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Stronger Than Yesterday |
December 6th, 2008 @ 2:59pm |
Listening to: Jay-Z: Brooklyn (We Go Hard)
Feeling: special
Hello. It's been a while.
I've been depressed for what seems like forever.
But I'm happy again.
It kind of just came over me yesterday.
I went through a lot with Beth and Caitlin picking Ashley over me to live with them.
I've been angry since my sorority got kicked off campus for hazing and I miss everyone and wish I got the full experience. But I've been hating the world.
The other night i was sitting in my boyfriend's living room and this other girl was talking about her sorority. I don't know what happened but I fell in love with mine all over again. I've been so mad and screwed up for so long I totally lost myself.
Let Go. Don't Fear Anything. Love, Live, & Be True to Yourself.
Today a kid I haven't talked to since high school IMed me. It's been what? like 4 years. Anyway, he wanted me to know that I changed his life and wanted me to know how special I am. I was his first crush. He is like the 3rd person I havent talked to forever to tell me that since I've been in college. This other kid told me last year - I had never ever talked to him in high school, but apparently he liked me in 2nd grade. haha I think that's awesome.
Life is random. Enjoy it.
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Pathological Liar |
January 28th, 2007 @ 12:00am |
I just found out that a dude who is supposed to be a good friend is a pathological liar. He has told his friends that we've been hooking up for about 3 years. And he's been lying about a whole lot of shit too. It's unbelievable. He's lied to and about everyone... It's out of control.
I just found out that he stole my car once and has a spare to it. WTF!? Who fucking steals people's cars and their spare keys?! The dude is fucking insane. Now I have to somehow get my car locks changed.
I can't even keep this online diary public because I'm afraid he's discovered it somehow and stalks me.
My life is in absolute shambles right now.
I HATE him. |
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Down Hill |
November 20th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: Norah Jones - The Nearness of You
Feeling: upbeat
To start off..all of the upperclassmen said that the first year of college was the best. I didn't believe them, until now...
It's just not the same at all. Last year was great, people could do anything w/e. Wander around, see everyone. This year all of us are split into different buildings or off campus. I didn't realize it but the first semester I spent the whole time with this one group, the second with another..they both live off campus this year. My suitemates from last year don't live next door anymore. Good thing too cuz we're fightin right now.
Last year I liked Colin and he did some mean stuff to me. This year he likes me or w/e but my feelings have passed and I'm over him. I never said never but we kept hooking up and stuff. So my old suitemate hooked up with him 2 weekends ago. I dk y. It's so weird. She claims she didn't kno all this shit. She's lying. I like to think she was just really ignorant about it. Some hurtful things were said about me..being replaced and all. It's sad I can be so easily replacable but w/e.
So I haven't talked to either of them in 2 weeks, nor the messenger who chose that status. I didn't want him to say anything to either of the two so I could think things through and maybe get over some of it, chill out. Therefore, the whole situation got even more fucked up.
Not to mention that my roomie and I have become waaaaayy closer because of this and the same suitemate talked to Erin's (my roomie), ex-b/f and gave him her secret sn, and also called her fake.
Now, I'm over the whole.. you hooked up with this kid that's been technically mine even tho ur supposed to be my best friend deal. But I don't even wanna talk to her cuz she's coming out to be a liar and a fake herself. I can't abandon Erin now.
This whole thing caught me at a bad time too since I just found out that my home friends are going on a winter break and didn't invite me. The kid who set the whole thing up I'm not that close with.. but the whores were invited so I feel totally heartbroken that he prefers them over me, a real fried. Oh well. I guess it says a lot about his character. I already knew it about him to begin with. I just think it's unfair.
Better news..Thanksgiving Break is tomorrow. Thank God. We haven't had one break yet this year. I need one so baaad. Plus I'm really excited to chill out w/friends at home. I can be myself and w/e. We just all relate to each other. It's relaxing. Plus Pete's home. I dk what I'm doing about this. I'm gonna have to write an entry dedicated to him.. or like what my thoughts are on the whole situation.
Also I might pledge a sorority next semester.. ugh i dk. I have time to think tho. |
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Welcome Crew |
August 14th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: AC/DC - Schools Out For Summer
Feeling: pmsy
I got an email that I have been selected as one of the Freshmen Welcome Crew members, therefore I get to go back August 31st instead of September 3rd/4th like everyone else. I was really excited when I read the email, but when I told my mom I felt so bad lol. I hate leavin them come school-time but yeah I'm excited. I get to go early, move in without the hustle and bustle of everyone tryin to get in at the same time. It'll be relaxing and I'll get to party for Welcome Week like last year. It's always good to have a few days before class to chill and stuff. I am getting reaaaallly excited.
Pete leaves on Thursday. Last year I remember bawling haha. Figures I like him again this summer. oh well. This year won't be that bad tho cuz I'll be wasted at 311 while hes drivin to school. Plus, I'm not feelin bad about it cuz last year he was like the first to leave so it was sad that summer was ending, plus it was our first year at college and who knows if I was gonna see anyone ever again. Now I kno what's happenin and I loveeee college.
Doug and I haven't been on very good terms lately. All of a sudden I'm not invited anywhere and he doesn't really give a shit. Then he calls and wants to come in my pool. um no. I feel kinda used lately cuz its like, "hey you're a big joke, i get to sleep at ur house and invite over my friends, wait, u arent allowed to come to this girls house either but i feel really bad for u. yeah i didnt call u to go out when we left her house. oops." so yeah theres not gonna be anymore of me bein a good friend and shit.
Also, Jims house the other day was sooooo fun. it was like his dads friends. So picture this, like 10 40-50 yr old men drunk off their asses and playin beer pong and givin me shots. Soo awesome. it was fun as hell. Sarah made the last cup for celebrity guest shot and then the other team had me take one and I made it too haha. So they went into overtime. it was unbelieveable. Such a good time... |
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Territorial |
July 26th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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Ok. So I've been thinking about this for quite a while. I seriously have no girl friends. I am friends with like a billion dudes. It's hard for me to find girls who I like because I really hate most of them lol.
But I think that's the problem with my life. You need to have at least one friend u can talk to at parties, hit on guys with, show off. You kno. It's not exactly easy to hit on guys when you're friends with all of them. Then if you feel uncomfortable at a party you cant like go off and meet new people cuz its too hard when ur friends with all guys.
My best friend has had a b/f for a while now and I've seen her like once this whole summer, not counting my birthday cuz she was there for all of like 10-20 min. ridiculous. There's something different about a best friend. I can't just call up girls i'm kinda friends with cuz most of my guys friends dont like those girls lol. Plus I don't want anyone stealing my thunder.
I get mad when the whores talk to my guy friends. I feel like they are all mine lol. ugh.
Yeah so that's y my life is so complicated i decided. too much damn testosterone haha.
I'll just take it as it comes. |
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