Listening to: Cute Is What We Aim For- Lyrical Lies
Feeling: hopeful
wow, it's been almost a year since i've written in this lousy thing. and i wouldnt be writing now if Lauren didn't remind me that i had one, hahah.
well last summer i met this amazing kid named colton jon hallabuk.♥ when i first met him i liked him, and i told Lexi and Ashley. thinking i'd never see him again/never have a chance with that sexy kid. =P but then he went to my school that following year but was a grade above me. i let him know i liked him and he had his eye on me two. :] so we dated for like two months then a lot of stuff happened and we broke up. then the next day we got back together and stayed together for about three weeks then broke up again. we stayed broken up for a couple months and i dated a kid for a little over a month and that didnt work out at all. i realize i still had feelings for Colton. on April 4th, 2007 we were talking on aol and i was like "you're weird" he's like "why?" im like "when two kids like eachother they normally date" he goes "wanna date then?" and of course i said yeah. and then we were back together. in the past five months we've grown so close i trust him more than anyone i've ever met. he treats me so well it's incredible. he knows me better than i know myself. he seriously understands me so well. it's amazing. i honestly can't describe how i feel when i'm with him. like, nothing can hurt me, it's so great. when i'm kissing him it feels so amazing. when i'm in his arms i know theres no where else on this planet i belong. i think i've seriously fell in love. don't call me stupid for saying that at a young age. love is love. and i think i've got it.♥
anyways;
soccer seasons here.
we've had two games.
lost both.
we suck. :]
haha.
i don't know.
i should start writing in here again.
it helps get my feelings out.
:]
i'm getting my braces tomorrow.
sdijnfl;adlkmasd;fl :[
i'm really scared it'll hurt.
but i already have spacers.
and they hurt pretty badly.
braces scare me.
i'm so scared.
ahhhh.
but im excited to have nice teeth !
Listening to: Cute Is What We Aim For- Lyrical Lies
Feeling: hopeful
wow, it's been almost a year since i've written in this lousy thing. and i wouldnt be writing now if Lauren didn't remind me that i had one, hahah.
well last summer i met this amazing kid named colton jon hallabuk.♥ when i first met him i liked him, and i told Lexi and Ashley. thinking i'd never see him again/never have a chance with that sexy kid. =P but then he went to my school that following year but was a grade above me. i let him know i liked him and he had his eye on me two. :] so we dated for like two months then a lot of stuff happened and we broke up. then the next day we got back together and stayed together for about three weeks then broke up again. we stayed broken up for a couple months and i dated a kid for a little over a month and that didnt work out at all. i realize i still had feelings for Colton. on April 4th, 2007 we were talking on aol and i was like "you're weird" he's like "why?" im like "when two kids like eachother they normally date" he goes "wanna date then?" and of course i said yeah. and then we were back together. in the past five months we've grown so close i trust him more than anyone i've ever met. he treats me so well it's incredible. he knows me better than i know myself. he seriously understands me so well. it's amazing. i honestly can't describe how i feel when i'm with him. like, nothing can hurt me, it's so great. when i'm kissing him it feels so amazing. when i'm in his arms i know theres no where else on this planet i belong. i think i've seriously fell in love. don't call me stupid for saying that at a young age. love is love. and i think i've got it.♥
anyways;
soccer seasons here.
we've had two games.
lost both.
we suck. :]
haha.
i don't know.
i should start writing in here again.
it helps get my feelings out.
:]
i'm getting my braces tomorrow.
sdijnfl;adlkmasd;fl :[
i'm really scared it'll hurt.
but i already have spacers.
and they hurt pretty badly.
braces scare me.
i'm so scared.
ahhhh.
but im excited to have nice teeth !
friday we had practice then went to the football game, ash came to those with me then she stayed with me then saturday from 4-11 was desi's partay it was so fucking fun you wouldn't believe it..afterwards ash came over and stayed with me =] it was amazing yes and we had a game on sunday we won of course 3-1..
i likethis boy. he likes me to. but he wants to hang out mroe before we start going out. yeah i pretty much lovehim. =]
hiiii.
new york citty was awesome!
even tho that was like two weeks ago.
then i went to Darien Lake for three days
with Lauren Royce Joey Chris Danielle Jesse &Mikey
it was awesome!
i went bungee jumping too.
& i met tony hawk
& yesterday i got home from Washington DC
alright my life rocks.
except today today sucks.
BUT tomorrow im going to cody's with ker nikki & Kevyn.
we're gonna swim til cody gets out of work
then we are going to the Canton Fair.
woot woot!
oh & me and dusty started going out a week ago
we hung out the other day and stuff
it was great. :]
52-its been awhile since i could, hold my head up high
June 23rd, 2006 @ 12:00am
whoa its been awhile
i'm single!
i've been great
enrichment was all this week
it was hella fun!
im looking for some plans tonight!
but idk what to do.
everyone is busy.
so imma sit home & talk to kane on AIM!
this sunday soccer camp starts
& i'm going to NYC on tuesday!
woot woot. i'll write maybe tomorrow
wow. taylor's party was amazing!
what happens in vegas, stays in vegas hahah , you wouldnt understand.
anyways,i spent the past 5 days @ Laurens.
