never update
i know i never update this thing. but i dont think anyone ever looks at it. so thats alrite.

hope things are going good with everyone...



your past is behind you, the only thing you need to carry from it, is the things you once learned
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last years - new year
here is my stuff i wrote last year before the new year started. i figured i'd go ahead n bring it up to view for now. and before the new year, i will do this again.... n i'll compare the two even....


this is from dec. 30, 2004

alrite, well i figured i could reminese (how ever the hell ya spell it) a lil. n since tomorrow is new years eve, and i will be gone most of the day tom, guess i'll just do it now. i probably won't get everything, but it'll be nice just to try.

this is gonna be a shit load of stuff. it's not in order. and it's not even everything. but it's alot of it i think.

-the incident with kenley on the second of january
-losing him as a friend
-joining karate
-cutting a shit load
-losing jason
-crying
-the big fight with lance
-the incident with alex on easter
-having friends yell at me for doing stupid shit
-failing biology
-taking summer school
-starting to lose jennison
-starting to like justin
-losing viv from telling me things
-reading a lot
-going to a therapist
-having to take anti-depressants
-writing poems
-smoking some
-getting a star named after me from jennison
-talking to viv and justin each nite
-getting my cell taken away and then back again
-starting skool again
-doing good in skool
-talking and hanging out with my friends less
-going to a lot of karate things
-talking to lee and wolfgang
-talking to alex and finding out things
-becoming friends with paige again
-liking roger
-going on a cruise from christmas
-meeting phillip
-the incident with phillip and the aftermath
-talking to justin a lot less
-getting my purple belt
-lil problems with hayley and lance
-not telling people things
-losing alot of people

ok, i think that's all. some of it might not make sense to people, which i don't care. it's all mainly just something for me, rite?

hmm how bout i do a new years resolution too. what do i want to happen.

-get a boyfriend
-make good grades
-find another skool
-keep all my old friends
-make new friends
-get a kiss that has meaning behind it
-not cut as much
-meet one of my online friends
-do good in karate
-go out more
-get a car and drive
-have better holidays
- don't get used

alrite, looks like that's all for now.
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busy
been really busy lately. hardly update ne thing.

got lots of essays n such to try n finish. n got midterms comin up in two weeks. review week next week. should be alrite. not much work.

been havin up n downs with things. had some real hard times. but also some real good times. so guess it just all evens out. meh, oh well.

guess that's it really for now. later.
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awww
Girl: hey baby i want to show you....
Boy: ( cutting her off ) ugh i'm so mad
Girl: why? whats wrong ?
Boy: ugh everything
Girl: explain baby
Boy: just lost a championship game,
parents flipped out on me for no reason,
and im catching a cold
Girl: well hey there will always be other games,
you know ill take care of you when your sick,
what your parents flip about ?
Boy: they are making me pay them for a car repair
Girl: is it alot of money
Boy: no it just sucks
Boy: but hey i dont feel well im going to go lay down
Boy: bye
Girl: wait i want to give you some...
Boy: cant it wait til tommorow ?
Girl: yeah sure
Girl: bye
Boy: bye


2 hours later a friend of hers asks her to go for a drive ...she goes.....

her friend swerved to avoid a truck....hitting a tree instead

her friend was killed instantly....shes in critical condition


This is the conversation between her sister and her boyfriend

Sister: omg ( crying )
Boy: what? whats wrong ?
Sister: my sister...your gf was involved in a major car wreck
Boy: is she ok ? ?????
Sister: shes in critical condition
Boy: i'll be there in 10 minutes


He shows up to the hospital room ...standing outside the door
going over the last conversation in his mind over and over as he
heard the machines beep and beep and breathing tubes pump


Boy: she wanted to give me something or tell me something
Girls mom: yeah this...

it was an envelope smelling like she did sealed with a kiss in lipstick

he opened it.....

it said ..... your everything to me....i love you with everything i am
and everything i have...i want to spend the rest of my life with you

sealed in it was a ripped movie ticket from the first movie they went to

and the first picture they took together

he kissed the picture as a tear fell from his face onto the picture

it looked as if in the picture she was crying

then the machines flatlined....3 minutes later she was pronounced dead


If you have any heart...any soul...or want to be happy you will repost this.
if you care for someone ...do not let something like this ever happen

