it has been ever so long since i have written in here. I have resurrected my friendship with Ryoko and am I glad i have. She is so sweet and such a good friend. I think things are becoming rocky between me and two of my friends but how else would it be? They hang out with each other and when I do try to sit with them, and I paid attention to? No not really they just faun over each other constantly so I have gotten over all that. Perhaps I won't lose the friendship but it may be possible. I have a new crush who I hope likes me too but he has a gf even though she isn't going to school with him anymore soon't know what will happen with all that. One can only be hopeful though huh? Well I passed all of my classes from last semester and I am happy about that now it is up to me to help Chris with spanish so he doesn't fail too badly. it's not really all that hard to understand but still. he needs help and i am happy to help. I have grown more self confident too even though I never thought it could happen but hey things are never set in stone are they? I guess that's all I have to write today. But from now on I shall write or try to atleast write more often. Tah for now!
Hello yet again. Not like anyone reads this anyway but I feel like writing. I have become friends with my exboyfriend and my friend again. We aer just as close as we were before they hurt me. But who cares aboput that right? Well Um....hehe In doing so I suppose I have pissed off Ryoko and so now she hates my ever-loving guts. We had a few choice words to say to each other and that was that. I miss her a bit but I'll get over it. Perhaps we will become friends yet again I'm not sure but I will try. Tha's all I have time for today but I promise I shall have a longer entry next time.
Well it has been a very long time and a lot has happened. I have given up on the hope of finding someone I can trust and love. They all seem to think they can cheat on me and fuck around on me. So that is shot. School is going fine. I have a lot more friends and more enemys come with that.....well I suppose that's a good enough update. Tah!
Sorry I've not written in here. Well I made secretary. And we're out of school now. I am so bored. out of my mind almost. Hope you all have a great summer. Curtis is suppose to be up here next week sometime. So I have that to look forward to. Well guess that's it.
Tomorrow is the big day. So much to do. So little time. Hopefully I will find out if I made secretary then. My step father will not be going to it because he hates me. I will be lucky if they let me talk to Diasuke on Saturday. They both hate me so much. And I thought I was lovable. Oh well. Guess my life can't be perfect. I am happy with what I've got though. Guess that's it. Write all the hell that happens later bye byes
Today is just one of those off days. I don't know what the heck is going on. I just found out that my new bf has to go to court for sticking up for me. I knew I was cursed. I can't even have a bf without making him suffer. I am so sorry. My life sucks. School is almost out which means I will be stuck here at home for all summer. It will be more hell than I think I can handle. I can't stay after school and help with the banquet anymore becasue my step-dad is being a big bitch and now all this. But I guess it is a good thing that he took up for me. Funny, I got called a 'slut' by someone I don't even know. At anyrate, I can't wait for him to call me Saturday. Well I guess that's all for now. Hope I hear happy news tomorrow. Oh yeah and we get out anuals tomorrow. ^_^
P.S. It has been brought to my attention that Diasuke may infact feel that he has done that for nothing. Which brings me to add this. : I never wanted hi to get introuble for me. And I really appreciate what he did. I guess I am just a bit rusty at the dating thing. It's been so long.
I am so tired. Today seemed to go on forever. I was in a good mood but I didn't really show it. :: sighs :: But it's ok. I'm running for Secretary in the FFA and I hope I get it but if I don't at least I can say I tried. Right? I hope Diasuke gets ungrounded soon. I miss talking to him. Well I have to go. It seems I used up my time just thinking of what to write in here. I'll fix it tomorrow. Hope to get a reply from you Diasuke. ^_^ By all
OMG! I am so happy. I don't think I could get any happier. Not in a million years. Today was a good day to start off with but then to top it off, I checked on here and ....oh my gosh I can't stop smiling. :: mouth is hurting abit :: It seems that a certain person was not mad at me and in fact likes me still. For he asked me out and how can I refuse? I mean....I've liked him for over a year....and when I start thinking about how much I like him I almost say I love him. But It may be hard for me to let myself say those words so soon. Seeing as how the last person I said that to ripped my heart out and burnt it. But....I've just found a treatment for the burn. A very good treatment. I just can't believe this is happening. It doesn't matter that he got me grounded for two weeks or not. Those four hours were so worth it. But it seems that I am ungrounded and all. Thanks to my sister who is not as horrible as she use to be. I am soooooooooo happy. I thought I had no chance. But I am so lucky. I promise I will do everything in my power to keep him from getting hurt and to help peice his heart back together. No matter what. Then I need to start working on bringing him out of his shell. :: is still smiling so hugely :: I thought I had lost my chance with him but is seems I thought wrong. Well good day to you all.....I'm off. My face hurts. But it's a good hurt.
Another Saturday evening. Guess I shall really start writing in here again. I wish I wasn't grounded from the phone for another week. :: Sigh :: I wish elf would call. Yeah, I talked to him for 4 hours straight but it was worth it. Me and another girl have been discussing a certain subject all week and she came to the decision that she wanted the other guy that she's been with for 3 years and that I should go for the other one because we were meant to be. Yeah, I really like him but I begin to wonder if I should not have told him how I really felt about him. I just hope he checks the diaries Monday so he can atleast talk to me on here. Well....yesterday when I was playing Earthball, I fell down so now I have a bruise on my knee and there is some skin missing. But I shall live. I went to the weight room all week and I am so worn out. My legs are really toned though and that's worth all that pain and the fact that I am trying to make my ankles stronger than they are right now. I have an FFA banquet coming up this friday. It seems that everything is happening on that day. It is Friday the 13th so I guess it's normal?...Well guess I better go.
OMFG!!! I have not been on here in forever!!!!! And like yeah so much crap has happened. And I think I have a boyfriend. I would willingly do anything to fly to Florida and give Diasuke a new zip-lock baggy.....even give him my heart. But maybe it's too soon to feel like that. But still......:: sighs :: I thought I was over him last year but I wasn't. I think I still liked him when I was going out with the unspeakable jerk. Well I'll write in here more when I have time. TAH!