me and dusty broke up on the 11th. it is now the 16th
i spent like 4 days with royce.
i really really like him
i don't think he likes me. :[
ah well.
whoa,
camp was AMAZINGGGGG!
i'm not gonna write too much about it 'cause it was two weeks ago but sDiary has been down. :[
anyways. when i got back from camp i left my house again & spent three days straight with Lauren Joey Dusty Danielle & Chris. dusty asked me out. i said yes. so we have been together since may 27, hurray. :]
i still like dayton though, a lot.
this past weekend was spend with Lauren
it was very very fun, i love her.
so this friday is quite eventful;
1.LAST DAY-O SCHOOL. (get out at 10:45)
2. My sister & her b/f 1 year.
3.TAYLORS END-O SCHOOL PARTAY-yay!
can't fucking wait. its all so fun.
this summer will consist of;
1.VACATIONS
2.CONCERTS
3. Dustin,Lauren,Sam,Joey. AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE
4.SWIMMING
5.a little bita tiffany
6. the icky things= SUNBURN & BUGBITES. :[
also, we got my homeroom teacher fired.
don't feel like explaining.
but its awesome 'cause we have this
awesome substitute.
& fer the rest of this week we dont switch classes at all!
all we do is play fun games & Colour. :D
today consisted of;
Games.
me+tiffany+lexi+riley+kyrstin= iPods & MP3 players!
& kickball.
it was defifnitely & kickass day.
Tomorrow will be;
board games
movie
end of year clean up
&& more iPods & MP3 Players. :D
also today i did some online shopping.♥
everyone knows thats like my fav. thing evuh.
alright maybe everyone doesnt kno. well anyways.
i got a shirt from Aeropostale & a shirt from American Eagle.
yes, i have a "punk" history.
but fuck you guys im tired of being labeled.
i think some of the clothes at
A&F, Aero, HCO, & AE are cute.
so what! that doesnt make me a prep.
Labels are for Dickheads.
sometime SOON like next week i wanna go to the mall. :]
THE OAKDALE Mall. :D
it is my abso. fav. lolz.
Laney's party was s'pose to be this sat.
but she changed it for a couple weeks after.
because..well i dont know why, lolz.
whoa my phone is ringing ,brb.
alright im back it was for my grandma. tehe
my life is really boring once i come home from school.
everynight i look forward to 8:00 so i can watch Northwestern play college s-ball
'cause they are my team.
but since last night they are done.
tonight im lookin forward to 9:00
b'cause on USA it is WWE vs. ECW, woo.
i'm a geek , lolz.
49- 1 2 3 4 looks like im alone again & i feel fine
May 23rd, 2006 @ 12:00am
Listening to: saving jane- girl next door
Feeling: eager
hey.
soo im single.
dayton broke up with me last night.
and i know someone who likes me which i talked to last night. :]
heees alright. i used to date him.
today was good.
we went to the theatre and missed like 3 hours of school.
i can't wait 'til tomorrow!!!
8:45 im leaving towanda til around 2:30 on friday!!! YAY! :D
sooo excited.
well i guess i better go.
byeee. leave comments for FRIDAY! =]
hey.
its saturday morning. well sortof. its 12:05. me and tiff had an awesome time yesterday! we hung out did a whole bunch of stuff went to the movies but dayton wasnt going because he couldnt get a ride into town cause it was raining so jus me and tiff went and the movie started at 9 'nd we left my house at 8:53 and we had to walk so we were gonna take this shortcut down this random guy's stairs but his door was open so we had to leap down this big drop and tiff fell in poison ivy and we swung around trees and stuff. and i almost pissed myself :] then we finally got there and a whole bunch of our friends were there (Scotty, Jazz, T-Williams, Terra, Alicia, Nolan, Mason, Ashley, Domminick, Matthew, Kyrstin, and Austin.) all of us took up like three rows. haha it was awesome though. and we went to see over the hedge and i thought it would be gay but actually it was pretty cute :] but im sad dayton didnt come :[ ah well.
at like 1:30 im leaving to go to a party then im probably spending the night at my moms tonight. so i guess i'll write tomorrow
Listening to: Panic! At the Disco- i write sins not tragedies
Feeling: happy
heeey.
i LOVE panic! at the disco.
i'm amazing & you know it.♥
so today was allright. for the first 4 periods i hung out with Riiiilez :] b'cause tiffany was @ a ghey appt. then she arrived so i chill-axed with both of them.
we had a math test and a geography quiz and some other thing but i ferget.
and after school i went shopping :] i got some scrapbooking stuff for the scrapbook im making. and gum and peanut butter covered pretzels and chairs for my aunt and chocolate for Lisa and four pairs of pants. i think thats it.
then when i got home tiff called & we made our plans for tomorrow. :] after she goes to the chiropractor shes coming here and we're gonna chill with sky and Dayton.♥ then shes going to stay here for the night. and go home satuhday. then on satuhday im going to my aunts surprise birthday party, kay?
