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The Leaving Song by AFI |
January 20th, 2008 @ 12:00am |
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Walked away, heard them say
"Poison hearts will never change, walk away again"
Turned away in disgrace
Felt the chill upon my face cooling from within
It's hard to notice gleaming from the sky
When you're staring at the cracks
It's hard to notice what is passing by with eyes lowered
You... walked away, heard them say
"Poisoned hearts will never change, walk away again"
All the cracks they lead right to me
And all the cracks will crawl right through me
All the cracks, they lead right to me
And all the cracks will crawl right through me, and I fell apart
As I... walked away, heard them say
"Poisoned hearts will never change"
Walked away again
Turned away in disgrace
Felt the chill upon my face cooling from within
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bored @ the library |
November 11th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
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So Kenny and have been living in our house for a while now it is really nice but stressful. I don't have a lot of time left on here so I'll just say things are good for the most part and that's a good thing right at least it's not bad for the most part. we fight a little more but I hear thats normal. I still love beening married to him so I think we're good for now lol. |
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Kouga |
September 6th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: Atreyu - Becoming The Bull
Feeling: spacey
On Monday my guinea pig Kouga passed away. He was sick for 2 weeks. Here's the whole story. I took Kouga to the vet on Monday the 13 to get his teeth trimmed. The day before he was running around playing just being happy little Kouga. When the vet saw him it wasn't my normal vet it was the lady that works with him. She said she could trim his teeth with no problem. But she filed them with a dog nail file instead of cutting them. The next day he was acting a little weird but I thought it was because his teeth felt funny. Later the next week I took him back to the vet cuz he wasn't getting any better they gave him a couple of shots and some meds and said he would be ok. Two Weeks to the day I took him to the vet the first time Kouga died. After he passed I took him to the vet be cremated like my other one. I call the vet later to ask if he had an ideas as to what happened to my pig and the nurse said that the other vet cut him open and took a slice of him out to send it away for testing. I was so hurt I told my mom to tell them to put it back (they did) I told them to tell Pat my vet what happened and to have him call me. When he called me he said he didn't now I didn't want it that the other vets said I didn't care if she cut Kouga out or not. He said that didn't sound like something I would say but he let her do it. He told me he was sorry and he would make the other vet apologies to me. I can't wait for that cuz I'm going to make her feel so bad that every time she sees me she will feel guilty about what she did and hopefully never do something like that to anyone again. Today I went to pick up his ashes and the other so called vet wrote me a letter telling me she was sorry. She didn't even have the nerve to say it to my face. I think she knows she did something to cause his death. I mean why else would you try and do an autopsy in secret. Any way that's what happened.
Kouga was a beautiful guinea pig. He was so loving, he always wanted someone to talk to him or hold him. He loved to sit on my shoulder and play in my hair. He would listen to music and sit on my bed when I played video games. He was best friends with me cat socks they would cuddle and talk it was really cute. He had a good friendship with my dog Draser. Draser would go in my room a sit by Kouga's cage for a long time and watch Kouga play or I would put Kouga on my bed or the floor and Draser would let he run all over him. His favorite foods were carrots, apples, raisons, and oranges. His favorite bands were H.I.M., Cold, Atreyu, Fallout Boy, Evanescence, Kill Hannah, Michelle Branch, Taking Back Sunday, and Three 6 Mafia (Who knows why I sure don't). Late at night if he got bored or wanted me to wake up he would run as fast and as loud as he could around his box. He liked to chase Moo-Moo (one of my other pigs) around and jump on him and them run away making sounds like he was laughing. He would stand on his food dish and squeak for raisons or just to be petted. He was really brave too he would be the first to try something new or play with a new toy. He would bite paper but not eat it most of the time I think he liked the sound of it or something. He like all the rest of my pigs liked it when I read to him his favorite book was Maximum Ride book 1. I know it was his favorite cuz he would squeak until I picked him up and put him on my chest I think he liked to watch the book cuz he would always turn around to face it and not even bite it. It looked like he was reading it himself maybe he was I don't know but it was adorable. He loved my mom Kouga was her favorite out of all my pigs. When he was really sick about 2 years ago I stayed awake with him for 3 days straight and I made myself so sick I couldn't take care of him anymore so my mom took over for me if it were for her help then he wouldn't have been around as long as he was. Love my Kouga so much and I will always miss him but I know he is in a better place right now running around with Sesshomaru playing in a field with lots of yummy green grass, all is favorite foods and box allover to hide and play in. Maybe there is even a radio that plays all of their favorite music. Sesshomaru won't like Three 6 Mafia though. But I'm sure that they are together and happy to be that way.
Kouga I will miss you and hold every memory of you in my heart forever. You were and forever will be my little Tokie.
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Dog |
July 25th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
I bought Kenny a dog he is a Basset hound his name is Fred. here's a pic.
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My Week |
May 22nd, 2007 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: Papa Roach - Reckless
Feeling: contemplative
Well the Thursday was mine and Kenny's anniversary we have been together for 4 years. We went to a bunch of garage sales and it was fun we got a few things. We got dinner at our favorite pizza place (we get dinner there very anniversary) then we went back to Kenny's and hung out then went to sleep cuz Kenny had a surprise for me the next day and we had to wake up early
Friday Kenny took me to the zoo (the surprise) it was great we hadn't been there in 4 years we had our first real date there. We saw the new baby polar bears well we saw the boy anyway. He was so cute he was playing jumping around and stuff he looked like a really big puppy. The bid house was cool too cuz there is an open area where the birds just fly around. The ape house was my favorite the were so active I loved the silver back gorilla he had a hold of the tier swing and he wasn't going to let go he was so cute. I posted pics of my zoo day they are in the folder called "The Zoo" what else would it be called right.
