247 - Update #1.5?
Listening to: Megadeth
Feeling: content

Good Lord, it has been a while.

Not that anybody reads these anymore, but that's besides the point.

Things have again changed dramatically since I last wrote in this. When I last wrote, I had thought things were on track, but it turns out that I was sadly mistaken.

I was living on my own with a woman whom I was engaged to, and everything seemed to be going alright. But I guess I wasn't the boyfriend she expected me to be, and kicked me right the hell out, and left me for another man. In a fairly quick order.

So, with no choice, I had to move back home, and I've been here for...a year now. 

It's funny, they say that "After a breakup, the loyal one stays single and deals with the damages until healed. The other one is already in a relationship".

Ain't that the bloody truth.

I was picking up the pieces and she was getting plastered at a bar with her new boyfriend.


It's been a year, and I'm good now. I've since gone back to school, I'm weeks away from getting my car back on the road, and I've been dating a lovely woman since January who is already making plans for her future with me.

She's amazing.

She made a joke a short time ago when we went to a screening of Captain Underpants, because Captain Underpants, about getting a copy for little ones in the future. So when I asked if she was planning that far ahead already, she reassured me that she was in this for the long run.

I've never felt so honoured.

But that's besides the point.

Life doesn't suck, and we have to live each day to the fullest. I haven't always been the most shining example of that mentality, but therapy and building your life back up from nothing will do that. I also had a friend, which took my by surprise.

This friend of mine, who was famously portrayed by Christopher Reeve in the late 70's and into the 80's named Superman.

I know, I know, it seems blasphemous from a Batman fan like myself.

But Superman taught me to walk with my head held high, and to be hopeful for the future. That one man can make a difference in the world around him, and to be the light in the darkness.

So, here I am.



The world needs positivity.

Make a difference.

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246 - Update #1
Feeling: exhausted

Well, shit. 

Time for an update, I suppose. 

It's been an interesting few years, to say the least. Things aren't even remotely close to what they were. For starters, I've worked many jobs since then. I've gone through several relationships since then, and I've even finally gotten my own place. I had my own car for a while too. It was fantastic. 

Job - wise, I worked for this duct cleaning company for a while, and then I was unemployed for a while before landing a job with an inventory counting company. From there, I got a job at a Pub here in town, and worked there for quite some time before I landed another full time job in Pickering. That didn't pan out too well, because my car ended up dying and I couldn't drive out there any longer. Luckily, my sister was working for a car dealership and got me a job there. They have adjusted my schedule since then, so I've picked up another part time job in the morning working at a Dog kennel. Working two jobs during the day, 6 days a week sucks ass, but it pays the bills so I can't complain too much. 

I'm on my own again though. I found a place a little North of where I was living for a decent price, and it's the entire top floor of this old Century home, built back in the late 1800's. I love it. It's in a tiny town with little to no traffic and a small population, which suits me just fine. I also had my own car for a while. My dad bought this '03 Pontiac Grand Am a few years back and ended up selling it to me when he bought himself a new Chevy Cruze. I loved that Grand Am. I learned how to drive in it, I had a lot of good times in it...I loved it. I drove it until last year, when the catalytic converter went, which wasa pricey fix that I just couldn't afford. So I sold her to a woman in North Bay, because their emission regulations are totally different than down here.

Ah well. 

I've got to get up and face the day, however. I'll finish updating you later. I've got a whole mess of relationship stuff to get through, which is probably an entry unto itself. 


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Holy crap. 

Sitdiary works again.

It has been a long time. I can't believe how much has changed since the last time I could log in here. I wonder if anybody checks it anymore. I doubt it, but who knows. I suspect I'll be writing in here more often, especially now that the bloody site finally works. 

I'll fill everybody in with the details at another time. Right now, I'm at work, so I'll have to check back later. 

It's good to be back.

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Feeling: bitter

Well, finally landed a permanent job. No more of this temp stuff.

Thank God.

The only unfortunate thing is that it starts early in the morning, and there's a lot of travel involved. BUT, I don't have to waste my own gas driving around, so it could be worse. Oh well.

This also means I have less time on my hands for drawing, playing guitar and writing, but it is a sacrifice that has to be made. I'm just thankful that I've finally gotten some work after so long. Been scraping by the last half a year, so any income is welcome.

But meh.



Anyways, I'm off.





Life sucks,

Move on.

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Seriously have to start updating this thing more often.


Not a whole lot has changed in the last few weeks since I last updated. Having a lot of downtime has actually contributed to my creativity, as I've found I've been getting a lot of writing, drawing and composing done over the last little while.

Been drawing whatever comes to mind, wrote a few fanfics for a buddy of mine, and I'm working on a screenplay. At the same time, I'm writing a musical score for the old City of Evil movie that my buddies and I were planning to film once upon a time, which never materialized. We're still planning on doing it, but we'll see.