SIX DAYS 'TiL CAMP. yey.
im out, kiddos. Take Care.
i fucking love you Dayton!
xo.Lex.ox
♥
hello.
im on the phone with skylar. today was alright i guess. i don't know whats up with me and dayton. all we ever do is fight. but whatever. yesterday me and tiffany hung out and i went to darien & lexi & kyrstins s-ball game. they kicked ass and karina got a home run :] but barely. lolz. she was like running from third & home a hundred times but she is really fast and she finally made it home, lol. now im talking to mitch. i hate him.
hey.
saturday i spent the night with tiff. it was me ash lex and tiff. we watched two movies then ash 'n tiff fell asleep but me 'n lexi rowe stayed up 'til five. we were so fucking tired it was HILARIOUS =] then on sunday it was mothers day so i went home early and Lauren&her family came over for a couple hours. =D we jus hung around then they left and my mom & my sister came home and we went out to eat at Leroys. and then we went miniature golfing and mom locked her keys in her car. =P
then today was an alright today but we watched this fucking gheyy movie. and i have to get my chilkit blanket done by friday =/ i barely have it started. but whatever.
i guess me and dayton and whoever else are going to the movies this friday.
44-by the way my hands were shaking rather waste some time w
May 13th, 2006 @ 12:00am
Listening to: The Used-Blue&Yellow
Feeling: happy
hey.
my weekend has been kickass SO FAR.
EVERYTHING BTWN ME & DAYTON IS GOOD.♥ yesterday tiff came home with me and we played soccer, fingerpainted, went to the movies, played PS2, watched 4 movies and other stuff...about the movies dayton came with his cousin me tiff and scotty. scotty and tiff were going out at the time [they broke up today] they were cute together. ah well. me and dayton didn't do..too much. ;] tehe. then today we woke up & went to the ioof game. they ended it in like the 3 or 4th inning cause we were ahead by more then 10. [fuckyes!] hah. then tiff went home and my cousins came over. we ate & shopped at the train stop then went down by tha riverr. and then went shopping more. now tiff is on her way over and we're gonna spend the night at her house. =] fuck yessss! so im out. write tomorrow.
hey.
theres this boy. we broke up yesterday. and i kindasortamaybeREALLY miss him.
like uber much. im real sad.
in about a half hour im going to tiff's game.
so i can sit in the dugout with her
and cheer for taylor and ash.
because tiff hurt her backk. =[
i pretty much can't wait til tmrw.
tiff is coming home with me.
and we are going to the movies.
& coming back here.
and partying it up lyke Rockkstars, duh. 8]
i pretty much love this special girl named Tiff. =]
so im prettttty much PISSED!! xanga is down & will be til "sleven"
im gonna be gone then. i miss it.
xanga owns me. im lost w/o it. =[
wow, im a freakkkkkkk =]
im out fer now.
i miss yooh.
i love yooh.
=[ =[ =[ =[
me and dayton have only been fighting we get into arguements about EVEYRTHING & it turns into a huge fight
today is two months NOT a good one @ all.
i have two wonderful people helping me;;
acetanilide 0: well then break up with him i hes going to be that way
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allstarscotty4: tonight u have to make a decision
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everyone else is just getting in the way;;
chipOchep: yes i can i know everything about dayton
x its Alexisss: that doesnt mean anything.
x its Alexisss: you might know everything about dayton but you dont know everything about ME&DAYTON's realationship
Skylar is really a cool kid & fun to hang out with but hes really immature and stupid and annoying sometimes =/
Listening to: music video- try to catch me ridin diirty
Feeling: good
yeah,
yesterday i went miniature golfing with Lauren.. then to k-mart. twas fun :]
i didn't take the digital miniature golfing but i did take pics before that in the morn. here they are;;
tell me whut chu like best. personally i like the dandilion pic where im looking @ the sky :]
i Love you dayton!
60 days. still going strong.
tomorrow= two months!
hey. today was alright.
everything is good.
friends, life, love, stuff.
its all gooooood i can't wait til soccer. oh boy i shure can't :]
well i already have my weekend plans. they are with Ash,Tiff,Scotty,Standish, and the love of my life. ♥
so i pretty much cant wait.
even though its only monday.
RAW is on in a half hour.
so im gonna go talk to my love.
kthxbye.
37- your lipstick his collar dont bother angel i know exactl
April 29th, 2006 @ 12:00am
Listening to: nothing
Feeling: zoned
hey.
my friday was awesome.
after schoool my grandma picked me up and we had to go to the stupid bank for twenty hours. then we went to Laurens house. picked her up and came back here. then went to get dayton. then we hung out here and..talked 'n stuff. then we went to the movies and all the preps from my school were there and i was like..ohh great. so then instead of seeing RV we went to see Ice Age 2 'cause dayton's best friend was with the preps. soo yeah. during the movie dayton felt the need to lick my face so i licked his hand cause we were holding hands and i looked up & the preps were staring at us. im like uhhhh hi? lol.
well then dayton's daddy picked him up & me and Lauren came back here and sat on my bed talking for like 2 hours then hung out with ker 'n nikki. then fell asleep.
this morning we made pancakes & stufff. and now im gonna take a shower soon & wait for my baby to call cause me him skylar and Lauren are going to the skatepark!
Peace.
The Body
I am incredibly insecure about my figure
I’m kind of okay with it, but it could be better
I love my body... It is beautiful!
