i know i never update this thing. but i dont think anyone ever looks at it. so thats alrite.

hope things are going good with everyone...

your past is behind you, the only thing you need to carry from it, is the things you once learned

here is my stuff i wrote last year before the new year started. i figured i'd go ahead n bring it up to view for now. and before the new year, i will do this again.... n i'll compare the two even....

this is from dec. 30, 2004

alrite, well i figured i could reminese (how ever the hell ya spell it) a lil. n since tomorrow is new years eve, and i will be gone most of the day tom, guess i'll just do it now. i probably won't get everything, but it'll be nice just to try.

this is gonna be a shit load of stuff. it's not in order. and it's not even everything. but it's alot of it i think.

-the incident with kenley on the second of january

-losing him as a friend

-joining karate

-cutting a shit load

-losing jason

-crying

-the big fight with lance

-the incident with alex on easter

-having friends yell at me for doing stupid shit

-failing biology

-taking summer school

-starting to lose jennison

-starting to like justin

-losing viv from telling me things

-reading a lot

-going to a therapist

-having to take anti-depressants

-writing poems

-smoking some

-getting a star named after me from jennison

-talking to viv and justin each nite

-getting my cell taken away and then back again

-starting skool again

-doing good in skool

-talking and hanging out with my friends less

-going to a lot of karate things

-talking to lee and wolfgang

-talking to alex and finding out things

-becoming friends with paige again

-liking roger

-going on a cruise from christmas

-meeting phillip

-the incident with phillip and the aftermath

-talking to justin a lot less

-getting my purple belt

-lil problems with hayley and lance

-not telling people things

-losing alot of people

ok, i think that's all. some of it might not make sense to people, which i don't care. it's all mainly just something for me, rite?

hmm how bout i do a new years resolution too. what do i want to happen.

-get a boyfriend

-make good grades

-find another skool

-keep all my old friends

-make new friends

-get a kiss that has meaning behind it

-not cut as much

-meet one of my online friends

-do good in karate

-go out more

-get a car and drive

-have better holidays

- don't get used

alrite, looks like that's all for now.

been really busy lately. hardly update ne thing.

got lots of essays n such to try n finish. n got midterms comin up in two weeks. review week next week. should be alrite. not much work.

been havin up n downs with things. had some real hard times. but also some real good times. so guess it just all evens out. meh, oh well.

guess that's it really for now. later.

Girl: hey baby i want to show you....

Boy: ( cutting her off ) ugh i'm so mad

Girl: why? whats wrong ?

Boy: ugh everything

Girl: explain baby

Boy: just lost a championship game,

parents flipped out on me for no reason,

and im catching a cold

Girl: well hey there will always be other games,

you know ill take care of you when your sick,

what your parents flip about ?

Boy: they are making me pay them for a car repair

Girl: is it alot of money

Boy: no it just sucks

Boy: but hey i dont feel well im going to go lay down

Boy: bye

Girl: wait i want to give you some...

Boy: cant it wait til tommorow ?

Girl: yeah sure

Girl: bye

Boy: bye

2 hours later a friend of hers asks her to go for a drive ...she goes.....

her friend swerved to avoid a truck....hitting a tree instead

her friend was killed instantly....shes in critical condition

This is the conversation between her sister and her boyfriend

Sister: omg ( crying )

Boy: what? whats wrong ?

Sister: my sister...your gf was involved in a major car wreck

Boy: is she ok ? ?????

Sister: shes in critical condition

Boy: i'll be there in 10 minutes

He shows up to the hospital room ...standing outside the door

going over the last conversation in his mind over and over as he

heard the machines beep and beep and breathing tubes pump

Boy: she wanted to give me something or tell me something

Girls mom: yeah this...

it was an envelope smelling like she did sealed with a kiss in lipstick

he opened it.....

it said ..... your everything to me....i love you with everything i am

and everything i have...i want to spend the rest of my life with you

sealed in it was a ripped movie ticket from the first movie they went to

and the first picture they took together

he kissed the picture as a tear fell from his face onto the picture

it looked as if in the picture she was crying

then the machines flatlined....3 minutes later she was pronounced dead

If you have any heart...any soul...or want to be happy you will repost this.

if you care for someone ...do not let something like this ever happen

Post this in the next 200 seconds and you WILL have THE best

day of your life THIS SATURDAY. You're number one *love* Will

either kiss you, ask you out, or call you or better

i got my comp fixed. it had been broken for a while. n its all nice n new kinda n everything. n i relaly like it hehe. n it's the whole screen. which it hadn't been before hehe. gotta love it.

im really happy. i love life rite now. even when it gets bad. im actually happy... and i love it. i love every moment of this stuff.

first of all. the weather is wonderful. it's beautiful. it's cold during the day. really cold in the morning and at nite. been sprinkling a little during the days. mostly been cloudy. n when the sun does show through, it's still nice n cool. i love it so much. n then tonite i could really see the sky n stars n everything. but there were still clouds. n it just looked awesome.

but im really tired rite now. so i guess that's all for now.