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August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
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it kills me that we aren't best friends anymore
it kills me to know that you cant trust me anymore
and i know that your mad at me, even though you deny it
and i know that their isn't much i can do about it
and you know what, he wasn't worth it
and i see that now, but i didn't then
yeah you warned me
but i need you more than ever latley
and sometimes i wish, maybe, i could just call you and you would listen to me, and we could talk for hours
and i could actually see you for the first time in a month an a half
but i'm out of ideas.
and i don't know what to say to you.
and this isn't because i'm not happy, because i am, i pretty content right now
but sometimes, when i stop to think about it, it just makes me sad, to know that we arn't close anymore
and that sometimes,
you almost seem like you can hardly stand me.
and its killing me
its killing me way more than you know
and i cant do anything about it |
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August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
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i dont know whats worse
watching someone die, and know that they will die soon
or having a healthy person die and not know that it is going to happen |
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August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
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its amazing how people can change so much in so little time.
but then again i supose it isnt all that short a period of time.
yeah, it sucks, sometimes i miss them, but at the same time its like why should i bother with people who dont give two shits about me. and then i go back to the times when i think that i should talk to them and mend everything. move on from it. forgive but not forget. but that is way easier said than done. plus im not letting my guard down.
but you know what, im happy with where i am right now.
im content with who my friends are, and the fact that i now know who i can actually trust and rely on.
i still believe that everything happens for a reason, the reason why we arnt friends was to show me that i cant rely on everyone, and it showed me who my real friends are.
so maybe ill end up talking to them. maybe i wont. im just going to live day to day and whatever happens, happens.
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August 13th, 2008 @ 3:51pm |
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i hate ccri.
i wish i could go to a real college that i can actualy afford.
i want to go to school in nh.
i miss nh more than any of you would ever know.
i feel like there are a few peices of myself missing.
one of them nh the other my dad, colleen and tommy.
i fucking hate backstabbers.
im not sure how i stand on wanting to move anymore.
half of me wants to get the hell out of this town and the other half doesnt want to leave the house i grew up in.
at the same time its starting to feel like a house, not a home.
i need a fucking job.
i hate that you put words in my mouth.
i wish that i could say things once not 208234 times for anyone to actually listen.
i wish i had someone i could fucking rely on.
this may sounds like complaining to you, but its just my way of getting things out of my system.
i need to go skiing.
i need i to snow.
i need to clear my head.
turns out that who you thought are your friends arnt so much anymore
to bad i cant stand up for myself
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I've got no master plan to help me out
Or make me stand up for
All the things that I really want
You had me too afraid to ask
And as I look ahead of me
I try and pray for sanity |
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