Everybody is beautiful in their own way, fat or thin
My mother has the same figure as me, it’s all in the genes
I’d give anything to have real womanly curves
I do have womanly curves, I just don’t appreciate them
I’m pear shaped
I hate my tree trunk thighs!
I have long legs
I am short and squat
I’m stick thin
I need to loose weight fast
People tell me I should put ON weight
Supermodels should eat some doughnuts
Everything I eat goes directly on to my hips
I watch my calorie intake
You only live once, who gives a shit?
I do
Embrace your curves!
I have lost a lot of weight in the past
I am a yo yo dieter
I don’t give a shit about diets, I eat what I want
I’m bigger up top than I am on bottom
I’m big and people tell me I’m really attractive
I do agree with the term ‘big is beautiful’
I fish for compliments when it concerns my body
I wouldn’t be caught dead in a bikini, I don’t have the body for it
I look fabulous in a bikini
I’m really tanned
I’m pale
I have freckles
I have moles
The Boobs
I am small chested
My boobs are like two fried eggs
My boobs aren’t the same size as each other, but that’s normal
I am the same bra size as most of my friends
I know someone who has the hugest boobs I have ever seen
I am an A cup
I am a B cup
I am a C cup
I am a D cup
I am an E cup
Yeah, I’m bigger than that
I like to wear pretty girly bras
All of my bras are push ups
All of my bras are black
My boobs are firm and pert
Mine just sag and point in different directions
I have big nipples
I have small nipples
i have normal nipples
I’d be willing to save my money for a boob job
I loathe my boobs entirely
I love them
I like to be felt up by boys (tehe)
...And girls
I own a wonder bra
I own a balcony bra
I have had my boobs measured
The Face, eyes and lips
My face is;
Round
Square
Oval
Heart shaped
Something else
My face is fucked up
People tell me I have a pretty face
I have a plain looking face
I have freckles on my face
I have moles on my face
I have big ears
I have big bright eyes
I have dark and mysterious eyes
I have long eyelashes, aren’t you jealous?
I wear false eyelashes
I love to emphasize my eyes with black eyeliner
I have full, thick, kissable lips
I have thin lips
Mine are just kind of normal
I wear outrageous make up
I’m all natural babeh!
Clothes, Style and General Stuff
If I were FORCED to label myself, I’d have to go with:
Goth
Gothic
Emo
Preppy/trendy/fashionable
Punk
Tomboy
Girly
Childlike
Mosher
Mambo
Surfer
Grunge
Chav
Something else
Most of my clothes consist of (bold as many as you’d like)
Dark and gothic
velvet and romantic
PVC and leather
Denim
Fish net (HAHA LINDS)
Stripes
Polka dots
Bright and neon colours
Baggy jeans
Cord
Ties
Jackets
Revealing tops
Halternecks
Logo T-shirts
Band T-shirts
Cardigans
Sportswear
Animal print
Designer
Vintage
Corsets/Basques
Bikinis/swimwear
Shorts
Khaki
Combats
Army print
Chequered
Tartan
Dresses
Mini skirts
Floorlength skirts
heres some surveys
today was BLAH.
im gonna put some bff surveys
i need 3 ;; dayton, sam, lauren.
Lauren;
BEST FRiEND
1. who's your best friend? Lauren
2. when did you guy's meet? like..when i was born
3. so how long have you guys been best friends? awhileeee
4. what's the funniest thing you two have done together? way way way too many. but the frozen pond memories are too die for =)
5. do you guys ever fight? a couple LITTLE fights
6. is there a big or small age difference between you two? uhm like almost 2years.
7. is your best friend a boy or a girl? girl
8. do you guys love to go shopping with eachother? sure?
9. have you two ever gone to a concert together? yess. a few. another one in JULY! =D
10. if so, which concert? hm, Pink&&GC xD haha
11. what's your best friend's favorite band/artist/rapper? she has too many.
12. is that your favorite band/artist/rapper too? shure?
13. when was the last time you saw him/her? last weekend.
14. what's the longest time you two have hung out? like..week ?? maybe longer
15. what's the longest time you two have not seen eachother? idk
16. do his/her parents like you? yeahhh.
17. what about your best friend's siblings? yes. well jesse hits me but i kno he loves me =)
18. do you guys play any sports together? skate (sometimes) & sing? =P
19. do you have more then one best friend? yesh
20. have you ever gone to your best friend's birthday party? yeahh.
sam;
BEST FRiEND
1. who's your best friend? Sam.
2. when did you guy's meet? last year
3. so how long have you guys been best friends? two years?
4. what's the funniest thing you two have done together? theres quite a few
5. do you guys ever fight? no
6. is there a big or small age difference between you two? noope. couple months
7. is your best friend a boy or a girl? girl
8. do you guys love to go shopping with eachother? DINO SHOPPING, hellz yeah
9. have you two ever gone to a concert together? noo, but there will be some
10. if so, which concert? n/a
11. what's your best friend's favorite band/artist/rapper? too many
12. is that your favorite band/artist/rapper too? uhm
13. when was the last time you saw him/her? couple weeks ago. =[
14. what's the longest time you two have hung out? three days.
15. what's the longest time you two have not seen eachother? awhile
16. do his/her parents like you? yeahh. welll her mom thinks im "cute" 'nd her dad likes me =]
17. what about your best friend's siblings? yeah, well sam said she does.
