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wow |
June 17th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
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so i havent witren in a long time so lots have happend so yea |
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shit |
February 20th, 2006 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: nothing
Feeling: subdued
well i havent writen in while
so ......
well i been talking to beasom of all people
and well today i told him that my moms knows that we had sex, and well know i feel like sith for telling him. |
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the sad truth |
December 28th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: telescope eyes-eisley
Feeling: broken
so my mom b/f is moving out, im happy but my sister tells the im being selfish becaues all i want is to move back home. and my mom wants to die caues she cant take it any more, she says the she is in the middle of it. and that i need to show respect to him.. i hate him and i will always do, i cant change and i dont want to. she said that she is in love with him, but how can you be in love with a guy that is driving your kids crazy and that they want him died?
soo thats were im n life right now. |
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Why did she tell |
November 27th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: none
Feeling: placid
so my mom found out that i had sex and my sister told her.. it was a seacte(sp) that me and my sister had ,and what does she do, she tells my mom becaues she mad about something, tana has a stick up her ass that needs to be pulled. just caues she depressed dose not mean she has to take me down with her!! i feel like shit for what i did i could have said no but i didnt want to be plan old christine anymore i wanted to do something that i should have done.
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kill me |
November 7th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: "It Don't Matter"-Rehab
Feeling: alone
"It Don't Matter"
Sittin in traffic another day of feeling nothing
Trying to find something I guess it's back to huffin'
Paint and model glue oh how I die when I look
At you smilin' lovin' life and all I know is blue
Rainy days and cold stares broken love affairs
Everything's beautiful as long as I ain't there
I guess I wasn't meant to crack a smile who cares
I think I'll go to sleep for a while now
I'm barely livin' in my skin depression's my only friend
And I don't know where I am heading tryin' to forget where I've been
And I'm so sick of lying God please shwo me that silver lining
Cuz I've heard tale and I'm not well my heads full of hell and
This world's a jail but
And it don't matter and I don't care
I let my pain into the air
Cuz everything good's over there
And everything here's hard to bear
And it don't matter and I don't care
I let my pain into the air
Cuz everything good's over there
And everything here's hard to bear
And as the apin begins to displace had it to ear level
With this place you see it on my face a state of suspended grace
Gradually I erase and find comfort in the sickest womb
I might be present but no in the room
To whom it may consume melting ensembles bleeding chellos running through Bordellos drama
Like Othello hidin' out from Poncharello
Dead off in the Median
Fallin apart like usual handin' out flyers to my funeral
So they say that life's a play and that all the world's a stage
Then for another part I pray the show ends the same way everyday
And my heart carries the pain of a brain I can't explain
Am I insane
Am I insane
And it don't matter and I don't care
I let my pain into the air
Cuz everything good's over there
And everything here's hard to bear
And it don't matter and I don't care
I let my pain into the air
Cuz everything good's over there
And everything here's hard to bear
And everything good is gone
And everything good is gone
And everything good is gone
And everything bad is here
And everything bad is here
And everything bad is here
It doesn't really matter now does it
And it don't matter and I don't care
I let my pain into the air
Cuz everything good's over there
And everything here's hard to bear
And it don't matter and I don't care
I let my pain into the air
Cuz everything good's over there
And everything here's hard to bear
this is how im feeling right now |
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like a kinfe in my heart |
October 11th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: nothing
Feeling: alone
why does love hurt so bad, it feels like a kinfe in my heart, and i cant breath. all my wall in side me are crummbling can i cant stop to think whats going to happend.every night as i go to sleep i cant help but think about dying caues it hurts so bad, and the person i love i porbly will never see agian.i cant take it anymore my life ufishily(sp) sucks.
love always
christine |
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she told |
October 8th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: she the blade-sugercult
Feeling: pissy
im so pissed caues my mom found out by tana, what i did in the summer. but i hope that tana didnt tell my mom that i got laid. |
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what all happend |
October 7th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: best i've ever had-gray allen
Feeling: burned-out
well seaira didnt runaway thank god, well my dad kicked my sister out of the houes and now she is living with MY BOYS!!! the past week was carzy for me. i just got off wwork and god im frecking tierd(sp).
well g2g write more later!! |
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a run away |
September 26th, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: breath-anna nalick
Feeling: breathless
i got a phone call from seaira and she said that shes running away and moving in with this gut that we know and she deying her hair the same color of mine.fuck i cant stop crying god this sucks.she going to leave wensday. |
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o.ded |
September 23rd, 2005 @ 12:00am |
Listening to: rehab-so dizzy
Feeling: depressed
seaira just told me that she took 1320 hydorcoden. she was so sick last night.we r all each other has to hang on to anymore. sith now im crying this life sucks ASS. |
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