Post this in the next 200 seconds and you WILL have THE best

day of your life THIS SATURDAY. You're number one *love* Will

either kiss you, ask you out, or call you or better
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weee
i got my comp fixed. it had been broken for a while. n its all nice n new kinda n everything. n i relaly like it hehe. n it's the whole screen. which it hadn't been before hehe. gotta love it.

im really happy. i love life rite now. even when it gets bad. im actually happy... and i love it. i love every moment of this stuff.

first of all. the weather is wonderful. it's beautiful. it's cold during the day. really cold in the morning and at nite. been sprinkling a little during the days. mostly been cloudy. n when the sun does show through, it's still nice n cool. i love it so much. n then tonite i could really see the sky n stars n everything. but there were still clouds. n it just looked awesome.

but im really tired rite now. so i guess that's all for now.
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Entry List
24 - messages
23 - messages
22 - messages
21 - messages
20 - messages
19 - messages
18 - messages
17 - messages
conv
really old conv
16 - messages
truly happy
never update
last years - new year
busy
awww
getting things said
his wish
weee
we'll make it
15 - messages
never ending love
14 - messages
love
13 - messages
conv.
8 worlds
2 worlds
afraid
actually happy
the promise
hehehehehe
12 - messages
11 - messages
10 - messages
9 - messages
8 - messages
7 - messages
6 - messages
5 - messages
4 - messages...
3- really great messages
2 - messages...
so much to say...
1 - amazing messages...
all my fault...
truth
conv. with jennison
things finally being said
e-mail to jennison - can't...
strange
nothin new
boooring
cool quotes
back
campout
fuckin pissed
conv. w/wolfgang
lauren's bday
friday nite
today
conv. with jennison
update
conv. with oldy
meh
passsed
hm dittty dum dum
none significant
absolutely
fav. parts of me n wolfgang's...
conv with wolfgang on the 7th
rid
absolutely nothing.
e-mail to jennison
argg!!!
mehh
good conv. w/wolfgang
pathetic
care
comment
own...
when?
advanced test talk
yesterday
wonderful thoughts
no regret
ramblings
everythings fine...
why?
crappy poem
not too much
tournament
angry
bleh
only two are there...
eh
feelings coming out
nuttin
who gives
alot...
poems...
inuyasha
protect
quizzes
idea, theory
wish...
like...
meh
i can't let anyone in, or...
ass kicking time
this weekend
i'm always looking for...
nothing
old times
nobody
suck
stupid shit
hehe
fuck it
i wish i could help
hum dity dum dum
shit
the new year
romance
past week
roses
kiss
back
pattern
cruise
test results
something i can't say
test
nobody cares
who knos
ignored
where?
major payne
i just wanna scream
bad
he... he...
hate
boring
losing
say
blew it
found out
know
sunset
erase
fade
notice
annoying bitch
damn him
bitch
god damn it
why??
belong
reach
notice
words of wisdom
damn pretty friends
gain
double test
bored, time for quizzes
blehhhh
still shitty
quiz
the thoughts i think
why?
nothing
anybody but me
no idea
nothing to say
secluded
tell you what i'm feeling
one vs. another
time comes
your wrong
happy birthday calvin
fuckin bitch ass shit
i can't believe it
banquet
sleep sleep
fuckin mom
stupid shit
argg
happy birthday mr. wolfgang
ha
laughs
expectations
put on a happy face
half-awake
crappy week
haunted house
love
empty
earth and heaven
R.I.P. Stephen Breen
cramps
trouble
degradded
still remain
sad
damn
more feelings
no good
so alone
wee
lalala
just getting out feelings
eh
wow
hmm
care
stuck in a corner..
this is a really weird...
shit
need
weird
sleepy
breaking
so fuckin aggrivating
grr
love?
question
left out
ahh
taken advantage
rainbow
so lost and confused
push away
is it just me?
bothering
down hill
tired of your shit
listen
fuck you
fun shit
things
pretty boys
wow
reason
question
blank
happy birthday justin!
woo hoo
things are good....
poems
blah
so much...
blehh survey
finally back
blarg
confused
arg
signs
quizzes
answers...
4 weeks! i think
lost...
about the camp
im back
camp
blank
i get to see hp
....
blarrr
powers back!
longing for something i may...
blank
eek!!
blahh
errr
amazing...
tired....
FAILURE
god damn bitch
feel so alone
hurt
ya kno wat?!
hmmm
dont kno....
meep
meh..
alright...
grrr
this will be the nite i take...
hate....
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