18. do you guys play any sports together? dinosaurs..& tarzan. =D
19. do you have more then one best friend? yeahs man.
20. have you ever gone to your best friend's birthday party? yep
daytonnn;♥
BEST FRiEND
1. who's your best friend? DAYTON
2. when did you guy's meet? 1st grade.
3. so how long have you guys been best friends? a million years.
4. what's the funniest thing you two have done together? everything.
5. do you guys ever fight? noo.
6. is there a big or small age difference between you two? 11 months 25 days! =]
7. is your best friend a boy or a girl? well he is my boyfriend.
8. do you guys love to go shopping with eachother? shure.
9. have you two ever gone to a concert together? no
10. if so, which concert?
11. what's your best friend's favorite band/artist/rapper? ATREYU
12. is that your favorite band/artist/rapper too? one of them
13. when was the last time you saw him/her?TODAY!
14. what's the longest time you two have hung out? a day.
15. what's the longest time you two have not seen eachother? idk
16. do his/her parents like you? well his mom likes me but idk bout his dad.
17. what about your best friend's siblings?uhm. mitch or eric dont know me too well.
18. do you guys play any sports together? nahhhh
19. do you have more then one best friend?yeah
20. have you ever gone to your best friend's birthday party? no. =/ =P
heyy.
im alright last night just sucked..
til dayton called me back
I CANT WAIT TIL FRIDAY! lauren is coming here for the weekend.
and on friday me lauren & dayton are going to the SKATERPARK =]
yeshh my two bests @once!
i will most likely bring the digital camera.
then show you guys pics! =]
well i gotta go to schoooooool.
today we get to see an Annie play :D
today sucked.
friends are fake true ones are hard to find.
ive only got about 3 EXCLUDING MY FAMILY
i dont even know about the three i have.
today i figured out some i thought i could trust are FAKEFAKEFAKE.
i sat with ashley and day @ lunch.
and now im bored.
phone with day.
im out of here.
bye
im on the phone with my homo boyfriend
just kidding baby.. =]
hes like begging me to eat ramen noodles w/him.
whatta loser =]
this weekend Marks wants me to come over.
i dont knowwwww. i cant like invite myself.
but the weeekend after this weekend will be fun.
Lauren is coming up for the weekend.
i guess we might be chillin w/Dayton.
he wants us to hang out @ the skatepark.
which would be great 'cause thats where
me 'nd lauren spend our summer there.
its like our second home for the summer.
=] yey i can't wait !!
they are like my fav. people ever. =]
im extremely bored.
i stayed after school today.
with Ash, Tiff, Taylor, Jeremiah, and Sean.
we had a fun talk =]
for camp im tenting with Tiffff
yay! cant wait, cept im not swimming.
way to fat to wear a bathing suit.
well im gonna go make ramen noodles!
cause dayton wants me to =]
Heyy.
didn't get to talk to my boy last night. =[
but im happy now 'cause Tay is comin over tonight!
maybe we can do something to see Dayton!
i shure hope so i am NOT gonig this whole break not seeing him> no sorry. thats wayy to long!
well im gonna go clean.
&wait for tay =]
peace.
i Love you Dayton!
xo.Lex.ox
♥
hey.
no more school for six days finally SPRING BREAKK!! so far my first day of Spring Break was shitty.
our half day of school rocked. a lot.
but then when i got home it sucked.
'cause everyone went to this big pparty
& i had noone to hang out wif =[
tomorrow i wanna hang out wif my BOYFRIEND.
but i doubt i will.
'cause im stupid.
well me and dayton are great
i love him to death!!
i really dont wanna loose him, ever cept ONE thing that is fucking annoying
he is extremely prude & its like against my religion to make zee first move.
so i guess we'll be Losers forever. =[
but as long as we're losers together.♥
hey.
im pretty sad right now.
me and my grandma watched my uncle&aunts wedding video.
because they are getting devorced
so that made me pretty sad.
then of course TOM & LINDDIE just HAD to be on that damn tape =[
i miss them so much.
& i wish while they were here i could have showed i care more then i did. i feel totally useless.
like when i went to tom's house i would sit in the car.
i regret every waking minute of that.
i miss him =[
also, whenever lindie would come to gladys; i wouldnt talk to her much. she'd be like HEY! HOW ARE YOU. i'd be like good, and walk away
you dont realize what you've got intill its gone
i miss you =[
24- when i got home it was 6am the door was locked so i kick
April 11th, 2006 @ 12:00am
Listening to: Rehab-Bartender
Feeling: happy
Hey ErrBody =]
i had a fairly good day.
Lauren is the greatest friend
in the history of friends, hands down. my best friend is a million times better then yers!
thanks for last night Lauren.
i really thought about that.
i was being soo stupid =]
Today nothing too great happend.
spent a lot of it with my boyfriend.
