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xX92Xx--oh god not again |
December 8th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: the verve
Feeling: alright
so i got a txt off his phone last night well more than one god that was confusing to find it was someone else!!! didnt care that much then he comes out with call me and ill come see you sometime!!! oh god i dont know if i want to i wont be able to say no to him i know i wont but still i dont know if ill call him i txt him asking if he still wanted me to but he never got bk to me i dont know what to do i might call him i mean i can always hang up right?anyway what else to talk about? school is actually going really well and im managing to keep up with everything so im really happy with that i started to read Wuthering Hights yesterday im liking it lol mum says ill fall in love with Hiethcliff lol he seems like a grumpy man just now hmmm christmas soon i cant wait its going to be so good this year!!!aww cant wait till david is home...heather is back tomoro yay aww i miss them so much lol oh im going to call david soon so yeh i might call the other one at the same time ok well gotta go now love ya x x x |
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xX91Xx--oh dear |
November 6th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: fall out boy
Feeling: unworthy
heya guys wow what a weekend didnt get any of my homowork done and cant be fucked doing it just now...so friday night i went to lindis that was cool hadnt been to a proper newtonmore party in ages it was good got home at half 3 woo um yeh then was working at 7 haha oh hayley wat a fun shift that was i was still half cut and couldnt do the toast so eddy had to do it lmao!!! then other stuff happened me and hayley found very very funny indeed!! yup then saturday night we went to kingcraig for the fireworks blah stuff happened with other people dont know what to think about that ... went to avimore met up with laura and that but i really wasnt in the mood for it then today i was supposed to go to kingussie to see bob but i couldnt be bothered hes a great guy dnt know what happened last night and well i like him as a mate but he reminds me of barry so i find myself watching him closer than i need to anyway was supposed to go get stoned with him today but i didnt have the energy ill catch up with him later i suppose...ummmm what else is happening wow i had some messed up dreams last night/today hmm very very strange indeed!!!! oh god poor people have got themselves into troule glad its not me this time im sure zoe wont do anything tho lindi!oh well im off got stuff to do bye xoxoxoxox |
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xX90Xx--long time |
November 3rd, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: inme (lol somthings never change)
Feeling: fantastic
Hey guys!Well yeh its been a while i was on checking karins diary as usual and thought id give this a spin lol its strange looking at this again so many memories boy did this diary so many mistakes but anyway i think ive changed since i last wrote here ive certainly grown up and gotten closer to loads of people im happy as well ive had a few surprises recently nice ones and have had a great times went to glasgow with a couple of mates that was great went to see rooster oh yas lol met a few guys i like and yeh just had a great time aww lol ive missed this diary da da da da da trying to make karin guess im writing in it lol shes not gettin anywhere oh got a few gigs lined up him and fall out boy in january and then trivium in march woot cant wait lol!oh oh going to alannas b-day in a few weeks cant wait!!!i havent seen her in ages!! aww miss her!hmmm what else to write about oh well i got my anti tragus and my daith pierced and im thinking about gettin somthing else done when im at als went off the idea of a tat cant find anything i want yet oh well im off just now i might write again soon ... maybe lol love ya bye x x x |
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xX89Xx--going away for a while |
August 27th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: biffy
Feeling: firedup
hey guys this diary has been a big help for me it has helped me through a lot of hard times. there are entrys in here that are my feelings at there most raw and vunrable there are comments from people i love and people i hate,there are comments that have shown me the truth in people and entrys that show the truth in me.there are song lyrics on here that sum me or my feelings up.and song lyrics that make me sad.to be frank there are people who know this address that i dont want to know how im feeling and what im thinking so ive decided to leve it for a while and start a new diary on a new site.and no im not going to make the mistake of putting the new addy here!ill tell the people who need to know, the new address ill check the site everynow and then if u want to comment then go ahead.but just leve them on this entry cause i dnt want to have to look through all my other ones. ill miss writing in here i love the layout of the site and you never know one day i might be back....anyway thanks for everything to all of you the ones that just read this every now and then, to the ones who used it to check how i was getting on, to the ones that used it to find out how i really am when i said i was "ok".to everyone thanks and good bye for now... x x x |
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xX88Xx--he left today |
August 26th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: savage garden
Feeling: sane
heya everyone had to write a wee private entry becasue i needed to get some stuff off my chest i didnt want some people reading.
so yes david moved to edinburgh today,me and carrie-anne went round to his house early this morning to say our last good byes it was sad but it didnt hit me till i got to school ill miss him more and more every day i rekon.at least i only have to wait a week to see him again cause im going down to stay at his for the weekend yay!
so yeh about my mobiel phone mess up i think im just going to stay with the phone i ordered its pretty much the same as the one i wanted just not pink i think i could live with it in black!
not much else happening at all,we are hosting a thearter group in the school on monday that will be fun even!our school is falling to pieces!
im in a poetic mood just now i think im going to go and write a poem.
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xX86Xx--dum dee dum |
August 24th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: inme - this town
Feeling: wounded
hey everyone,lol before i start was looking through the current mood thing for worried and it has wet as a choice hee hee.
anyway on with my entry. so she still hasnt admitted it or said sorry i wasnt expecting her to but for some reason i did think she would feel sorry about it enough to try with me to make our friend ship up but obviously she doesnt care at all i sent her a txt tellin her we could forget everything and that our friendship means a lot to me but she never got back to me, i dont see why i should be the one that tries to make it up wen it wasnt me that did anything.its funny she is being all friendly with dukey surely if she was telling the truth she wouldnt want to be with him?oh well i shouldnt care any more.
got my pics back from inme there great trying to scan them in but i think one of the cables has come out so ill have to try and put it bk in. i ordered my phone off the o2 site today and clicked the wrong one by mistake =( so ill have to cancel the order and do it again! oh well.hey bg i miss our chats mail me some time i tried to call u a few days/weeks ago but it was a strang ring anyway yeh just wanted to see if we could meet up.
and now on to what im worried about....
