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mon dieu |
August 13th, 2008 @ 3:50pm |
Listening to: trois portes sous
Feeling: cavalier
je ne sais pas si je crois en il mais ca n'est pas grave.je n'ai rien a dire mais je veux parler donc je parle en francais parce que maintenant tout le monde ne va pas savoir que ce petit mot est stupide et sans raison...je ne me sens pas trop deprime mais tous le temps je veux manger plus et plus mais pas aujourd hui..j'ai besoin d'etudier pour mon examen francais.c'est difficile,je devrai parler avec une femme en francais en je le trouve difficile parler pour 15 minutes en englais!!!..mais j'ai besoin d'etre recu en cet examen.je vais aller maintenant pour etudier...j'ai l'intention d'etudier mais je sais que je ne vais pas...tant stupide...vachement.. |
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men..ugh |
October 13th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
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It bothers me to no end that guys see me as a challenge rather than a competitor. They think like that and they've already lost. |
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July 31st, 2007 @ 12:00am |
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i am an idiotmn for idiots to laugh at |
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July 31st, 2007 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: i feel liiike...
shit.i feel like shit i feel like sht i feel like shit i feel like shit i feel like shit i fell lke shit i feel like shit i fell like shit i fell like shit i fell like shit i fell like shit i fell likse shit i feel llike shit i fell slie shit i feel like shit i fele liks shit i feel like shit i feel lie shit i feel like hist i feel like shit i feel like shit i feel like shit i feel like shit i feel like shit i feel like hist i feel like shit i feel like shit i feel like shit i feel like shit i feel like shit i feel like shit i feel like shit i feeel like shit |
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and how did this happen!!! |
July 8th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
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im not bc any more....after four years....stopped a month ago...no idea how that happened!
...weight staying the same.....its just weird...i think im normal now....go figure |
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i can do science me! |
May 14th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
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Soo, three years college down,one to go,then prob
I shal be spending the ysics rocks my lil' cotton socks.
and now im just bored,coz i dont wanna do d apartment huntin thang,tis such a bother..so i shal talk to meself,and probly read over stuf,dats all depressin and sheisen from my past...stil perfectly relavent of course...but im glad to have finally learned to ignore it long enough to be able to fit in a bit of life every now and again...its been a long time comin...which probly means my throats just gonna rip right open one of these days....datll be fun for sure |
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back again |
November 24th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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well im back,was just gonna look at a few pages then leave,but then i noticed your page mentioned ana and i just hoped to god it wasnt the ana i knew,but we all kno gods bout as useful as road workers when it comes t those kinda things.
since this ismy diary i mite as well update.im still bulimic of course,but im actually managing to work it around college this year so i might do decent in my exams,if i dont it will destroy me,which just wudnt be nice.also im managing to keep myself a few lbs underweight which is just enough to make me feel ok about myself most of the time without effecting me physically.
and thats pretty much it.i still have no life outside food,adam and col.but its betr than just food |
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Word List |
February 27th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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Okay commenting the always inspirational ceski reminded me that I meant to write up a list of words I like...just coz its the kinda thing ya do when you get this bored...well Im not goin to spend much time on it now but Il get back to it
supercilious
svelte
zephyr
bungalow
fabalicious
smexi
noodle
amazingfull
creatornators
aniseed
twizzler
beadazzled
munger
foil
mop(?!)
hamster
clanger
clegnut
dingleberry
koala
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shortie |
February 27th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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okay this is going to be a pretty short new entry since ive nothing at all really to say.Things going well enough lately.Back on anti-depressants and theres a possability they might actually be working this time.Got a new laptop and its working pretty well but the wireless server in my area is crap so the internet rarely agrees to work for me.At home now for a few days during rag week.Its nice and relaxed down here.My brother just invited me to join Bebo over the net so I have to figure out what thats all about now.So thats my little update now.goodday to you all |
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Christmas..be suprised |
December 26th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: willy mason-oxygen
Feeling: dull
Yes a dull mood indeed,
Christmas was..christmassy
Involved a lot of binging and not enough purgin,naturally.so im back up to 55kg,after all my effort.
feelin plenty dull.
Adam will be here by Thursday,hopefully.so only two more days stress.Then iceskatin friday.And then we shal all go out,my two brothers,sis,her guy,me,my guy.Thats if my bro gets his way.Hes getin all into doin sumtin wit adam,probly coz dey got off on d wrong foot,as i hav been told.but he apologised,and maybe this is his attempt to turn around.tho i cant really say wats goin on.coz i dont know wat happened in the first place,just one bad sentence.Means so much when your trying.
And i hav been invited to my friend fathers 50th.But im not ssure if she knows ive been invited,complete lack of comunication here.shal hav to do txtin tommorow,after the shopin.
not shopin for anythin in particular,just to delay the binge.wont fare well in the crowds.will probly retreat to the car after 30 mins and just read for an hour or so.but least i wont hav xd opertunity to eat.
ah yes im tired.the letters are going all over the place and im not even noticing.
course because of all the bingin i messed up on d pill so restarted last sat&gota wait d week out.was gonna risk it,cant believe i even considered riskin ot tho,how stupid can u b.only took d pikll bout 10 ins late but dat cud wel turn it2 20yrs of messin up sum1 elses life too.scrape my cheek wit d barrel.
wont bother rereadin,not in d mood.so tired.so sick of stuf.msn not workin.no txts arrivin.no1 home.all alone.drowning in self pity and trying to ignore myself as all the problems scrabble for the most attention.
this is the saddest song.
i need to lose weight,then everything will be better.
waited so long for the sims,to distract me.but it wudnt work on our comp.so i emailed d support ppl,but they wont reply,& my bro went to a lot of bother to try anything he cud tink of to get it to work just so id b occupied. actions speak louder than words,and words hav never held much precedency in our family..
and im tired now,and everything would be better,and everything would be just perfect,if adam was here,and if i lost some weight.
yes i am definately tired now.and i shal be woken at 11 to shop.not early enough to beat the crowds but no1 else was willing to go earlier,so i shal endure,and stop complaining,hopefull,and lose some weight,and wait for adam..then everything,as you know,will be better
wonder how depressed id b to reach my goal and see its all the same |
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