♥he.is.so.fucking.amazing.♥
it is really nice out today =]
i love this weather a whole lot.
summer is not to far away =D
we have a few vacations planned.
so far they are; Hawley PA for some random thing my grandma wants to go to. Washington D.C. for fun. & Wildwood, NJ =].
i wanna take Sam or Lauren to NJ
that would totally own! =]
also i want to go to some random place for a MCR concert.
also, in August. me &Lauren might be going to WARPED YAYFUCKINGYAY!
well i guess im gonna go.
this entry was random.
i love the wurd random =]
peace bitches xo.Lex.ox
♥
me & my boy are fucking wonderful he is suppose to be calling me back soon.
we barely ever hang out outta hell (school)
but HOPEFULLY spring break will be success =]
i guess i should go to royce's soon.
Evan&Marks both want me to.
plus i wanna see my LAUREN! =D
i'm sick and tired of these stupid people labeling me!
everyone is always like Alexis your so gothic&shit.
its so fucking annoying!
i am ME not a SOUP CAN!
so i don't need a Label.
im a fucking human, hello people!
so if anyone reads this that constantly labels me;
fuck you. kthanks.
i guess thats all i have for you.
sorry so short.
i Abs. Love you Dayton!
peace xo.Lex.ox
♥
marksx35x: i
marksx35x: want
marksx35x: you
marksx35x: to
marksx35x: come
marksx35x: over
marksx35x: =-)
DiNOS OWN x69: why? =P
marksx35x: idk
marksx35x: b/c you missed our date
marksx35x: nvm
DiNOS OWN x69: =)
marksx35x: i stopped loving you
marksx35x: after you broke the date
DiNOS OWN x69: =(
marksx35x: i was devistated
^tehe i love this boy
(AS A FRIEND)
Yesterday was nothing Special. i went up to my mom's & tim put us to work.
i worked for like two hours =[
then we went to two different malls
but they both closed as soon as we got there
so then they gave us $80 =D
& we went to Sheets & got dinner
but today we're going shopping
Special Things today-
1. Me &Dayton's 1 month 2. Kerstian&Cody's 10 months
3. Gerard Way's 29th B-day. =]
Listening to: Panic! At the Disco- i write sins not tragedies (on MTV video wake up) =)
Feeling: torn
Hey.
yesterday was grand.
today me and ker are skipping school together =]
but at like 3:10 shes leaving me =[
oh well. 'cause i'll be on the phone with my love by then. =D
me and dayton are good =]
actually couldn't be better.
yeshterday was four weeks. =]
dayton storm= ah-maze-ing. ♥
i love you baby!
domminick is an ass!
yesterday he comes up to me in the hall
when i was on my way to the girls washroom.[=P]
& since he has an afro
i always try to feel it =]
& he goes "I'll let you grab my hair if i can grab your tits"
i was like uh, NO!
stupid asshole.
then he started trying to force me.
he like twisted my arm behind my back =[
rawr i hate having the biggest boobs in my grade.
everyone wants them.
well this weekend will be alright.
so far i've been on the phone with Dayton all night =]
@ nine im going bowling with Sara Lindsay & Mandy. =]
can't wait!!
i haven't seen them in forever.
they are my BLEACHER GIRLZ
yey!
Yo dawg. =]
today was pretty alright
i guess thats better then bad.
this is the third day Dayton hasnt called!
i'm getting extremely pissed & im not trying to be a bitch.
but he PROMISED!
tonight sean conned me into going to the Chorus concert.
its not as bad as i expected
three people sounded just EXCELLENT
1.Darienn Lynn
2. Tay
3.Karina.
i was surprised with karina
i was happy when i got there
'cause tiff and ash and Ri came =]
so i wasn't alone
Hey!
today was swell i got a 90 on my Math test. pretty good we had a social studies quiz today too.
i think i did pretty well.
end of the marking period is today
last night I re-did my room a bit
i have been unpacking some shit since im staying here til Summer =]
im so happy about that!!
i don't have to leave my boyfriend for another 2-3 months.
im hoping we'll still be together. ♥
same old drama different day.
//drama with Emma
drama with everyone.
Jessy got her nose pierced!
i love it.
cept now i want mine done even MORE!
i told jess we shulda got ours done together =]
that woulda been spiffy
me & dayton are fantastic
the only bad thing about our realationship is the Prudeness =[
hopefully he'll change soon though.
Sunday is one month. =]
yesh, there will be millions more.
well im gonna work on my room some more
&& wait for my love to call =]
Peace/Bitches. =D
Hellow There!
today was quite great.
concidering i saw my b/f after a long wknd.
Spring Break is next week!!!
i can't wait.
i think Sam is coming up. ♥
i'm trying to hook her&Skylar up
that would be fabulous :]
i'm soo excited for break.
'cause Sam&Sky get to meet
plus me my BFF my b/f & his BFF get to chill.
aka Me,Sam,Dayton,Skylar ♥ :D
whoa, im so excited!
this weekend? i dunno whats happening.
i was supposed to hang out with Marks.
it was a "date"
& before your like SHES CHEATING ON DAYTON.
listen; we just called it a date.
we were jus' gonna chill @ royces.
but i doubt i'm going.
maybe.
i'm sick of tiffany's shit.
i told her off @ lunch.
i want to be her friend, okay!
but shes put me through way to much!
plus shes totally not worth of even half
of the shit shes put me through.
honestly, i could care less if we werent friends ever again!
well anyways back to Lunch.
Darien &Tor weren't @ lunch.