Things with Kalynda are still great.

I find it unfortunate that she goes to school in Etobicoke, if only because I can't see her as often as I'd like. But, I still talk to her as often as she can manage it (she IS a busy student after all), and I know that I'm missed.

Luckily, I did get to spend a lot of time with her before she went back, and we spent the night together before she had to leave. Best. Night. Ever.

But other than that...there is no update.

That is SERIOUSLY everything that has occured in my life since the last time I updated.



...I need a job.

...and I want to see her.


Oh well.




Life sucks,

Move on.

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I seriously have to start updating this more often.

Anywho...I can't really say that a whole lot of interesting stuff has happened over the last little while. Birthday was last week, which was a good day. Parents were out of town, but surprisingly, there was no big party at my place. Not a fan, so I ended up at my buddy Eric's place with Brando, and we hung out and went to Wimpy's and played Super Smash Bros. Brawl or Soul Caliber 4. T'was a good day.

And I met somebody kinda special.

But before that, Hannah. The girl from the last entry. Yeahh...no. After that good day I had, she went to the US of A to visit some family. I'm not entirely sure what happened down there, but she came back and suddenly had no interest. I didn't stop trying or anything, but it seemed like all hope was gone. She didn't want to make time to see me, and eventually just stopped talking to me altogether. Can't really say it came as a shock, given my track record so far.

So, naturally, I started to feel a little inhuman again. I wasn't about to get hurt anymore, but something rather odd happened.

A few weeks later, I was hanging out with Eric and Brando and Eric got a phone call. When the call was done, he asked me if I would do him a favour. Being a good friend, I said sure. And we drove to the GO Station to pick up his sister, who had recently returned from the US of A on a trip. And...is it wrong that I kinda thought the sister of one of my best friends was gorgeous?

'Cause she definitely was.

Unfortunately, I didn't get a whole lot of time to introduce myself, although we talked in the car in the way back. And being the shy guy that I am, I had a hard time mustering up the courage to say anything. So...I just went home. Feeling as inhuman as ever.

A few days later, on my birthday, I ended up back at Eric's place with Brando again, playing Super Smash Bros. and Soul Caliber 4 again. T'was a good day. I hadn't expected anything interesting to happen until Eric's sister wanders down into the basement where we were and starts playing. Awesome. So, we started talking a bit, and then...we ended up staying until after 3 in the morning. My God. I ended up leaving again before I could ask for her number or anything like that, leaving me frustrated.

But I was determined to talk to this woman. After a quick add on FB, we started talking. Turns out we share mutual interests in film, music and a whole heaping load of other stuff.

So...3 days ago we hung out again? And yeah. I didn't leave her place until 6 in the morning. T'was an awesome night. And we spent some time together again yesterday night, which again, was amazing. So natrually, I've started to feel a little more human. It is a nice feeling.

But the kicker? My buddy Eric, and his mom, gave me the stamp of approval before we'd even met. How cool is that? Apparently I'm such a nice guy, they approved before we even met. That and she was hoping I'd talk to her earlier than I did. But shyness cannot be helped I guess.

Oh well.

So, I'm not going to ramble on any longer. And I'm not going to say I've hit the jackpot (although she doesn't like Twilight, so it helps), because I honestly have no clue what the future will bring.

But I do hope that it turns out. We'll see.



Life sucks,

Move on.

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Big changes, loyal readers.

Things with Hannah (girl from last entry) are great. Things didn't work out for that double date with my buddy Ethan and his girlfriend because they had a bit of a spat and decided to bail. However, Hannah was determined at see me and asked me to go to the movies with her to see Green Lantern. Wow. A girl interested in me AND taking the initative?

My God. I've hit the jackpot.

We've seen each other a few times since then. I've met her parents, and as far as I know they approve. We've done the movie date and the dinner date (I took her to Jester's Court in Port Perry) and she's been to my home. Although my parents weren't awake at the time, my cat walked right up to her and sniffed her hand before standing still long enough to have behind her ears scratched before wandering off.

My God. I've hit the jackpot.

Not only is this girl interested in me, she has drive to see me, isn't afraid to show me off to her parents AND my cat approves. My cat HATES any girl I've EVER brought home. She still hisses at my buddy Brando when he comes over, and we've been friends for YEARS. My cat approves.

AND? She hates Twilight. That makes me happy. We almost have the same taste in music, but whereas my taste is classic Thrash Metal, she likes the newer stuff. Which is fine by me. No worries.

The ONLY downside is right now, she's in the States for a family gathering, which means I can't text her. We've still found a way to keep talking, but yeah. She tells me every day she misses me and whatnot. I miss her. I won't lie. But in my shoes, wouldn't you?

Anywho...time to get out of here. Just finished working, and I'm tired as hell.

Goodnight all.




Life sucks.

Find something in it worth living for.