After the zoo we went to a car show it was fun but I was really tiered. After that we went back to Kenny's house and he got a call from our friend Eric. He wanted to know if we wanted to go and see his baby goat so we went to see it. He is sssssooooo cute and little he follows Eric around like he is his mommy well I guess Eric is his mommy now. I wanted a goat before but I really want one now lol. After visiting Eric and his goat we went bowling with Eric, Jenny, Adam, and some perverted, jackass, douche bag, piece of shit, named Mike that Adam some how calls a friend (only God knows why) I didn't bowl cuz my legs hurt to bad from all the walking. After bowling we went to Adam's apartment with Eric, Jenny, and the perverted, jackass, douche bag, piece of shit (yay) we watch "Hot Shots" it was funny at least the parts I wasn't asleep for. After the movie we went back to Kenny's to go to bed.
Sunday nothing happen. Really I watched a movie that's about it.
Monday Kenny went to work and I hung around his house until he got back then he took me home and we watch a movie.
Monday morning at 4:00am my uncle Ronny died. I hadn't seen or talked to him in 12 years. My family had a big falling out after my grandma passed away and that was that. Last year after my Mom had a heart attack some of the family came back together but it was to late for Ronny because he was in the advanced stages of Alzheimer's and wouldn't remember any of us. It is sad how things happen it just goes to show that you shouldn't take family and through them away people come and go we should do our best to let them know they matter before it's too late.
SPEARS Ron Ron Spears, 68, of Holland, OH, passed away Monday, May 14, 2007, at his residence, with his loving family by his side. Ron was employed for 20 years with the Springfield Schools. He enjoyed collecting and restoring muscle cars. Ron was proud to have served with the United States Marine Corps. He is survived by his loving wife, Shirley F. Spears; sons, Greg (Ailisa) and Gary Spears; grandchildren Brandi and Justin Spears; sister, Karen Warren and brothers, Garis and Meredith Burton. Ron was preceded in death by is parents, Frank and Evelyn Burton, and brother, Philip Spears. Friends may call at the Reeb Funeral Home, 5712 N. Main Street, Sylvania, OH, Thursday May 17th from 3 - 9 p.m., where Funeral Services will be officiated by Pastor Tim C. Womack, Friday at 11 a.m. Interment with Veterans Honors will follow at Toledo Memorial Park. Those wishing to give memorials are asked to consider the Lucas County Chapter of the Alzheimer's Association. Online condolences may be offered at reebfuneralhome.com
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Truck |
April 23rd, 2007 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: The Kaiser Chiefs - Ruby
Feeling: blissful
Well Kenny bought me a truck. I love it so much I can't even put it in to words. I appreciate Kenny buying it for me and also fixing it and all the other things he is doing for me. I wish I could tell him everything I feel but I can never seem to find the right words. Every time I try and tell him the words get stuck and I don't know what to say. This truck means the world to me. I'll have a life soon and I'll go place and have a job and feel like I have a reason for being here. I just want to be like other people and not feel lost all the time. Thanks to Kenny I'm well on my way.
Thank you Kenny for everything I just wish I could tell you everything that I need to but I don't know how I hope that over time I can show you and pay you back for everything you've given me.
I love you.
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Good song |
March 16th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: The Black Maria - A Shared History Of Tragedy
Feeling: tired
THE BLACK MARIA
"A Thief In The Ranks (Your Bike)"
Your desperation
Your inspiration
When you finally became a mute,
while a sad song plays,
you lie helpless and lost,
infected by the truth
That was fabricated by you.
Your image shattered in the eye of the storm.
We would never reach out to you.
How could you?
Your desperation to look like a victim
is such a cop-out.
You're fooling yourself.
Your inspiration is your contradictions.
You've lost the concept of what's the real truth.
That it's you who is the thief.
Who should by humbled by the
sheer size of your crimes.
We befriended you.
It was abuse.
There's no better time then the present time
to finally forget you.
How could you?
Your desperation to look like a victim
is such a cop-out.
You're fooling yourself.
Your inspiration is your contradictions.
You've lost the concept
of what's the real truth.
Close your eyes, and pretend that it's alright.
Do you feel it tonight?
Can you feel it tonight?
It's all crashing down.
Lately you know you've seen it.
The face, in the mirror never lies.
You're fading.
Fading...
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I'm so happy I got to talked to my friend Chris today for the first time in months. |
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Pills |
January 25th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: Bubblegum Crises theme song
Feeling: needy
I started taking birth control pills on Sunday to regulate my periods and so far they have made my really sick. I don't want to take then anymore but I have to I didn't want to take them in the first place. It sucks really bad. Kenny and I are good I think I might ask him if we can go to the movies on Sat. I want to see a few movies at the cheat theaters. I'm going to go watch Star Trek and take a nap.
Later Dayz
Amber |
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This Makes Me Think Of Kenny |
October 31st, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: HIM - Killing Loneliness
Feeling: cheerful
"Killing Loneliness"
Memories, sharp as daggers
Pierce into the flesh of today
Suicide of love took away all that matters
And buried the remains in an unmarked grave in your heart
With the venomous kiss you gave me
I'm killing loneliness (Killing loneliness)
With the warmth of your arms you saved me,
Oh, I'm killing loneliness with you
I'm killing loneliness that turned my heart into a tomb
I'm killing loneliness
Nailed to the cross, together
As solitude begs us to stay
Disappear in the lie forever
And denounce the power of death over our souls and secret words are said to start a war
With the venomous kiss you gave me
I'm killing loneliness (Killing loneliness)
With the warmth of your arms you saved me,
Oh, I'm killing loneliness with you
I'm killing loneliness that turned my heart into a tomb
I'm killing loneliness
Killing loneliness |
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Neko