& of course i sat with my reg. lunch crew;
Dayton,Yanet,Tay,&Jess
then tiff comes over & sits down.
i'm like "Why are you sitting here & not with your popular friends. Dayton&I are your back-up friends"
(which are the people she left our posse for.)
her; "no your not, & they arent here thats why im over here"
me; "exactly, we're back-up"
her; "NO!!" *she spits crackers all over our table" "i puked!"
me;"why dont you go puke somewhere with Darien?"
her; "uh"(preppyway)*walks away*
'ey, fellow sitDiarians.
this weekend owned. =D
yesterday night i stayed with SAMANTHA.
we had an awesome time.
we also attended dusty's party.
it was quite.. extravagent =]
then we went back to Sam's house.
We Played Dinosaurs.♥
& we didn't stay up very late.
but thats okay 'cause it was fun.
Then today we woke up & just layed there.
then her mom made us breakfast.
& after eating her mom got in the shower.
while we went outside.
she made me feel like Tarzan.
it was amazing.
we had quite a blast.
then we jumped on her TRAMPoline. =]
ahh, crazy ass times :]
Then for the rest of the day
i came home. & went outside to enjoy the beautiful weather
sat on my pourch & just wrote.
then i hear a little girl crying about five years old.
so i look over @ my neighbors house
& the lil neighbor girl about five years old
is down on her sidewalk yelling
MOMMY COME BACK. shes allll alone next to the road.
screaming&crying.
im like. WTF? so i continue to stare.
then i want to strangle her.
& i realize her mom left her..
so i wait a 'lil bit.
then the nice old guy across the street asks her if anyone is watching her.
Afterall, its a five-six year old girl in a DIAPER down by the road by herself yelling MOMMY COME BACK!
no later then ten seconds her mom pulls up in a van & pulls her in.
then drives away.
the old guy yells "BITCH".
i think she gave him "the finger"
BTW, i have loving neighbors. =]
peace.
i love you dayton.
today i will be attending my best friends house.♥
BTw, its april fools today.
*puts on lip gloss*
im so bored right now.
watching Fairly Odd Parents. :]
i wish my mom would hurry up and get here.
then i can go to Sam's cribb, yo.
then off to Dusty's party, most likelyy.
Dayton and I are great.
thursday was three weeks.
next sunday is one month :]
i luff this kid. fo'sho.
me and b.metz are getting married
she wanted me to go to a sleepover @ her house last night
it would be B.Metz, Sammbo, & LexxTheSexx.
buttt. i couldnt attened.
well the weather has been extrememly gorgeous
i can't wait 'til schools out.
even better yet this coming week we have;
5 and a Half days off for Spring Break.
:] cannot wait, its going to OWN your mom's ovaries.
well im out
i found a line & then it grew
i found myslef still thinkin of you
i felt so empty but now im fine
and still its burning when will you be mine
that, is the song that got me where i am today. With the most amazing guy ever.♥
he is truely amazing and i don't know where in the World i would be without him. i don't want to move. if i end up moving i'm going to be soo Lost. iLoveHim. :]]]
he makes me feel like the best person ever. even though i'm not close.
well thats it. i love dayton.
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
forever
EDIT;
the night i never came home.
wondering souls captured my thoughts.
emtiness filled my mind.
urgency spoke her lies.
in the confines of these gray walls.
i watched them move toghether.
taking me places i cannot remember(remember)
we have been poured out ....
into this loveless bride ....
how quickly i forget ....
that this is meaningless.
how quickly i forget ....
that this is meaning less.
in a passing world through my fingers.
i still chase the wind.
how quickly i forget ....
that this is meaningless.
how quickly i forget ....
that this is meaningless.
what have i learned from yesterday ?
what have i learned from yesterday ?
^ a song my boyfriend wrote for his band.♥
12- every drawing that i drew was never ever as cute as you
March 28th, 2006 @ 12:00am
Listening to: Breaking Benjamin- rain
Feeling: happy
Hey. i have been fantastic lately. this weekend with Lauren was amazing. ♥ on saturday we dug holes in my matress and threw sour patch kids into each others mouths. :D on sunday we played barbies and she cut my hair. ♥ BFFS fo' sho. :]
then yesterday tiff showed up after school. we went to the gym & watched some lady have a baby there. then we went jogging & i fell flat on my face. :[ heheh
11-call me george foreman cause im sellin errbody grillz
March 25th, 2006 @ 12:00am
Listening to: GRILLZ-nelly
Feeling: happy
yey today me&L are hanging out.
:] can't waittt. :]
im really bored
and i wanna talk to Dayton before i leave today
but chris is @ his house
&& chris hates me & says im fat
which is true but he doesnt have to talk shit to my boyfriend! honestly. :[
right now me Morelli & Laura are in a chatroom
me & morelli are convincing Laura that morelli is moving to GA
haha this is f-n hilarious!!
Today was okay
we are still having pssa's
i've been chillin' w/a few special ppl
Yanet.Sheets.Dayton.♥
thay are amazinnggg today me&dayton have ben together for 2 wks.
i really feel we can make this last
:] i hope so anyways.
But ive got to talk to him about *somethin*
tonight. but its nothing bad. (yanet knows)
well i guess i'm gonna go
Peace.