DUKEY IS MOVING TO EDINBURGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Im going to miss him so much we have got so close and oh dear im going to cry!!!! |
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xX85Xx--messed up again |
August 13th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: rem
Feeling: sinful
heya everyone not going out with barry anymore it was too far away,that i can deal with.
found out the same night that we split up that he had had sex with rachel (a friend of mine) on the night of the ruthven dance. Its such a shame because neither will admit it. They think im stupid because not only was it obvious that they had and i knew that the day after just wasnt admiting it to myself but also they have both told friends of mine. They really really much think im thick. rachel also admited it to a friend of mine the other day and told them that she wasnt going to admit it to me. probible the most hurtful thing is that she let me carry on going out with him after it happened would a real friend not tell you that your bf is cheating on you? i mustnt have meant a lot to her if she can do this and not even care about it,really shes not even batting an eye lid shes just letting me believe it. coral (her little sis) just had a go, for some reason its all my fault now that we arent talking. The thing is wen i found out i wasnt going to tell rachel i knew because i didnt want to end the friendship we had, i was ready to let it slide and just not trust her as much,but sadly barry decided to tell her that i knew. Barry went in a total huff today wen i told him that rachel had told dukey,he wont believe me that she told him which i found quite funny to be honest.oh well better off with out him i guess. i feel fine today yesterday and the day before were a little hard. i only felt sick today wen i had to be in the same place as rachel but im sure that will get easier. i like it how she is making no atempt to talk to me about it at all oh well enough about that.
we went to roller bowl today,it was good fun.we went because dukey is moving to edinburgh in 2 weeks. i used a slightly bigger ball than i had been using and ended up droping it and breaking my nail and cut myself...dnt know where i cut myself tho i just saw blood and then i wiped it off and there was no cut,strange!going to ness tomoro with dukey and steph think joanna is going to come aswell that will be cool going to get a new phone,going on contract £20 a month 500 txts and 50 minutes.ive been told its 500 minutes so that will be even better. going to have to get black trousers for school and work aswell seen as i only have one decent pair left...oh just reminded myself rachel still has my shirt and trousers will have to get dukey to get them bk.ill txt him later.i wanted to meet up with bg tomoro if hes in town. i called him but he never answered dunno wats up but maybe hes just got band practice or somthing im going to mail him after i write this.lol rach has just signed in and is not talking to me.see i told u she is making no atempt at all. oh well like i said she just doesnt care.it was great to spend time with heather and dukey today im going to miss them somthing awful!anyway better go and mail bg. write later x x x |
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xX84Xx--catch up |
August 9th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: r.e.m
Feeling: uneasy
Heya everyone its been ages since i last wrote sorry ive just been really busy.Went to london with rachel that was great gay ppl are so much fun,need to get all my pics developed. So yeh we went to stay at barrys the night we got back from london.if any of u dnt know rachel she is friends with this guy barry and they were sort of seeing each other, and well now im going out with him, turns out we both like each other. its been a bit wierd but now its great for some reason i think rach is happier well i hope she is. im really happy with barry im happy but im scared aswel...everytime i see him a fall a little bit more and that scares me so much because i dont want to get hurt, i do really trust him now he seems to really care for me. . . well i hope he does. This is so much better than it was with pete its not as superficial i can really be myself with barry and be happy, i think its helps that we have had a few arguments already it let me see how he really feels for me and how much i can trust him.
oh well on other news i got my exam results back today.
maths 1
chemistry 1
history 1
english 2
physics 2
art 2
french 2
admin 2
so yeah all credit just not as good as i had hoped i suppose. actually its hard to explain i thought i would have done better in some and worse in others.
oh well thats me for just now keep commenting oh and ta bg glad u like the tune. x |
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xX83Xx--yay green eyes |
August 1st, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: green day
Feeling: bittersweet
Honey you are a rock
Upon which I stand
And I come here to talk
I hope you understand
That green eyes, yeah the spotlight, shines upon you
And how could, anybody, deny you
I came here with a load
And it feels so much lighter, now I’ve met you
And honey you should know, that I could never go on without you
Green eyes
Honey you are the sea
Upon which I float
And I came here to talk
I think you should know
That green eyes, you’re the one that I wanted to find
And anyone who, tried to deny you must be out of their mind
Cause I came here with a load
And it feels so much lighter, since I met you
Honey you should know, that I could never go on without you
Green eyes
Green eyes
Ohohohohooooo
Ohohohohooooo
Ohohohohooooo
Ohohohohooooo
Honey you are a rock
Upon which I stand
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xX82Xx--its been so long |
July 15th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: GC
Feeling: alone
Heya everyone how are you all doing?
Ive been gettin along ok heard from bg a while ago that was cool let him read my poem i feel like going to write another today im feeling like it...
so yeah not much happening got the london thing on thursday should be ok if rach still wants to go that is, going to go to ness on wed and get her pressie was wanting to meet up wit pete but hes probibley busy.
lol total stranger added me on msn and claims i added him lol too strange anyway never mind he seams ok.
i really really can not wait for inme oh my god its getting so close the eating and sleeping is going to stop soon im telling you then the nervous sick feeling then just not being able to wait!!!!!
i cant wait its been too long since ive had this build up to a gig
oh well im not n a very writing mood anymore going to talk to my strange london guy hee hee bye guys comment away i miss them x x x |
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