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Listening to: Of Mice And Men - Megadeth

Again, not a whole lot has changed.

That friend I mentioned in the last entry? Yeah...no. She stopped talking to me as of today, for reasons unknown. Oh well. It doesn't really bother me all that much.

Is that good? Or bad? I can never tell.

Interesting night last night. I ended up at my buddy Ethan's place, in this tiny farm town about half an hour North of where I live. It was a small get-together, which was nice. A few of his friends joined us, and I brought my buddy Brando along, so we had a decent amount of people. Some guy showed up and got PISS DRUNK, and loud and argumentative, which was a total pain in the ass.

HOWEVER, I did catch the attention of a certain girl who showed up, as she was a friend of Ethan's girlfriend. I noticed a stare across the bonfire, then a smile, then we were making fun of the loud, drunk guy, and before I knew it we were shoulder-to-shoulder the rest of the night just talking.

And now I have a double date on monday with Ethan and his girlfriend, and this girl and I.


AND...that's my news. More odd jobs, but nothing as interesting as the ones in Peterborough. It was out in Pickering this time, just emptying out this bigass warehouse of car parts. This place had everything. If we had an engine, we'd have been able to build ourselves a giant Saturn/SAAB/Suzuki mash-up and rip across the 401 in our technological terror.


Anywho, I'm going to call it quits for now. Need to attempt to sleep.





Life sucks, deal with it.

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Well, its been a while since I last updated, so I figured it'd be time for one.

Not a whole lot going on lately actually. Been doing some odd jobs up in the Peterborough area, which is nice! I have come to love that town more than my own. The people are nicer, the women are prettier, and the gas is cheaper. Hell, even the AIR is cleaner. If I ever find somebody willing to move out that way, and I get myself a full-time job, I'd seriously consider moving up that way.

Oh well. That could also be a long way off.

In other news...well, there is no other news. Slowly been forcing myself to start talking to people again. Started talking to a girl I've not seen in some time and who I haven't spoken to in ages, which is nice. I'm hoping to get out of the house sometime.

Being unemployed is steadily driving my nuts.

Oh well. I think that'll do for now. Updates as they come, which is rarely I guess.




Life sucks.

Deal with it.

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Listening to: Anarchy in the UK - Megadeth

Well, here we are again.

Unemployed. Turns out the previous job I'd been excited about was merely a temporary position, and as soon as the project I was working on was completed, I was no longer needed. Which unfortunately means that once again I'm out of work. Luckily, I know a guy who knows a guy who knows a guy that runs a landscaping company and is looking for workers.

Only thing is...its two hours from here.

Oh well. I'm going to do what I have to. Plus it'd be good to get away from this sinkhole of a town. There isn't much here anymore that's even remotely positive. I know that if I don't leave soon, my sister's boyfriend and I are going to come to blows.

To be honest...I can't stand the sodding prick. I've never known anyone so scheming and manipulative and arrogant in all my life. Other than She Who Shall Not Be Named (see Entry 210). But that's besides the point. I've never wanted to beat someone senseless so bad in all my life.

Well, that's not entirely true.

I've been angry at people before, but nothing compares to the pure unbridled rage I bear for this sodding prick. I've never been so angry at one person in all my life that I've almost had to force myself to start breathing again. My fists were clenched so tight I had veins bulging down my arms...it was insane.Oh well.

On the Girl Front...nothing new. Carolyn got herself a boyfriend (not sure when), but strangely I wasn't affected nearly as much as I have been in the past. Could just be that I wasn't surprised, given my record over the last year.

Meh. I've learned to not care so much. It'll happen when it happens.

After all...



Life sucks.

Deal with it.

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Entry List
247 - Update #1.5?
246 - Update #1
233 - In My Darkest Hour
232 - The Shadow knows...
231 - Brand New
223 - Need a band name!
219 - The Man With No Name
217 - The Cave
213 - Promises
210 - Reach for the Starzynski
208 - Batman is dead
203 - Dear World...again
196 - Reason to Believe
194 - What's the point?
191 - Utter Confusion
190 - Addicted to Chaos
185 - A Tout le Monde...
184 - Not ready to die
183 - Die Dead Enough
180 - In Nomine Patris, et...
174 - Ugh...
173 - Answers?
167 - Amazing...
165 - Home Again
164 - Break
163 - Leaving...
162 - Wow...
160 - Update
155 - 1 Month
149 - Murphy's Law
148 - Wow
98 - I'm sorry...
94 - Semester 2
83 - Broken Arrow
79 - 2006 in review
78 - Christmas Eve
77 - Test Results...
76 - I feel so alive
75 - Best weekend EVER!
74 - Idiot!
73 - Two new songs
69 - Black Out II
53 - Scarred
50 - two new songs
48 - Lord of Darkness
46 - Black Out
40 - The Crusader
37 - The Horsemen
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