Life has been so awesome Lately. :]
besides a little drama here & there.
but thats alright
because i've got my boyfriend ♥
&& the few people that care. :]
you guys know who you are.
Well i'm just waiting for my boyfriend to call back.
Since i got outta school i've been
with Harley and Kerstian. ♥
what wonderful people :P
i guess we might be going to K-MART
to get Tamponss :D
haha. well im out, Peace.
xo Lex
Today was good.
Me &&Tiffany are friends again :]
and me && dayton are doing LOVELY i need to change my layout on here.
i Gave Dayton 2DINO KISSES today :D
(YOU WOULDNT UNDERSTAND) lol. so dont ask.
well me & dayton just got off tha phone
& his mother won't let him call back
i'm gonna go try to find a new lay.
*Peace
Listening to: Blink 182-stay together for the kids
Feeling: abandoned
Today is so gey.
There is nothing to do.
so i am sitting home alone.
Kerstian.Cody.Nikki.&&Kyle just Left
they will be back.
i sat on the roof with Cody&Ker today.
it was pretty fun.
now i'm tlaking to B.Harris & L.Dinelli
its pretty gey.
i'm OUt. cmnts?
Listening to: Relient K- who i am hates who i've been
Feeling: abused
Unwanted. Useless. Hopeless. Lost
thats everything i've been feeling lately
Life fucking Sucks. i guess the only real reason i'm living is four people= Dayton Storm Jones, Laura Elizabeth Dinelli, Samantha Jo Ferguson, Lauren Jean Gruver. i'm pretty shure there the only people in the world that care if i'm living. and lately it doesn't even seem like a few of them care. i'm so useless. i should just die.
i went to Lauren's Friday
watched her & Joey make out all night
then went to royces
then today i did nothing
i might go to the mall tomorrow with my grandma
cause i have no friends
Happy St. Patricks Day!
I'm in a good mood today!
but tiffany still hates me. i officially have no friends @ towanda school. Honestly, my only friend is my boyfriend. :[ i'm such a Low-Life Losserrr. :[
Anyways enuf complaining. On a good note, soccer is in only like 5 months. well thats not exactly good but its getting closer!!
Today i was crying & dayton was the only one cheering me up & the reason that i was crying was because some of the shit tiffany has put me through. now the only true friends i have are- Dayton(my B/F) Sam, Laura,Marks, Lauren. i talk with but they aren't "friends" they are just..people. i guess.
Also, i have absoultely nothing to do tonight. and now Dayton changed plans & hes going to Skylars so we can't sit on the phone all night :[ bummer.
Well i guess i'm going to go. i'll probably write in here later since i have NOTHIING better to do. Peace.
well i just wrote a really long entry about stuff.
i'll just write a paragraph from that entry.
Last Night after i wrote in here was fun. i guess. i watched Tarzan and cried my eyes out. Then Yanet called and i didn't get to talk. then i watched softball games, Roseanne, Simple Life, && Saturday Night Live. thats the most i've watched television in forever.
Well i'm going to get break fast @ mc donalds then go to school :]
peace.
comments?
xo Lexx
Today Was good i don't think Tiffany is madd @ me anymore but i have to talk to her.
Dayton and I went through a lot today but we're still together ♥ :]
oh you like the new lay?? i LOVE it.
this weekend i'm prob just staying home cause Lauren has plans & so does tiff & i dont have a way to get to Sam's :[
^^my only friends.
so me and Dayton made a phone date :P we're both staying home Friday to talk on the phone, yeyyy well i'm taking my camera to school tomorrow to get pictures of us & him then i'll show you guys. plus im gonna show ya'll some pics of me & sam that we took :]
well im gonna go to Schleep.
night.
comments?!
xo Lex
i predict our love will last;; cause we've made it thru one hell of a past ♥
today was alright.
i got Married ♥
the wedding rawked. & we used the vows from Corpse Bride.
i also had a baby. we named him
Jack Skellington (day's idea)
:] i love him.
tiffany was the priest
she is mad at me though & idk why >b? :[
she won't tell me why.
Tiff can't come over this wknd.
she has a Scranton Tourny but i'm not shure if i wanna go to Sam's.
because i kind of want an alone wknd.
cause Last Wknd i was @ tha school all Friday night then @ royces on Saturday
then tha weekend before Tiff stayed the night friday & saturday Nikki stayed
the wknd before that nikki stayed all wknd.
the wknd before that sam stayed.
so yeah i don't know what i wanna do.
maybe just chill here :]
My Stupid Homeroom teacher was being a
bitch today, i hate her!
&& in Math we got Pie. yucky
because its national Pi Day.
ya kno?? well i guess imma go
wait for my Husband to call me.
:] hehe , love him.
hey this is a new diary.
well today was swell nothing too important happend
Dayton was inable to sit with me @ lunch :[
me and dayton are trying to hook up
Domminick & Tiffany, 'cause tiff is like my best friend and domminick is one of dayton's. that would be Perfect. :] we could go together to the movies and junk :D
Dayton has been rather nice lately :] it makes me uber happyyyy!! He should be calling me soon. i can't wait to talk to him again it feels like days. but it was about three hours ago. :P well i guess i'm gona go, i'll probably write later tonight because i have no life whatsoever. :]
