be uber long. So yeah. :) To Be Continued...
